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Armaan was looking at her keenly unable to understand her thoughts and the words she just spoke. Now ,he was sure she knew something he did not have any idea of. And most probably the thing was not good or rather by the way she is behaving,it was terrible. Whereas, Abhira was going through an emotional turmoil, her mind and body was completely exhausted because she has put a lot of efforts to ignore Armaan and his family. She tried hard to get rude to them and also be silent at all times even when they hurl taunts and impossible accusations on her.
And her feelings towards her deal husband was becoming stronger than ever, she has got a little too attached with him , that is why she was so affected by the Ruhi incident. The intense feelings, the feeling of betrayal from the person she trusted the most, the feeling of loosing the family you have always craved for, the motherly bond with vidhya, buwaji, the friendly but cool bond with Manisha chachi, the fatherly love from Manoj and madhav, the brotherly love from the cousins, the strict but protective love from Dadisa and most importantly the unnamed but the most beautiful bond with her husband Armaan....was taking a toll on her mental health.
She was very disturbed and sad by the thought of going away from them and in the last few months, she has to behave like a jerk.These things were not helping at all and it was becoming overbearing and overwhelming for her and the keen , protective, assuring, possessive and caring eyes of her one year husband which held so much concern for her did not help and she broke apart, she started crying bitterly , pouring all her frustrations , sadness, guilt, every emotion in front of him.
Seeing her cry so badly, she was literally shivering like a petal by the intense feelings. Armaan was shocked by her crying. He grew restless, concerned, protective for his little wife. His heart was breaking seeing her pain. He gathered her in his arms, gently hugging her , reassuring and patting her small and petite form by sweet nothings. She was shivering, hiccuping in between her cries . Seeing this Armaan's heart clenched painfully. He started soothing her by gently moving his rough fingers on her soft , black and beautiful hairs .Slowly, he started sliding his fingers down her nape and opened her hairs. And started making random circles on her scalp and nape whispering sweet nothings and assurance.
This gesture started calming her and she gradually stopped hicupping ,her breathing became normal, and now her cries became little sniffs. He held her even more tighter in her arms as if she would disappear if he leaves her even for a second. After few minutes, she broke free of the hug and slowly untangled her arms from his hold and turned towards the study table now extremely embarrassed at the fact of him being a spectator to her one of the worst breakdowns. She was angry, embarrassed, upset at her self that she let him have such an effect on her that just by his mere eyes , she broke down. She could not meet his eyes.
As she turned to leave, he held her hand with a firm but gentle grip now her back was on his front. He pulled her gently with a small tug towards him and she landed straight in to his hard chest , a gasp escaping her mouth. Since, she was wearing a saree because of dadisa's orders Her navel and waist area was exposed.He backhugged her and put his hands on her naked abdomen locking his palms. She visibly shivered by his rough hands on her soft skin , he was making some lousy ,weird circular patterns from his fingers on her exposed navel beacuse her pallu( veil) went a little upwards because of the pull. He leaned down and kept his chin on her shoulder and slightly touching his stubble with her soft cheeks, she was very affected and nervous by the closeness.
Armaan whispered into her ears in a husky and masculine voice ," Kya huwa Abhira, batao mujhe zaroor tumhare yeh pea sized brain me kuch chal raha hai. Tum itni sad aur shaant kyun ho.Bolo Abhira koi baat hai toh batao mujhe ,koi shikayat hai to karo mujhse,koi takleef ho to hum saath me koi raasta nikal lenge ,par Abhira aise chup chaap toh mat raho , mujhe bilkul acha nhi lagta. Agar tumhe uss Aditya ke saath dinner pe jaane ke liye haan bolne se maine tumpe jo gussa kiya tha aur tum uske liye naraaz ho toh I am sorry, tum jaao jaa sakti ho uske saath, main kuch nhi kahunga," although Armaan's heart was breaking while saying the last words , it is definitely not easy for a man to let his wife go on a date with some other man but for Armaan , Abhira's happiness was more important even at the cost of his sanity.
Abhira stilled from his whispers in her ears while unbeknownst to him his lips were touching her earlobes whenever he talked. This gesture was driving her crazy, he smelled of sandalwoods and cinnamon and his smell was making her senses go haywere. But, when she finally made sense of his words, she became angrier than ever, her breathing became heavy, face red. She turned with a sudden force jerking his hands and maintaining a good distance she pushed him with her tiny palms on the almirah behind and looked at his confused eyes while her eyes were bearing fire.
She harshly wiped her tears, eventually ending with smudged kohl on her beautiful eyes and cheeks. She looked so gorgeous to Armaan at the moment. Her angry and heavy breaths,red face, smudged kohl and the unevenly plaited saree which was making her navel, collar bones and her hands completely visible to his eyes were only making Armaan crazy and desperate for a touch. She was looking so irresistibly hot and beautiful he was mesmerized. Suddenly, the thought of another man looking at her while she looked this beautiful started pouring in his mind. Only he has the right to see her like this, only him. He is her legally wedded husband damnit. How come can he let her go with someone else on a dinner date.
