Chapter Eighteen
Abhira looked up from her file when there was a knock on her door. She smiled seeing Mishti standing there. “Kya main andar aa sakti hoon?”
“Aap pooch kyun rahin hain, Badi Maa?” Abhira laughed. “Aapko pata hai aap kabhi bhi aa sakti hain.”
“Pooch lena chahiye,” Mishti giggled. “Kya pata tera aashiq milne aaya ho.”
“Kya, Badi Maa! Aap bhi pareshaan karoge ab?” Abhira pouted. “Aur waise bhi… Armaan aayega toh aapko pata chal hi jaayega na.”
“Aisa zaroori thodi hai,” Mishti countered. “Agar woh chupke khidki se aaya ho toh?”
“Yeh sab ulti-seedhi harkatein main karti hoon,” Abhira chuckled. “Khadoosmaan nahi. Woh toh darwaaze se hi aata hai.”
“Yeh special trait hai humaari family ka,” Mishti confessed, smiling brightly. “Main hi aise chupke Abir se milne jaati thi. Woh toh bohot rarely aata tha.”
Abhira guffawed. “Aap dono jaise ho, mujhe lagta tha yeh sab karne ka department Bade Papa ka hai. Aap toh ekdum serious type ke ho, like Armaan. Bade Papa hi hai mere jaise Badbad Gadbad Express.”
“Yeh toh teri baat sahi hai,” Mishti agreed. “Lekin main itni bhi boring nahi hoon!”
“Of course,” Abhira nodded frantically.
“Yeh le,” Mishti finally said, passing Abhira a bowl. “Badam ka halwa banaya tha.”
“Wow!” Abhira cried, taking the bowl with eager hands. “Mumma ka favourite tha,” she commented with a soft smile.
“Mujhe pata hai,” Mishti whispered. “Aaj uski bohot yaad aa rahi thi… Toh socha bana lu.”
Abhira hugged Mishti, resting her head on Mishti's shoulder. “I miss her too. Everyday.”
“I know,” Mishti sighed. A moment later, she pulled back from the hug and cupped Abhira's cheek. “Tu theek haina?”
Abhira shrugged. “Mujhe kya hoga?”
“Don't,” Mishti commanded gently. “Itna sab ho gaya pichle kuch dinon mein. I know tu Armaan ke saath share karti hai. But, agar tujhe mujhse ya Abir se kuch kehna hai… You know we're always here for you.”
“I know, Badi Maa,” Abhira assured. “Sach kahun toh main ab tak sab kuch process hi kar rahi hoon.
Aapko pata hai… Goenka family mein na, mujhe koi khaas pasand nahi karta. Ruhi aur mere beech hamesha se differences rahe hain, mujhe uske aur Armaan ke past ke baare mein pata chala uske bhi pehle se. Aur Mrs. Goenka ko bhi main achchi nahi lagti. Shayad isliye kyunki mere aur Ruhi mein hamesha itne problems rahe hain. But… Mr. Goenka. He was different. Pehli baar unse mili thi tabse aisa lagta tha jaise mera unse gehra rishta hai. Ab jaake samajh aa raha hai ki mujhe aisa kyun laga ki woh mere apne hain. Par, sach toh yehi haina ki unse zyada paraya shayad mera aur koi nahi hai.”
“Gudiya,” Mishti breathed, pulling her into another hug. “I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.”
“Aap sorry kyun bol rahe ho? Aapne kya kiya hai?” Abhira asked. “Jo kuch bhi kiya woh Mr. Goenka aur unki family ne kiya. Isme aapki koi galti nahi hai. In fact, aap soch bhi nahi sakte how grateful I am ki aapne mujhe sab kuch bata diya. Yeh itni badi baat hai… It could not have stayed hidden forever. Kisi na kisi din mujhe sab pata chal hi jaata. But, aapne khud mujhe bata diya, toh kam dhakka laga. Aap, Bade Papa, aur Armaan saath the toh main sambhal gayi, Badi Maa. Warna pata nahi main kaise khudko handle karti.”
“Hum toh hamesha hi tere saath hain,” Mishti promised.
“I know,” Abhira smiled. “Aap hain tabhi toh main yeh important decisions itni easily le paa rahi hoon. Kyunki mujhe pata hai ki agar maine koi bhi gadbad ki, toh aap sambhaal loge.”
