Chapter 125
PART 7:
Month 7 :
Several days passed on when Arjun finally agreed with her condition.. It surprised her how easily he was all of a sudden ready to take the step for her.. Did he really bought her lie or gave up the thought of questioning her further, she couldnt decide..
But onething surely had change between them from past several days.. No longer they talked with eachother closely , he didint even once touch her after the confrontation on that night.. Why are you expecting him to touch you anyways.. She scolded herself trying to push away the uneasiness rising within her everyday.. Drying her hair carefully she glanced at herself in the mirror slowly caressing her tummy.. This was her seventh month and now it had grown more making her look like a real pregnant women.. Whenever the baby kicked her it made her smile with the thought of a life growing within her..Can i really give u up to someone else. ? She questioned herself sadly.. Glancing at her once again in the mirror she took her bag in hand and slowly left the room with a heavy heart..
She walked inside the party to see everyone buxy in their talks and having fun with eachother.. The uneasiness grew as several eyes came on her filled with curiousness and distaste.. For a moment she felt like she was standing infront of her family , who once had the same look on their face and hated her.. Gaining up some courage she walked inside trying to find someone close when Sanjana came towards her with a beaming face.. " Radhika am so glad you came.. I thought you wont come to the party tonight.. "
She shook her head and smiled.. " I just came for you only after all its your second marriage anniversary.. "
Sanjana blushed and dragged her inside.. " Am really glad you are here.. Now try to enjoy yourself.. Should i get you something.. Any thing to eat or drink.. "
Radhika protested quickly looking around.. " I will fetch a drink myself.. You go and entertain your guests.. I will enjoy myself here around.. "
Sanjana smiled and gave her a quick hug.. Radhika's smile faded away as she left her once again among the strange people.. With a thudding heart she headed away from the party area to the garden.. As she walked outside cool air touched her face making her smile.. For once she regretted bringing a sweater along as she knew it would grow cold in late night..But i am not going to stay here till late night.. She decided and took a seat in the bench glancing around the deserted garden.. The place was indeed beautiful , a place she wished to have herself oneday.. But could she stay happy after giving up her baby.. The thought bothered her once again as she grew restless..
Her thoughts of chain broke as she felt the baby give a hard kick.. She gasped in surprise and laugh softly caressing her belly.. " I think i should stop thinking negative , probably you dont like my cruel thoughts"
" I love you so much.. I cant even tell you how hard this is for me baby.. " She whispered softly while staring at the space..
As she heard a voice she glanced upto see Arjun who stood in between of some girls who were laughing along with him.. He stood unknown with her presence.. But as he felt someone's gaze on him he glanced back right at her and stood still.. Radhika quickly averted her gaze from him while nervously playing with the hem of her dress.. In her mind she kept praying he would leave her alone, the tension between them was becoming intolerable for her..
Arjun excused himself from the ladies and stood for a while deciding whether to join her or not.. For how long you will avoid her..? As the question rose in his mind he slowly walked upto her in a slow pace.. She shifted away a little as he set beside her glancing down at her for a minute.. She looked beautiful, Radhika was indeed beautiful.. Then why was he fighting a lost battle.. He wondered... " Hey hows you.. ? "
She glanced up at him hesitantly and gave a smile.. " I am fine.. How have you been.. "
He glanced away uneasily giving a curt nod.. " I have been good.. Buxy.. " Liar.. Why dont you just tell her you spent your time thinking about her..
She drew a breath and spoke stiffly.. " Ya right i guess i know you were really buxy.. "
Tension hanged between them for a long time.. For a second he felt like leaving her alone and getting out of this place.. But when did he start to grow coward... He taunted himself in shame..
Suddenly the tension between them broke as Sanjana came towards them with her 1 year old baby in her arms.. " Hey Radhika and Arjun.. Radhika can you help me"
Radhika glanced up at her instantly.. " Ya tell me.. What can i do.. ? "
Sanjana glanced down at her baby with a worried look.. " I need to take care of the food arrangements for a while.. I was thinking can you hold Ryan for a second..You dont have to worry he is sleeping.. "
Her eyes grew wide as Sanjana kept looking at her expectantly.. Arjun decided to stay quiet for a second wanting to know how she would react.. Radhika ran a hand in her hair and glanced at her helplessly...It would be rude to say no on her face.
" You will be back soon right ? "
Sanjana gave a big smile and handed the baby to her.. " I will be back soon just give me sometime.."
