Blast from the Past Thread #25 ** Abducted Dreams ** p 129, ep 257 - Page 110

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

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Arshi's Index

EPISODE 252-253

Rise of Inamorata...

..."agar aap aise chale jayengey tou hum saans hi nahin..."[I won't be able to breath in your absence]...Arnav who was trapped in this all along is stunned seeing his Khushi in the same vortex but he couldn't handle it again as always and left her but their connection has reached to the next level.The level of intensity where he was since from the beginning is reaching to her core after him cupping her face and pleading to free him from all the burden he's been carrying since that dreadful night screaming in his deep love ,"Khushi mujhe batana Zaroori nahin samjha"[U didn't feel the NEED to tell me] ...finding out the truth of his pain and being that reason ,finding out that he is the Shaitan in her Rajkumar's visage to jolt her up from her slumber, an emergence of an inamorata has taken that shape, a shape of DURGA Ma, who fights for her loved ones by remaining alert to vanquish all eyes who even think to pry on em...Khushi ,Buaji's "Titliya" is transforming into "Parmeshwari"...

Just like Arnav , he is going to be "NandKishore" as Buaji said welcoming Arnav as a damad in GH "Nandkishore aye gaye..."...

Pause here: Babli is being locked by herself in the closet ...Beautiful as Khushi's childish acts and fantasy is getting locked here and an inamorata has been emerged behind that dark closet as Naniji said"Kahan chupna hai aur Kahan nahi"...as she will be facing reality...from now on She will be having some one always in her ways...tum har kaan akaile nahin kar sakti ...is ending here also.

Connection of hearts happened the day she landed in his arms yet confession occurred with awareness on Holi but Khushi was totally in inebriated form to accept that as compared to Arnav. Diwali night she surrendered to her love first time and then got crushed in between those gripping feelings . She had let her emotions get under t

he blanket of hibernation even after the realization of her true feelings for him especially after the terrace night. She got shattered in this delusional ocean of Love as Arnav's attitude and actions had changed her perception for him as her trust over him did shake it's walls. But Khushi was totally unaware of Arnav's feelings and the motives behind these acts . The realization is seeping in that the man who she thought of a Rakshus without feelings is the man who really loved her and now hated her for that reason. She was responsible for this Hate and misunderstanding in between them and knows how much he is in pain because of her..." aur humari wajha se aapka Dukh aur badh raha hai...[your pain is increasing because of me]...and that is ripping her inside out as a guilt... "ek baar humari baat sun lete to...jaana zaruri tha kya..." [what could go wrong if he heard me once , it was necessary to go right now]...She indeed is floating in the ocean of deep guilt and Love.

The rise of inamorata takes charge of keeping her knotted Love to be strong , by making Arnav aware of her intensions..."jab bandh liya hai tou" ...and declaring evil who is real owner of her HEART and rejecting his filthy intentions at the Airport delivering him real message"Arnav is may be out of sight but not out of mind or heart" but totally ignored the evil is one step ahead...Shyam has reached to the will but totally unaware of that this will has no meaning without keeping Arnav alive...Excellent CVs.👏

Small but very effective scenes , Anjali and Khushi's bond like two sisters which will be stronger than ever this period.Love the way she put her head in her lap, feeling him through his Di, through his part...his mehsoos... He accused her off destrying this Di's marriage while she is searching for him in the very same person...Second... A wife's natural instinct and her focal point is always her husband in his absence and that is absolutely done beautifully ,Quiet, empty , forlon room like her life without him...

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS:Her seeing room empty was draining for her , just like he had his world empty when she wasn't talking to him and staying away from him.Today she is seeing him on recliner where he always used to close his day after enveloping her peaceful vision in his eyes.She remembers how they both fought for it to sleep.

Bali night, her Manglasutre was entangled in his shirt ,a dori , a Dhaga, which she never wanted but meant everything to her since then.She holds on to it in her clutch as instinctively , in her 6^th sense every wife does when she feels her husband is in danger.At the same time she so wanted him to let her cry by holding him but he left without giving her a solace...she so wanted him to be there with her by her side.She remembers how he was sleeping holding her hand , she sleeps in pain clenching her fist till he calls her out...Khushi!!!

Her subconscious is reeling the moments of their connection in such a way that her guilt is taking over her conscious . She never knew of Arnav's collection of their connective objects and the reason of their captivity .That is coming to her now but her remorse is pulling her towards this maze strongly that she is losing her balance of mind but again their connection of hearts is shifting to soul connection .They are reaching to next level where their frame of reference doesn't need their presence any more and they can feel each other's distress and trouble from miles...She some how is feeling his distress and he is feeling hers and that's why he is calling her over and over and not letting her disappear in this DARK maze of guilt and vortex of despair. He is awakening her Love.

She had given him the mannat chaabi and left him but her blood meaning her heart brought him back to her , the Payal she left for him unintentionally yet his heart found the connection but he put on her to accept this connection , and the pearls which are scattered on the floor under her feet meaning she was misunderstanding the purity of his Heart and Love just like he was doing by throwing em away once.

