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Hi TB,

Suan (Sharon) here.

I do remember you. Thanks for opening this thread. I was shocked when a few of my Forum friends whom I'm still in touch with, messaged me about Sushant's passing.

I'm still in shock because I wasn't aware of him experiencing any difficulties. I still can't believe it and wish he had had someone in his life to whom he could turn, at that low point.

He never seemed to get over his mother's death. My consolation is that he is finally with her in her loving embrace, something he craved all his life.

He is at peace and is in a place where he will only know happiness. I miss him being here with us, and pray for his family and dear ones.

Hi Lunza!

Miss my PR Forum friends and those good old days.

Never knew Sushant was battling depression. Something that all the love, success, wealth, can't cure. His soul is at rest now, something he couldn't achieve on this earth.

Sharon.

Originally posted by: AreYaar

Who is this Rohini Iyer lady who posted a big rant on Instagram about how she was Sushant's BFF? lol she too has written a long essay about Sushant's astronomy interests and his reading famous authors like Sarte and Nietzsche. I'm getting the general sense that Sushant had different hangout circles in bollywood and TV and they may have diverged at some point into different perceptions about him....which is why the bolly people are saying one thing and the TV people are saying another.

She's a PR executive who considers herself best friends with everyone in bollywood. At first I was giving her the benefit of the doubt because I wouldn't expect someone to do this in light of an untimely demise... but really it's a load of PR spin to turn the narrative around and away from her other clients and friends. It was well written for its intended audience (people who don't know much about him, which is just about everyone) and I guess she accomplished her mission of making it go viral... but so much of it just isn't true. She makes him sound like a hyper efficient robot sadhu with no conscience... but in an aspirational way with great use of popular imagery. And if I didn't know any better I probably would have believed it, given how passionately it was written. But he loved being showered with attention and validation and being loved... people's priorities can change but I don't think that kind of intrinsic craving goes away.

I know I am trying (yes that's the exact word) to overlook all the negative thoughts about him regarding break up and post break up issues. Because actually now those feelings have nothing to do with him. So I am trying to remember his good sides only. Basically I am feeling guilty after reading one of his tweet to his fan. One fan wrote I am not going to watch this movie as your character is dying in it too. In reply sushant requested him to watch the movie saying pls watch otherwise I will not survive in this industry. I don't have any Godfather. You guys are my Godfather. This shows clearly he became very much insecured with his career and may be just needed one blockbuster movie to bounce back.

I have read the whole thread and cannot agree more with you all. I also found only PR co actors expressed genuine grief over his death and shared the nicest memories of sushant. Though most of them lost touch with him yet they had the closest bonding with him. I wish Sushant was in touch with them. He became lonely deep inside.

As I said I watched all his interviews last couple of days, I noticed one thing. It seems like he was faking smile, excitement and enthusiasm in most of his IVs. As if he was trying fo cover his inner sadness from the outside world.

I really want to know why 7 big production houses banned him. Yes it happens to an outsider in BW but why he was the only target? Like if you see Ayushman Khurana, Rajkumar Rao or vicy kaushal they all are like SSR. No Godfather in the industry and are more talented than star kids. But they are not targeted the way Sushant was attacked. I am really curios.

But in anyway we cannot say what was the exact reason of this step. He said in many interviews that he gets bored too easily. That is why he kept trying new things and took up big challenges. The only thing kept him awake at night was the excitement of tomorrow's work. And this Covid 19 situation has really impacted many people who are passionate about their work. So we really don't know what the reason is. Whatever it is, we pray for his soul.

Originally posted by: toothbrush13

I'm thankful you found this thread! You can probably see that on previous pages I have done a ton of word-vomiting while trying to process this, so please feel welcome to say whatever you are feeling. We are here to support each other and that includes you too girl!

I hope that one day you are able to forgive yourself, but I can understand that the journey to get there may take a long time. ❤️

I can really feel you on the fangirl waking up again. Right down to being defensive against opinions of him that I don't agree with. Like Anu posted a few pages back, it's amazing how human nature and empathy work. I still can't believe we are even here for this. I very unfortunately ended up catching sight of the pictures from the scene and I nearly threw up... it's seared into my brain forever and it's something I never ever thought I would see.

Hi All. Hugs to everyone. This is Ashu. May be some of you won’t remember or know me. I have been reading all the posts on the thread since TB shared the link. I am not good at expressing things through writing but whatever you guys have written are exactly my thoughts and thank you for that. I am still in a denial. I don’t know why. When I see the old pictures/videos from PR or Sushita flowing through twitter or Instagram they seems so real and genuine. Sushant’s whole hearted smile in those videos and pictures melts my heart and put a smile on my face.

After their breakup, finally I was able to get over them after months. I managed to convince myself to accept that and move on. I stopped following them like I used to. It was just on and off I would see any article or someone would share something I would just scroll further. No hard feelings or anything as such I was happy that they were doing well in their life.

But with the news everything seems to have come back whatever I left behind few year.
With the news something broke inside me. I never ever imagined Sushant doing anything like this. He was such a happy soul back then.
I agree with you guys the change in him happened over these years, he sought for acceptance and validation from the industry people but never got any. I saw Instagram posts with his replies asking people to watch his movies or they will throw him out, not having godfather etc, asking some director another movie as a birthday gift. He was trying hard to fit in and stay.

I saw those pictures from the scene on Sunday and since then I am not able to sleep. I close my eyes and the picture flash in front of me. I never imagined I would ever see him like this. It just breaks my heart.