“You're right,” Mishti agreed. “Main aur Abir hain sab handle karne. Tu bilkul kisi cheez ki tension mat le.”
A moment later, Mishti added, “Armaan ne bataya mujhe… Ki tu Goenkas ke saath rishta nahi rakhna chaahti.”
“Aapne mere peeche usko jasoosi karne lagaya hua kya?” Abhira tried to joke out of the unspoken question.
“Heera,” Mishti reprimanded.
“Fine,” Abhira gave in. “Haan, I don't want to speak to them. Mere aur unka bas yeh rishta hai ki Ruhi Armaan ke bhai ki wife hai. That's it. Aur isse zyada mujhe unse koi taaluq nahi rakhna.”
“Are you sure?” Mishti questioned.
“Badi Maa, they gave up on Mumma jab unhe family ki sabse zyada zaroorat thi. Aapko pata hai, mujhe lagta tha ki main kitni unlucky hoon ki meri koi family nahi hai. But mujhse zyada unlucky toh Mumma hai. Unki itni badi family thi phir bhi woh akeli thi.
Mumma ne unke liye itne sacrifices kiye but that family never appreciated her. Woh bas yehi expect karte gaye ki har baar Mumma apna sab kuch unpe luta degi. But they never did the same for her. Ab sochti hoon toh mujhe lagta hai ki achcha hi hua jo Mumma ne woh ghar chod diya. Pata nahi unke saath badi hoti toh meri life kaisi hoti,” she shuddered at the thought.
“Aur, mujhe Mumma pe bhi gussa aata hai,” Abhira continued. “They never appreciated Mumma lekin Mumma ne kabhi unka saath dena nahi choda. Even on her deathbed she was thinking about that family. Uss ghar mein unki koi qadr nahi hai lekin unhe phir bhi sirf unka khayal aaya.
Mujhe bohot gussa aata hai, Badi Maa. Agar uss waqt Mr. Goenka ke badle Mumma ne aapko ya Bade Papa ko phone kiya hota toh meri zindagi bohot alag hoti.”
“Alag toh zaroor hoti,” Mishti nodded in agreement. “Lekin phir… Kya tu aur Armaan aaj saath hote?”
“What?” Abhira mumbled, confused.
“Heera, Akshu ne teri aur Armaan ki shaadi sirf isliye karwayi kyunki woh nahi chaahti thi uske jaane ke baad tu akeli rahe. Agar main aur Abir wahaan aa jaate, woh kabhi tum dono ki shaadi nahi karaati. Phir, shayad tu aur Armaan aaj saath nahi hote,” Mishti explained.
Abhira sucked in a sharp breath. Mishti was right. If things had unfolded in a different way, she would have not been married to Armaan and neither would they have fallen in love with each other. Did it make her a selfish person if she was grateful with this course of her life? If her mother had reached out to her Badi Maa, she knew that her mother's final moments would've been more peaceful. But, in not doing that, her mother had given her the love of her life.
“You're not selfish,” Mishti murmured softly.
“Huh?” Abhira turned to her in askance.
“You're not selfish for being grateful for Armaan,” Mishti told her. “Akshu shayad pehle se samajh gayi thi ki tu aur Armaan ek doosre ke liye bilkul sahi life partners ho. So, don't feel bad that you have Armaan. Woh tujhe jaise bhi mila ho, woh ab tera hai, Heera. And you are allowed to be happy about that. Akshu bhi yehi chaahegi.”
Abhira nodded gratefully, wrapping her arms around Mishti. “Waise, Armaan ne mujhe bhi kuch bataya hai,” Abhira said, wanting to change the topic.
“Achcha? Kya?” Mishti indulged Abhira.
“Woh… Job offer ke baare mein,” Abhira clarified.
“Aaahh,” Mishti nodded. “Yes. Abir aur mujhe lagta hai he'll be a perfect fit. Tujhe kya lagta hai?”
“Lagta toh mujhe bhi yehi hai,” Abhira confirmed. “Aur Armaan bhi offer se kaafi khush hai. It's just that…”
“Uski family,” Mishti finished. Abhira nodded.
