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Originally posted by: nikitagmc

The astrophysics thing that every BW celebrity is writing about, from PC to saif, seems utterly fake to me to be honest. Not that he was interested in it, (we know he was, but then he was interested in reading ALL types of books, even financial, fiction, philosophy) but the fact that people are using the astrophysics point to emphasize that they knew him well and he was wonderful. I think they are just copying that thing from each other's interviews or looked up his Instagram quickly wondering what to write with the RIP post, or had this brief conversation because he apparently carried his telescope with him so they had like this only thing to make short talk/polite conversation with him. Because otherwise I can't imagine him going to just about any celebrity he met for the first time and rattling about astrophysics.

Maybe I feel that way because I feel that all celebrities are fake and their posts ring hollow, most of them weren't even his friends or hang out with him, and yet you have saif giving a whole interview about him. You won't find his real friends going on and on about the things the celebs are talking about . They will talk about his goofiness and the masti they did on sets and house parties later and the fact that he could eat six paranthas at a time with a glass of lassi!!

Saif mainly spoke about how people are piling on with agendas regarding Sushant's death and trying to pretend great sympathy and regret when they hardly knew the guy so I think he made a valid point there.

As for the astrophysics stuff....yes, everyone seems to be running with that narrative. It's possible that is all Sushant spoke about in recent years in his interaction with his bollywood co-stars so they are all fixating on that now. They obviously didn't know him well enough to know other aspects of his personality.

Who is this Rohini Iyer lady who posted a big rant on Instagram about how she was Sushant's BFF? lol she too has written a long essay about Sushant's astronomy interests and his reading famous authors like Sarte and Nietzsche. I'm getting the general sense that Sushant had different hangout circles in bollywood and TV and they may have diverged at some point into different perceptions about him....which is why the bolly people are saying one thing and the TV people are saying another.

What abhishek kapoor wrote seemed to be the most honest account of ssr- he didn't get validation for good work in the form of better roles, more popularity, endorsements or awards and wasn't seen as a 'hero' by people. I got that idea too from his last few interviews- and largely felt that his 'I don't care anyway' attitude was just a shield to the media so as not to prove himself vulnerable and accepting that yes he was failing somewhere. You have to remember that heis the guy who succeeded in every exam and every medium- but not this time- everything he did failed to give him validation and he landed on his face. Leaving ankita, changing managers frequently, making grandiose declarations in press along with outrageous charities, changing attitude, dropping rajput from his name to support slb's films(whaaaaat?!) etc are all desperate signs to fit in, to get attention and validation. It's realistic and sad, I feel bad for him cos he really did accumulate a brilliant body of work, most of the films also did well, unlike a raj kumar rao, but he never got awards.

What rohini iyer wrote on the other hand is unrealistic and seems BS.

If someone who knows Sushant and claims that he is not ambitious, or didn't care for success then I'm sorry to say they didn't know him. He was same boy who took risk to drop from engineering to do movies. The thing is he cared and thought a lot that after a point he gave himself with unbelievable deadline and lost himself. He felt I got KPC, SDR (YRF Contract) with MSD he had 100 Crore movie so he thought why can't I aim for next level, but he didn't think that dream he had wasn't same dream which people involved had.

First time he changed was post DBB failure, atleast I remember discussing how he started changing, that failure affected him and he just started thinking that he has do crazy stuffs to be in news like few BW celebs were doing so he tried all those tricks, but sadly nothing worked and his desperate for validation grew and probably by that time he had lost his closed friends primarily his friends from tv days.

He is a NERD no one can deny it, but books, astro physics is not only his personality, he is one heck of crazy party animal. How many times we have only heard from journalist or random people sharing that they saw Sushant and gang wasted in a party.

I know it is no point in telling now, but he did need someone like Ankita to handle him though she never got credit.

Of all lesson learnt is never ever know a celebrity very much because when something bad happens it tricks you in a weird way. lol

Yes, like all of you guys have mentioned - It just makes me sad that , for whatever reason, there is absolutely no mention of his sense of humor, goofiness, and love of partying. Gosh, if y'all weren't there to agree with me and recall the pre-Dhoni and DBB days, I would think I am imagining things - and that that goofball never existed.