No ,this cannot be happening . He can't let that happen at any cost . Had he gone crazy when he let her consider the idea to go with that guy. Even the notion of some other guy feelings things for her which he was feeling for her did not settle well with him at all. All the what ifs started running in his mind. What if Aditya has started seeing her in a romantic light, what if he has started feeling things for which only he has the right to, what if he started imagining his life with his Abhira after they were done with this marriage. What if Abhira has started feeling something for that guy , what if she considers this marriage only a sham , what if if she starts to reciprocate his feelings. He started hyperventalating .
A sense of insecurity, possessiveness and protectiveness hit him hard in his guts. He was shocked at the intensity of his feelings for her even when he is still not in love with her, what will be like when they will fall in love.
Abhira was looking keenly at his expressions changing from confusion to shock to surprise to uncomfortable to something extremely intense.Abhira remembered his accusations on her and anger and hurt hit her in full force.Having enough of his silent introspection, she clicked her fingers a little too loud and he jerked off from his la la land. Her expressions turned cold and angry as she started speaking to Armaan.
" Tum mujhe bol rhe ho ki main Aditya ke saath dinner pe jaane ke liye itni desperate ho ki main itna ro rhi hun, tumhare paas dimaag wimaag ha ya nhi ki kahin usko bech ke apna favourite vada pav stall pe dabeli toh nhi khaali. Aisa, kaise soch sakte ho tum Armaan mere baare mein, bhale hi yeh shaadi bass ek saal ki deal hai but maine isko Puri loyalty ke saath nibhane ke Koshish kari hai. Aur main bilkul bardaasht nhi krungi tum mere character ya loyalty pe shaq kro ya sawaal uthao. Jabtak ek saal pura nhi ho jaata main aise kisi cheez ke baare me soch bhi nhi sakti unlike you jisse koi fark nhi padta apni wife se.
Main bhi kya bol rhi hun main toh tumhari asli biwi kahaan hun. Tum jaao ,jahaan jaana hai wahaan jaao, jiske paas jaana hai wahaan jaao , jisko hug krna hai kro. Main kaun hoti hun tumhe rokne wali , yah tumhe kuch bolne wli. Go Armaan , leave ,just leave."
She started hitting him with her small fists on his chest. Although,it did not affect him at all but still seeing her hysterical crying and painful expressions and her accusations. He knew she knows something about his past which doesn't matter to him now but if he did not tell her today about it, then maybe he will lose her forever and he can't afford that. It was high time for her to know the complete truth and let her be free from whatever emotions which she was feeling because neither her physical nor her mental state was okay at the moment for god knows what she witnessed or she knows about.
He held her small fists and pulled her on his chest locking both her hands behind her back with his one hand and now turning her towards the almirah pushing her still her hands on her back with his gentle but firm grip on one hand and his other hand on her face holding her. She started wriggling in his hold, pushing,pulling , tossing but everything went to vain. Finally, after she got tired , she stopped struggling and she looked down tears pouring from her eyes as she cried wordlessly. Armaan gently lifted her face with and made her look into his eyes , her tear stained face and red eyes made his gut clench painfully. With a lot of courage and pep talk he started to tell her his two days lovestory.
" Me and Ruhi used to like each other before marriage, we only met twice and liked each other.It was not love at first sight , it was only infactuation and attraction from our sides. Although, I misunderstood those feelings as something as big as love but it is not the truth. Then ,when we were finally going to have our first date dadisa called and told me to leave for Mussoorie so I left where I met you, the best thing which happened to my life.Then when I returned, Ruhi's wedding was fixed with Rohit who liked her .
Ruhi told me to talk for our so called love but I rejected because I can't break my little brother' s heart and my family' s trust. She got angry and took a hasty decision of marrying Rohit but still she could not move on from our two days ka infactuation. Ever since , she married Rohit she always wanted to get close to me I clearly rejected her and refused her straight that she is only my brother's wife and nothing else but she can't seem to understand but I assure you Abhira I have completely moved on from her and I have no feelings for her anymore. Please trust me."
"Abhira ,I wanted to tell this since we got married but initially we both were forced in this marriage and we mutually decided you will not be a part of any of my family matters. So, I avoided it but then gradually everything started to change and from you being a no one in my life to being everything in my life , everything changed. I started harbouring true feelings for you , I started liking you . I am still not in love with you but I promise we will get there eventually if you support me and trust me in this. I didn't tell you because I was afraid of loosing you ,your trust which is most important for me. But , ever since you started behaving weird and rude with me I started to feel really intensely towards you. "
" I also wanted to clear everything to you tonight I planned a dinner date for us , where I would have told you everything about my past and asked your forgiveness and trust once again, and we would have started a new life together on the basis of trust and truth so we may get back to being best friends turned lovers. But , when Aditya out of nowhere asked you out with him. I lost it , i know it was crazy of me to react like a caveman but when it comes to you , I loose all my senses and sanity , a weird and ugly feeling akin to jealousy unfurls in me, so I reacted like that. I am so sorry but Abhira ,I want to keep you safe and sound with me ."
