Bloody but unbowed
You turn to face the crowd
How can you bring yourself to even care?
Show me a weakness if you dare
What will give?
That's what DevAkshi were yesterday. Bloody but unbowed, not caring (apparently), daring each other.
Love is a strange emotion. It makes people do strange things. But again, where does it all lead to? Will DevAkshi clash like titans or petty humans bound by their limitations and illusions? They have once loved intensely. So, the hurt after seven years is still raw and perhaps blinding (at least for Dev). Yet, I wish they don't make it frivolous by washing their dirty linen in public or indulging in silly antics only to inflict more hurt. Where will this all lead to?? What will give, and more importantly, what will it take them to see the truth?
Will Dev ever realize that it was not Sonakshi or even his mother, but HE himself who brought about this destruction? Seven years, a failed marriage, some broken dreams, and one irreparable loss - doesn't call for the slightest bit of introspection on his part?? The flashback was atrocious š¤¢ It only shows the extent to which the Dixits have taken the endless cycle of self-deception. In fact, it has always been about self-deception for them.
Dev gives himself a wardrobe makeover and thinks he is a changed man!!? Seriously! What has changed Dev? You are still impulsive, you are still madly in 'love' with Sonakshi, and you are still not doing anything constructive to make things work. Instead, you bring in more destruction. You remember each of her taunts but don't remember what prompted her to say them. You remember she left you, but don't remember why. The only thing that has changed for good is your equation with your mother and your family - but in love, you have once again taken the wrong turn š„±
Ishwari thinks of herself as the model mother. Even when Dev pointedly tells her that she destroyed him by taking away his freedom to decide for himself, live for himself, make his own choices - she still thinks she is blameless!! It was all Sonakshi's fault š” Really?? What will it take for Ishwari to realize that she has brought Dev down with her own hands. She still play acts as the perfect mother, caring about her son's happiness - doesn't it occur to Dev that she needs some sort of counselling and treatment?? š¤¢ Instead, he keeps up the charade š¤¢š¤¢ - and this time, consciously š²
Even the lesser mortals in their family are self-deceptive. Neha married Ranveer knowing very well that he is a self-respecting man but still believing that he will take favors from her rich brother to rise in life. Rhea too would have married Ayan if only her family had allowed her to!
And now, Sona! Yes, she too. For seven years, she worked hard to make something of herself. She believed that she was out of his power now - that he didn't matter. Yet, at the slightest provocation she gives in. She gives all the credit to her ex-husband (even if ironically). Why Sona? Didn't you work for yourself, are you not worth anything for yourself, were you doing all this only to prove a point to him?? I thought you rose from your ashes because you are strong and gifted - not because you were wronged.
I have been a consistent follower of this show and have always tried to be non-judgmental about the characters, trying to understand them from their perspective. However, now I don't know where this is headed anymore. How will Dev justify his behavior (not just yesterday's but what is coming up too)? What can they possibly show to make Sona forgive him ...because it's a show after all and they will have to end up together! Yes, they were in love - and are still in love. But love is not enough. The world had broken them once - it can break them again. If they had emerged stronger, emotionally more mature, more resilient - they would have a chance but that's not what they are today. They are bloody and broken, still in love, but still far from the truth, still deceiving themselves as having moved on, still not acknowledging their mistakes. Whatever wonder Soha works, even if she manages to rekindle the buried flames, history will repeat itself as long as DevAkshi don't confront and accept their own and their partner's realities. History will repeat itself as long as they really don't break and rebuild themselves.
Btw, if anyone has reached till here and is curious, that song at the beginning is by Radio Dept.
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