First of all let me tell you how sorry I am that you had to face this trauma from people around you and I am glad to read that you had choices and chose to answer your aunts call rather than ignore it and carry on. You are well equipped then to speak with knowledge about being in a deep dark place mentally, that you think the only way out is to tune it all off. However you do mention plurals-people-environment-life situations etc... all contributed to your depression, it was not one person, not one reason, not one issue.
As someone who was diagnosed with clinical depression last year and was saved in the nick of time from attempting suicide by a phone call from my aunt (my suicide letter and string made from a dupatta were ready), I can tell you that apart from whatever the main severe reason is, the environment in which you reside in or go to work to matters and contributes massively to your depression. Publicly being humiliated, talked about mockingly, made fun of, and laughed at (I faced it all too) aren't fun things. They scar you to a level from where you believe you will never return. An already fragile mind doesn't deserve this. Your self-worth goes for a toss and you actually end up believing everything that they say about you and you land up in a hopeless dark pit where every minute of your existence feels like a painfully slow death. Imagine yourself where things just aren't working the way you want them to, you slip into depression and try to fight back but the world you live in is so against you that it thwarts your every move and does it gleefully.
People have spoken about the toxic culture that exists in Bollywood and how that affected him. Those who knew him well have gone on record to say that he wasn't given what he deserved and instead was hounded by these camps that exist in this industry to further their own or their favorite's career.
I am sorry, but questions have to be asked at least now to these entitled morons who believe they have the power to make or break a person and think it is okay to constantly keep shaming people publicly without a care in the world of what impact it may have on their already fragile mental state.
It was a combination and you hit the nail on the head when you say and I quote:
An already fragile mental state
That is the key, many factors play into a persons state of mind including biological, which is VERY important, a persons mind is like a puzzle, when they are having trouble putting the pieces together they need help. Help that is not happening across cultures and countries, NOT only in Bollywood! but all over the world. Technology has advanced but many things are lagging behind, effective health and psychological care seems to be one of those. At this time the entire world has suffered a life changing event with Corona and I can assure depression and feeling despondent is rampant among all kinds of people. The actor in question had some triggers with people close to him committing suicide. Corroboration that suicide leaves behind a lot of pain and questions,. It must have affected him. Blaming one person or one group based on hearsay does nothing but mask and damage the serious research on the subject of mental illness, because it blames one culprit. Just think if KJ and the other few blamed disappeared from Bollywood tomorrow. Do you guarantee that there will never be a suicide again ever and everyone will be happy and get to work in a lot of movies? Answer this to yourself I already know the answer.
To finish, I want to thank you for sharing your personal experience, it takes guts and strength to share something so intimate. I hope you continue to fight and overcome depression and continue to share an encourage others, you may save many lives. THANK YOU. A big hug and a prayer of good will goes out to you.
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