Long post ahead with some spoilers:
I'll have to give the background too. Guys so yeah Z has been working in hospital and in the novel actually, it was Daniyal's kids (Kashmala and Saim) instead of Gaiti who bond with Z like friends and they enjoy Z's comment on her khatarnaak boss and their Chachu. Obv, like Gaiti, Kashmala and Saim too dont tell her that her boss is actually their chachu. One day they take her to their place and Asfi shows up unannounced (like in the drama) and Z is super embarrassed. She leaves hurriedly while Bibi Jaan (Asfi's mom) wants her to have dinner with them so Z makes an excuse ke "Meri hospital mein duty hai. Main phir kabhi aaongi aapke ghar." She hesitates from going to Asfi's place since she thinks they share a boss-employee relationship and going to his place would be very informal and Asfi might think that she's strengthening her bond with his family to seek advantages in her job. Asfi behaves normally even after that incident and then the month of Ramazan comes up and every year Asfi holds an iftaari at his place for the WHOLE hospital staff, including the janitors, doctors, nurses etc. He invites everyone personally except Z and she feels insulted. On the day of the iftaar party, she leaves the hospital early making an excuse about her health so she doesn't have to face the staff questioning her ke why she's not coming to the party. Yeah, she doesn't go to the iftaar party and has her iftaar all alone. Time passes by and Asfi doesn't even ask her about her absence at the dinner which leaves Z disappointed.
Alright so Z has been working in the hospital for a few months now and the male ward bit takes place after which Z leaves Asfi's office crying. She assumes that Asfi would begin to think of her character like everyone else and judge her. She falls ill and doesn't go to the hospital for a few days and just when she's typing her resignation letter, (cus she thinks Asfi would fire her) Asfi calls her and inquires about her health and tells her to stop taking any more offs cuz that's putting a lot of burden on Dr Asifa. He behaves normally as if the male ward bit didn't even happen tou she resumes her job. However she always feels Asfi would judge her and wants to clear her position about the male ward incident. One day, when she eventually wants to do that, she goes to his office and says, "Sir mujhe aap se kuch baat karni hai." He says, "baat tou mujhe bhi aap se kuch karni hai, Dr Zubia." Well, he asks her, "Ye aapki 'phir' kab ayegi?" as in when's her "next time" coming up cuz apparently, "jee, itna hairan kyun ho rahi hai? You promised Bibi jaan about coming over 'some' next time." He tells her that she is going to get over at 8 and "Main 8 bajay driver ko bhej doon ga aur aaj raat ka dinner aap hamare saath karein gi." Asfi is very distant during the dinner as if nothing's more imp than food xD but when Z's leaving, he says he'll drop her till the car. They kinda have a slow walk and he asks her what did she want to talk to him about. Z begins, "woh main keh rahi thi ke pata nahin aap kya soch rahay honge uss din ke baray mein -" Asfi stops her midway and says, "Dr Zubia, I know you're a nice girl and you don't need to prove that to everyone. Aapko apni achai saabit karne ke liye mujhe ya kisi aur ko koi character certificate dikhanay ki zaroorat nahin hai. We all, including me, know you're a very nice human being and you don't need to prove that to anyone. I'm as satisfied about my decision of hiring you as I was six months ago. During the interview, Dr Shehroze and Asifa wanted to hire another doctor cuz the other doctor was more experienced and competent than you. Lekin main ne aap ko hire kiya kyunke main ne uss waqt hi aap ke andar ek acha aur hamdard insaan dekha tha. These two qualities are going to take you very far in your profession. We can work on someone's professional weaknesses but not on weaknesses and flaws as a human being. And your goodness of heart is really your biggest talent in life." He talks a lot more but basically he just appreciates how good she is at heart and how she doesn't need to prove her good character to anyone cuz everyone at hospital believes in her. [if you guys need the full tareef session, do tell me. I'd be glad to type it for y'all]
so yes, fast forward after this interaction, Asfi praises her so much and she feels so much at ease with him ke she starts going to his place a lot to spend time with Daniyal's kids and Bibi Jaan. She doesn't hesitate about it nor does she assume that Asfi would think of her in a bad light cuz Asfi LITERALLY makes it clear that he believes the fact ke her intentions are good and she's truly a good human being. For the first time, she actually gets to hear praises for her character after years of blaming and stuff tou she really begins to feel confident about herself. And then one day, she injures her wrist and when she's going inside she says Salam to Dr Shehrozs and Asfi without knowing ke Asfi actually noticed her bleeding wrist. He bandages it and sees her crying out of pain and softly asks, "dard ho raha hai?" to which Z shakes her head in a no and Asfi laughs saying doctors should too experience this pain once a in a while to understand what the patient goes through xD and then boom, he asks her abruptly if she had her breakfast and without even her answering tells her, "if doctors don't know what a balanced diet is then it's embarrassing. As a doctor, you should take care of yourself first. If the cook here doesn't cook well then make anything you like but DO eat well." He later goes on saying that if something is bothering her, she should listen to some music or read a book and relax cuz that works for him too when he's tensed. "Ye aap itna negative kyun sochti hain? Khush raha karein. Try to think about the things that make you happy. In situations of panic, the things one should think last of, you think of them first. Har buri cheez aap pehle sochti hain aur phir khud hi pareshan hoti hain. Itni negative soch nahin rakhni chahiye." All this while, he holds her hand and says this. Z takes her hand outta his grip and he leaves it.
but guys, the point of the spoiler being that by this part Asfi was supposed to know how Z was. She thought of bad stuff that could happen to her all the time because of her past experiences. Even the slightest thing would worry her that people at the hospital would find out about her past and then blame her like everyone else. Her insecurities HAD to become clear to Asfi because of the male ward bit. He was supposed to know and get a hint that there's something about Z's past which makes her to insecure and paranoid about people doubting her character and that drives her to assume negative results all the time. He kinda tries to make her get rid of her depression and tension. He doesnt know about her past but does have an idea ke her past has something that makes her turn into such a scared soul. And novel mein he had even fallen for her by then. This is primarily why I think that the bandage scene didnt make sense in the drama cuz the whole negative baatein thing was out of context cuz unlike the novel, here Asfi doesn't have ANY idea about what goes on in Z's mind.
Also, if you guys need the English translation for any dialogue or an elaboration of any part, do pm me. I'll do it as soon as possible. There are quite a few unrelated spoilers that I haven't mentioned here but I will soon-ish. I am hopefully going to have one free hour in college tomo so I might type them in the library and then post later :')
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