Arjun set quiet for long and drew a long breath looking at Radhika who set stiff while holding the baby carefully.. She had no emotions on her face , could she really mean what she said in that night..
He got frustrated as he saw her sitting stiff without glancing down at the baby.. She gasped as he took away the baby from her hand.. Her heart clenched as she wondered whether her own child will be taken away like that..
Arjun placed ryan on his shoulder and glanced at her with anger.. " If you dont want to hold him why did you say yes to Sanjana.. "
She tried to speak but he ignored her slowly placing the sleeping boy on his lap.. She glanced down at his small innocent face for the first time.. She realized she actually wanted to hold him close.. But i cant risk the baby's life... She stopped herself from crying and glanced away in pain..
Not able to hold of the tension any long he stood up and spoke in a cold voice.. "I will go and give Ryan to Sanjana.. I dont think she should risk her baby with you.. Specially with a women who have no care and love towards any child.. "
His words hit her like a knife as she stared at him stunned.. Tears of pain filled in her eyes as he left her alone without any further word.. All alone just like everyone did with her.. Was there anyone who understood what she felt.. No care and love towards any child..
Arjun cursed himself as he walked inside a deserted garden to find it empty.. You are a big Jerk.. He ran a hand in his hair recalling his rude behavior and taunting words.. When did he became so insensitive towards her..
He ran out of the party to the road , he noticed her walking in a fast pace in the deserted road.. Has she lost her mind.. He increased his pace as he ran and got a hold on her hand and turned her around... " Are you out of your mind.. Stop running like that you are going to Kill yourself.. "
His heart clenched as he noticed her eyes full of pain and tears... She brushed away his hand harshly and shouted angrily.. " Better i am dead atleast i want be a such a horrible person as you think i am.. "
He tried to touch her but she moved away from him shaking her head.. " Listen to me Radhika.. I am sorry i didint mean to say.. "
Her lips trembled as she started to sob taking out her frustration.. " LEAVE ME ALONE ARJUN RAICHAND.. I dont Need anyone.. HOW DARE YOU QUESTION MY FEELINGS LIKE THAT.. !! "
He shook his head trying to give a explanation.. But the truth was he had no explanation with him to justify his guilty behavior..
She started to walk away slowly with her eyes filled with pain and sorrow.. " I am not a heartless women.. If i mean to take such a big step Dont you think there would be a reason for that.. HOW COULD YOU ACCUSE ME LIKE THAT.. YOU KNOW NOTHING ARJUN.. Just leave me alone.. "
He grabbed her hand and pulled her close as she struggled to get away from his grip.. " Then why dont you tell me whats bothering you.. Atleast i can help to overcome your fear.. "
Slowly she distangled herself from his grip and glared in anger.. " No.. Just leave me on my condition.. I can take care of myself.. "
She walked away from him while he stood alone letting her go...
" What are you doing here.. " She stared at him while he stood with a smile on his face.. It had been several days while they avoided eachother..
He studied her face for a minute trying to read her expression.. " I thought i will let you have sometime alone for few days.. And finally i am here to say.. Sorry.. "
She narrowed her eyes at him as he took bunch of roses handing it to her.. " I brought this for you.. Thought Maybe you would like.. "
She gave a nod and took the flowers and opened the door for him.. He walked inside and came infront of her handing her a box of chocolate.. " And also i brought this for you.. "
This time she couldnt help but smile with his sweet gesture.. " Thank you Arjun.."
He took a breath of relief and held her hand speaking softly.. " I hope you have forgiven me now.. "
She place the flowers and the box on the counter and gave a shrug.. " I have forgotten the talk long ago... "
He stood behind her making her aware of his presence.. She turned around as he placed a hand on her tummy pulling her close.. " I am not getting out of here until you forgive me.. "
Her breath caught as he placed his lips on hers kissing her hungrily.. She moaned softly and gripped his shoulders and he held her neck trying to kiss her more deeply.. As he broke off the kiss she thought he had given up but instead he trailed his lips down on cheeks to the eyelids ,kissing each of them softly.. He brushed his lips on hers as she gasped.. With a ragged breath he spoke huskily.. " Say you forgive me.. "
" Arjun.. I.. " Her words caught on her throat as he trailed his lips down on her collar bone to her neck nibbling her skin softly.. She sighed blissfully closing her eyes , arching her neck to give him more access.. He moved her hair to the side pulled down the sleeve of her dress nibbling her shoulder gently biting on her sensitive spot.. She gasped in surprise as he spoke breathlessly once again " Say you forgive me.. "
She moaned again as he dragged his lips on her chest giving light kisses.. He gripped her thighs as she replied to him softly.. " Yes i do.. Now leave me.. "
She was aware with the fact his actions were growing bold.. But it felt so good being held like that she couldnt muster enough strength to let him go..
