Khushi, this needs to be done this way, obeying the guidance she received from her kind manager, she dives herself in getting the task in her hand completed.
Khushi Gupta a banker by profession, always has had the zest to complete her assigned tasks impeccably. She was a dedicated worker, however it was the corporate world and she lacked the confidence to thrive in her career as much as she would have liked or hoped for.
She hails from a middle class family, which consists of her loving parents and an elder brother. She has always been the loud mouth of the family, a complete contrast to the person she is at work. She is 32 years old and single.
On this particular day, after she was done with her work, she locked herself in the confines of her room and was thinking about her life in general. It is indeed a massive blessing, that she has got such understanding parents. Being 32 years of age and not being married is frowned upon in this society. However, her mother has always stood the ground and declared, ‘I don’t mind her being single, but I really don’t want to see her suffering by getting married in a rash for the sake of getting married, simply because she is aging as per the societal norms’.
Khushi always found her mother a fascinating character; always stood for what was correct and she was all in to helping others whenever she can. Her father on the other hand has always been an extremely silent person. Not much of words will be said and his presence in the house is mostly unknown, that’s how silent he was.
Amidst his silence, his love has always been very much visible from his actions; it always amazed Khushi, the kind of extent he would go to just to make his near and dear ones feel loved. Sometimes, she will be thinking out loud about some thing she wants and the following day it will be right in front of her, overwhelming her with love for her father. And her father has taught her the most valuable lesson of her life; ‘Do not expect anything in return from anyone, you do your best and let go’. This has always struck with Khushi and she has tried applying this in her life as well.
However, once or twice her father has voiced out his worry of her not being married and these incidents have given her a glimpse of her father’s worry about her life.
Khushi, you may describe her as pleasing for eyes, has a good heart and always willing to help anyone that she feels like needs help. Lost in her deep musings, she was thinking, why she has not been able to achieve further progression in her career. She will be completing her 12th year in the same bank she has been working all her life. Not that she is not happy with her career, but she always felt like, she is missing something and this is not the career she wants.
She was not a competitive person, hence she has seen so many people taking advantage of this quality of hers and pretending like she does not exist. She is a timid person, but she is not oblivious. And being the silent observer she is, has made her see many things, she was not supposed to be privy to. This has made her see the people around her with a hint of distaste, she often wonders why people have to be so self centered just to achieve career heights. Maybe, it was one of her weaknesses that, she was not as competitive as others, maybe she also should start bragging about the work she does, she silently laughs at this thought in particular. She takes a deep sigh, wonders when she will be able to break free from this apathy she feels for her job.
And then comes the big question about her marriage, she has never been in a relationship, yes surprising but owing to her extremely shy and introvert nature, she never wanted to have a relationship. Whoever that was interested in her also, she always made sure she turned them down. And the surprising thing is, she is still very much confused about whether she needs a partner in her life or not. This is not, her being fiercely independent or something of that effect, these are her true feelings and she is genuinely confused about her own stance about marriage.
Leaving all her thoughts aside, Khushi started doing what she is best at; transforming her thoughts in to beautiful poems. This is a secret, she has hidden from the world, only a handful of people in her life are aware of this. When her closest friends started praising her poems, she started to wonder whether she could actually pursue this passion of hers and ultimately convert it to something that is fulfilling. With the pen in her hand, tapping the table from the other, she kept thinking about her own proposition.
Maybe one day she will chase after her dreams without any fear and dreading the outcome!
Note
I don’t know whether what I really wanted to convey was conveyed. Just wanted to write something I have been seen these days often. My profession is as such that I meet different people with different mindsets, due to various reasons, people feel let down by the society and eventually whoever that’s at the receiving end has to bear a lot of pain within. And the above was a product of various scenarios like that amalgamated.
So let’s judge less and accept more. And use your confidence as an armour that would protect the less confidence. Do not let confidence of yours be a weapon that would cause destruction to someone else.
And I’m not a writer by any mean! Just wanted to vent out what I have come across. And whatever I have written may look all over the place. So I apologise in advance for any errors you may spot in the story!
Finally just wanted to say out loud, it is ok to be confused and not have things figured out. Let the flow pick up at its own pace, don’t feel let down and embark upon a self deprecating journey, because you are worth it!
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