These Pearls are emotions of all colors which they share with each other inside the ocean of their hearts.These are their deep wishes which they have for each other more than the depth of an ocean.These are the pains which they share by destiny and bring uproar of this ocean in their lives when they feel it.These are the eyes through which they acknowledge each other and dignify each other .These Pearls are the stars which are the reasons of their existence in this world and far from the distance smiling at them at their pure but delusional hearts.These are the desires which are longing ,yearning ,and embarking in their hearts and making them agitated to be with each other.These Pearls are the purity of love for each other which is so precious and flawless among them regardless of the presence of evil and darkness around em. These pearls today are screaming at her to accept all this just like once these were screaming at Arnav to accept her purity . These were floating around and being thrown but now Khushi is collecting em and Arnav will put em in one Dori...one chain...one thread.The beauty is Khushi never knew these were in his possession but today these are putting her in the ocean of guilt deeper than ever but at the same time bringing her his true feelings for her at the surface

Pondering connected dots:He threw these pearls in Episode 55 [I did in detail there] and today those are back right where these belong...just need him to string em.

Today in her dream she visualized how their "heart got connected together"... First pearls as this arrogant broke her abyss and entered her soul but she was bruised , Second, Mannat ki chaabi which unlocked their hearts by the forces of divinity and the Payal which Arnav put on her to make her HIS and above all " made promised to protect her" (as silver Payal has always symbolized keeping away the negative forces)as I explained in Maha 57 .

So collectively, Khushi in her dream is getting lost in this maze with fear of losing him along with the the guilt of hurting him which is pulling her in the riddles but this also meant to connect Arnav's soul to her ..Arnav will help her to come out of this riddle and she will find her love , her Arnavji...and He will protect her and their relation from every evil . That loop is closed today which started from Epi 1^st but the next loop of putting scattered pearls in one thread still needs time but Khushi will see a second sequence which shows her deepest desire for all of these pearls in one thread and Arnav will fulfill her dream.

Thinkable POINTS with Symbolisms:

Naniji also helped broken Khushi to understand Arnav and his painful world. She told her everything which can make her understand better as compared to Anjali... "Aur chup gaye ek bade se pateele ke bartan maan aur atak gaye, phir bartan ko kaatna pada" -[Brass symbolizes judgment upon adulterer , but also reprsents self repentance and self judgment ] as he will connect the dots to repent "mujhe aur khuch nahin chaiye Khushi..."[ I don't need anything else Khushi...] is his next destination.

Khushi's worries over Naniji's statement..."phir to Arnav ji ko bhi chot aayi hogi" [Arnav must be hurt too]...Yes in this whole repentance process he will suffer, he will take all "Chot" which he inflicted on Khushi...Naniji's "woh Chotey hain,chotey...chot ki khaatir nahi,murga banne ki khaatir roye "[ He is Chote, he cried for being chicken not for getting hurt] ...[Chicken , according to African beliefs ...guides souls and according to Chinese Zodiac a decision maker and Sharp while it also wards off evil and Lust]...Yes if Khushi will reveal this serpent , Arnav will decide to cut him off.

Naniji's next words are golden for Khushi to tie this whole thing up..."galti unki rahi...hamre chotey hai na agar woh kisi se pyaar kare hain aur unke liye kuch nahi kar sake to khudi kohi sazaa dene lagat hain...aise hi hain hamaare chotey"[ chote punishes himself if he is at fault and can't do anything for the person he loves the most]These words are tying up with Anjali's words,"Chote sab kuch baant sakte hai par apna dukh nahin..."[He can share everything but his sorrows and pain]

Khushi's fear, worries and his decision of going London now is going to hurt him but as Naani says "aise hi hain Chote"...[that's how he is] - if he realizes,that it is his mistake and if he sees he can't help the person he loves the most (Di ke laadley...murga khud hi ban gaye)... then he punishes himself , as for Anjali's sake he did punish himself that dreadful night and has to live with serpent. Now his soul has a burden as he has suspected and hurt Khushi so for this realization ,he'll punish himself...

Pondering connected dots:Buaji explained Arnav the "Chillies" Khushi's virtues and today Naniji did the same for Arnav to Khushi .

The sequence of fbs reel in front of her with true and honest picture of Arnav's actions "aur aap jo humain bachane keh liye khud ko chot de rahe thay..."[u were hurting yourself for saving me all along]...when , Guest House night he realized his mistake ,Rain night by giving her coat he made initiative to correct his actions of making her suffer, wounded wrist scene ...realization of her pain which in return hurting him all along ,the bandage scene ,action towards correcting his mistakes by healing her wound and the last one, leaving the hands at the airport shows the guilt has shifted the anger and hate as he is leaving with the knowledge of his wrong actions of hurting and crushing Khushi...

that's why..."Khushi mein ne tumhain hurt kya ...mein khud ko khabi maaf nahin kar paoonga" ..[Khushi I hurt you and I can't forgive myself ever for that]...He can't forgive himself what he inflicted upon her all this time and then he will emerge as a true protector of her dreams...The protective connection of heart to soul has completed and locked today and now it's the time to just embrace it and that will complete it's coarse during Telepathy.

