ANKAHEE AR FF (OS)

ankahee --"AR" ff on "KASH"

"No, you can't do that ... I told him in a choked voice'.. ...

He saw me once and then started looking out the window ... if not I'm there...

" Riddhima, who will say? it is not meant to be ... And how long I'll stay with you?.. Now you will go to anuraag's house , there too I'll go with you? ".. he said looking out the same way ...

"But arman, you know that you are in my life like my habbits'.. ... you know it ..."

" But Riddhima now change your this habit'. In a month,you will be married'. ...will I still stay with you?"...said arman.

"But arman'.i can't do anything without you"'.i said him like helpless''

Arman stood up ..." I will send Anu (arman's sis)... you do your shopping with her'...

And before I would say something, he left the room ''.

I threw myself on the bed!'"what can I do without arman?

Since then,when arman came' I was going to be blubbering ..: " arman ,dekho..ye anuraag hai'..dekho kitna khubsurat hai'..achcha hai na?...papa-ma ko bahut pasand hai'.he is very handsome and a rich man yaar!'.achieved a high post in such a young age'''

Aur feer.." armann..mai kal koun sa dress pahnu?...arman ,wo mujhe pasand karega na?...arman tum kal mere paas paas rahna'..

And then he said " now I will not come here riddhima "'.

may be he never heard my blubbering ''.just he came to tell his final decision''..

I don't know where my joy disappeared!!''what I will do without arman?...I can't walk even a step without him''from childhood we are together'.studied with him'.went school with him'and then college'.and even do shopping together,and when salman's film release,arman bought 1st day,1st show tickets for me,cause he knows how much i love to watch salman's film '...and now!...what I will do now!''someone is coming in my life'.this doesn't mean that he can not stay in my life''like a shadow he still been in my life'..and now!...''my childhood friend armaan,I shared every moments of my life with whom'.left me in this important time of my life'. 'I could not believe it anyway'...

I thought,may be mom can help me''.so I went to the kitchen''but she gave the same answer'."thik hi hai na beta'.ab tu uske saath ghumegi toh log baaten banayenge'

"keun?'ab tak in sabne toh kuch nahi kaha'.aaj achanak baaten keun banayenge'.sabko pata hai arman aur mai bachpan ke dost hain"''I said with anger''

Ma : " haan beta'humare neighbours jante hain'.but agar tumhare sasural walon mein se koi kuch dekha ya suna toh?...unhe toh pata nahi na tumhari dosti ke baarey mein'."..

Me :" lekin ma'.jahan biswas nahi,wahan pyar kaisa?...mai toh khud hi anurag ko sab kuch bata dungi'."..

Ma(scolded) : tera dimag kharab ho gaya kya?...dekh meri bachchi'.kahte sabhi yahi hai ki apne pati se kuch bhi chupana nahi chahiye'.par tu jaisa sochti hai,wo na soche toh?...haan ,saadi ke kai barson baad,jab ek dusre ko achchi tarah samajh jao..toh kah sakti ho'."

Me : " aur agar main na bataun aur wo kisi aur se sun le toh?...usey achcha lagega kya?..wo toh tab aur bhi galat soch sakta hai'"..

Ma (in a confusing tone).." dekh beta'.jo bhi ho,ye rista tutna nahi chahiye'.tu padhi likhi hai'.apna bhala bura samajhti hai na'.toh tujhe jo thik lagey kar'..aur tujhe toh anuraag pasand hai na'

Me(blushed) :" wo ma'..

Ma (smiling) :bahut achcha hai mera hone wala son in law'..pata hai riddhima, jab kal hum sab milne gaye toh mai bahut ghabrai thi'.itna bada ghar'itna achcha khandan'.itna handsome ladka aur itni badi post mein kaam karta hai'.pata nahi kaisa behave karega''par usne toh ek min. mein mujhe apni ma bana liya'..

I smiled'I always dreamt my husband like anuraag'.tall,dark,handsome'rich ,smart'..whose strong arms will always encircle me'.I will lose myself in the world of dreams when I put my head on his broad chest'.yes'anuraag is that person'.he is my mr.right'..

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Six month paased after my wedding'..yes'I told everything about arman to anuraag in our first night''when he dragged me close to him and said.."I think that we should not hide anything from each other"''

Me :" mai bhi yahi sochti hun'.