“Don't worry,” Mishti comforted. “It's just an option. Armaan haan hi kahe aisi koi shart nahi hai. Aakhri faisla toh uska hi hoga. And, there's no time limit. Woh jitna chaahe utna waqt le sakta hai. There's no pressure.”
“I know,” Abhira smiled. “Armaan se bhi maine yehi kaha.”
“Good,” Mishti smiled.
“Kya baatein ho rahi hai?” Abir's question pulled their attention to him as he entered the room.
“Bade Papa!” Abhira cried happily, opening her arms for a hug which she promptly got. Abir squeezed her tight, rocking them for a moment.
“Tum dono har din aise milte ho jaise ghanto baad nahi saalo baad mil rahe ho,” Mishti teased once they'd stepped back from the hug.
“Haan toh? Tumhe koi problem hai kya? Ab apni beti ko gale bhi nahi laga sakta main?” Abir fired questions at his wife.
Mishti shook her head, laughing fondly. “Sorry, Mr. Rajvansh! Aap kijiye jo aapko karna hai.”
“Oh, thank god aapne permission dedi, Mrs. Agarwal Rajvansh. Warna main kya karta?” Abir taunted, making Abhira laugh. “Aap dono kitne cute ho!” She commented.
“Main toh paida hi cute hua tha,” Abir agreed. “Haan, iska mujhe pata nahi!” He pointed to Mishti.
“Hawwww, you! Ajeeb Rajvansh!! Main tumse zyada cute hoon!” Mishti argued.
“Main tumse zyada cute hoon, Angry Chorni!” Abir argued. “Yeh baat tum bhi jaanti ho!”
“I think, main aap dono se zyada cute hoon,” Abhira cut in. “Toh aap log faltu mein hi lad rahe hain. Cutest hone ka prize toh mujhe hi milega na!”
“Hmmm, yeh baat toh teri bilkul sahi hai, Heera!” Mishti exclaimed. To Abir, she asked, “Waise tum yahaan kyun aaye ho? Yeh Badi Maa and Gudiya Rani time hai!”
“Tha,” Abir retorted. “Ab yeh Badi Maa, Gudiya Rani, and Bade Papa time bann gaya hai!”
“Abiiiiiiiiir,” Mishti whined. “Tum baad mein aana. Mujhe kabhi time nahi milta akele. Tum har baar aa jaate ho!”
“Toh? Yeh toh mera haq hai!” Abir shrugged. “Main toh kahin nahi jaunga!”
Mishti harrumphed at that. “Badi Maaaaaa,” Abhira coaxed. “Theek haina! Baithne dijiye Bade Papa ko. Waise bhi, achcha hua aap dono yahaan ho. Mujhe aap dono se kuch baat karni thi. Actually, thodi advise chahiye thi.”
“Haan, beta. Bol na. Kya hua? Sab theek toh hai?” Abir fired questions at her.
“Abir! Tum bolne doge toh woh bolegi na!” Mishti interrupted. “Ek minute usse kehne do.” To Abhira, she said, “Haan, Heera. Tu bata. Kya advise chahiye?”
“Woh, actually… Dikhana zyada easy hai,” Abhira murmured. She rummaged into her bag and pulled out a stack of documents, presenting it to the couple.
“Yeh kya hai?” Mishti questioned, taking the papers from her.
“It's a legal notice,” Abhira whispered softly, afraid to speak the words out loud.
“Notice?” Abir echoed. “Kisse?”
“Mr. Manish Goenka ko,” Mishti answered for Abhira, glancing at the paperwork in her hand. It stated that Abhira was suing them for property.
“Heera, yeh kya hai?” Abir questioned, ruffling through the documents. “Tu unpe aisa case kyun karna chaahti hai? Yahaan tujhe koi kami hai kya?”
“Nahi, nahi,” Abhira hastily assured. “Mujhe kisi cheez ki koi kami nahi hai. In fact, zaroorat se zyada kya, aap sabne toh itna kuch diya hai ki main sapne mein bhi imagine nahi kar sakti.”
“Toh phir tu yeh sab kyun kar rahi hai?” Abir pressed. It took Abhira a moment to realize that he wasn't questioning her integrity. He was just curious. He wanted to know what had made Abhira decide to take this step, not call her out for making this decision.
