Part 67
G- NOT EVERYTHING IS PMS!! How many times do I tell you??!! You think this is a joke?! Women are a joke?! Our feelings and emotions are just Hormones acting out?! You never understand anything! I want to go back! I don't want to stay. I don't want to stay with you. You go and be with your ex-girlfriend! I hate this place! I hate you! I hate myself! Why did you marry me when you liked someone else?! I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. You scum heartless man! You are hateful!
Geet ranted and eventually stopped hitting Maan.
She burried her face in the same pillow and wallowed in self misery.
G- I am even more hateful! Everyone is right! I am a mistress, a house breaker, gold digger. I am greedy and hateful! No one will ever like me. No one should ever like me. I deserve to be scorned. To be looked down on. To be mocked. I deserve it all...
Maan listened to her heartbreaking words and grew somber as he heard more of her negative feelings.
Seeing her breakdown like this, Maan felt something ache inside himself too.
He hugged her into his arms with pillow and all.
She tried to resist and break away, but he held her tight.
M- I am sorry. Shh. Don't cry. I was the one who said it wrong ... baby don't cry anymore... don't cry.... don't cry...
He patted her back.
Geet hiccupped and informed him between tearful breaths that she wasn't crying.
Maan kept patting her back and occasionally rubbed and stroked her head.
He didn't know what to say to her at this moment. …where to start dispelling her doubts.
He could say he was sorry and it's his mistake...because that is what he felt the most.
He knew something was wrong. Yet he let her bear it for a whole day. It's his fault for not talking to her earlier, for not telling her that she is lovable not hateful.
M – Baby, it's all my fault, okay? Don't be sad anymore. Shh ... we can talk about everything. Don’t put yourself down like this. You are so great, so good everywhere. Don't be so mean to yourself.
Geet eventually stopped crying, but she didn't stop feeling all the negative emotions. She still felt all the things she had said just now were true.
G - Why? Why are you with me? Why do you care if I cry or fall sick or get hurt? Why aren't with your first love. Your ex-girlfriend? Why did you even marry me instead of going after her and marrying her. You both match so well... whereas I am just a dirt poor illiterate stupid uncouth greedy gold digger.
She tried to push Maan away again.
G - Go. Go be with her. You deserve better. Go. No need to pity worry about me.
No one dared say such things in front of Maan. Only when he was talking to someone else, they would pull Geet into another group and discuss this way. So Maan was unaware about the whole situation.
She pushed against Maan’s chest with her full strength, to get away from or to make him go away.
Maan almost lost his hold on her and let her go.
He thought of letting her go, let her have her space and sort it out.
But just when she was about to break away, he threw away the damned pillow wall between them and hugged her close even tighter than before.
He suddenly had a strong guy feeling and an uneasy sensation in his heart. Like he had once before when he was saying goodbye to her after the yacht auditions.
It was totally irrational, but he firmly felt that if he let her go now... maybe she will leave forever.
M - No. Not letting you go. Never
G - Why? Don't you hate me? Don't you want to be with other people more? You want to keep me close and personally torture?
Geet asked him tearfully, still trying her best to push him away. Not stopping for a second
M – Yes, I want to keep you close. No matter what I am not letting you go. Ever. And stop talking about ex-girlfriend and other woman nonsense. There is no one else. There is only you. Are you tired of me, is that it? You want to throw me away to someone else? Hmm?
G - Why keep me close? There is no benefits in being with me... I even made you lose bunch of money. And don't act innocent! You know who I am talking about!
M – Fine-fine. Let's agree your business and maths is week. You can't calculate the benefits correctly. So, leave it to me, you only need to know that till now profits have been significantly higher than losses.
G - You are lying. Stop patronizing me and changing topic.
M - What woman? What ex-girlfriend? What first love? Who are you talking about? I really don't know!
G - Stop pretending! I already know everything. Anyways even if you divorce me, I won't ask for anything. You leave me alone. I will book tonight's flight and leave immediately.