Anuraag wrapped his hand around my waist and said: "ye arman koun hai?"'.
Me :" wo mera bachpan ka dost hai'.tumhe koi aitraaj to nahi?...

Travelling his lips on my neck, he said.." no..nahi'.

Me (happily):" wo bahut achcha hai anuraag'.mera bahut khyal rakhta tha'but tum shayad bura maan jao'isliye usne milna band ..

He cut my words in the middle'."chalo chodo na'.aaj toh humari suhagraat hai'chalo' mouz ' karein'.."'and he tried to squeeze me within him''

"Mouz karein?"this word stucked me so much'."ye kaisi language hai?...but I think anything else before that he had started playing with my body''

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Actually I was not involved with him in this game ever'..because I wanted to love him'I wanted to affix my heart with him'not just body'.but it did not any matter for him'.my feelings did not touch him'I was not important for him'.he wanted only my body and every night just he cured his lust and snored'..

But one night's incident made me totally speechless or lifeless!!'..like every night he was playing with my body'.but I was not getting bear with it'.nowadays I was very tired ,feel uneasy 'but it's no use to telling him'.so I did not say ''..

But suddenly I felt so much pain and screamed'.and pushed him forcefully '.he fell from bed'..

He was burning with anger...he came near me'gave me a smack and said.." saali,mujhse dill bhar gaya?...arman ke saath mouz karegi'.."'.and he left the room''

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Next day as usual he went to the office'..I thought ,now will not say anything to him'..he is my husband'if he would not feel my pain then I would say to whom?...he did not understand love'.but I love him '.and I know no one in my heart except him'' no matter what he say'.I will endure everything quietly ...one day he will love me surely...

That day he came from office a little early '.and said to me'" ma ne kaha tumhari tabiyat thik nahi rahti,chalo doctor dikha dun''

Doctor said that I was pregnant'I was happy'.now I lost myself in my child's dream''

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Anuraag had divorced me'because he wanted to rid of me'.now I did not have any importance in his life'I had misscarriaged in the six month '.doctor told that I had uterine cancer'.and they had only one means to save my life----they took out my uterus''

I was miserable life'.my baby was snatched from me'.now I could never become a mother'..anuraag did not speak me even a single word'.I wanted sympathy from him'.but he stayed away from me''.I knew that he was pissed off with me''.I was not even be able to give him his inherit''.

That night he came to me'.but I was not prepared for his" mouz or masti "''just 1 month passed after my surgery'..the doctors had given strict instruction to stay away from husband'..

I pleaded.."anuraag'.mai mar jaungi'..

He fumed with anger and told me'"toh mar keun nahi jati?...bachi rahegi toh meri jindagi narak hi banayegi 'you b***h!!'..pata nahi kitni masti ki hogi us arman ke saath ,which emerged as a sin in the womb'

I looked at him surprisingly!! This man took wedding vows with me!...promised to be together with me in my happiness as well as sorrow!..why he always hurt me with arman's name'! Who gave him the right to use these abuses?...'.."

I immediately took my decision ...I could not spend my life in this hell...

Me : "ok'..agar tumhe aisa lagta hai toh mujhe divorce de doh'.waise mai bhi tumhare saath nahi rahna chahti''

ANKAHEE

I was asleep in my room'. someone knocked at the door'..

Me :" koun hai?...aa jao'khula hai ''.

Arman came in the room'..

Me (surprisingly) :" tum??...keun aaye ho??..
Arman :" kya mai nahi aa sakta?...
Me :" nahi'tumne toh kaha tha ki ab kabhi nahi aaoge'.jao yahan se'.

Arman came near me'.." mai tumhe lene aaya hun'.
Me :" keun?...
Arman : "mai tumhe aise nahi dekh sakta'.apni life keun barbaad kar rahi ho?...aunty ne bataya'na thik se khati ho'na kahin jati ho'.din raat is room mein padi roti rahti ho'

I laughed with pain... : "ab barbaad hone ko kuch bacha hai kya?...chale jao arman'.mujhe tumse kuch nahi kahna'.

Arman (caught my shoulders) :" but I have to say'..I want to marry you'.

Me :" sympathy ki bheekh nahi chahiye mujhe''

Arman : "sympathy nahi riddhima'I love you'.

Me (tried to free from his grip) :" jhuth mat bolo''
Arman (caught my hand tightly) :" plz riddhima..meri baat suno'.

