And the Abhisarika...yes you rightly pointed out Horizon that is the most famous of the ashtanayikas. She is a woman without a care in the world. The sky darkens with a storm, with the occasional frightening thunder claps and the eerie lightening, the wild animals are lurking in the forest, the snakes are slithering on the rough pathway but she has to go to meet her lover. She must. He calls her and she runs to him, faltering, tripping, falling in abandon but not heeding to any obstacles on the way. She loses her payal as she hurtles...oh yes the payal and the dupatta falls off her breast trailing on the ground...oh yes the dupatta...
Rhea did you do all that as abhisarika in your raas leela at school ? The love of radha and krishna, so resplendent in its incompleteness completed by Arnav and Khushi?
kunjapathe sakhi kaise jawatabala kamini re e e e e e eee-okay, maybe that should be damini and not kamini. of course that is bhanu shingher padabali and that is radha singing one of the most beautous songs ever written or set to score as far as loopy me is concerned.. shangana gagane ghor ghana ghata, nishitha jamini re e e e eee...have never read ashta nayika or the ethics and geography of prem, so can't contribute maningfully to this discussion.but in khushi there is a lover in a place of ecstacy mingling with a pain that is so pure and intense that heck it begins to feel like ecstacy or something.ever since the moment on the bridge... a fantastic lover like reaction... only someone deeply madly in love will get that. he accuses her... she is angry affronted attempts to explain is heartbroken... and then the lover in her interprets... he is in pain. and if he should think this of her, how will she live.uff...what a breakaway from the mundane.his pain is of importance. baat aapki hai...and khushi is taken to a new level of emotion in her very being. we see this all through - so terribly poignantly in that completely unsettling dream, a dream that cues elemental things, primal feelings - khushi's intimacy with her lover while he is far far away, it just gets more and more enveloping... a driving emotion, the pivotal thing... culminating perhaps in that moment when she runs across a messy godown and flings herself onto him. khushi as the lover... necessitated by the little break of barun. what a blessing. it will take us to the cliff top, sigh.she is now in the dark calling for light, and it will surely come. the song i think of is perhaps a little more playful and of that hide and seek element of radha krishna, but change the pace and tone a bit and it is khushi's longing, her search, her desperaton, her willingness to go anywhere even in the dark deep forest in the heavy rain to find her lover... scares the poet that driven emotion, so pure it s almost all of this person... play safe he wants to call out... but she hears nothing but the daroon banshi...uff allusion and the richness of literature mythology fantasy...tagore leaving the formal language and flowing to other worlds within with a language more free and passion and instinct filled, radha and krishna and all their play... bhanu shingher padabali oh such a beauty. must read again, i never remember hai re.and if khushi was radha, guess who played the daroon banshi. which is er exactly what he did, killing this viewer too.great chat, sirs. here's lata mangeshkar singing the song... it is beautiful, though i had learned to sing it a little slower, wish i could find kanika or suchitra mitra doing their dense take.[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfLJbf0y9lI[/YOUTUBE]credit uploaderand while on the topic, another song of bhanu shingha i think enters the khushi lover mind and heart set... an exquisite song... maran re tuhu mama shyam... death you are like god/my lover... when he is not there...this gana is ekdam goosebump giving. that's suchitra mitra singing and taking full control of the word and the essence.[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IK4GcRC77LQ[/YOUTUBE]credit uploaderi went looking for the words and chanced upon a lovely piece by an IF member, radev1000. am quoting. of course, interpretation is always personal...Maran re, tuhu momo shyam saman ...
Megha-barana tujha, megha-jatajuta , Raktakamalakar.Rakta-adharaputa
Tapbimochana karuna-kora tava mrityu amrita kare daan...
Meaning or gist ;
Srimati Radharani welcuming Death when Kanha left her n went to Mathura
4eva...she is tellin to death plz death take me, ur my shyam ( tuhu momo shyam-saman)...she is comparing death with Lord krishna's roop... she is black as lord krishna , Radharani is imagining here Mrittu also have black hair like her Lord n also reddish palms n red leap as her dearest LOrd Krishna...she is aslo telling death that u r "Tapbimochana" i.e u could relieve me frm this pain by taking me on your laps where there is only peace..(Karuna kora - i.e ur laps is full of peace) ... n the last portion of the last verse is "Mrittu amrita kare daan"... i.e she is sayin mrittu is now amrita to her b'coz she cant imagine to live without his Kanha...