Symbolism and connection: 3 pm, 8 hrs flight, 8+3=11 as 11 possesses the power of intuition which will be shown through Khushi's fears and acts for her Arnavji...

Arshi, loved the theme inamorata and its explanation.

My most fav part is your interpretation of her dream. Brilliantly put .. indeed a maze and her guilty and pain leading her into riddles.. all the things that had inadvertently bound them more and more..pearls, mannat ki chabi and the payal...making her feel his absence around even more.. he is so close yet so far .. the classic mirage effect of a dream.. greatly put in symbolically here ..

With you about the symbolic implicit of naniji's story to Khushi. actually his description as a child was never consistent, one time he would be this naughty regular teenage boy who would glue his cousin to bed (perhaps the description that would sit well in genera for an young boy) and then he would be this obsessive brother entering claustrophobic container or son squashing roses for thorns, is a bit disturbing. But at this juncture becos of the symbolic significance it felt OK..
Great edits , the blue shades of the night time ones are beautiful..
thanks Faiqa..

Originally posted by: aarwen

Episode 253

A beautiful word often used in Hindi poetry for Radha Krishna, Ram Sita.. "Virah".. Longing in separation from a lover.. In a soliloquy as Sita remained a captive of Ravana she sings.." She wished she could stop breathing now that she is away from Ram since it is so painful to draw in each breath. Yet the lingering hope of the eyes catching a glimpse of him again keeps her going. And she refuses to close those eyes." I was quite young when I read it and it was supposed to be a religious text. But something told me this is how separation is meant to feel.

Time passes in jolts. Sometimes chunks whizz by and sometimes each millisecond drags into an unending eternity.

It is all about love really. How with him lies her sanity, her strength. With him gone everything is dull, unreal, a shadow of what he left behind. He is her sun and the moon can only shine when the sun's life giving rays fall on it. Her center of gravity is no longer in front of her eyes. How meaningless and empty everything is! She is but hollow, incomplete without him.

She looks ethereal in white. Forlorn. Her hand curls around his shirt in a fleeting wisp of her memory. Tonight her lonely hand balls itself into a fist. Uneasy sleep. And a haunting beautiful dream, I confess, details of which I had forgotten from my first watch. Nice in a way. Like am seeing it with fresh eyes for the very first time. A splendid visual imagery that assaults your senses. Nothing grand in this low budget Indian show. The grandeur is when they catch the human emotions and display it for us to revel in. I am no Sigmund Freud. I cannot interpret the dream. But I do see the love. Pearls. Mannat ki chabhi. Her amma's payal. As women's instinct returned in full force. A lover transformed into a seer.

Destiny threw her right in the arms of a steely eyes stranger. He threw the harshest of unthinkable insults at her. A terrible adventure she had landed herself in. A place she could not even imagine remotely. Dressed in her finest and made even more alluring, a dupatta trampled under his feet. His arms around her. A handsome magnetic face that had stared right back at her.. And then had been captivated by her.. lips? Why had it felt unreal, but possibly altered her forever. Irrevocably entangled two lives. He had dared to tear away her pristine pearl dori. Those innocent jewels lay scattered at their feet. Falling as if in slow motion . Magnified hypnotic as they bounced off the hard floor. But had she been more alive than at that moment under his unwavering unnerving stare, slipping away the restrains from her hair to regain back her pride. Alive that's what this dangerous dance with fire had felt like. Khushi Kumari Gupta perhaps always had needed Arnav Singh Raizada to reach her true potential. Or simply to fill in those hollow nooks and corners within her.

What made her hold on to a key that belonged to the rude, arrogant, cynical man who made it clear he did not believe in anything nice. Why did his dreams feel precious? Worth guarding with her life. A secret just hers to treasure. An incomprehensible tie already forged with this devil incarnate. Something that safely silently remained in her bright gaudy jhola as a reminder of an inexplicable spark. She had not thrown it away but kept it close.

Her amma's payal.. He had kept that close to him. Tenderly with utmost devotion in his eyes he had placed in on her feet the night she felt like a princess in a fairy tale. Glittering gleaming lights everywhere. People celebrating all around. But just one man before her. Gazing at her like no one had ever looked at her before. Her thoughts taking an unbidden direction. She could not control them that night. Her eyes kept returning to the man who was making her feel like a woman. The most beautiful woman. She had felt a strange sense of exhilaration. Did she understand the power that she held over him? That regular Khushi Kumari Gupta had been enough and more than enough to draw Arnav Singh Raizada in. New sensations flooding and illuminating her being. She knew deep within he wanted her that night and she had wanted him. She was in love. And desire a beautiful expression of that love. He had taken care of her, made her feel safe. Magically conjured her amma's payal and put it on her. His touch has seared her skin and she had craved for more. Not sure what, but there had to be more.