She tried to speak when he kissed her once again passionately nibbling her soft lips with his manly ones.. She broke the kiss urgently and stared at him in surprise.. " We cant do this.. "
He frowned at her slowly nibbling her ear lobe.. " Why we cant.. "
She pushed him back and pointed and her belly frowning.. " I think you should notice this.. "
For the first time he grew embarrassed as he glanced away flushed.. Radhika suppressed her laugh and turned around as he started to hold her from back nuzzling her hair.. It surprised her all of a sudden they were comfortable with eachother in such a close proximity.. As he glanced down at with his deep blue eyes the realization struck through her.. Am i in love.. The thought made her gasp , he moved back turning her to face him.. " Whats wrong.. "
She avoided his eyes growing nervous.. " Nothing is wrong.. "
He folded his arms and narrowed his eyes at her getting serious.. Between all distractions he had almost forgot why he had come here.. " We need to do some serious talking here.. "
She glanced at him suspiciously.. " I really dont think so.. "
He blocked her way and stared at her desperately.. " Why dont you talk to me about that.. Why not just spill out the truth.. "
Her lips trembled as she shook her head unwillingly.. " Do we really need to talk about this.. "
He stood with a blank face as she managed to get away from his grasp making her way out of the kitchen.. But again he came out of nowhere pulling her close speaking in his deep voice.. " Fine not today.. Not even tomorrow.. But whenever you feel comfortable enough to discuss it with me.. When you feel like trusting me with your secret.. Can you do that.. ? "
She was ready to protest at once.. But the look on his eyes made everything fade away from her mind..
He held her hand with a soft smile on his lips.. " You promise.. ? "
" Yes i promise " The words were out of her mouth before she could give a second thought.. He hugged her tightly while she sighed blissfully.. Maybe this was going to happen for the best.
Several days passed on when Arjun finally agreed with her condition.. It surprised her how easily he was all of a sudden ready to take the step for her.. Did he really bought her lie or gave up the thought of questioning her further, she couldnt decide..
But onething surely had change between them from past several days.. No longer they talked with eachother closely , he didint even once touch her after the confrontation on that night.. Why are you expecting him to touch you anyways.. She scolded herself trying to push away the uneasiness rising within her everyday.. Drying her hair carefully she glanced at herself in the mirror slowly caressing her tummy.. This was her seventh month and now it had grown more making her look like a real pregnant women.. Whenever the baby kicked her it made her smile with the thought of a life growing within her..Can i really give u up to someone else. ? She questioned herself sadly.. Glancing at her once again in the mirror she took her bag in hand and slowly left the room with a heavy heart..
She walked inside the party to see everyone buxy in their talks and having fun with eachother.. The uneasiness grew as several eyes came on her filled with curiousness and distaste.. For a moment she felt like she was standing infront of her family , who once had the same look on their face and hated her.. Gaining up some courage she walked inside trying to find someone close when Sanjana came towards her with a beaming face.. " Radhika am so glad you came.. I thought you wont come to the party tonight.. "
She shook her head and smiled.. " I just came for you only after all its your second marriage anniversary.. "
Sanjana blushed and dragged her inside.. " Am really glad you are here.. Now try to enjoy yourself.. Should i get you something.. Any thing to eat or drink.. "
Radhika protested quickly looking around.. " I will fetch a drink myself.. You go and entertain your guests.. I will enjoy myself here around.. "
Sanjana smiled and gave her a quick hug.. Radhika's smile faded away as she left her once again among the strange people.. With a thudding heart she headed away from the party area to the garden.. As she walked outside cool air touched her face making her smile.. For once she regretted bringing a sweater along as she knew it would grow cold in late night..But i am not going to stay here till late night.. She decided and took a seat in the bench glancing around the deserted garden.. The place was indeed beautiful , a place she wished to have herself oneday.. But could she stay happy after giving up her baby.. The thought bothered her once again as she grew restless..
