Disclaimer: Main shayar toh nahi…….but today's episode has made me no less. If there is a string of songs attached to this post….don't blame me…Abeer and Leher take the credit.
I will start with my favorite quote on love:
Across the gateway of my heart
I wrote "No THROUGHFARE"
But LOVE came laughing by
And cried, "I enter everywhere"
LEHER:
Ab jaane hum yeh pyaar kya hai
Dard e jigar mushkil bada hai
Sunta nahi kehna koi bhi
Dil bekhabar zid pe ada hai
Samjhaaon isse kaise jaanejaan
Hare hare hare
Hum toh dil se haare
It started with her looking at the face of a dead body, her heart in her throat, her hands trembling, her eyes opened wide and lips praying….praying that the shroud doesn't cover HIM…..doesn't cover her ABEER.For a second she assumed the worst and closed her eyes but the look of palpable relief made her scream his name over and over again. Abeer, the name she wanted to run away from was today coming out of her mouth like a mantra.
Abeer….where are you…..kahan ho? A question her heart and mind were repeating over and over and over. Her eyes, which used to hold first contempt, then irritation, then fondness, then a smile, then realization, lately tears for Abeer were worried and searching. She was running in the stampede, frantically searching for him. Don't think she has ever asked anything so desperately from god as she was sending up prayers for him.
TN & SUDHA:
The worried mother and the trying to be strong father. Her tears wouldn't stop. The baby boy who she had given birth and raised with such care is missing……not only missing but high chances of being lost to her forever. We all know how close Abeer and Sudha are…..her eyes glued to the TV but hardly able to see anything as they are filled with tears…..incessant tears….tears which reflects a mother's happiness as well as sorrow.
TN….trying to calm his wife…the ever practical man…..his heart breaking too…his mother and his son lost to him. I loved how beautifully in this scene they portrayed….a mother missing her son and crying for him and on the other hand a son….worried about his mother…..a mother who was his world and at the same time, his own child, his son….the one he was proud to have…..his laughter, his future….lost in that stampede….without any news.
TN and sudha sharing their grief….the lawyer and the father coming out in turns….trying to explain a mother…..which I think is impossible….her argument that being a son and being like a son are two different things……and telling her husband that Abeer and mataji were most precious only to them, not to an SP who was responsible for all the people who were caught in that unfortunate incident.
A mother's words broke TN and the father finally told Banke that they were going to get their abeer and the matriarch back.
Banke….the natkhat ….promises to sudha that just to see one glimpse of the Dadi and Abeer…..he would never complain…..promises of a desperate soul….promises we make just for a glimpse of our loved ones….touching!!
Sudha's heart today is reflected well in these lines:
AT THE MANDIR:
Dhoonde re akhiyan use chahu ore
Jaane kahan chup gaya nand kishore
Ud gaya aise jaise poorvaiya
Kya kare yashoda maiya
Mere jeevan ka tuEk hi sapnaAT THE MANDIR:
Chaos reigned supreme as TN & Sudha rushed to the site, escorted my friend SP's men….the scene well shot…..Sudha's tears started afresh as her eyes saw bodies being transported to the ambulance…..a heart wrenching moment for any mother to be in…..looking every where her worried eyes could focus, straight, sideways and sometimes behind her….her worry taking it's toll….beside her TN walked….trying to console her and also search for his child and mother……the worry clearly reflected on his handsome countenance….his praying heart clearly visible through his worried eyes.
The way he rushed to the first aid tent…..asking desperately if Abeer, his son, the son who had promised not to appear before him, till he won his trust again, the son….who in this instant he had forgiven everything….just to lay his eyes on him once again. Even when the answer to his query is no….he takes the register and starts looking as his heart won't let him give up….even Sudha reads the list again….their heart breaking and shattering, the hope dwindling as well as rising.
He screaming for his son and mother….a moment which stole my heart and then dadi emerges….am sure….the ones who hate her also breathed a sigh of relief that she was well…..her love and concern more for her surajmukhi grandson than for her…..in that moment all we saw in those eyes was love….immense love for her grandchild and a worry in those aged eyes.