"You are my wife Abhira , my partner in crime,my bestfriend, my confidant. I can't afford to lose you . Neither now nor ever. So , now that you know everything about me, my past,my present. Will you be able to give our relationship a second chance, where there is no place for any deal, any limitations, any awkwardness, any fakeness, and involvement of any third person. Will you give me a chance for real this time, Will you?
Abhira was visibly shocked and surprised by his sudden proposal, when Armaan was narrating his and Ruhi's story she was jealous and really hurt about how and why he hid their past but when she got to know the reason behind her she was really overwhelmed with all the overflowing emotions inside her Armaan being the sole reason for. She was feeling giddy, nervous, happy, shy and ecstatic all of a sudden due to his heartfelt confession because of his intense gaze on her. She started blushing profusely and started to look everywhere but him.
Armaan was visibly nervous and was dying from her silence . He wanted to know the answer as soon as possible even if it was no but her lack of answer was making him all scared , uneasy and anxious. So, he held Abhira's hand assuring her with a gentle squeeze ,she looked at him trying to decipher his expressions. She smiled and cupped his face in her tiny palms. She looked at his questioning and awaiting eyes , both having an intense eye contact unable to look away from each other eyes staring right through each other's soul with a piercing stare.
She wet her lips to speak and Armaan found this gesture extremely tempting and sexy but coming on terms with the situation in hand and shook his head to come out of his unholy thoughts about his own wife but this is not the time . Abhira spoke," Armaan, look I know you but the betrayal I got from you is something really heartwrenching . Although, the reason is justified and I now know about it.I trust you ,I really do but it will take time to come on terms with the truth which affects both of us to a great extent . I am trying and I will try harder to forget your past and live in the present but I need some time. I am not sure about my feelings for you at the moment about what they mean . But I am sure that I like you, hopefully it will turn into something more beautiful and real soon but it will take time and we will get there eventually. ,"
Armaan was delighted at the prospect of Abhira liking him and how understanding she is for the situation. But he was also a little sad when she told him she needs a little more time but he was sure he will make her fall for him and vice versa. He can give her all the time in the world if that means there future would be joyous with them being together forever. But to clear all the doubts in his mind he asked her again a little unsurely," Are you sure Abhira, if you are doing it out of any compulsion then please don't. I don't want to force you if you don't feel the same. I promise I won't let any harm come to you. Abhira ,leave if yo—" Abhira shut him up by her palms on his mouth and said
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"Oh my god, khadoosmaan. Tum toh mujhse bhi jyada bolne lage ho. Maine bola nh ki maine haan kisi cheez ke dabaav me aake nhi ki hai . Yeh mera khud ka decision hai. Aur abb tumne dobara aisa bola ki main tumhe chor ke chali jaaun toh main sach me chali jaungi. Yahaan tak ki Aditya ke saath date pe bhi jaungi . Phir aana rote rote Abhira kahaan gyi.....Areyyy tumhe dekho ,sharam nhi aati tumhe tumhari biwi yahaan pe jaane ki baat kr rhi hai woh bhi date pe kisi aur ke saath, abhi tak toh tum do seengh wale pagaal saand ki tarah bawle ho gye they just because usne mujhe dinner ke liye puch liya aur abb tum chup kr ke khade ho .......bolo bhi kuch.,"Abhira exclaimed.
Armaan was whimpering and wriggling trying to speak something but this dumb cutieee wife of his did not realise that she was keeping his hand in his mouth not letting him speak.And now she was only urging him to speak. She realised it when she saw him struggling and smiled sheepishly embarrassed all of a sudden .When she tried removing her hand he held her hand gently tugging her closer and kissing the insides of her palm. She shivered visibly all of a sudden being all nervous and blushy. Armaan gave her a hearty chuckle and pulled her in for a hug.
That night, they embraced each other with new and beautiful feelings inside which was still not love but something really beautiful depicting the arrival of a very happy and great future ahead. They were locked securely in each other's arms listening to each other's rhythmic heartbeats and felt satisfaction, happiness and prosperity wash over them.
The end.
Finally, it is the end of the TS , less of jealous abhimaan but more of a beautiful confrontation eventually leading to their happily ever after. How was it... senior writers please tell your views. Because I get really inspired by your reviews , I am only 17 and still giving my boards. But hopefully, it was not too bad. All kinds of comments are welcome.
Thank you
Niharika♥️
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