I am standing at the gate of my house
waiting for him with a broad smile with shyness in the eyes and excitement in
my heart as I have waited for this day from long but more than me I know he has
waited for this day. I know I never ever took him seriously and may be hurt him
unintentionally too. Whenever he said 'Tarani My three true words, 'I love U',I
had an expression of, 'Don't start this again..' he has been my childhood buddy
from long.. In our gang of 10 friends I never understood why he was so
outspoken about his feelings right from our schools daysā¦ The first time he
proposed to me was in class 8th and I cried the whole day I do remember. It was
after a week he apologized saying he wrote the letter as he felt whatever he
feels for me was special and it was love ā¦ I felt I was too mature and guided
him as a friend. After that in class10th he proposed me again, it was our
farewell party and I was complimented by many as it was the first time I wore a
Sareeā¦. He looked into my eyes kneeled down and said giving me flowers he had
collected from the tress of our school groundā¦ 'My three true words, I LOVE U',
all my others gang friends had laughed and so did Iā¦ I really felt his maturity
hadn't increased.. He was the funny chap in our gang of friends who made
all of us laugh and smile.. But seldom did I take him seriously. We entered
college and were together again but had a larger friend circle now.. Whenever
we 10close friends met we were the most happyā¦and everyone knew Vishesh had
soft corner for me.. There were four more girls in our gang. I never liked him
giving me special attention as it would become a topic of laughter for the
othersā¦ He never misbehaved but was cute funny and I always felt he was not
serious about lifeā¦ Vishesh and his THREE TRUE WORDS.. I had laughed wondering
when will he grow up.
We went far away from each other after
our graduation; we had our respective choice of career but were in touch
through phone and internetā¦ Once he came all the way down from London to propose me yet
another timeā¦ it was windy evening near the beach we walked
recollecting our time with our gang of friends and he had held my hand.. He
gave a tiny little pearl in my hand an original pearl.. And asked me to put it
in the chain I wore if I loved him and if not just to throw it in the water
besideā¦His said, My three true words always stay the same,' I love U ', but do
u think ur true feelings have those three words for meā¦' For the first time I felt tensed, to say
anything to him...as his eyes were full of affection and nervous to know what I
may do... He looked into my eyes and said.. in my entire life the only girl I
have proposed number of times is u and this is the last time I am going to
propose u',ā¦ and I didn't knew what happen.
I was shivering. why was he so serious.. Why couldn't he be the same funny and
joyful.. I didn't want to wear it in my chain. I knew I was not in love with him.
As I never seriously felt he was mature enough to know what is loveā¦ I didn't
want to throw the pearl as well as I knew it was not expensive but it was priceless
as it had Vishesh's feelings attached to it which he carried. .how could I
throw that away.. The person on who's face I never saw stress or tension was
standing with stern look. I remember I just quietly said, " I cant wear this
pearl.." before I could even complete Vishesh took that pearl threw it in the
water.. and walked away. I stood there wondering he may turn back saying it was
a joke ā¦ dont be so seriousā¦ he can never get angry on anyone especially on me
whom he just was always always very caring and sweet.. He went away never to
turn back and see...
Afterwards I contacted him, told him I
can never hurt him, tried hard to tell him and he was genuinely not wanting to
hear anything on that topic he spoke nicely but very formal and just not what
he is .. just not what I liked in him.. his way of chatting , talking towards
me changedā¦ he was keeping a distance but always trying to make me feel guilt
free that he isn't hurt , he is ok.. and he has forgotten and not to remind
him.. But I had not forgottenā¦ and those eyes with that pearl in hand.. how
could I ever forget.. so much love for me.. Now it felt I was continuously
thinking about him.. all the memories of our childhood came to me and I laughed
again remembering, I smiled again remembering how special he is to me. I met
him one day at a party, I was just soo sooo happy looking at him.. I saw him
after months and felt he is so charming.. I don't know why I started getting
attracted to him physically as wellā¦ never had thought about how he looks, how
he walks, how he smiles, how he talks.. but now all that came to mind.. I knew
I was not feeling bad that he was not giving me special attention just the fact
that I know him and I am able to look at him after so much time made me feels
so excited and happy. I knew I was fond of him, and yes I liked him.. when I
now recollected the many times he has proposed me I blushed and felt I would
now cry if he had proposed me.. as the tears of happiness are something I
couldn't hide nowā¦ I wanted him now to somehow feel the same and somehow wanted
him to come to me and ask me this final time. And for sure not only will he
hear yes from my side, I would hug him and kiss him as I would tell him how
lucky I feel that he choose me to be his life part.