But life had gotten complicated. It felt necessary to hate him when all her heart really wanted to do was shower him with affection..with love... Now he was gone and something was terribly undeniably wrong. He was calling out to her.."Khushi.." her name on his lips..his sould reaching out to his soulmate.. her.."Khushi".. A prayer.. A gentle caress.. A cry for help.. Just her.. He needed her.. Just like she needed him.. was nothing without him.. Oblivion.. She had to find him.. Reach him before it was too late.. Urgency.. Panic.. Oh where are you my love?!

Tonight she doesn't care if the whole family's sleep is disturbed. Single threaded focus on him. No ego that even after her tearful pleading he boarded the flight. He should be the one to call. No... She will call him. And if he isn't calling, some misfortune has surely befallen him. Not conscious of what everyone is thinking. No necessity to keep up appearances, behave normal, calm, collected. No... Tonight she will just be a loving wife waiting and worrying for husband. He always said we should do what feels right to us and give a damn about what is the expected norm. Tonight she unknowingly embraced it as she emerged a premika...his lover..his wife.. Her sole existence breathes of her love. It is just him. And no one else, nothing else matters but him.

Rhea, I realized i missed reading this exquisite piece.. not to be... . indeed the premika in her emerging in full glory without restraints .. lovely reference to ramayan as well.

Beautiful piece rhea..

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

DISCLAIMER:DON'T COPY MY WORKS AND CONCEPTS WITHOUT GIVING ME CREDIT

YOU HAVE SEEN MY HUMBLE SIDE. TRUST ME YOU WON'T LIKE THE OTHER...

Arshi's Index

EPISODE 252-253

Rise of Inamorata...

..."agar aap aise chale jayengey tou hum saans hi nahin..."[I won't be able to breath in your absence]...Arnav who was trapped in this all along is stunned seeing his Khushi in the same vortex but he couldn't handle it again as always and left her but their connection has reached to the next level.The level of intensity where he was since from the beginning is reaching to her core after him cupping her face and pleading to free him from all the burden he's been carrying since that dreadful night screaming in his deep love ,"Khushi mujhe batana Zaroori nahin samjha"[U didn't feel the NEED to tell me] ...finding out the truth of his pain and being that reason ,finding out that he is the Shaitan in her Rajkumar's visage to jolt her up from her slumber, an emergence of an inamorata has taken that shape, a shape of DURGA Ma, who fights for her loved ones by remaining alert to vanquish all eyes who even think to pry on em...Khushi ,Buaji's "Titliya" is transforming into "Parmeshwari"...

Just like Arnav , he is going to be "NandKishore" as Buaji said welcoming Arnav as a damad in GH "Nandkishore aye gaye..."...

Pause here: Babli is being locked by herself in the closet ...Beautiful as Khushi's childish acts and fantasy is getting locked here and an inamorata has been emerged behind that dark closet 👏 as Naniji said"Kahan chupna hai aur Kahan nahi"...as she will be facing reality...from now on She will be having some one always in her ways...tum har kaan akaile nahin kar sakti ...is ending here also.

Connection of hearts happened the day she landed in his arms yet confession occurred with awareness on Holi but Khushi was totally in inebriated form to accept that as compared to Arnav. Diwali night she surrendered to her love first time and then got crushed in between those gripping feelings . She had let her emotions get under the blanket of hibernation even after the realization of her true feelings for him especially after the terrace night. She got shattered in this delusional ocean of Love as Arnav's attitude and actions had changed her perception for him as her trust over him did shake it's walls. But Khushi was totally unaware of Arnav's feelings and the motives behind these acts . The realization is seeping in that the man who she thought of a Rakshus without feelings is the man who really loved her and now hated her for that reason. She was responsible for this Hate and misunderstanding in between them and knows how much he is in pain because of her..." aur humari wajha se aapka Dukh aur badh raha hai...[your pain is increasing because of me]...and that is ripping her inside out as a guilt... "ek baar humari baat sun lete to...jaana zaruri tha kya..." [what could go wrong if he heard me once , it was necessary to go right now]...She indeed is floating in the ocean of deep guilt and Love.

The rise of inamorata takes charge of keeping her knotted Love to be strong , by making Arnav aware of her intensions..."jab bandh liya hai tou" ...and declaring evil who is real owner of her HEART and rejecting his filthy intentions at the Airport delivering him real message"Arnav is may be out of sight but not out of mind or heart" but totally ignored the evil is one step ahead...Shyam has reached to the will but totally unaware of that this will has no meaning without keeping Arnav alive...Excellent CVs.👏

Small but very effective scenes , Anjali and Khushi's bond like two sisters which will be stronger than ever this period.Love the way she put her head in her lap, feeling him through his Di, through his part...his mehsoos... He accused her off destrying this Di's marriage while she is searching for him in the very same person...Second... A wife's natural instinct and her focal point is always her husband in his absence and that is absolutely done beautifully ,Quiet, empty , forlon room like her life without him...