Second paragraph ...
Akula radha-rij ati jarajara ...
jharawa nayana-dau Anukhana jharajhara...
Tuhu momo madhava, tuhu momo dosaara tuhu momo taap ghuchao...
marana tu ao re ao...
Meaning or gist ;
Radha's heart is full of pain n its restless (Akula radha rij ati jarajara)... her tears r continously comming out of her eyes( jharawa nayana-dau anukhana jharajhara)...in this tym of tremendous pain she is again sayin to Death that u r shyaam (Tuhu momo madhava.) ur mah freind (Tuhu momo dosaara)... n ur the relief of all my pain (Tuhu momo taap ghuchao)... n on the last line again welcumming death hole-heartedly coz do not wanna live withouth his Krishna...(Marana tu ao re ao)...
Third paragraph...
Bhuja-pashe tava loho sambodhai...
ankhipat mujha deha to rodhai...
kora upar tava rodai rodai ...
nid bharab sab deha...
Meaning or gist ;
Radha is tellin again that oh death u would hug me as Kanha n also u would rub mah tears dat are continously commin out...n i would cry a lott in ur laps n would make my heart relieved... n then i would fall asleep on ur lap...
Fouth paragraph...
Tuhu nahi bisarabi...
Tuhu nahi chorabi...
Radha hridaya tu kabhi nahi torabi...
Hiya hiya rakhibi unadin anukhana
atulana tohar leh.....
Meaning or gist ;
Radha is tellin again n again that i know i would not going betray me, u would not going to leave me , u would not going to break mah heart... u would always keep with u ... oh death ur comapny is unique to me...
Last paragraph ...
Bhanu bhane ayi Radha chiya chiya
Chanchala chitta tohari...
jivan ballava marana adhik sno...
ab tuhu dekh bicharai...
Meaning or gist;
Bhanu i.e bhanusimha (pseudo name of rabindranath) is tellin radha to becum cool n to think whether she would wait 4 her Loving one or would welcum death...plzz think...
iss pyaar ko kya naam doon? 3 anniversary is here.
hi all, all of us here are beginning to feel excited about 6 june again. maybe a girl won't take off on a scooter and a guy won't land in a helicopter, but somehow on 6 june that is what always happens... or so some pagal people think.to celebrate this pagalapan, bftp will do an anniversary thread next week. please note, we shall not be posting episodes coming monday and thursday. we shall open the thread the moment it's ready so you can start sending your stuff.ajeeb is our hamesha pyaar, rabba ve.
Episode-246
Khushi is trying to justifying her suicide. She knows it's not right, but she has to do it. Cause the laad governor compelled her to do so and she can't give the laad governor pleasure of killing her also. She is trying to find the way to execute it. Will she take sleeping pills; no if she survived, then she will be embarrassed or moreover the expenditure of the medical bills! She thinks to hang from the fan. But it's not a good idea, if the fan breaks and she doesn't die, bua's property will be damaged. She thinks something, I guess she found the way how to suicide.
What a selfless girl she is, thinking of her family's loss of property before dying. Can't she think that losing her will be the biggest loss of her family.
The crazy girl is now bidding adieu to all. First bua and amma, who are trying hard to cook Italian dishes for their sophisticated son in law. They are not getting why sanka devi is suddenly bidding bye to them, is she going far? She is going really far. Khushi tells babuji to take his medicine properly. She tells Arnav to control his anger, because it's bad for diabetes. She admonishes him to show anger to Lavanya, cause she is scared of his anger so much. Arnav is getting incredulous, what she is saying!
"jaiye Mr. Arnav singh Raizada, I forgive you."
An involuntary "what the" comes out from his mouth to hear her prattle.
"bas I was waiting to hear this what the." God has fulfilled her last wish, now she can go. She takes a leave. Arnav is stupefied, what she is saying. Bua and amma beckons her not to worry, it's just her madness.