After being accused of so many cruel things at the hands of the Poddar family, it was such a welcome change for her. She was not being interrogated as if she were a culprit. She was being asked things because she was a member of the family and they wanted to understand her motivations, not judge her without knowing them.
“Main property ke liye sue nahi karna chaahti,” Abhira explained. “Mujhe sirf Nani ki dance academy chahiye. Uspe unka koi haq nahi hai. Woh meri Nani ki yaadein hain. Unhone toh waise hi Nani ko bhula diya na… Sirat Aunty ke saath aage badh gaye sabke sab. Toh ab Nani ki cheezon ko aise dil se lagaake kyun baithe hain?
Nani ki academy, unki aakhri nishaani hai. Uspe unke baad Mumma ka haq tha. Aur Mumma ke baad mera hai. Main Mumma ka aur apna haq nahi chodungi. Mujhe baaki property, jewelry, paise… Kisi cheez mein koi interest nahi hai. Lekin jo Nani ka tha, jo Mumma ka tha… Woh mujhe waapas chahiye.
Jab woh meri Mumma ko apni family ka hissa nahi maante, toh unhe meri Mumma ki cheezein apne paas rakhne ka right nahi hai. Itne saal unhone rakh liya, kyunki Mumma ne kabhi apna haq nahi jataaya. Lekin, jo galti Mumma ne ki, woh main nahi karungi.
Mumma ne uss family ke liye bohot sacrifice kiye, but main Mumma jitni achchi nahi hoon. Main apna sab kuch unn logon ke liye nahi chodungi jo meri Mumma ki kabhi value nahi kar paaye.”
“Abhira,” Mishti breathed, immediately wrapping her in an embrace.
“Kya maine kuch galat socha, Badi Maa?” Abhira asked softly, a little afraid of the answer. She had been debating this for a few days before deciding that she did want to do it. She had looked up the academy. Once a hub of budding artists and a centre of culture, the academy lay wilting now with none of the Goenka family members having any time for it. They had let Naira Nani's life's work go to waste so easily.
She would do better, she decided. She would restore the academy to its former glory. She wouldn't let her grandmother's legacy be forgotten so easily. Once upon a time, that academy had been a flourishing melting pot of people from all over the country, finding their passion and making beautiful art. It would do that once again.
Abhira knew it would be no easy feat to achieve what she wanted. She didn't even know if Mr. Manish Goenka would hand over the place to her without a fuss or would they be embroiled in a lawsuit for years. But, nonetheless, come hell or high water, she would do it.
But, to do it, she first needed to make sure Abir & Mishti were on-board. They were her moral compass. She knew that they would never steer her incorrectly. They would never knowingly let her make a mistake.
“Tu kuch galat nahi kar rahi.” It was Abir who broke first. “You're absolutely right. Jab woh Naira Di aur Akshu ki koi parwaah nahi karte, jab unhone ek din teri parwaah nahi ki, toh kya zaroorat hai unke baare mein itna sochne ki? That school, by right, belongs to you.
Akshu ne bohot kuch sacrifice kiya apni life mein, sirf isliye kyunki usse support karne koi nahi tha, uski side lene koi nahi tha. Lekin, jo Akshu ke saath hua woh main tere saath kabhi nahi hone dunga. Ek beti ko maine bohot niraash kiya uski poori zindagi, lekin doosri ko nahi karunga. Main yeh galti nahi dohraunga.”
“Main bhi nahi,” Mishti murmured in agreement. “Woh academy teri hai. Aur apni cheez maangne se darrna nahi chahiye. Tu kar tujhe jo karna hai. Hum dono tere saath hain.”
“Thank you!” Abhira exclaimed, hugging them both tight. “Thank you, thank you so much! Aap dono mere saath ho, toh mujhe kisi cheez ka darr nahi hai. Mujhe pata hai ki agar mera faisla galat hota toh aap dono mujhe kabhi yeh sab nahi kehte.
Lekin, aap dono ne mujhe apna aashirwaad diya… Ab mujhe poora yakeen hai, ki yeh academy mujhe jaldi mil jaayegi. Aur phir… Hum sab milke Naira Nani ka sapna poora karenge. Right?”
“Right!” Abir & Mishti chorussed.
Abhira finally breathed freely, content to have the support she needed.