M - You want a divorce without alimony payout?!! You greedy woman! Whom did you sell me to? How much have they paid you? Don't you know I am a returnable item?
G - ......
Geet lightly punched his chest 2-4 times.
G - You still think it's funny? You think this is fun? Are you happy? Are you enjoying yourself? Did seeing me being butt of ridicule amuse you enough?
All this time while Maan tried to talk her down... He also kept trying to figure out what could have happened for her to react this way.
He realized that someone might have lied to her about his college life but this... someone made fun of her and ridiculed her too.
Maan tried to think of who all it could have been? Who did he see talking to Geet when he wasn't near her. He tried to remember her micro expressions from those times. A list started forming in his mind for possible and probable suspects and a long-lost voices in his head also spoke up
Let's f*ck them up!! We couldn't touch her family... but these people ... hahaha just arrived at the right time!
hmmm you take care of her. We will plan the revenge.
Maan didn't reply to Geet for the longest time and Geet felt maybe she had finally hit the nail on the head.
Feeling depressed she raised her head to see if he was laughing at her in pity.
Instead, she a say a cold evil glint in his eyes. Immediately she felt a shiver down her spine...
She ...she had seen it before once when her parents had beaten her.
G - Why...why are you getting so angry at me for? I said I will leave immediately... you don't be so angry, okay?
Maan suddenly felt like a stranger, and it terrified her.
Maan Blinked his eyes at her and next second Geet felt everything had returned to normal.
Was she being delusional? Did she have some sort of hallucination right now?
M - Why shouldn't I be angry at people who hurt you. Who all made you cry?
He smiled at her. But the smile didn't reach his eyes. It wasn't a happy smile. He looked a like villain plotting to kill.
His voice turned even more gentle and soft and coaxing.
M - Come my dear. Tell me exactly what happened today. Okay? Tell me all the details. Who has said what to you? Don't spare anyone. Okay?
Geet hiccupped and leaned away from him a bit. Not daring to throw any more emotional tantrums.
G - I don't want to…
M - Hm?
G - Don't want to…to... tattle....
M - Shh... it's okay it's a secret between us.
He slowly rubbed her cheek with his thumb. Erasing away the last traces of tears from her cheek
Geet didn't know what happened but suddenly as under some sort of hypnotic influence she just said everything... told him everything.
After she finished telling him everything. Maan brushed away her hair and softly kissed her forehead.
M - thank you for telling me. I know it wouldn't have been easy to repeat these words and to recall these incidents. I promise you don't have to think about them ever again. I want to make some things clear to you. Will you listen? Can you stop trying to run away?
Geet slowly nodded and Maan eased his hold on her. Letting her sit back comfortably.
It was then Geet realized, how strongly he had been holding her.
M - I have never. Not once. Been in love with any woman not even Ayesha. Before I met you and before we got married. No matter who comes to you tomorrow and claims to have romantic connection with me is lying. I can swear on this or sign anything. Whatever will make you believe it. As for Ayesha. I never even saw her as a female or a person of opposite sex. Yes, there was respect, but is also gone as of this moment. She won't be showing her face around here ever again. Why did I marry you? Why do you think? Because I liked you! I liked spending time with you, I liked irritating you... like a kindergarten kid irritates a girl he is crushing on... Yes, I had my reservations and doubts about you in the beginning. And I even said a lot of stupid things. But so, what? we didn't date and get married conventionally. Didn’t you also make stupid decisions when you were at a low point? Thankfully for me it turned out, you saying yes to my proposal. But point is ... people do stupid things sometimes when they feel desperate and their whole life and they good they have done cannot be negated by these actions.
G - But I…
M - No. You are not a gold digger. I won't discuss philosophy, but I strongly believe that being a greedy is good. Being greedy makes people ambitious. And without ambition we would still be living in the stone age. What else is troubling you?
Maan spoke patiently. Telling her slowly everything he believed in. Everything he felt.
Geet felt like she had been put under some mesmerizing spell the moment he kissed her forehead.
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