Chapter 14-Gurleen
She surveyed her family as they sat in silence in momsie's study.
"I'm sorry everyone.I shouldn't have lost my temper with you the way I did.",she began before her momsie cut her off.
"Amrit,Pammi , could you please leave us alone for a moment?"
The two of them looked at her, silently asking her for approval,she nodded and they left.
She and her momsie sat in silence for ten whole minutes.Finally the older woman spoke up,looking resigned.
"Gurleen, I'm very sorry.No,please let me talk uninterrupted.I won't be able to otherwise.I'll answer every question you have at the end.
I'm sorry for not being a good person,let alone a good mother.While I did take you in despite you being my husband's illegitimate child,it was for my own selfish motives.To make matters worse,I couldn't love you the way a mother would."
"How is that your fault? You're also human.No one can expect you to be an angel.You didn't deserve to be punished for my father's mistakes."Gurleen interjected.
She then continued, "You fed me,took care of me,let me study and pursue my dreams.I found a family here.I understand your reasons and while it hurt at first I still do respect your choices."
"Oh Gurleen,a parent's duty towards a child doesn't stop with providing for their basic needs.Just because I didn't I'll treat you,it doesn't mean I've been a good parent to you.No matter how much the world praises my me,it doesn't change the fact that I've failed as a mother.By adopting you,I also ended up depriving you of a potential loving family."
Gurleen was silent,her mind in turmoil as her momsie continued.
"I met your father when I was nineteen.We were married at twenty.It was a beautiful relationship you know;those were some of the happiest times of my life.He was my partner in every sense.I was and still am a highly ambitious woman.He was the first man who respected me and loved me for it.He cajoled me into joining the Babbar empire,going against every family member of his and rallied for me till I became chairperson.
I had Amrit when I was twenty four .It was a beautiful fairy tale.Everything changed ten years later.A woman showed up on our doorstep, pregnant.She claimed my husband to be the father which he angrily refuted.He went as far as accusing her of being a gold digger.Like a fool ,I believed him."
Her momsie started crying,which shattered Gurleen's heart.She had always been the epitome of strength and grace.To see her her lowest, was a punch to the gut.She held her mother and stroked her hair gently.
"Sshh, I've got you mummy.No matter what happens we'll always be there for you."
Her mother looked up,"Oh child,you have no idea how long I've waited and hoped to be called mummy even though I knew I didn't deserve it.Every time you called me momsie,my heart cracked a little bit more until all that was left were shards,which continued to pierce and bleed."
They sat in silence for a while.Her mother rose ,
"I'm going to continue the story.I want this over with so I can forget it."
Gurleen nodded wordlessly.
"I believed my husband and thought nothing of it until six years later when a letter reached us addressed to him.He took one look at the letter and locked himself in this very study.He refused to let anyone in and declined food and water.Early next morning,we heard a gunshot.He was dead."
Gurleen shuddered as she glanced around the room, suddenly imagining her father's ghost flitting through the windows.
Her mother continued,
"I read the letter and it shattered me.The girl who had showed up on our doorstep pregnant,all those years ago was dead.And her child was my husband's.The local authorities had requested him to come and collect his child.He had lied to me all this while.And you know what was worse than the betrayal ,the fact that he had loved her,enough to take his own life so he could join her.
After the funeral,I immediately left for the orphanage.I had to see the girl with my own eyes.And there she was ,cold and lifeless.She was only twenty two when she'd died.
The horror slowly dawned on Gurleen as she made a few calculations.
"Does that mean my mother was....."
"She was sixteen Gurleen.And your father was thirty seven.He impregnated a woman half his age."
Gurleen felt her head spin; vomit bubbled in her stomach.Her chest constructed and she was finding it increasingly difficult to breathe.
Luckily,her Parjaai who had been outside the door the whole time intervened.
"Mummy ji,I think it's enough for today . She's getting overwhelmed."
Her mother nodded.
"Please don't worry , I'll take care of her.Amrit ji will be with you in a minute."
Gurleen barely registered leaving the room with her Parjaai supporting her.
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