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Armaan looked over the papers Abhira had shown him before saying, “I trust you. Tumne kuch sochke hi yeh decision liya hoga. I fully support you, Ira. Waise bhi, yeh academy tumhaari Nani ki hai. Ispe tumhaara haq hai. I'm really proud ki tum apne liye lad rahi ho.
Tum hamesha mere liye stand leti ho, tumne Krish ke liye ghar mein sabse ladaayi ki, Charu ke liye ki. Maa aur Papa ke rishtey ke liye tumne itna kuch kiya. Lekin, jab tum hamesha khud ke liye stand lene se peeche hatt jaati ho na, mujhe bilkul achcha nahi lagta. Tum sabke liye ladti ho, toh khud ke liye kyun nahi?
But, aaj… Pehli baar, I'm seeing you take such a staunch stance for yourself. And I'm really very proud. Hamesha apne haq ke liye ladna, Ira. And I promise, I will always support you in this journey.”
Abhira grinned, hugging Armaan tight. “Thank you, Armaan. Tum sahi keh rahe ho. Mujhe apne liye stand lena seekhna hoga. Pata hai, Mumma ne hamesha mujhe apni respect karna sikhaya, lekin family ke aage main haar jaati hoon. Par, main dheere-dheere seekh rahi hoon. I'm learning. And hopefully, ek din main seekh jaungi. This is just the first step.”
“Bohot tamasha hoga,” Armaan warned. “Yeh baat chupi nahi rahegi. Goenka House se Poddar Mansion mein phailne mein waqt bilkul nahi lagega. Are you ready?”
“Tum ho na mere saath?” Abhira asked him.
“Always,” Armaan promised.
“Phir bas,” Abhira smiled. “I'm ready. Mujhe pata hai yeh asaan nahi hoga, Armaan. But I need to do this.”
“Of course,” Armaan agreed. “Aur tum yeh kar bhi logi. Badi Maa, Bade Papa, aur main… Hum teeno hamesha tumhaare saath hain.”
Abhira nodded against his shoulder, not saying anything. A few moments later, Armaan broke the peaceful silence surrounding them. “Tumhe kuch batana tha.”
“Bolo,” Abhira encouraged.
Armaan tightened his arms around Abhira, taking a deep breath. It broke his heart to do this, but he had to. He had to tell her. He'd been scrambling for days, trying to get Rohit to drop that case, but all of it had been in vain. After Rohit's refusal, he had spoken to Manoj. Understanding the gravity of the situation, both of them had tried to make Kaveri see that Rohit should give up on the case, but Kaveri had refused to listen to their reasons. She had sternly stated that no client would be turned away at the firm. Her statement had been backed by both Sanjay & Rohit. In the end, Khatri had stayed on, and Armaan was unable to stop it.
“Kya baat hai, Armaan? Tum itne tensed kyun ho?” Abhira asked gently, running her palms up & down his back in a comforting gesture. “Jo bhi ho, we'll figure it out together. Okay?”
“Ira… Woh… Actually,” Armaan fumbled. “Woh Khatri…”
Abhira sighed. She could easily deduce what Armaan was trying to say. “Rohit ne case nahi choda na?”
Armaan shook his head mutely, not knowing what to say. “It's okay,” Abhira assured him.
“It's not!” Armaan argued. “Maine usse bataya ki main kyun chaahta hoon woh case na lade, usne phir bhi mana kar diya. Aur Dadi Sa ne bhi uska saath dena hi sahi samjha. That man doesn't deserve to be represented in court. This is wrong!”
“Armaan! Relax!” Abhira replied. “Tum itne hyper mat ho jao. It's okay. Mujhe pata tha aisa hi kuch hoga. Tum Rohit se baat karne itni zidd kar rahe the isliye maine zyada kuch kaha nahi lekin mujhe koi hope nahi thi ki woh yeh case jaane dega. So, I'm fine.”
“But I'm not!” Armaan exclaimed. “Tumhe koi hope nahi hogi. But mujhe thi. Mujhe laga ki mere aur Rohit ke beech chaahe kitni bhi differences ho… Iss maamle mein at least woh meri baat samjhega. Usne ekdum se mana kar diya, Ira. I never thought my brother could be so heartless.”