He would not propose me now I knew it,
the last time he had very seriously told me it is the last time he will ask me
out. I knew now I had to take the lead and ask him, I have to do this for
myself if I seriously don't want to loose him. I called him up saying all our
friends are coming at my place there is a very important matter and he needs to
come along. I was too nervous to be that honest enough to say I need to talk to
uā¦ As I felt scared that he may say NO and not let me show how much he means to
me. He said he will be here, Its half an hour pass the time he had informed he
will be here, still he hasn't reached. I am sure he will be very happy looking
at me. I am dressed in a lovely saree, with my hair ironed and silky; I have
not cared to be so properly dressed ever in my life. Matching jewllery,
nailpolish, makeup I don't know what not I have worked on. Even after all this I
am nervous whether he will like all this. I have arranged a beautiful place for
us to sit and chat in the backyard of my house with lightening and decorative
pots with flowers who's fragrance is spreading around the area. All the
flowers, colours, food are of his choice. Here he arrived.. OH God..
Vishesh: Hi
Tarani: Hiā¦
Vishesh: everyone must have arrivedā¦
sooā¦ I am late I think..
Tarani: No, u r not late.. Actually I
myself was late.. but its never too lateā¦. Right?
Vishesh a bit confused: Ya.. lets go
in.. where's everyone? No noise.. why everyone is so silent..
Tarani: This side.. lets go towards the
backyard where we have played in our childhoodā¦ so many memories I have of ur
funny games and how much u have made us laugh.. Mom dad always adored u...
Vishesh looking at the backyard: hmmā¦ what's
all this decoration, lightening.. Wow!! The fragrance is soo goodā¦ these
flowers plantsā¦ what's all this? Where are our friends?
Tarani: There is just one friend here
for meā¦ that's U .. Whom I have invited here to listen to something very
important I want to say...
Vishesh: U lied to meā¦ Tarani.. let me go
from here I really am not interested to spend time with u aloneā¦ I don't want
to make my heart loose its directionā¦I am happy with myself.. I really don;t
want to hear anything which will affect me.. I have come out of a lot of pain.
I dont want to take more nor give u pain..
Tarani: Plzz Plzz one chance to let me
say what I am here feeling.. Just sit hereā¦ Vishesh.. I know many times u have
proposed and I have refused rejected and u were hurtā¦ I seriously couldn't
understand why u liked me.. But somehow my liking my friendship with u has made
me realize how much I like u and I have feelings for u ā¦.and I really My three
true words ā¦ plzz listen to themā¦ ' I LOVE U..'
Vishesh: I ignored u ...and now u feel u
love meā¦ Is it that u miss the attention I gave and not actually 'Me'..
Tarani: I don't feel u should look at me..
or u should look for me.. I dont think about what u could do and what u have
doneā¦ I have always started thinking in these days how much I havnt done.. how
much I could.. and how much I have felt.. How much I liked been with u ā¦ how
much I miss to chat and how much I have shared with u.. How much I trust u and
how much I could be happy if I had u ā¦ My three true words I realized and
felt.. I mean it truly.. 'I LOVE U '
Vishesh: The feeling of u loving me is
very very special.. But somewhere I feel its for the moment.. May be its not
real in nature.. u missed me as I wasn't here and when I am with u .. May be
after little time u will feel like a friend u had missed me.. How to think u
actually were missing me as I was much more special for uā¦. May be u confusing
usrself with friendship and love. What didn't happen in years would happen in
monthsā¦ U always told me I was confusing myself and was not mature enough to
realize what's close friendship and what's love?
Tarani: Friendship was beginning, close
friends became the after partā¦ u decided very early what all u liked and how
much u liked and what u want in ur lifeā¦ what space I could have.. But for me I
wasn't sure why u felt.. I wasn't sure how u felt.. I considered u immature and
never took u seriously but really U were much more mature, I had no reason to
say No to u except for the fact that I couldn't understand ur love for me.. But
somewhere I was immature to understand whether I could ever fall in love with a
person like u or not.. I was questioning myself why u love meā¦ and whether u
were seriously right or wrong but not realizing whether I had any feelings for
u or not.. I took years to realize U have everything I want in my life partnerā¦
but I realized in these few monthsā¦ I need ur love, I need u and I want to be with U
forever.. I really LOVE U ā¦ truly I missed not just friendship but ur love as wellā¦ Lovers we
can become when friends we stay always
Vishesh: Tarani, the pearl I gave had
one thing on my mind. As the Pearl
is in the depth of a sea, my love for u was that deep. Giving u that I wanted u
to keep ME in ur
heart with that much deep feelings. And
if u didn't feel the depth of my love I wanted u to throw it away saying u
don't care anymore. At least that will make me come out of this crazy feeling
of wanting u every time in life and taking the bitter truth that u never took
me seriously ever.. Sorry Tarani I don't want to get into all this now.. I have
moved on.. I am trying hard to cope up .. Let me go .. I am not in any position
to say anything to u any more..