Khushi is tottering while walking on the edge of the terrace wall, getting prepared to jump. But she is scared also. She irritates to see the children playing on the ground,
"Lo inhe bhi humari upar jane ki raaste mein langri tang khelke tang arani hai."
She fears whether she fall on them! She gives her one step in the air, tries to jump, but gets frightened again. No she has to jump using her two feet; otherwise she won't be able to fall.
Arnav comes inside the room and his eyes fell on the bed, "where are Khushi's stars?" he gets precarious. Then he saw a note on salman Khan's pic. Can't read hindi, so didn't understand what she wrote.
this girl is completely mad." Arnav quips. His eyes fell on the small bag and a letter underneath. He read the note,
"Open this after an hour of my leaving."
Who will follow her instruction; he opens the bag right then and finds the star inside and a letter as well. She wrote, she wanted to give him everything what she got, but there is no point to give him her clothes and shoes, cause he won't be able to use those. So she thought to give him her stars, because he also lost his parents like her. He agrees or not his parents also became star like her parents and now she will also become a star, the brightest star of the sky.
"samajhle humbhi ek tareh ban gaya, raat ke aasman mein dhai se teesra, jo saabse zada chamak raha hai, woh hum hai."
Sanaya's voice is already broken for cold I guess. And it gave extra depth to her words of the letter.
Arnav now understands what she is up to. His heart pounds in anticipation to sense the peril. He can't wait for a single moment. He runs like crazy to stymie her. amma and bua are perplexed to see him run like that. bua thinks this are all influence of sanka devi. This sanka devi has surely drove him crazy.
The sanka devi is still trying to jump, but all her attempt is going in vain. Now the sun is getting hotter. If she jumps now, she will turn lucknowi tikka in no time. She thinks to wait for a while. She curses herself, why she is trying to procrastinate her suicide. She has to do it by hook or by crook.
Arnav reaches the place where Khushi came to suicide. She is flummoxed to see Arnav there. Her phone also rings at the same time. I wonder who goes to suicide with her phone! It's Arnav who called. She tells him to move from her way; otherwise she will fall on him. She fears whether she kills him instead of killing herself. She screams to him, that she is on the roof top. Arnav spirit sinks to see her on the edge of the roof. But he heaves a sigh of relief to see her alive. He tells her not to move, he is coming there. He runs towards the terrace as fast as he can.
Khushi quips,
I'm doing his job and he is coming to stop me." she can't let him kill her, she doesn't need his help.
I seriously think she has turned imbecile. No sane person can think like that. or was she really serious about the suicide? When the episode was first aired I thought it's all her drama or prank to make Arnav reveal the reason of the forced marriage. We know this suicide drama is her old technique to make people confess. She did it before to make Payal confessed her love.
Arnav runs almost breathless to bridle the crazy girl from doing such horrendous thing. The fate had brought them back to the terrace again. She is about to jump when Arnav comes there. He rebukes her, what she is doing? Has she turned crazy?
I didn't get the funny music in the BG. It's certainly not funny that someone is trying to kill herself.
Khushi admonishes Arnav not to come closer, otherwise she will seriously jump. he will not come, but why she will jump? She starts to speak gibberish now. She thinks he has been trying so many things with her; the poison, the screw driver, the rope. Now she just wants him to let her jump. She will not let him fulfills his wish.
"it's nothing like that."
But who will make this impervious girl understand. She has turned completely insane. She again admonishes him not to come near her. ASR has to work smart now. He tries to assuage her now, try to engage her in talk. He will not come near, but tells her to breath,
"What is the use to take breath, where my breath will stop."
She almost loses her balance and his heart skips a bit. "dhanse...be careful" he screams.
Khushi is not scared, why she will look down, she will look up now. She smiles feigns not scared. Moreover since the day she came to know. She can't complete, just tells him that after death she will not scare him neither will scare lavanya. Poor Lavnaya, how nice she is! And she always is so scared of him.
"where did Lavnaya come from." Her incoherent words are not palatable to him.
"arey woh to hai apki asli gulab. Matlab asli pyaar aur hum kata."