PONDERING CONNECTED DOTS:Her seeing room empty was draining for her , just like he had his world empty when she wasn't talking to him and staying away from him.Today she is seeing him on recliner where he always used to close his day after enveloping her peaceful vision in his eyes.She remembers how they both fought for it to sleep.

Bali night, her Manglasutre was entangled in his shirt ,a dori , a Dhaga, which she never wanted but meant everything to her since then.She holds on to it in her clutch as instinctively , in her 6^th sense every wife does when she feels her husband is in danger.At the same time she so wanted him to let her cry by holding him but he left without giving her a solace...she so wanted him to be there with her by her side.She remembers how he was sleeping holding her hand , she sleeps in pain clenching her fist till he calls her out...Khushi!!!

Her subconscious is reeling the moments of their connection in such a way that her guilt is taking over her conscious . She never knew of Arnav's collection of their connective objects and the reason of their captivity .That is coming to her now but her remorse is pulling her towards this maze strongly that she is losing her balance of mind but again their connection of hearts is shifting to soul connection .They are reaching to next level where their frame of reference doesn't need their presence any more and they can feel each other's distress and trouble from miles...She some how is feeling his distress and he is feeling hers and that's why he is calling her over and over and not letting her disappear in this DARK maze of guilt and vortex of despair. He is awakening her Love.

She had given him the mannat chaabi and left him but her blood meaning her heart brought him back to her , the Payal she left for him unintentionally yet his heart found the connection but he put on her to accept this connection , and the pearls which are scattered on the floor under her feet meaning she was misunderstanding the purity of his Heart and Love just like he was doing by throwing em away once.

These Pearls are emotions of all colors which they share with each other inside the ocean of their hearts.These are their deep wishes which they have for each other more than the depth of an ocean.These are the pains which they share by destiny and bring uproar of this ocean in their lives when they feel it.These are the eyes through which they acknowledge each other and dignify each other .These Pearls are the stars which are the reasons of their existence in this world and far from the distance smiling at them at their pure but delusional hearts.These are the desires which are longing ,yearning ,and embarking in their hearts and making them agitated to be with each other.These Pearls are the purity of love for each other which is so precious and flawless among them regardless of the presence of evil and darkness around em. These pearls today are screaming at her to accept all this just like once these were screaming at Arnav to accept her purity . These were floating around and being thrown but now Khushi is collecting em and Arnav will put em in one Dori...one chain...one thread.The beauty is Khushi never knew these were in his possession but today these are putting her in the ocean of guilt deeper than ever but at the same time bringing her his true feelings for her at the surface👏👏👏

Pondering connected dots:He threw these pearls in Episode 55 [I did in detail there] and today those are back right where these belong...just need him to string em.

Today in her dream she visualized how their "heart got connected together"... First pearls as this arrogant broke her abyss and entered her soul but she was bruised , Second, Mannat ki chaabi which unlocked their hearts by the forces of divinity and the Payal which Arnav put on her to make her HIS and above all " made promised to protect her" (as silver Payal has always symbolized keeping away the negative forces)as I explained in Maha 57 .

So collectively, Khushi in her dream is getting lost in this maze with fear of losing him along with the the guilt of hurting him which is pulling her in the riddles but this also meant to connect Arnav's soul to her ..Arnav will help her to come out of this riddle and she will find her love , her Arnavji...and He will protect her and their relation from every evil . That loop is closed today which started from Epi 1^st but the next loop of putting scattered pearls in one thread still needs time but Khushi will see a second sequence which shows her deepest desire for all of these pearls in one thread and Arnav will fulfill her dream.

Thinkable POINTS with Symbolisms:

Naniji also helped broken Khushi to understand Arnav and his painful world. She told her everything which can make her understand better as compared to Anjali... "Aur chup gaye ek bade se pateele ke bartan maan aur atak gaye, phir bartan ko kaatna pada" -[Brass symbolizes judgment upon adulterer , but also reprsents self repentance and self judgment ] as he will connect the dots to repent "mujhe aur khuch nahin chaiye Khushi..."[ I don't need anything else Khushi...] is his next destination.

Khushi's worries over Naniji's statement..."phir to Arnav ji ko bhi chot aayi hogi" [Arnav must be hurt too]...Yes in this whole repentance process he will suffer, he will take all "Chot" which he inflicted on Khushi...Naniji's "woh Chotey hain,chotey...chot ki khaatir nahi,murga banne ki khaatir roye "[ He is Chote, he cried for being chicken not for getting hurt] ...[Chicken , according to African beliefs ...guides souls and according to Chinese Zodiac a decision maker and Sharp while it also wards off evil and Lust]...Yes if Khushi will reveal this serpent , Arnav will decide to cut him off.