Her thoughts of chain broke as she felt the baby give a hard kick.. She gasped in surprise and laugh softly caressing her belly.. " I think i should stop thinking negative , probably you dont like my cruel thoughts"
" I love you so much.. I cant even tell you how hard this is for me baby.. " She whispered softly while staring at the space..
As she heard a voice she glanced upto see Arjun who stood in between of some girls who were laughing along with him.. He stood unknown with her presence.. But as he felt someone's gaze on him he glanced back right at her and stood still.. Radhika quickly averted her gaze from him while nervously playing with the hem of her dress.. In her mind she kept praying he would leave her alone, the tension between them was becoming intolerable for her..
Arjun excused himself from the ladies and stood for a while deciding whether to join her or not.. For how long you will avoid her..? As the question rose in his mind he slowly walked upto her in a slow pace.. She shifted away a little as he set beside her glancing down at her for a minute.. She looked beautiful, Radhika was indeed beautiful.. Then why was he fighting a lost battle.. He wondered... " Hey hows you.. ? "
She glanced up at him hesitantly and gave a smile.. " I am fine.. How have you been.. "
He glanced away uneasily giving a curt nod.. " I have been good.. Buxy.. " Liar.. Why dont you just tell her you spent your time thinking about her..
She drew a breath and spoke stiffly.. " Ya right i guess i know you were really buxy.. "
Tension hanged between them for a long time.. For a second he felt like leaving her alone and getting out of this place.. But when did he start to grow coward... He taunted himself in shame..
Suddenly the tension between them broke as Sanjana came towards them with her 1 year old baby in her arms.. " Hey Radhika and Arjun.. Radhika can you help me"
Radhika glanced up at her instantly.. " Ya tell me.. What can i do.. ? "
Sanjana glanced down at her baby with a worried look.. " I need to take care of the food arrangements for a while.. I was thinking can you hold Ryan for a second..You dont have to worry he is sleeping.. "
Her eyes grew wide as Sanjana kept looking at her expectantly.. Arjun decided to stay quiet for a second wanting to know how she would react.. Radhika ran a hand in her hair and glanced at her helplessly...It would be rude to say no on her face.
" You will be back soon right ? "
Sanjana gave a big smile and handed the baby to her.. " I will be back soon just give me sometime.."
Arjun set quiet for long and drew a long breath looking at Radhika who set stiff while holding the baby carefully.. She had no emotions on her face , could she really mean what she said in that night..
He got frustrated as he saw her sitting stiff without glancing down at the baby.. She gasped as he took away the baby from her hand.. Her heart clenched as she wondered whether her own child will be taken away like that..
Arjun placed ryan on his shoulder and glanced at her with anger.. " If you dont want to hold him why did you say yes to Sanjana.. "
She tried to speak but he ignored her slowly placing the sleeping boy on his lap.. She glanced down at his small innocent face for the first time.. She realized she actually wanted to hold him close.. But i cant risk the baby's life... She stopped herself from crying and glanced away in pain..
Not able to hold of the tension any long he stood up and spoke in a cold voice.. "I will go and give Ryan to Sanjana.. I dont think she should risk her baby with you.. Specially with a women who have no care and love towards any child.. "
His words hit her like a knife as she stared at him stunned.. Tears of pain filled in her eyes as he left her alone without any further word.. All alone just like everyone did with her.. Was there anyone who understood what she felt.. No care and love towards any child..
Arjun cursed himself as he walked inside a deserted garden to find it empty.. You are a big Jerk.. He ran a hand in his hair recalling his rude behavior and taunting words.. When did he became so insensitive towards her..
He ran out of the party to the road , he noticed her walking in a fast pace in the deserted road.. Has she lost her mind.. He increased his pace as he ran and got a hold on her hand and turned her around... " Are you out of your mind.. Stop running like that you are going to Kill yourself.. "
His heart clenched as he noticed her eyes full of pain and tears... She brushed away his hand harshly and shouted angrily.. " Better i am dead atleast i want be a such a horrible person as you think i am.. "
He tried to touch her but she moved away from him shaking her head.. " Listen to me Radhika.. I am sorry i didint mean to say.. "
Her lips trembled as she started to sob taking out her frustration.. " LEAVE ME ALONE ARJUN RAICHAND.. I dont Need anyone.. HOW DARE YOU QUESTION MY FEELINGS LIKE THAT.. !! "
He shook his head trying to give a explanation.. But the truth was he had no explanation with him to justify his guilty behavior..
