Chapter 13
Dil Tu Hi Bata...
I wasn't looking at the stairs as I was going up .
Those damn tears appeared even against my will, it was not right. It was just right not able to have the control of your body as well as that of the mind .
" Khushi ! Wait . "
"No" I whispered for fear that my voice trembled and he notice it . Maybe he thought I was a psychopath who for a kiss burst into tears.
Before suicidal maniac , then psychopathic ... from bad to worse , or not. But so what?
He grabbed my arm , forcing me to turn around to face him. It was a step below me and still he had to lower his head to look me in the eyes.
The stairs were immersed in the silence of the night , even the goalkeeper seemed to have disappeared from its usual location. It was just me and him.
" There are many things you do not know me " he began quietly touching my hair. " And you are right to insist that I have a girlfriend because in fact I have it, but in essence ... " .
I bowed my head to the right and looked at him curiously. I wonder why that speech seemed to have already heard it somewhere , like in my previous years, in the worst movie and books. Now he would say that he had a girlfriend , but they were in bad water or no longer he loved her . A script seen and reviewed thousands of times that even me with my chronic naivet could not believe anymore. Especially if his girlfriend was the one I had seen in pictures only the day before. She was a supermodel !
"Please," I sighed looking up. " I do not want to feel stupid , I do not want an explanation and I do not care of your private life and what you were going to tell me ."
He would make me melt a little more, he would take me to bed and then I would find myself like a fool on the couch at home watching him... as suddenly he returned with his girlfriend .
Please ...
" Why will not you listen to me? I thought you liked me ? " He said.
"And what does this matter? " .
I walked to the elevator and I pressed a silver button. One thing was go down, but go up to the fifth floor...No way, I just could not .
" Maybe I saw something that was not there ... " he said to himself .
No, he had seen something that was not there. There was everything . Everything and more to be exact. Arnav drew me like a magnet , I liked him more than I could imagine myself.
He was able to make me lose just by looking and his touches , his every gesture towards me , made me feel good as I was not as much as I thought and that I would no longer was .
But to repeat the mistakes made , knowing how much I had been wrong in the past , it was stupid.
" Maybe ... " he continued looking at me. " No I'm not understanding anything Khushi and my mind is not trained to create spoken speeches. I can do only photographs ... " .
My protective barriers collapsed instantly. There was so disarming sincerity , it was not real and destroyed everything I had worked until then.
A little voice told me that men just to get what they want, they pretend . And maybe Arnav was playing the part of man sweet and sensitive. But on the plane, he had already told me that he had no intention of wasting time and energy to lie and I had to resign because that was his true character .
" Maybe ... " I began "I should live day by day , without thinking about the future."
" Hmm ... Khushi, Khushi ."
Arnav stroked my hair looking at me in a strange way . At times it seemed that he could read my thoughts so deep was his gaze.
"It would be a great philosophy ," he said , chuckling.
"Of course , because it goes to your advantage ."
" Also" he admitted .
The doors opened with a light trill . The mirror reflected within me and Arnav one side to the other , me with that stupid t-shirt with small flowers and he always impeccable. We stepped in.
" I'm engaged, and what I have done is not good neither for you nor for my girlfriend . So I promise I will not touch you anymore. "
My stomach sank as the elevator doors closed again .
If I could , I would have screamed like crazy a nice NO.
NO, do not you dare touch me, I'll kill you . I want your attention and your kisses . Now that you made me taste the best thing , you can not snatch it away as if nothing happened . I could die .
After I have learned not to show weaknesses, my next goal would be to be less contradictory.
I did not have the courage to answer , so I buried my face in my hair. That was the worst news of all the whole day , even worse , leading to misunderstandings and bickering .
Then suddenly he pulled me to him with a jolt . He captured my mouth in a way so voracious that I did not even dare to replicate . But now that I think about it , who wanted to replicate ? Me of course not.
" Once we enter in the house, I will NOT touch you anymore" He pointed out.
So , I gave myself up to him. I let my body was being transported by the same transport that was using the kiss .
Now it had become too easy to do so and his taste , his hot tongue moving in my mouth , it was an incentive to never stop .
If he really kept his promise , I 'd be looking for him. Engaged or not . For the first time in my life I would have thought only about myself and what I wanted and not everything that surrounded me . I would have gladly suffered the consequences , but at least it was worth it .
I did not know where I was. But where was I?
I focused the environment and it had to be the landing of the apartment Arnav , yes ...
I had now got astride and my back was lingering against the back of the door .
His kisses were intense enough to make my head spin . Yet when I had met only a few days before , I did not think he could be so passionate, so visceral .
When his greedy mouth went on my neck , I wanted to moan with pleasure and make him feel how I liked what he was doing .