For me personally the past few months have been very rough, with staying alone, then the lockdown for more than 3 months now, losing my nephew last month and now with this news. Everything seems to be tearing me apart.

I hope you guys get the strength to overcome this. Take care.

Originally posted by: lunza

Gosh, if y'all weren't there to agree with me and recall the pre-Dhoni and DBB days, I would think I am imagining things - and that that goofball never existed.

For real!! If I didn't have you guys and old posts/DMs to help me I may have fallen for all of the new narratives as well.

For me, part of the reason I don't feel as confident in my opinions as before is that I literally ignored him for the last third of his career... but that doesn't mean everything before that wasn't real!

It has been interesting to see how inaccurate a lot of the information out there is... almost every word people post on twitter about him is just wrong. The most accurate assessments of him/them are still limited to just this website. And people that weren't on here back in the day would never even know how little information there used to be available... daily searches and social media checks would often turn up blank for days and weeks at a time lol. I remember we were convinced for a while that most media outlets didn't even like them because they were rarely covered or mentioned. Or if they were then it wasn't flattering, though with time we got to learn about how much fakeness and money is involved even in just basic coverage. I also remember when they were both considered mostly boring people who only had aunties for fans lol. I'm kind of glad that they became famous when they did... nowadays TV and film-related media both churn out extreme amounts of garbage news and it's getting harder to tell what's real without practice.

Edit: I started reading more about what he was up to these past few years and how he was treated by everyone, including the media... I had no idea how much slandering was going on. I'm thankful we have old, happy memories and a positive version of him to hold on to... some of the newer things written about him are just bizarre and it's sad to think that is all some people may have ever known him by.

Tanyadi! 🤗 Sharon! 🤗 Ashu! 🤗

My love to all of you. I know I have said this ten times already but I still can't believe we are here and writing about any of this. It feels surreal. Years ago when we started posting on here I never thought we would be watching a tragedy unfold.

I haven't done anything productive for four days at this point... I can't stop thinking about this.

Please feel welcome to write about anything you may be feeling and let it out. Or just read. Or cope in whichever way might help you through this.

Hi Sharon di, Ashu , Tanya di , Afsara and anyone else I might've missed. So good to see all of you. But I never thought it will be after something like this happening...

This thread has brought back so many memories n feels. I m remembering so many random things... Like jia, tb and Nisha gushing together on threads, mine and Niki's to n fro, and all the swooning over his smile and cheering whenever his shirt in PR was unbuttoned more than usual.

All the roller coaster emotions during JDJ, the disappointment after the finale, the KPC trailer ( and u can guess which my fav bit was :P ) , the excitement over the innovative SDR promotional posters and teasers, the happiness I felt over the best song in PK being picturized on him, the joy I felt (and the disappointment that followed later) when he got his detective franchise with DBB.

Originally posted by: lunza

I m remembering so many random things... Like jia, tb and Nisha gushing together on threads, mine and Niki's to n fro, and all the swooning over his smile and cheering whenever his shirt in PR was unbuttoned more than usual.

Oh God LOL the shirt buttons discussions. We used to talk about anything and everything, I remember being absolutely shameless lol. Do you remember there was this one performance where they wore velvet outfits and his had the deepest V-neck and it was so extra but we were sooo here for it. And then the chubby days where he wore an undershirt when he had to take his shirt off for a scene lol. I will always miss those initial few years... "Uth jao MOTI BAHU!"

Edit: I found one of my old accounts and there's not a lot on there but oh God the memories... :(

I had forgotten how much he enjoyed annoying her for his own amusement lol... I used to love these bits and still do

And this is just self-explanatory

Edit 2: They completely changed the method for adding images... ya girl was lost for a good while

Edit 3: Since I'm taking a trip down memory lane... who remembers Bhagwan Manav / Insaniyat Baba LOL

Edit 4: From an interview in July 2010... "I just wish one Friday I have 3 films releasing by Yash Chopra, Vishal Bharadwaj and Shekhar Kapur and yes, I shall have an apartment beside the apartment behind Mannat which will be my jannat (smiles)." ....... Y'all ...... why :(

Edit 5: Almost all of these old interviews included food in some way lol... puran poli, parathe, chai, chocolate, pani puri, bhajjiye, pav bhaji, that one weird pasta recipe that used mayo... and of course the constant cigarettes -__-

Edit 6: "Tumhe aur koi toh milne wali nahi hai, are you lucky enough to say yes to me?" ..... :(

Edit 7: "Archanaji aapko yeh Ram kaisa lag raha hai?" "SEXY"

I should stop I'm just going to make myself sad again

Edit 8: Mmkay one last one... if anyone remembers Besharamz4Lyfe or a discussion on leg hair, please forgive me for being so obnoxious... I was underage and I blame my chaperones Nisha and Jia

Originally posted by: toothbrush13

Oh God LOL the shirt buttons discussions. We used to talk about anything and everything, I remember being absolutely shameless lol. Do you remember there was this one performance where they wore velvet outfits and his had the deepest V-neck and it was so extra but we were sooo here for it. And then the chubby days where he wore an undershirt when he had to take his shirt off for a scene lol. I will always miss those initial few years... "Uth jao MOTI BAHU!"

OMG yes, his one liners were epic . Thank God we got all the BTS segments and interviews. Especially some of the dance rehearsal BTS .. I still remember the ZRA ones