Originally posted by: unicornhugs
I feel he initially declined the coffee, maybe just out of habit but also because he was upset about Ayra. Then I felt he realized he wanted her company but by then she was in her room. He knocks and won’t come in until she opens the door herself. He wants her full permission before coming in. As soon as she opened the door, I felt like he felt sudden surge of attraction. When he came in, he became very conscious that he was in her personal space (he was even eyeing the bed). His looks felt like he wanted to do more but refrained. His been alone with her before in her room and his own room but I felt this is the first time (at least after marriage) that he had feelings for her. It made him act a bit shy and awkward. He was clearly very attracted to her. It’s true that even through this there was a comfortability and he didn’t feel guilty at all. Even when he woke up, he seemed to comfortable. I thought he might react when Ayra woke him up but he just told her to leave 🤣 So when he told Ayra that MJ’s room is his room too, was that him acknowledging MJ as his wife too and that it’s not just contractual?
May I add my two cents here? 
When Zaid made that phone call to Mubashira to threaten her with an impending divorce, he gave it a lot of thought and used it as his last resort – he was drowned with guilt, wanted to make everything right for Ayra and her sister-in-law and he knew there is no way his father would agree to Ayra’s demand of acceptance. So, he used the only weapon he had in his arsenal – if anyone, it must be Mubashira Jaffer who could convince his father. But he was not sure that it’d work, Mubashira was not known to bend to someone’s demands that easily. So, he was clearly surprised when Asif declared that they were at Ayra’s doorstep to get them married. His look conveyed all – he was shocked, he was shooting an arrow in the dark (not in complete darkness, maybe…as he knew what she had gone through) and couldn’t really believe that she agreed with his demand. Throughout that wedding day, his looks for her were of bewilderment – she was going extra miles for him, even if it was her scheming, that was not how the Mubashira Jaffer he knew functioned. It continued till their reception night – he was partly puzzled, partly guilt conscious, partly contemplating – trying to understand, partly grateful and with time, started to appreciate her efforts. The night of their reception was the second time he willingly approached her without a request of his own, to thank her – and when Aira dragged him with her he gave in without any protest.
He was definitely softening towards Mubashira – he callously dismissed her being his wife when his father mentioned it and later, during his conversation with Ayra, accepted it – whatever it is, she is married to him. Then after their car conversation, we saw him ponder on Mubashira’s words – that she’ll be there with him, no matter what. Initially, he was reluctant to share his problems with her, but it seems that their conversation did soothe him. Amid the chaos of his life, he valued the companionable vibe she provided – still, while thinking about it, he didn’t seem happy. Whatever he had with Mubashira, he was planning to keep it compartmentalized, away from the life he thought he wanted – the life he wanted to create with the women whom he had convinced himself that he is in love with (which is debatable!). Mubashira is slowly drifting into his heart, acquiring a soft spot – I am not sure whether he is really happy with that understanding.
With that harangue done, we come to that ‘coffee request’. One thing is clear about that scene, there was no pretense from both sides – their interaction was genuine. His eyes softened and demeanor changed, almost guarded, when he saw her. Her question was softly uttered as was his answer (the softness of the tone he used while saying ‘Ayra ko lene’ was not something he used for her earlier, there was something else in there that I could not quite pinpoint, so, moving on..!). When she asked the next question, his mind had gone to somewhere else while looking at her – I wonder what he was thinking – he had to shake himself to answer her. When he dismissed her offer for coffee (which managed to dim her eyes with hurt) – it could be because he was already upset with Ayra, or it also could be because he was reluctant to accept the companionship she was willingly extending - going against which probably he knew he needed at that point. It’d have been great if they showed at least a glimpse of what went through his head, before he ended up at her doorstep. My guess is that he tried saying no to himself, but the pull of needing whatever her presence provided was stronger, so he ended up knocking her door. Agreed - there was shyness and awkwardness in his demeanor unlike previous many times they were together in a room alone, because he understood that their relationship has moved from the uncomplicated ‘contractual marriage only’ zone to somewhere else. There was definitely attraction, an unresolved intimacy that he was trying to comprehend. I am glad that Mubashira opened the door and even let Ayra barge into the room (although Ayra’s act was totally uncalled for and might I add, wrong in many ways!). Unlike the previous time when Ayra dragged him out of Mubashira’s company, he didn’t comply with her demand – that was a first, no?
But what I liked the most was Mubashira’s eyes when he declared that this room also belonged to him – it was the guest room, which is now occupied by her, by saying it is his room too, Zaid actually credited their relationship – that was a first too, right? Her eyes said it all – she didn’t really notice what Ayra said afterward, happy with the realization that Zaid refused Ayra and willingly chose to be with her. As Mubashira once said, Zaid is 'no nonsense' - he was unapologetic about waking up on her bed. They have a long way to go, but they are definitely seeking each other.
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