Aww poor girl!. She feels so insecure with his ex. Hona bhi chahiye, after all she saw his intimacy with her.
He still can't get what she is saying.
I'm the thorn, the rose with the thorn." kamlesh Khabri told her about his faulty kundli. That's why he married her.
kundli!" he is flummoxed what she is saying.
She continues, that's why he married her for six months. After that he will kill her and marry Lavanya. Why to wait for that, she decided to kill herself now. she is about to jump and he screams again, "careful."
"Don't come near me." she warns him.
"ok I'll not come. And you know that I don't believe in kundli, this is all superstition."
She still doesn't believe him. She heard him talk to Lavanya. "what nonsense," he never talked to Lavanya about her.
"You shouldn't lie to a dying person." She already bade adieu to everybody and made her will as well.
arey apko to tarhe bhi mil gayi." She gets jovial to see the stars in his hand.
"khushi enough of your prank. We can sit and talk."
No, she is not ready to talk. He can live happily with Lavanya and she will be fine after death. She is on the edge of the terrace and totters again. But she has to die. Pools of tears well up in her eyes. she says him in constrict voice, that she doesn't have any complain against him, but one thing she wants to say if he would've asked her once, then she would've moved away from his life for good.
She can sacrifice everything for the man of her life, even can give her life. How painful it is to know that the man you love, loves someone else. Life becomes meaningless then. it's vice a versa. ASR also bereaved completely when he misunderstood that Khushi doesn't love him, but love his brother in law.
Khushi resents, Lavanya was her friend, but she also hid the truth from her. As he and lavanya both love each other, why she will come in between them? Her incoherent, inconsequential accusation is making him demented. He refutes her with confidence in a voice that he doesn't love Lavanya and he thinks he ever loved her,.how does she can think like that. She cuts him; she thinks he married her because of that.
Arnav retorts again, it's not true and he will repeat this words just once, he didn't marry Lavanya because of that.
Khushi now demands the answer, he has to tell her why he married her?
he can't answer her. she gets frustrated,
"phirse chup.silent again. I know, you love her and me..." she says in quavering voice as he stays silent all her pent up emotions spills out.
She is repugnant, can't say any more, just stands there silently , indecipherable pain suffuses her face. Tears are rolling down her alabaster cheeks in long, shining streaks. His countenance is marred by acute pain. The sad piano tone in rabba vey fills the air with impenetrable grief.. His eyes crinkle with despondence. How can he tell her that how much he loves her! Since the day he fell in his arm in sheesh mahal, he has been trying to avert her thought from his mind, tried so hard to hate her, not to love her, but he just couldn't stop loving her. With the abysmal pain gnawing at their heart they succumb to the memories, what is indelible,
On the day of Payash sangeet, he couldn't see her helpless on the stage. Forgetting the challenge he danced with her, so intimately as if they were lovers.
On the diwali night, he couldn't bridle his yearning for her, wanted to kiss her luscious lips, intended to drink her sweet nectar.
For the first time she got the kiss from a man and perhaps he never kissed a woman so lovingly before.
On the driveway in the pouring rain, he implicated her wet body with him and lifted her in a swirling motion to save her from a running car. He also hated her that time, but couldn't let her go from his embrace when her life was in danger.
He took her out from the encircled diya just like her guiding star.
How can he forget she made him laugh without any inhibition for the first time.
So lovingly he touched her foot to put her mom's anklet around her ankle what he kept with him surreptitiously.
And in the morning in Nainital, how he took care of Khushi, how he repented for keeping her in the dark room alone! Did ASR show such love to anybody before?
In the hospital, after her babuji's heart attack, when she was so distraught, he was the one whose consoling hand on her head gave her peace and solace.
How can they efface so many memories, how can they deny their importance in each other's life! Their mind swarm with a chaotic mlange of conflicting, turbulent thoughts. She swallows hard, tries to thwart a rising wave of emotions. "hum theek hai aur hum tyaar hai."