Tarani: Vishesh .. waitā¦. Don't go like
this.. Wait hereā¦ one second.. Just look at thisā¦ for a moment wait..
Vishesh: what's it..
Tarani: After falling in love and
understanding my love for u .. I have understood u and ur love for me as well.. I had realized what
feelings u had behind giving me that pearlā¦ and with the same feeling ā¦ U have
every right to reject refuse me... Take this watch and wear it if u 'LOVE' me..
and if u dont love me than also wear this watchā¦ As time doesn't wait for
anyone it keeps moving and my time in ur
life is not over yet.. This is not the last time I will propose I will keep
proposing u on n onā¦ for life timeā¦
Vishesh smiling: Ohhhhhā¦ U have become
like me...
Tarani: I have become like u?
Vishesh:My three true words remain the
same as well, " I love u ā¦ "
Tarani : aaā¦ what.. I mean.. r u sureā¦ U
love me u said. Right?
Vishesh: Ofcourse.. u heard it right
dear.. I always loved u and .. I cant even think of anyone else or even think
of not wanting to be part of ur
life.. u r the centre of my life as alwaysā¦
Taran happy and confused and tensedi:
suddenly.. u had just said....
Vishesh: Giving u the pearl, I had
decided the same thing what u said nowā¦ if u love me wear it and if u dont love
me than also take it.. But dont throw it away.. I wanted to say this but our
friends, Our gang they told me I was not going to get u like this.. I had to
first see if I have a place in ur
heart .. they somehow felt I was trying hard in the direction where there was
no love at all.. They force me to take a stand and ask u saying what all I told
u that day.. After getting rejection my option were less.. But I had to go by
what I had told u ā¦ Friends were there to calm me down to support me.. But I
was angry at them.. Due to them I felt I could loose u forever.. I was upset
with them but somewhere I was sure I had a place in ur heart, even when they would say Tarani
doesn't love u , leave it.. I told them .. on that day Tarani said SHE CANT
wear the pearl.. and not that SHE DOESN'T want to wear it.. They laughed they
felt I was blindly looking for getting ur
love ā¦U know Tarani when we met after that incident.. All our friends informed
how they observed for the first time ur
eyes were soo soo happy looking at me.. They believed that u actually had
feelings.... when u called today I was stunned but somewhere knew may be u love
me.. as all our friends had already informed that there was no talk of meeting
at ur placeā¦ I
just tried to get it out what u thought of me.. If I said no.. or if I said am
not sureā¦I feel sooo soo happy that even u share the same feeling of giving
time but not giving hope .. Giving our love every chance to get together.. Our
three true words, "Love U forever'
Taranni with tears in eyes and smiling
with happiness: Let me propose u , kneeling downā¦
Vishesh: Nooo.. No.. I cant let u do
that, I have to kneel down and ask u to not only accept my love but ā¦
Vishesh kneeled down removed a pearl
from his left pocket: My three true words, "I LOVE U "DO u love me Taraniā¦
Tarani taking the pearl: I love u ā¦
Vishesh taking out a pearl bracelet and
asking her: My new found three true words, "MARRY ME TARANI"..
Tarani blushed laughed and hugged him,
wore the bracletā¦. Saying:marriage is a huge responsibility, r we mature enough
for it..
Vishesh raised his eyebrowā¦ smiling
along
Tarani wore the bracelet: maturity?..
legally we are mature.. I think that's the think I was talking about .. so its fine..
CARDS be printed with the three words, " Tarani Weds Vishesh"
Both smiled, sat, chatted, hugged, kissed
and felt they found three words more, "LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL"
**************Love does not
alter the beloved, it alters itself. ****************
Love is Strange; Love can't be arranged,
As friend one meets; Love starts to
breathe,
Love brings hope alive; becomes the
reason to survive,
Love cannot be measured; it can only be
treasured,
Love is not hugging each other getting
intimate;
Or dancing with romance;
Love wants & thinks for others good;
Having
patience, giving, hoping for another chance,
One can't love as the other is looking
beautiful,
The other starts looking beautiful as
one is in love,
Have Faith Hope & Love, trust urself
and love more n moreā¦
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