Naniji's next words are golden for Khushi to tie this whole thing up..."galti unki rahi...hamre chotey hai na agar woh kisi se pyaar kare hain aur unke liye kuch nahi kar sake to khudi kohi sazaa dene lagat hain...aise hi hain hamaare chotey"[ chote punishes himself if he is at fault and can't do anything for the person he loves the most]These words are tying up with Anjali's words,"Chote sab kuch baant sakte hai par apna dukh nahin..."[He can share everything but his sorrows and pain]

Khushi's fear, worries and his decision of going London now is going to hurt him but as Naani says "aise hi hain Chote"...[that's how he is] - if he realizes,that it is his mistake and if he sees he can't help the person he loves the most (Di ke laadley...murga khud hi ban gaye)... then he punishes himself , as for Anjali's sake he did punish himself that dreadful night and has to live with serpent. Now his soul has a burden as he has suspected and hurt Khushi so for this realization ,he'll punish himself...

Pondering connected dots:Buaji explained Arnav the "Chillies" Khushi's virtues and today Naniji did the same for Arnav to Khushi .

The sequence of fbs reel in front of her with true and honest picture of Arnav's actions "aur aap jo humain bachane keh liye khud ko chot de rahe thay..."[u were hurting yourself for saving me all along]...when , Guest House night he realized his mistake ,Rain night by giving her coat he made initiative to correct his actions of making her suffer, wounded wrist scene ...realization of her pain which in return hurting him all along ,the bandage scene ,action towards correcting his mistakes by healing her wound and the last one, leaving the hands at the airport shows the guilt has shifted the anger and hate as he is leaving with the knowledge of his wrong actions of hurting and crushing Khushi...

that's why..."Khushi mein ne tumhain hurt kya ...mein khud ko khabi maaf nahin kar paoonga" ..[Khushi I hurt you and I can't forgive myself ever for that]...He can't forgive himself what he inflicted upon her all this time and then he will emerge as a true protector of her dreams...The protective connection of heart to soul has completed and locked today and now it's the time to just embrace it and that will complete it's coarse during Telepathy.

Symbolism and connection: 3 pm, 8 hrs flight, 8+3=11 as 11 possesses the power of intuition which will be shown through Khushi's fears and acts for her Arnavji...

Originally posted by: aarwen

Indi di Pata nahi humare sath hi aisa kyu hota hai? ( imagine lovely woebegone expression as I say it.. )

Apparently thanks to how much attention am paying to these episodes I even missed noticing when they showed Aman. or atleast am guessing that man who called Khushi was Aman, right? Since Aakash mentioned Aman in 258 and Khushi said he called her.

About Shyam.. hi five.. Why is he not trying to be nice to her?

For your reviews.. humein farak padta hai lots.. I even had a great 😳 suggestion which you ignored.. ( imagine ruthi hui Rhea face.. which is very cute) .. For the remaining episodes you should write one per month or per movie before his movie launch as a lucky charm for him.. And I recollect you started episode 1 , didn't complete? Though can't complain in a way its like keeping your favourite food in your plate till last.. can keep looking forward to your take on those episodes..

Originally posted by: ArshiHamesha

Indi really nice one👏

I loved this epi for Sanaya and you have described so well there for her and her realization, TODAY she is seeping in the river of thoughts with wavy emotions of realizing that he was the real protector all along and her own goofiness took him away...Takrar se shuru ...which she did or he did but finished at his hate...so he was loving me all along...

He said her in Epi 203...sapno ki duniys se bahar niklo...today she is out there in that reality...

My comments ar ein between...

Thnx for this soliloquy and sublime take... 😊

Originally posted by: indi52

haink, rhea ji, you are mobhing from lovely to cute expessioniya and i am missing your posts? ee ka hui gawa. i don't remember reading that red at all. you suggested me ignored? how can that be? oh er by the way (the same way that the suv travels) do you ever look anything other than cute and lovely... okay don't answer that... i will do exactly as you say, a review every week at least i will have to do if that backlog i to be cleared. 😆 but lemme see... i'll talk to aman.

whaaat. they showed him? aman? bhere? i thought those were all several london ladkas.

must make a sweet 17 edit... and complete episode one this week. sending mazal to the boy.

Originally posted by: indi52

episode 253

he came to her in a dream, his voice calling her, touching her, wrapping around her heart... making her awaken, beckoning her to another world. dressed in flowing white edged with the colours of belonging, red and gold, she walked blindly wherever he called her, chasing his voice, needing to reach it... him.

arnav ji. she grew frantic, knowing he was here, here somewhere... and near her feet lay little opalescent pearls. a handful scattered, she might have stepped on them. signs of their very first meeting that inexplicable night... its rage and storm echoing in them somewhere ever since... he had snapped a dori, the pearls had scattered and a connection had come into being.

a connection that has brought them all the way and unerringly to this moment.