She started to walk away slowly with her eyes filled with pain and sorrow.. " I am not a heartless women.. If i mean to take such a big step Dont you think there would be a reason for that.. HOW COULD YOU ACCUSE ME LIKE THAT.. YOU KNOW NOTHING ARJUN.. Just leave me alone.. "
He grabbed her hand and pulled her close as she struggled to get away from his grip.. " Then why dont you tell me whats bothering you.. Atleast i can help to overcome your fear.. "
Slowly she distangled herself from his grip and glared in anger.. " No.. Just leave me on my condition.. I can take care of myself.. "
She walked away from him while he stood alone letting her go...
" What are you doing here.. " She stared at him while he stood with a smile on his face.. It had been several days while they avoided eachother..
He studied her face for a minute trying to read her expression.. " I thought i will let you have sometime alone for few days.. And finally i am here to say.. Sorry.. "
She narrowed her eyes at him as he took bunch of roses handing it to her.. " I brought this for you.. Thought Maybe you would like.. "
She gave a nod and took the flowers and opened the door for him.. He walked inside and came infront of her handing her a box of chocolate.. " And also i brought this for you.. "
This time she couldnt help but smile with his sweet gesture.. " Thank you Arjun.."
He took a breath of relief and held her hand speaking softly.. " I hope you have forgiven me now.. "
She place the flowers and the box on the counter and gave a shrug.. " I have forgotten the talk long ago... "
He stood behind her making her aware of his presence.. She turned around as he placed a hand on her tummy pulling her close.. " I am not getting out of here until you forgive me.. "
Her breath caught as he placed his lips on hers kissing her hungrily.. She moaned softly and gripped his shoulders and he held her neck trying to kiss her more deeply.. As he broke off the kiss she thought he had given up but instead he trailed his lips down on cheeks to the eyelids ,kissing each of them softly.. He brushed his lips on hers as she gasped.. With a ragged breath he spoke huskily.. " Say you forgive me.. "
" Arjun.. I.. " Her words caught on her throat as he trailed his lips down on her collar bone to her neck nibbling her skin softly.. She sighed blissfully closing her eyes , arching her neck to give him more access.. He moved her hair to the side pulled down the sleeve of her dress nibbling her shoulder gently biting on her sensitive spot.. She gasped in surprise as he spoke breathlessly once again " Say you forgive me.. "
She moaned again as he dragged his lips on her chest giving light kisses.. He gripped her thighs as she replied to him softly.. " Yes i do.. Now leave me.. "
She was aware with the fact his actions were growing bold.. But it felt so good being held like that she couldnt muster enough strength to let him go..
She tried to speak when he kissed her once again passionately nibbling her soft lips with his manly ones.. She broke the kiss urgently and stared at him in surprise.. " We cant do this.. "
He frowned at her slowly nibbling her ear lobe.. " Why we cant.. "
She pushed him back and pointed and her belly frowning.. " I think you should notice this.. "
For the first time he grew embarrassed as he glanced away flushed.. Radhika suppressed her laugh and turned around as he started to hold her from back nuzzling her hair.. It surprised her all of a sudden they were comfortable with eachother in such a close proximity.. As he glanced down at with his deep blue eyes the realization struck through her.. Am i in love.. The thought made her gasp , he moved back turning her to face him.. " Whats wrong.. "
She avoided his eyes growing nervous.. " Nothing is wrong.. "
He folded his arms and narrowed his eyes at her getting serious.. Between all distractions he had almost forgot why he had come here.. " We need to do some serious talking here.. "
She glanced at him suspiciously.. " I really dont think so.. "
He blocked her way and stared at her desperately.. " Why dont you talk to me about that.. Why not just spill out the truth.. "
Her lips trembled as she shook her head unwillingly.. " Do we really need to talk about this.. "
He stood with a blank face as she managed to get away from his grasp making her way out of the kitchen.. But again he came out of nowhere pulling her close speaking in his deep voice.. " Fine not today.. Not even tomorrow.. But whenever you feel comfortable enough to discuss it with me.. When you feel like trusting me with your secret.. Can you do that.. ? "
She was ready to protest at once.. But the look on his eyes made everything fade away from her mind..
He held her hand with a soft smile on his lips.. " You promise.. ? "
" Yes i promise " The words were out of her mouth before she could give a second thought.. He hugged her tightly while she sighed blissfully.. Maybe this was going to happen for the best.
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