Get Treatment Quick! If you are being traumatised by your past, if your past is always haunting you, that is a clear indicator that you need counselling. Frequent outbursts of anger, irresistible impulsive behaviour and lashing out at others and hurting self are all indicators that you need psychiatric treatment
A brave man is always prepared for the unexpected. Cowards run away from all dangers. They fear death. A brave man is adventurous enough to risk his life and achieve his goals. He also faces adverse circumstances boldly. Cowards do not contribute to the society. They brood over the past and fear the future. They have a pessimistic attitude towards life. They get disheartened when confronted with adverse situations. One should remain brave and enjoy life. Only cowards die several times before death.
What happened to the man who claimed to be writing his own destiny? Who in their proper minds would scoot off to a garden when he should be attending his own wedding? Yeah, yeah I get it, you were numb, you were in pain. Do you think you were the only person in pain? You have been in pain for the past 14 years even without reason. You were there in your Ma Ka Garden for a good 9-10 hours having Flash floods ( read as going over past incidents) and doing a Flash Dance. Mind it, this was not the first time you have reacted this way... This seems to be your habit.
You are responsible for your life, and nobody else. You are responsible for your happiness, for your fitness and health, for your relationships, for your finances and for all your actions. But you've been hiding from that responsibility. You've been blaming your unhappiness and incompetence on others. It's time to stop blaming others and taking responsibility for your own life. That's when you really start to live. If you were so concerned about finding the other woman in your father's life why the heck did you not do so.?
"Everybody dies but not everybody lives." ' Drake
It takes guts and courage to take responsibility for your own actions, to stop hiding behind the 'victim' mentality that keeps you safe from the reality that the reason your life sucks is because of you.
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