Hello Everyon! This is Afsara. I don't know if you guys remember me or not but I know you guys very well, you were like a family to me. We spent wonderful times drooling over Sushant or Shushita. I even changed my id name as SSRFanForever or SushantFanAfss. You can see if you click my profile now. There is a nickname log IF added. Anyway I was on the same boat like you guys on 2016. Though I was more Sushant fan than Ankita but I couldn’t deal well with their break up. May be you cannot accept any change to your loved one's personality. That happened to me also. That time I changed my name on IF. But in my wildest dream I never thought I have to see his lifeless face. I only want to remember him with his big smiling face. I regret today because somewhat I didn’t support him being a fan even. After MS dhoni I didn’t watch his films and even avoided interviews. Last 2 days I was all on youtube and watched each and every interviews he gave in last 3 years. I cannot get out of this trauma. I remember you guys posted a thread named khawab tha toot gya... After sushita break up. But now I literally feel it. I am broken inside. The teen age sushant die hard fangirl woke up again inside me. I came here to see how you guys are dealing with it. I cannot forgive myself for leaving supporting sushant's work for his personal life. I miss you Sushant. You were, are and will always remain in my heart. -Your fan Afsara.

Originally posted by: lunza

Yes, like all of you guys have mentioned - It just makes me sad that , for whatever reason, there is absolutely no mention of his sense of humor, goofiness, and love of partying. Gosh, if y'all weren't there to agree with me and recall the pre-Dhoni and DBB days, I would think I am imagining things - and that that goofball never existed.

@Bold, they use to do theme party on based of movie signed. I remember Mahesh, even Karan growing mustache like him.

BW is surely trying to put that narrative that he is crazy, weird person who was not only aloof, but was also only into physics and stars. The one message that in a way surprised me most was of Ekta Kapoor, then I saw she is also handled my Rohini team.

Hello everyone ,

Just feeling totally heartbroken about all this . How could this happen . Sushant was the last person I ever expected this thing to happen . Who the hell did this to him ? What happened that he changed this much . From a happy and loving person to this .....

I wish Anki and him never broken up .I knows she was also not perfect , but she was good for him . I am not putting down his other girlfriends ,am sure they were all great girls but Ankita was the one for him .....He was happiest when he was with her .

Last night could not sleep . I kept thinking about him . This is so difficult for me , just imagine his friends and family ...

Originally posted by: Afss_94

Hello Everyon! This is Afsara. I don't know if you guys remember me or not but I know you guys very well, you were like a family to me. We spent wonderful times drooling over Sushant or Shushita. I even changed my id name as SSRFanForever or SushantFanAfss. You can see if you click my profile now. There is a nickname log IF added. Anyway I was on the same boat like you guys on 2016. Though I was more Sushant fan than Ankita but I couldn’t deal well with their break up. May be you cannot accept any change to your loved one's personality. That happened to me also. That time I changed my name on IF. But in my wildest dream I never thought I have to see his lifeless face. I only want to remember him with his big smiling face. I regret today because somewhat I didn’t support him being a fan even. After MS dhoni I didn’t watch his films and even avoided interviews. Last 2 days I was all on youtube and watched each and every interviews he gave in last 3 years. I cannot get out of this trauma. I remember you guys posted a thread named khawab tha toot gya... After sushita break up. But now I literally feel it. I am broken inside. The teen age sushant die hard fangirl woke up again inside me. I came here to see how you guys are dealing with it. I cannot forgive myself for leaving supporting sushant's work for his personal life. I miss you Sushant. You were, are and will always remain in my heart. -Your fan Afsara.

I'm thankful you found this thread! You can probably see that on previous pages I have done a ton of word-vomiting while trying to process this, so please feel welcome to say whatever you are feeling. We are here to support each other and that includes you too girl!

I hope that one day you are able to forgive yourself, but I can understand that the journey to get there may take a long time. ❤️

I can really feel you on the fangirl waking up again. Right down to being defensive against opinions of him that I don't agree with. Like Anu posted a few pages back, it's amazing how human nature and empathy work. I still can't believe we are even here for this. I very unfortunately ended up catching sight of the pictures from the scene and I nearly threw up... it's seared into my brain forever and it's something I never ever thought I would see.

Originally posted by: AreYaar

Re: the breakup....I never thought even back then that he did anything from a vindictive space. To me it felt like he was selfish and short-sighted about all this even back then. We forget sometimes that he was quite young....had just turned 30 around that time I guess. And people take rash decisions in youthful impulses sometimes too. That said, I do feel he had some demons he grappled with inside that he didn't know how to reconcile to so he ended up pushing away or taking for granted the people who loved him deeply.

Somehow this reminded me of something I heard out at a rural site once (excuse the language) "sometimes people are going through shit and they do shitty things." I don't know if it's a country proverb or just how that lady chose to view life, but at the time I found it amusing and it stuck with me... I think a few years ago (or even a few weeks ago to be honest) I would have never been content with such a simple answer, but today it's resonating with me.