Me :" keun sunu?...jis din maine roka tha..tum sune they kya?...us din agar ye baat kah dete toh mai us narak mein jaane se shayad bach jati'.

Arman (sighly) : "nahi riddhima'keunki tum mujhse pyar nahi karti thi'.feer bhi papa aaye they'.riste ki baat karne'.feer uncle ne...(he left his words incomplete)'uncle ne mujhe mana kiya tha aane ko''.'.aur meri baaten ankahee hi rah gayi '..

Me :" you are a coward'.I hate all of you'a hate every human 'I hate god'who made my life like a hell'..

Arman pulled me within him'." But I love you riddhima'..ish janam mein'agle janam mein'.jabtak ye duniya hai'mai aur tum ho'.har janam mein'..

I tried to push him and stroked in his chest'."but mai tumse pyar nahi karti'.i hate you'arman'I hate you'..

"but I love you riddhima"'he said with tears in his eyes'.."plz.riddhima'

" tumhe kya milega arman mujhse?...mere paas kuch bhi nahi hai'.."

" mujhe bas tumhara saath chahiye'aur kuch nahi'..ek baar tumhe khokar bahut dard saha hai'ab nahi'..

Me :" mai ab kisi ki patni nahi ban sakti arman'..

Arman :' mai tumhe kabhi kisi cheez ke liye force nahi karunga'.but tumhe is tarah akela nahi chor sakta'.bas mujhse saadi kar lo'

I surrendered :" mujhe dar lagta hai'..

Arman caught my hand'" apne bachpan ke dost par itna toh biswas rakho'..mai tumhe kabhi bhi hurt nahi karunga'.promise...

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Today was our first wedding anniversary''arman gave a big party''I was too tired'I was sleeping so deeply that i didn't know when arman came and slept beside me'..after marriage,we used to sleep in the same bed'..but arman always used to maintain a distance from me'..but sometimes I was scared to see the nightmare'.so he used to touch me with his hand''and he always stays cautious about me...''

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I saw .."anuraag!!...he was biting me!!..making scrapes on my body'..I was screaming with pain'.and he was making a horrible laugh!!...

I was screamimg '."arm-a-a-n'.ar-m-a-an''mujhe bacha lo arman'.plz. mujhe bacha lo'..

when i woke up ,saw that arman was shaking me'.i was sweating and shievering with fear!!!to see arman , hugged him tightly'."arman ,mujhe bacha lo'wo anuraag mujhe maar dalega'.

Arman pulled me softly in his arm and said.." pagli'.koi nahi hai..tumne sapna dekha tha'kitni baar kaha hai..ye sab batein ab bhul jao'.ab wo tumhari life mein kabhi nahi aayega'mai hun na tumhare saath'.

Me : "nahi bhul sakti arman'.jab tak mere sarir par uske nishan hain mai nahi bhul sakti'.plz arman'wo nishan mita doh'.plz. mujhe apni bahon mein bharkar itna pyar karo ki mai sab kuch bhul jaun'.apne hontho se mere badan ke har jakham ko bhar doh jo usne mujhe diye they'..

Arman :" lekin riddhima''
Me :" mere paas raho arman'.
Arman : "tumhare paas hi to hun riddhima'.
Me :"nahi,tum mujhse dur ho'..

Arman made me more close'.."ab thik hai?...

I put my arms around his neck and dragged towards me'.my lips touched his'.I whispered : "plz.arman'.plz kiss me'plz.mujhe khud mein sama lo'.

Half the night had passed''my head was on arman's broad chest'.I was blubbering with him'.'.and he was listening my every words with a great patience'..

Me '." Arman'..tum mujhe kabhi bhi chor toh nahi doge?...

Arman( caressing my hair):"bachpan se ek pagli ko thik karne ki koshish kar raha hun'.

Me (pouting):"arm-aa-n'.feer mujhe pagli kaha'.jao mai tumse baat nahi karungi'.

me (happily) :" uska naam kya rakhenge arman?...

arman (smiled) : hmmm'.'rishima"'.meri riddhima se milta hua'..

me (kissed his chest) : I love you arman''
arman(smiling) : love you pagli''love you forever''

massage for friends''.

Hey friends'my first attempt to write an "AR(os)'a different type story''and also tried to write in English''if I made mistake in grammer or using English words'plz.don't laugh at my mistake'.I am weak in english yaar!...and plz plz.do comments and if you liked it'plz press the like tab''.

Love u all
Love u always
punam