in those pearls once her memories had come to him, plaguing him with thoughts he couldn't explain... and tonight , they lie there... his missive perhaps. his need to hear her, have her feel him, touch him, take charge of his heart... the diver who will plunge to the bottom of the ocean and find the most priceless thing deep in it, glowing in luminescent glory. pure, pristine, between hardened shells.

a surreal world enclosed her and took her into a place she had never seen before, with barren trees, their dry lifeless branches crisscrossing and casting shadows everywhere, gossamer veils floated in thin air entangling with her fear, her worry, her sense of premonition... yes, they seemed to whisper, something is wrong, something..

khushi... his whisper floated... urgent, granular. she looked around growing even more frantic. where was he... and what was this... a key... mannat ki chabi. a flash of memory... she had picked up the key and gone running after him.

who was the key, who the lock? what door, what gateway did it open. was it one of the many gates to love... in religion there is an interesting concept of their being many gates to the eternal... is that true of love too... and is one of the gates, the most precious of all, called nafrat?

her hair flew wild as the winds grew strong. it was as if the gust of wind that had picked her hair aloft the day she had shimmered in red and he had not been able to look away, the wind that had told him she was here, somewhere here when he thought she was gone forever, that carrier of a feeling, a clear focused messenger of a mehsoos with the precision of a ring tone you set for a specific someone... it was as though that wind was going crazy trying to convey a message.

something is amiss... all is not well. as the tension in her being grew, a final sign, her payal... her mother's payal. what she wore hamesha. her symbol of forever... it had stayed back by the poolside one night to make him wonder, make him touch, feel, keep away in his hidden recesses that precious feeling which he told her he had not had at all the night of diwali.

the payal he slipped on her ankle, with a touch intimate and private, that had thrown her in disarray till desire had deftly caught it and made her feel what she never had... maybe she never knew even she could feel that.

the colours of the ocean surrounded her, but it was riven by harsh branches, howling winds.. why was she here. what was wrong.

arnav ji? arnav ji!

khushi... khushi ... khushi... he seemed to whisper her name everywhere... was he trying to reach her? khushi khushi...

had the gust of wind that had spoken of a feeling and started on the surface, touching skin, hair... had that reached the next level and entered a space within?

the river had taken another bend as it rushed to meet the ocean. a feeling had scaled and broken a barrier and was onto the next length of tits course.

till now they were in the same space so the need for another perhaps was not there... layered communications that seemed physical but always had undertow, had strengthened a feeling.

now he was gone.

yet he sought her. from wherever he was. and she longed for him, her heart heard him, her being immersed in him. and if this had to happen in another reality... surreality... they were both willing to go there.

this is the premonition of a lover... the first step toward telepathy. months later he will tell her... you are always with me, even when you are far far away.

does this happen? i believe it does. if the feeling is real and we haven't spent too much time trying to find a name for it.

she had been feeling wretched about the way he left. then there was the complication of shyam and the papers. she would have to find the papers before he came back she had told herself...

"kyun chale gaye... kya zaroorat thi jaane ki... ghar bhi toh aa sakte the... shyam ji ke baat sun sakte... phir unhe sara sach pata chal jata... aur woh hum par vishwas karte..."

why did he go away, what was the need, he could have come home, then he'd have known the whole truth... and he would have believed me...

never asked herself why it mattered so much that he should believe in her.

she is magan in her shyam, no time to ask why perhaps.

again tagore's bhanushingher padabali echoes, looking at her bereft state, her craving her extreme worry... her knowledge of her lover... she "knows" he is not alright. she just does... bas pata chal jata hai.

and in its unarticulated form this knowledge sets up a storm in her.

"bhara badar, mah bhadar, shunya mandir mor" the clouds fill the skies, it's the month of bhadr, and my temple is empty... a beautiful song whose words i will find and write here shortly... radha is missing and worrying for krishna, mother nature herself seems to be giving her areal hard time... radha is vyakul...

before that dream there was a khushi who couldn't think of anything but the man who had left without hearing the truth.

khushi says, nahin, i shouldn't lose hope so easily, he may still believe in me...

sanaya takes the lines and her loneliness and paints a picture of such poignancy with her voice and expression. she is as though nothing without him.

it's eleven pm.

her eyes fall on the empty chaise longue... he sleeps there... a memory in her being, hair stirred by the softest breeze and they are both running to claim it...

an entanglement by mangalsutra. she remembers the moment of feeling tied to him... and then her hand moves up to touch her mangalsutra. no matter under what circumstances it was thrust around her neck... this is the one she wanted to wear, and to her this was real, a sign of her commitment, a sign of her arnav ji and his presence in her life... she needs to hold him so badly right now.

her hand seeks him... the short simple mangalsutra and a natural gesture made a scene that might have been thickly serial melodrama into a beautiful scene with longing in its every corner.

she lies down missing him, remembering his last few moments with her, the hand he makes her leave...

missing him, clenching her fist, physically aching she courts sleep.
till his voice reaches her with just one call, dispeling fitful sleep... pulling her into the turmoil of love.

where are you? come back... she calls out to him in her dream.
khushi khushi khushiii... his whispers everywhere. calling her, needing her.
a wail rises, a storm, the breeze tears through the branches, ominous.

