NOTE: This fanfic, originally titled "Kuch nahin" has been rechristened to "Safarnaama" as a result of the author's growing realization that Kuch toh hai
For new readers, this story starts at the point where Abhira first discovers the divorce papers (prepared and brought by Ruhi to Mussorie). From there on, the plot deviates from that of the show. It's an imagining of the direction the story could have taken from that point onwards, in an alternate universe, where Armaan did not embark on a track that might well be completely beyond redemption... It's an imagining, essentially, of what could have been.
PART ONE
“Ye mera kuch nahin lagta,” Abhira said coldly.
Armaan's heart shattered into a million pieces at her words. He reached out to touch her, to explain, to beg her to stay, but she stepped back, her eyes filled with a pain that cut him deeper than any blade.
"Abhira, please, listen to me," he pleaded, his voice raw with emotion, as he struggled against the crowd that was restraining him. "It's not like that. I never wanted this. It was not me who prepared those divorce papers ... just listen to me please…"
But before he could finish, Abhira had turned away. Her resolve steeling her against his words, her steps heavy with the weight of her shattered hopes, and boarded a passing truck.
With desperation clawing at his heart and determination burning in his veins, Armaan dashed out of the temple, his strides fueled by an urgency he had never known. He raced down the winding road, his eyes scanning the horizon ahead for any sign of Abhira. And then he saw it—the faint silhouette of Abhira in a truck fading into a bend in the road. With a new surge of hope, Armaan quickened his pace, his breaths coming in ragged gasps as he pushed himself to reach her before it was too late. He called out her name, his voice echoing off the surrounding hills, a fervent plea for her to stop, to give him one last chance to make things right, as he closed the distance between them.
As his feet pounded against the road, he finally caught up to the truck, his hand grasping desperately at the edge of the cargo bed. For a fleeting moment, he felt a surge of relief as he pulled himself up, his fingers clinging to the metal with a fierce determination. But then, without warning, the truck jolted over a sharp speed bump, and Armaan's grip slipped, and he fell with a thud on the unforgiving ground.
He sank to his knees, the weight of his guilt crushing him like a vice. He had never wanted to hurt Abhira, never wanted to break her heart. But he had failed her in the worst possible way. He had not been truthful to her regarding his equation with Ruhi, perhaps because deep down, he was ashamed of what he was doing to Abhira and to Rohit. He had failed her, not just as a husband but as a friend too. And in the process, he had failed Akshara ma'am too.
Tears blurred his vision as he clutched the divorce papers in his hand, the tangible proof of his failure. Just then, he felt a gentle hand on his shoulder, pulling him back to reality. Blinking back the haze of pain, he looked up to see Ruhi's concerned face hovering above him, her eyes filled with worry. "Armaan, are you alright?" she asked, her voice tinged with genuine concern.
Struggling to push himself up, Armaan managed a weak nod, his gaze flickering away from Ruhi's searching eyes. She helped him to his feet gently, before she exclaimed, her voice brimming with enthusiasm, "Armaan, I have another plate of alta! We can complete the 'Shiv Shakti' ritual together."
Armaan's heart sank like a stone within him and he felt a pang of sadness wash over him. The woman before him bore little resemblance to the Ruhi he had once fallen in love with. She had become bitter, demanding, and needy. She was so excited to complete a ritual that was immoral in the first place, given that they were both married to different people, that she had missed the tears in his eyes. Her every action lately seemed steeped in a desire for control, oblivious to the struggles he and Abhira faced. How had he not realised when Ruhi's demands and ultimatums had become so suffocating? Her inability to understand him, her selfishness that eclipsed any empathy or understanding, only served to widen the distance that had crept in between them, despite — or perhaps even because of — her attempts to cling on to him so desperately.
And then, his thoughts turned to Abhira— his friend, his partner, his rock in times of turmoil. The relentless fighter who forged through with a strength and resilience that left him in awe, depending on nobody but herself to navigate the challenges life threw her way. And she too, like her mother, had that ability to care for everyone selflessly. Her heart, so pure, overflowed with love and kindness for all who crossed her path. She had always stood by him, not out of obligation or duty, but out of genuine affection and understanding. Her strength and resilience had inspired him, reminding him of the power of perseverance and determination in the face of adversity.
Armaan had no doubt that Abhira would continue to forge ahead, fulfilling not only her own dreams but also those of her late mother. Her spirit had been forged in the fires of adversity, and she would stop at nothing to achieve her goals. As he reflected on their bond, he realized that it was not Abhira who needed him, but rather, he who needed her—a constant presence in his life, a source of joy and comfort, who made him feel alive and carefree, like a child once again.
As Ruhi's eyes met Armaan's, she noticed for the first time the sorrow etched into his features. Confusion clouded her own expression as she questioned him, her voice laced with concern. "Armaan, why are you crying? What's wrong?" she asked, her brow furrowed with worry.
Armaan's gaze flickered towards the divorce papers lying forgotten on the ground, his heart heavy with the weight of his words. He could barely muster the strength to speak as he uttered the words that had shattered his world. "She knows," he said softly, his voice barely more than a whisper. "Abhira knows about the divorce papers, she left."
At first, Ruhi's reaction was one of elation, her face lighting up with joy at the news. But as she looked into Armaan's blank expression, a pang of confusion pierced through her jubilation. Why would he seem so devastated when Abhira had left? Wasn't this what they both wanted? Her mind raced with questions, her thoughts jumbled and uncertain as she struggled to understand what was happening.
Her eyes hastily sifted through the divorce papers, and fell upon a small post-it note that had been tucked amidst the legal documents. Her heart skipped a beat as she read Abhira's words, her voice barely a whisper as she relayed the message to Armaan.
"Armaan, look," she said, her tone tinged with excitement as she held out the note for him to see. "Abhira has signed the papers. She's written that she's freeing you from your duty and responsibility towards her. She's thanking you for everything. Everything's fine now."
Armaan's eyes fixed on the post-it note, his heart heavy with a sense of finality as he absorbed Abhira's words.
Ruhi's words echoed in his ears, her tone brimming with optimism and hope for the future. "This is good news, Armaan," she said, her voice buoyant with enthusiasm. "You're free now, she has left."
But as Armaan looked into Ruhi's eager eyes, he realized that the bonds that had tied him to Abhira were not merely of duty or obligation. He did not want this so-called freedom, he wanted to stand side-by-side with Abhira and watch as she conquered the world. She had not left his life, she had thrown him out of hers.
He walked away from Ruhi, unable to say a word. He could not be who she wanted him to be anymore.
INDEX
Part Two - Page 1
Part Three - Page 2
Part Four - Page 3
Part Five - Page 5
Part Six - Page 6
Part Seven - Page 8
Part Eight - Page 10
Part Nine- Page 11
Part Ten - Page 12
Part Eleven - Page 13
Part Twelve - Page 15
Part Thirteen - Page 16
Part Fourteen - Page 17
Part Fifteen - Page 20
Part Sixteen - Page 21
Part Seventeen - Page 23
Part Eighteen - Page 24
Part Nineteen - Page 26
Part Twenty - Page 28
Part Twenty-One - Page 30
Part Twenty-Two - Page 32
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