One sided..yes Its been years, he was a college classmate and i liked him from a distance since 1st year. I always knew we cant be together because he was in a committed long term relationship(since class 9) but destiny is so freaking weird. In the last year of college he got teamed up for the annual project with my best friend and that started our journey of him being a crush to me to him being a friend. We started hanging out together…his best friend, him and two of my friends and me, we made a gang. We would bunk classes together and do everything together. That was one of the best years of my life. I was an introvert in school who had been bullied for my weight but he always treated me with so much care and respect like he would treat everyone else. Ofcourse that was not love from his side but it felt like that to me. He was the only guy who wont care if i said no to group outings… he would insist that i dont stay alone and enjoy the college life and what wonders did that do to me! I became so confident amidst people, insisted my cousins to click my pictures which i hated earlier because of the way i looked. I still remember he called me from a family wedding to congratulate me as i got selected in two back to back placements. He sounded ecstatic and said he was so proud! Cant forget that excitement in his voice.
Years after we left college i lost weight and worked on my overall looks and got approached by guys, but i guess no one has ever even come 5% closer in making me love myself the way he did. Though i have moved on from him but his love will always stay with me as my self confidence and self love. Ofcourse i will be marrying for love even if not to him, but his smile and confidence in me stays with me that always helps me feel content with myself 😊
There was this incident i vividly remember, when coming back from our farewell party everyone hopped onto his car and asked him to drop us but at last only i was left. I was so happy because for the first and last time i was getting to sit in the front seat of his car. In my mind I constantly thought what he must be thinking…sabne bichare ko mere saath phasa diya so i asked him to drop me at a signal near to my home and go straight. And he got angry at that. Ki why you have to be so formal. 😂 That was one of the happiest i had ever felt in my life.
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