SPM ~My Musings 5.9.19~ Something gained and something lost..
Both walk down memory lane. The dargah brings two souls together one more time. She passes by , Zaroon senses an old tune warble the tunes of his heart.Sufiyana love! a lasting habit that even till now he cannot shake off. So much was unsaid and unheard, but it's that pair of eyes that spoke of a tale that was not meant to be.
Saltanat was just another mother, her head and face partly draped by a hijab.Her eyes hungrily take in all images,but still her memory remains blank as a sheet. Still with many requests, devotees are drawn towards the dargah in the hope of being heard. Zaroon ‘s soul cries out to heaven for Saltanat’s well being. His contrite prayer is meant for Saltanat! Whether it’s the one in hospital or the silent woman who passes by him. But Zaroon’s belief lies in the favour he wants for the namesake Saltanat! .Perhaps it will not go unheard.
Madhav’s eyes too are alert, he knows there is danger around ,due to the area being Saltanat’s home ground. Her family may be around . He watches the devotees, and in his desperation he too, defiantly challenges god, to prove his mighty power by reinstating Kainat’s memory!
A lost Saltanat vacantly, searches for herself. Both pass each other,like two ships in the night. A gentle breeze, touches Zaroon every time she passes by . Nostalgia, makes him sick at heart. Memories of Saltanat preoccupy him. That brief collision with her in the streets leading to the dargah. Saltanat catches, shaky, lights, images, hazy reflections of the past. Which only Zaroon clearly recalls and vividly sees in his mind’s eye. Krish hand in hand with Saltanat, leads her on, plus provides her protection from Zaroon recognising her as some single woman..
For some reason I see this hijab clad Saltanat as a married woman and Krish as her son.. Still engaged and fascinated both walk till she loses her footing! a slip! a stumble. Does love find a way? as her hand voluntarily fumbles and reaches out for a strangers shoulder! to maintain her balance! Zaroon deep in thought , again experiences , a flood ofmemories supporting Saltanat in the past where she lost her poise . He steals a sided glance at the woman, but her hijab and Krish's intervention prevents Zaroon from making much of the instance. The moment passes as swiftly as it came. Was the twist of her foot an indication of what might have happened if either of them had recognized each other? Their present stability perhaps would be lost? Would it become a precarious and unsettling situation? But it seems a lost cause, loss of what they had gained.. Sufiyana love.. Now a lost ,past gone by, melody.. Such is the helpless of love..
It is humbling scene , where an assumed young mother and son pray at the dargah,with Zaroon kneeled right behind them, each to themselves, immersed in personal prayer.Zaroon pray’s for Saltanat’s recovery. Seeks mercy for her; for her suffering, due to his fault. So close she is, yet so far. She wouldn’t known him anyone. Such is the work of destiny. Zaroon gained Sufiyana love with Saltanat ,only to lose her. Empty and broken he kneels behind Krish and Saltanat and advocates for mercy for Saltanat, struggling at the hospital.So it is clear he anxiously prays for his wife Saltanat , who in reality is Kainat.
If only Zaroon knew she truly has lost her every thing. Her soul pleads, to god to restore, return her life..without her past, her present seems senseless.
Madhav eyes search for Kainat in the bustling dargah courtyard. His waiting in the car, behind the wheel, for Kashish to return. Turns burdensome for him. As Madhav has to take a break in his journey of punishing the criminal Kainat. His action of bringing her back to the Shah dargah is not for her spiritual refinement, but for her to remember her past!
Madhav's vigilant eyes catch Zaroon’s roving eyes hovering around a woman at the latticed prayer screen.Saltanat is drawn to tying a prayer request thread. She ties the knot of the red thread. Her request is that may god loosen,untie the knots of her mind, which blocks her from knowing who she is? whence has she come from? undo the mental faculty which may reveal her past life..
Zaroon, is drawn by two mesmerizing eyes, deep in her prayer request. Old tunes of Sufiyana love again strum at his very soul, the urge to find out more about her makes him visually stalk her..
But Kainat’s keeper grabs her1 runs with her and bundles her in the passenger seat! Saltanat fails to understand his brashness! He cannot contain his enthusiasm.. can she remember anything about her past!
Saltanats response is tears! It's like she has lost her whole life! broken down, invariably she sinks her head on his shoulder for comfort and consolation! Madhav is at a loss how to react to her spontaneous emotionally needy action. Ah! Well he mustn’tbe taken in by her soap opera.. she killed Sakshi di!!
Yet, in all the sentimentality as Madhav sees it, also about losing one’s life! Madhav realizes, they both forget to bring Krish back with them! Madhav known to be a tower of strength for damsels in distress, roughly pushes Kashish away, as if somehow, this shirty weepy woman, somehow has learnt about the mixed love /hate visual liberties he takes with her every time he sets eyes on her! he needs to glare more often at her!
As usual Krish even in his absence, diffuses awkward situations especially for his father. The support Kainat /Kashish seeks from Madhav Sharma is left in limbo. As looking for Krish is the immediate task both have to undertake! So much so! for looking after Krish! The lost girl, goes and loses his son too!
Well Krish is on sacred ground, and although lost , who should find him ? Zaroon! Like always where Saltanat made mistakes, Zaroon would zap up and complete the task on her behalf! Pragmatic Zaroon interacts well with the innocent lad, and soon connects him with his father Madhav..will Zaroon and Madhav come face to face? The boy reunites with his father, and Zaroon only catches the hugging, crouching father’s back!
Maybe its best to turn your back on your past to move on. But Kashish/Kainat /Saltanat may face instability in life due to losing all her past! Presently she clings to the miserable kill joy man! like dear life,because he is passionate about reuniting Saltanat with her past. Zaroon failsto do so, although Madhav fears what if Zaroon recognizes her! Madhav cannot risk losing her ,to gain her memory… why? Even Madhav daren’t ask himself that question! never mind the answer!
The scene where Krish is in care of Zaroon,and Saltanat comes looking for Krish.. Zaroon and Saltanat stand back to back. For her he is her forgotten past. Subtlety for me Krish becomes a source of a vague connection of a pair ofSufiyana lovers. For love may not be fulfilled, but it’s true essence remains divine! Will Krish be the way maker, the giver of undefined peace? The giver ofcomfort and consolation. Both Zaroon and Saltanat have gained ,but lost a lot too, will healing be granted to Saltanat? and to Zaroon’s broken heart? Krish befriends Zaroon,and bids him farewell with his mobile number scrawled on his arm!
A much needed episode to provide a reminder of how things were between Saltanat and Zaroon and where its going to take Madhav and Kainat/ Saltanat/ and Kashish! courtesy of simultaneously forbearing plus overbearing Madhav Sharma. Saltanat gains her life again, but loses her memory.. I loved listening to the Sufiyana ishq song again.. 6.9.19hamlet53.
thanks Irshita for sharing your interesting viewsm and to kasaf for reading my musings.. much love hammie
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