She turns around ready to execute her decision. Arnav must be feeling quagmire under his feet, how can he stop this crazy girl. He couldn't stop his mom to kill herself. And now how can he see the love of his love dying in front of his eyes. He won't be able to breath without her. She looks back at him for the last time; her Arnavji whom she loves so much. She is ready to give up her life for him. The memory of their first encounter in sheesh mahal and the day of their marriage, the memory of the most significant days of their life come in their thought.
and she jumps.
He stretches his hand forward, tries hard to catch her.
A scream and blackout.
My heart stopped pounding when I first saw the episode. Did Khushi really jumped to finish her life?
No, I sighed a relief to see their entangled body on the roof top. Arnav Singh Raizada didn't let his love die.
Khushi clutches him tightly and he holds her as if never let go. He must've caught her before she jumps and relapsed back taking her with him. She opens her eyes and wriggles, when she realizes that she is in his embrace. He lets her go and stands up. He is terribly frenzied, "what the hell you were doing? I didn't do it for Lavanya." He grabs hold of her upper arms vehemently. She is still obstinate wants his answer, why he married her.
"har pal yeh sawal hume khata reheta hai...this questions frets me up every moment. I have the right to know the truth."
In her query the memory of the terrace reverberates in his mind again; Khushi in Shyam's embrace and her words to leave Anjali echoes in her ear drum. A frisson of anger runs through his vein, he is tremulous, can't keep his temper under rein. Khushi asks him again and again, why he married her? She has every right to know the reason. The wedding night, the terrace scene. Shyam's vicious words about Anjali, Khushi telling Shyam to leave Anjali, the vortex of conflicting thought derange him. And finally he belches out the reason what he buried inside him for so long,
"kiyuki main tum aur Shyam ke bare mein janta hoon."
Khushi has become completely stupefied. Her countenance becomes taut, she can't believe her ears. His raw emotion rises from the dark recess of his heart like quivering flames of fire. He yelps with strident voice,
"janta hoon ki tum aur shyamka affair chalraha hai. Isliye ki hai mai tumse shaadi."
The cacophonous sound of thunder in the BG actually depicts the debacle inside them.
[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z5SbkRfyHjk[/YOUTUBE]
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credit goes to Smitar
plz ignore typos and mistakes.
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kunjapathe sakhi kaise jawatabala kamini re e e e e e eee-okay, maybe that should be damini and not kamini. of course that is bhanu shingher padabali and that is radha singing one of the most beauteous songs ever written or set to score as far as loopy me is concerned.. shangana gagane ghor ghana ghata, nishitha jamini re e e e eee...have never read ashta nayika or the ethics and geography of prem, so can't contribute maningfully to this discussion.but in khushi there is a lover in a place of ecstacy mingling with a pain that is so pure and intense that heck it begins to feel like ecstacy or something.ever since the moment on the bridge... a fantastic lover like reaction... only someone deeply madly in love will get that. he accuses her... she is angry affronted attempts to explain is heartbroken... and then the lover in her interprets... he is in pain. and if he should think this of her, how will she live.uff...what a breakaway from the mundane.his pain is of importance. baat aapki hai...and khushi is taken to a new level of emotion in her very being. we see this all through - so terribly poignantly in that completely unsettling dream, a dream that cues elemental things, primal feelings - khushi's intimacy with her lover while he is far far away, it just gets more and more enveloping... a driving emotion, the pivotal thing... culminating perhaps in that moment when she runs across a messy godown and flings herself onto him. khushi as the lover... necessitated by the little break of barun. what a blessing. it will take us to the cliff top, sigh.she is now in the dark calling for light, and it will surely come. the song i think of is perhaps a little more playful and of that hide and seek element of radha krishna, but change the pace and tone a bit and it is khushi's longing, her search, her desperaton, her willingness to go anywhere even in the dark deep forest in the heavy rain to find her lover... scares the poet that driven emotion, so pure it s almost all of this person... play safe he wants to call out... but she hears nothing but the daroon banshi...uff allusion and the richness of literature mythology fantasy...tagore leaving the formal language and flowing to other worlds within with a language more free and passion and instinct filled, radha and krishna and all their play... bhanu shingher padabali oh such a beauty. must read again, i never remember hai re.and if khushi was radha, guess who played the daroon banshi. which is er exactly what he did, killing this viewer too.great chat, sirs. here's lata mangeshkar singing the song... it is beautiful, though i had learned to sing it a little slower, wish i could find kanika or suchitra mitra doing their dense take.[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kfLJbf0y9lI[/YOUTUBE]credit uploaderand while on the topic, another song of bhanu shingha i think enters the khushi lover mind and heart set... an exquisite song... maran re tuhu mama shyam... death you are like god/my lover... when he is not there...this gana is ekdam goosebump giving. that's suchitra mitra singing and taking full control of the word and the essence.[YOUTUBE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IK4GcRC77LQ[/YOUTUBE]credit uploaderi went looking for the words and chanced upon a lovely piece by an IF member, radev1000. am quoting. of course, interpretation is always personal...Maran re, tuhu momo shyam saman ...