TN rushed to his mother and Sudha's heart jumped to her stomach….where was her son? She started rushing towards the site only to be caught by TN in time…..desperately looking for her son…..don't think she would have stopped if TN were not holding her so strongly…..my heart was in my mouth too….Lalla giving heart attacks to all concerned!!
Leher who sees Sudha crying helplessly….walks slowly…a kindred spirit….united in love for ABEER…..her instinct to console a sobbing mother….or maybe a hope that her mother's heart would understand this child's pain too….but the sad reality stops her feet and she goes back to looking for Abeer….on her own….this time carrying a mother's pain and desperation too in her heart.
I carry your heart with me (I carry it in
my heart) I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
I fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet ) I want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
e.e. cummings
Tu hi re Tu hi re
Tere bina main kaise jiyoon
Aaja re aaja re
Yuhin tadpa na tu mujh ko
Jaan re jaan re in saanso mein bas ja tu
Chahat hai gar toh aake mujhse mil ja tu
THE SHIRT:
Aaaaahhhhh…..the shirt….as soon as Leher laid eyes on it….her feet moved automatically towards it….is he alive? Is he? Is he around? Is he….noooo that question she refused to ask….her hands trembled to pick that up….somewhere in her mind a soft voice saying….is this only what I have left of him? Forever?
Flashbacks….seeing him in the shirt in the morning….heartbroken, and then the tears and the soft voice shouting in her head….maybe…just maybe….never?
They played the same song on Leher that they played for Abeer….what goes around comes around?
Khayalon mein laakhon baatein yun toh kah gayi
Boli na kuch bhi tere samne
This thought killed her and happiness and sadness became intermingled…..all his memories becoming that of loss but then she refuses to accepts it so easily……he couldn't leave her….she knew he wouldn't leave her…her heart makes her get up and start her search all over again.
Crying….looking….hoping….wanting….just one glimpse….so she could tell him what he meant…..a push almost makes the shirt slip from her hand but she holds it to her heart.
She looks at every dead body and then the wall collapses……more destruction…in front of her eyes and her eyes go from the shirt to the scene and a look of disbelief.
Abeer carrying a child and standing tired….covered in dust and grime…..but a beautiful sight for her heart to behold….never had he looked better to her.
ABEER & LEHER:
"ABEER" he was NOT expecting to hear that voice call his name, sprinkled with desperation. His eyes refused to believe and he was in shock even when she hugs him crying.
"I LOVE YOU" not the words he believed he would hear…..his hands rising to hug her…..saara jahan and some more…..he kissed her….unable to believe, crying and relieved at the same time.
Leher starts baring her heart to him and he tells her to control herself….but she kept repeating that the thought of losing him would kill her….all the lies she had told him were wiped away with those simple words…."I love you…..really love you".
His eyes caress her, his hands following…..her words putting balm on his heart….."Tumhara pyaar mehsoos kar sakte the" but I say….she felt his pain and desperation today….."Yeh pyaar…..aag ka daariya hai aur doob ke jana hai"….she forgot everything she confesses…the hate….the reality….all she felt was…"Abeer….you are me and I am you…..only you complete me and I complete you"
He repeats how he knew everything and her face gave him the strength to fight back…..the world forgotten…the lovers reiterating how much they love each other…..heart warming….and then reality bites.
Mon and dad make an appearance but Abeer ready to show his love in front of the world….the ziddi Abeer makes a comeback….refusing to let go of the love he had hardly engulfed in his arms for a few second…..asks for a promise….a promise given…..but hands refusing to leave each other….tears coming and she leaves.
A smile of victory….of having found what he always wanted….LOVE.
Hume tumse pyaar kitna
Yeh hum nahi jaante
Magar ji nahi sakte
Tumhare bina
PreCap: I am looking forward to Abeer n Leher meeting each other…..be ready to answer his questions Leher….your happy go lucky abeer might make an appearance on the chatt…..and Chachi…..oh lies….think fast on your feet….and Bittan is there to help!!
GK: Impressed…..the emotions…one after the other had me mesmerized.
Yami: work on your crying but the desperation and worry well portrayed.
Episode:
Duniya mein kitni hain nafratein
Fir bhi dil mein hain chahatein
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