And that, Abhira realized, was the crux of the matter. Armaan had been disappointed by his family, his brother. While Abhira had no hopes from that family, Armaan did. Despite everything that happened, Armaan still loved them. And, of course he did. That was his family. The people who had raised him, made him the man he was. Of course, he loved them. Of course, he had expectations from them, small as they might be. To be turned away had to hurt. Abhira knew that better than anyone. After all, she had also been shunned, time and again, by that very same family.
Yet, she had also always craved their acceptance, their love and support. There was once a time, not too long ago, when she used to think that she would be able to make a place for herself in their hearts, that she could truly become a part of their family. She had continuously tried so hard to do it too.
But, that was before she met Abir & Mishti. Before she met the rest of the Rajvansh family. Before she realized what family actually was, what it meant when people accepted you whole-heartedly for who you were, and loved you despite your flaws. Every single day that she spent with this family, her family, made her see the cracks in the foundation of the Poddars.
Yes, most of the family members did like her. Some of them genuinely loved her as well. But, at the end of the day, that love didn't matter, because none of them, barring Armaan, had ever been brave enough to stand up to their matriarch. Before Mishti, Abhira used to think that the tight grip that Kaveri had on her family was just her way of making sure that they were all happy & safe. She thought it was a mark of concern, of love. But then, she'd seen how Mishti behaved. Mishti let everyone make their own decisions, she let them make their own mistakes. As their elder, and the unequivocal head of the house, she provided only advice and guidance. She never tried to control anyone, especially not the way Kaveri did.
And, that ironclad grip made it difficult for the family to live their own lives. They all lived only to appease their beloved mother and grandmother. But, Abhira wasn't blind. She did see how Armaan was treated in that house as well. He was the one they all turned to when they were in trouble, expecting him to drop everything to help them out. And when he did do that, he was never appreciated. It had been his duty, after all, as the eldest son. He wasn't allowed to have his own hopes or dreams or even opinions. Armaan was expected to blindly follow orders and do nothing else. He wasn't allowed to make mistakes. Nothing short of absolute perfection was acceptable. Sometimes, even then, he would fall short.
Armaan carried the weight of all their expectations and demands, but he wasn't allowed the same. He wasn't allowed to ask for anything. On the off chance he did ask, he would be turned away if it didn't benefit them. Just like he'd been turned away when he'd expressed his desire to marry her. Or like he'd been turned away now, when he had asked for a case to be let go.
Abhira had known. The moment Armaan had said he'd speak to Rohit about it, she had known that Rohit would never let the case go. After all, doing that would be detrimental to his budding career, and would result in monetary loss for the firm. Rohit gained nothing other than his brother's appreciation for doing that. But, Armaan's appreciation was currency worse than dirt in that house. The loss, though? That was too big. For Rohit & for the firm. So, she had known.
She had also worried about how it would affect Armaan's relationship with Rohit. Because, while Abhira was finally starting to see through the Poddars, Armaan hadn't yet. His emotional connection to them was far deeper than hers had ever been. It wouldn't be so easy for him to realize that the way they treated him, especially Kaveri, Sanjay, Vidya, and Rohit, was unacceptable. He still loved them and cared for them. And Abhira understood, because despite everything, she did too.
She was beginning to resent them, sure. But, the Poddars were still the family that had given her shelter when she had nowhere to go. She had formed some very special bonds in that family too - her chorus gang, her chachi sa, her chachu sa, and her papa. They would always be extremely special to her. Even Vidya was coming around and Abhira hoped that maybe they would share a good relationship down the line. But, Abhira had no hopes from anyone else.
The same couldn't be said for Armaan. And that broke her heart, because she wasn't sure the love he gave those people would ever be reciprocated. But, she would be there for him. And her family would be there for him. They would all fill the void of a loving & caring family in his life.
She knew that Abir & Mishti completely adored Armaan. As did all of her cousins, aunts, and uncles. Every day, Armaan was strengthening his relationship with all of them, right alongside her. They were both getting to know her family together. It had been so easy to blend in with all of them as a unit. They never batted an eye at their relationship and accepted them. They all loved the two of them individually, and together. There were no conditions attached to their acceptance. They all loved her and they loved him, for who they were. With time, Abhira could only hope that Armaan would notice the difference between them & the Poddars too. But till then, they would all silently support him and provide him with the safe haven he needed. Because they were a family. And that's what family did for each other.
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