Megha-barana tujha, megha-jatajuta , Raktakamalakar.Rakta-adharaputa
Tapbimochana karuna-kora tava mrityu amrita kare daan...
Meaning or gist ;
Srimati Radharani welcuming Death when Kanha left her n went to Mathura
4eva...she is tellin to death plz death take me, ur my shyam ( tuhu momo shyam-saman)...she is comparing death with Lord krishna's roop... she is black as lord krishna , Radharani is imagining here Mrittu also have black hair like her Lord n also reddish palms n red leap as her dearest LOrd Krishna...she is aslo telling death that u r "Tapbimochana" i.e u could relieve me frm this pain by taking me on your laps where there is only peace..(Karuna kora - i.e ur laps is full of peace) ... n the last portion of the last verse is "Mrittu amrita kare daan"... i.e she is sayin mrittu is now amrita to her b'coz she cant imagine to live without his Kanha...
Second paragraph ...
Akula radha-rij ati jarajara ...
jharawa nayana-dau Anukhana jharajhara...
Tuhu momo madhava, tuhu momo dosaara tuhu momo taap ghuchao...
marana tu ao re ao...
Meaning or gist ;
Radha's heart is full of pain n its restless (Akula radha rij ati jarajara)... her tears r continously comming out of her eyes( jharawa nayana-dau anukhana jharajhara)...in this tym of tremendous pain she is again sayin to Death that u r shyaam (Tuhu momo madhava.) ur mah freind (Tuhu momo dosaara)... n ur the relief of all my pain (Tuhu momo taap ghuchao)... n on the last line again welcumming death hole-heartedly coz do not wanna live withouth his Krishna...(Marana tu ao re ao)...
Third paragraph...
Bhuja-pashe tava loho sambodhai...
ankhipat mujha deha to rodhai...
kora upar tava rodai rodai ...
nid bharab sab deha...
Meaning or gist ;
Radha is tellin again that oh death u would hug me as Kanha n also u would rub mah tears dat are continously commin out...n i would cry a lott in ur laps n would make my heart relieved... n then i would fall asleep on ur lap...
Fouth paragraph...
Tuhu nahi bisarabi...
Tuhu nahi chorabi...
Radha hridaya tu kabhi nahi torabi...
Hiya hiya rakhibi unadin anukhana
atulana tohar leh.....
Meaning or gist ;
Radha is tellin again n again that i know i would not going betray me, u would not going to leave me , u would not going to break mah heart... u would always keep with u ... oh death ur comapny is unique to me...
Last paragraph ...
Bhanu bhane ayi Radha chiya chiya
Chanchala chitta tohari...
jivan ballava marana adhik sno...
ab tuhu dekh bicharai...
Meaning or gist;
Bhanu i.e bhanusimha (pseudo name of rabindranath) is tellin radha to becum cool n to think whether she would wait 4 her Loving one or would welcum death...plzz think...
^^^
kizh,
teehee, google is my only saviour... women and uncontrolled passion, makes our world oh so uncomfortable.
maybe that's why they use every possible means to tell us that we are objects of great utility and forget all about passion, controlled uncontrolled anything, and in the middle of that strides in arnav singh raizada and wants to kiss in front of everyone, hold hands, drag pull haul rave rant and provoke till the passion is completely unleashed. tut tut so bad for society, this man for whom khushi loses all her moorings and becomes the lover.
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