"arnav ji!" she shouts and wakes up.

she wakes up still confused. where are those things, where is he?

"kahan hain aap, arnav ji?"

premonition of a lover.

the rest of the episode went by. the whole ludicrous masala mama entry and mami in hysterics while it got going. i missed the man terribly. even if he sat and read the papers it felt significant somehow.

and as khushi entered a space she never had before, i felt the need to feel happy about it. she had at last crossed every barrier put up by him and her, crossed all the seen and unseen fears and in her dream where we are true... walked into the woods that may scare her just to find him.. to be with him, to bring him back. on this bed where she slept alone, somehow she seemed to meet him and embrace him with all of herself. a clear hint was given, she will go risk all to get him back where he belongs... to her. as she to him. she became his bride again somehow tonight.

tonight
is the night.
it is the creation
of that land of eternity.
it is not an ordinary night,
it is a wedding of those who seek unity.
tonight, the bride and groom
speak in one tongue.
tonight, the bridal chamber
is looking particularly bright.
~~~ rumi ~~~

Originally posted by: aarwen

Haha bhe both beheniya in our choti si duniya only bith ASR.. There was one man who was shown in 257 I think who called Khushi and also spoke passable English phrases...quite young.. so when Aakash spoke of Aman and Khushi said he called her I assumed maybe that was Aman. Now thinking most probabaly not because that london man was I think speaking to her for the first time.. so complete red herring from me or maybe not.. inbhestigation karike pari..

hahaha that in pink.. am giggling uncontrollably.. we are thinking of going car shopping and all I do is stare at white suvs in the shop.. and I did not like white cars.. and I did not like big bulky cars..

Anyway I spent the last few hours trying to find my post where I shared the idea jisse aapko koi farak nai para.. par for all your "rona band karo rhea" and after my lonely suv drive down those great threads and drenching in the rain of excitement.. bas baat karni hai.. toh chalo mitti daalo aur bhul jao.. hello hi bye bye

Indi di.. main wo.. *swallow*.. **rabba ve playing**

and did you say I look cute always? .. **fingers intertwining nervusly** ..us sab ka kya matlab hai?

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so it wasn't aman most prob, phew. but yes do inbhestigassioniya... and all such inbhestigasson must dig deep, go back to the beginning in fact and start with a helicopter banking.

rain, suv (oh how i hate those ugly big cars... but hate now i know is just a phonecall away from main wo... you know) last night it happened all right here... till 3.25am in fact. as i turned a dear dear friend of mine into an ipk loony. now she says must put all episodes on pen drive and watch at a go, classic sign ha ha... her most precious "shopping" in singapore it will be no doubt. it was such fun to watch her eyes glaze over exactly where mine do and to hear her say at 1.00pm so why is he so angry with her... we had to do inbhestigasson and go right back to the very beginning...

oh rhea, the dargah scene, episode 3. and every otther scene too. what a perfect first episode despite creative license.

fingers intertwining...ohhoho... i started with the diwali episodes. mmm. she saw khushi surrounded by lights and said, how will she come out now? i yelled, yes... you are a natural born ipk addict.

Originally posted by: sohara

It is always a pleasure to read your sublime analysis.

All the lines I marked red are my favorite.

What an insightful thought on Khushi's dream you penned down. And i loved most as you said, she became his bride again.

these episodes without the charming man is painful to watch. But Sanaya tried really hard to fill his blank. I salute her for this. And cvs did an awesome job.

thanks so much, sohara...

sanaya did try her level best. even as all sorts of things were demanded of her. including creepy convos with ugh creep. plus, she could not break into khushi like exuberance yet remain khushi... i think she did manage this very difficult thing.

cvs i feel were a bit patchy, sometimes brill, sometimes what the. i concentrated on teh brill bits, the rest was just there, bas.

see ya soon.

Originally posted by: indi52

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so it wasn't aman most prob, phew. but yes do inbhestigassioniya... and all such inbhestigasson must dig deep, go back to the beginning in fact and start with a helicopter banking.

rain, suv (oh how i hate those ugly big cars... but hate now i know is just a phonecall away from main wo... you know) last night it happened all right here... till 3.25am in fact. as i turned a dear dear friend of mine into an ipk loony. now she says must put all episodes on pen drive and watch at a go, classic sign ha ha... her most precious "shopping" in singapore it will be no doubt. it was such fun to watch her eyes glaze over exactly where mine do and to hear her say at 1.00pm so why is he so angry with her... we had to do inbhestigasson and go right back to the very beginning...

oh rhea, the dargah scene, episode 3. and every otther scene too. what a perfect first episode despite creative license.

fingers intertwining...ohhoho... i started with the diwali episodes. mmm. she saw khushi surrounded by lights and said, how will she come out now? i yelled, yes... you are a natural born ipk addict.