Luckily I had left even a shred of decency.
I stroked his shoulders strong while he contributed every second more to make me completely lose it and he was already gone ... His body undulated against mine and I felt his arousal , my cotton shorts were not quite as thick or tough as he was.
" Besharam, stop it ."
Me and Arnav blocked immediately and we turned our head slightly from where we had been heard that voice hoarse and older .
" Young people today do not know the shame ! " Growled a little old lady who was walking slowly dragging her feet .
Arnav set me down and I hid for a half behind his shoulder.
Devi Maya , what a shame !
"Young man, I liked you but now you seemed different."
Arnav touched his hair and opened his mouth to say something that died in his throat.
The old lady with a pink bonnet on her head and a bag of garbage continued its path toward the elevator. " You have no respect for older people ."
" But Mrs. Khan " cried Arnav . " If I'd known you was going to throw the garbage at two in the morning , I would have gone elsewhere."
I had to laugh , but the embarrassment was so much more .
" Maybe on the roof eh ? " The woman replied .
She stuck between the elevator doors . " In my day we used the bed , and it was very comfortable ! " then her face upset disappeared.
Arnav was shot a few more seconds to the elevator before starting to giggle amused. Then he went into the house without turning on the light , heading directly into the bedroom .
I followed him with the worry of mind . I wanted to make as soon as possible that his promise was bogus , so I was not expecting anything but he put his hands on me. It was the prospect more tempting than I ever had before, as well as to be able to eat a whole bowl of pounds of my favorite ice cream .
I threw myself on the bed with apathy bringing the covers up under the eyes. Arnav was lying next to me , he was pointing to the alarm, and he had not looked at me even for a millisecond.
As soon as he turned off the bedside lamp , he lay down, and then walked over to kiss me on the forehead. "Goodnight Khushi " .
I sighed distraught. "Good night, Arnav ."
I looked at the stars glow on my nose, lucky them who had the vision of Arnav without having to worry about getting caught looking at him. Surely they had seen him naked or even during one of the many relationships with his girlfriend.
Suddenly sleep in that bed gave me a little annoyance. Ok , so much trouble .
Then for some reason , it seemed that those starlets was giving some signals.
Look at them, I connect my thoughts without them tangling . What do you call people who are able to read secret messages through the stars ? Or maybe those reading the papers ...
However, I realized something. Not that it was much, but at least it was a start.
I did spend about fifteen minutes before I turned to Arnav . I leaned my cheek until I touched his chest and there I squatted .
It was he who promise not to touch me more , not me . I had only done the stupid to blame him that he was engaged even when there was no need . But that did not mean that I could not change my mind and get over it .
I thought he had fallen asleep by now and instead I was wrong, because his arms tightened around me . His mouth was resting against my ear and he stroked my hair and neck.
" If you do that though ... I risk of not keeping my promise "he whispered in a way so sweet that I could not help but hug him in my turn .
I lifted my face and gave him a light kiss on the mouth. That was the first kiss I gave him on my own and I had a shiver down my spine.
I smiled in the dark hoping he would feel it or to understand without words I wanted to kiss him, I wanted him regardless of his girlfriend.
I kissed him again and as soon as I walked away I felt him reply to the kiss, I return back on his chest. Unfortunately I did not have the heart to tell him that his promise to me was not worth a damn , he could cancel it when he wanted to , but with my gesture I hoped that he understood .
The next morning I woke up a bit dazed and alone. I thought the alarm will wake me up but I was wrong because I had not even heard when Arnav was gone.
I got up , I took a nice hot tea and then I took a refreshing shower . To kill time I did the cleaning and watered the map of violet that seemed to be looking great.
Also I called my parents in London. They told me that how much they were missing me and could not wait me to come home to hug me . They continued to say: our little girl has grown up.
I would have gladly added also married , but it was still too early to reveal this , they would have taken a stroke .
However, I started to talk about USA its workplace more satisfying than I could.
When I hung up the phone with my parents , I put on my shoes and went down into the street. The day was sunny and it was the right time to go for a walk and get to know my new city.
From a newspaper in the house I had bought a map for tourists who showed all the nicest neighborhoods to visit , museums , monuments and parks. Even the University of Harvard and its campus for the students, was marked by a yellow flag that said plainly, if you're in Boston and not visit Harvard , you're a loser .
When I found myself alone, in that unknown place to look around to figure out the exact direction to take to get out of the neighborhood , it no longer seemed a good idea to go around . I thought maybe it would be better with Arnav , everything was always better with him.
Maybe I also hunted in some trouble.
And why the hell I felt observed ? I felt the heaviness of a gaze on me, only that I could not figure out which side it came from.
It is only suggestion ...
I just got off the step of the sidewalk ready to cross the strips when a car hit me .
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