Back at TAAJ's room, Tanya finds Raj dressed and ready. He sees her and automatically smiles, he walks up to her and is about to bring his hands to hold her but remembers what happened earlier and looks down. Man how did I let that happen? I mixed dreams with reality . It's so overwhelming what she does to me. Looking back up to her he continues lost in his thoughts Look at her talk, those soft, warm luscious lips, so welcoming, tempting and inviting. Tanya waves her hand in front of him breaking his thoughts "Huh? Kuch kaha Tanya?" exhaling Tanya replies "Raj how are you going to help me when you're not even listening?" Raj "I'm sorry, I was just thinking about yo--work, but I'm listening now, tell me, what's wrong, are you ok?" Tanya "Yes, I'm good, and are you dressed to go to the office? Because that that's what I need to talk to you about. You're not going, di wants us to go to the movies with RD and her. I've tried everything to excuse us but she just won't listen.." Raj becomes tensed " I know RD just came in earlier and told me, that's why I am dressed up. But I'm confused I thought you'd want to go, I know how much you love to go out and watch movies. So I just thought'but we can cancel if you want, thiers no point of going if you're not going." Does she not want to go because of me? Does she only stay close-by because we're married? Has she never dreamed us more than buddy-buds? Am I the only one who feel their stomach do summer-saults when we're close? But then again I don't expect her to, how can we plan on forever when we didn't even plan on each other? Tanya watches as Raj's lips form into a frown slowly, she reaches out her hand and places it on his face, hurt " Raj, I'm sorry. I'm always making you sad; you never make me sad. I promise I'm going to stop starting right now. We're going to go the movies, here I'll get ready okay?" Removing her hand slowly I want to brighten up your day like you do with mine just by looking at me, I want you to smile when you see me, I don't like seeing you sad, it hurts to watch, especially when I am the reason behind it. But starting now whatever makes you happy goes, I'll make sure you won't feel one ounce of sadness. Raj stops her hand from letting go completely, placing his hands on top "No Tanya, I'm going to force you, if you want to go we'll go, if no that's okay too, all I care is that you're happy" and smiles I don't want you to go because you feel obliged to, I want you to go with me because you want to! Am I forcing myself on her too much? I'll control my urge to be around you so much. I'll have to try I know it's not going to be easy because for some reason the thought of being away from you for so long disgusts me. He loses an internal battle: an urge to touch her face; cupping his hands tightly on her face still imagining the thought of being away from her, seeing her eyes widen he releases the force in his grip, but still holding on. Feeling her warn face radiant under his hands made him smile "I'll change, don't worry I'll think of something to excuse us from the movies" shocked at hearing this Tanya answers back "No! I mean you're a great person. You're the best friend anyone can ask for and the ideal husband every girl wishes for. You're always of thinking of others before you, always such a gentlemen. But you never do what makes you happy--" Raj cuts her off "Making you happy is what makes me happy, don't you see?" smiling hugely She thinks I'm great! But does she like me like me, she used friend and husband in a sentence how will I ever now if she feels more for me, does she feel what I do? Looking at Raj's smile Tanya couldn't help but smile either; his grin was lighting up her in her yes, dancing to the beat of heart thunder underneath God he's so beautiful when he smiles like that, I don't ever want to see it disappear "Don't change Raj, I want to go to the movies" a whisper bearably yet so seducing that Raj gets caught up in a trance whispering back "your wish is my command" and if it were possible to do so both of their smiles widened. Tanya inching closer with Raj following her pursuit, filling in the gap in between each passing second.. DING! DING! DING! Snapping out of each others trance they hear the clock ding 3 more times. I was now six and Tanya has 10 minutes to get ready, realizing this she drops her hand from his face and he does the same. Looking at her hands Tanya tells Raj brb and changes ino a gray and pink saree. She walks in smiling, a breeze blows by ruffling Tanya's hair. To Raj time freezes, everything goes blurry around him, clarity focusing only on Tanya, smiling ever wider see Raj, giving Raj the biggest thrill in his stomach, like being on a free fall. She walks over and winks coming closer as he reaches out his hand to touch her face, a reassurance to make sure he wasn't dreaming. It was defiantly her, lightly running his fingers up and down her jaw line. He takes a deep breath, taking in her sweet fragrance, Tanya holding herself still. God, how can anyone ever be so appealing? If I could just.. He leans in unintentionally and kisses her.. Raj! Raj! O0o0o Fo! Raj! How is she talking while we're' He opens his eyes to find himself almost lipping Tanya's hand. He straightens up quickly; Tanya "Jaane kaha aap baar baar kho ja te hai. Lately every time I'm around you, you're always..you're off in some distant land. Kaha aap mere khayaalon mein lost toh nahi ho ja te na?" laughing at her joke; Raj on the other hand become very serious, what Tanya just said were true and he was almost caught "Ha per mere fault nahi hai, tum ase roj dress karongi toh ase he kuch hoga na?" Tanya is shocked. Oh my god! Did I just say that out loud? Oh my god! Kya karoo mein? Idea! He chuckles quickly as if he was joking back and Tanya loosens. "But seriously, you look beautiful today" both stare at each other and aankhon hi aankhon mein plays.
Trish comes in then "Tanya! Ready ho gayi?" Spotting her she speed walks over. She pulls Tanya, breaking their eye-lock. "Wow, kit ne beautiful dekh ti ho tum. Raj keep her with you at all time or god knows I might snatch her up for myself" winking playfully. RD enters next "Ready Raj?" Raj turns around "Ha" RD "ok to chale?" Everyone nods and they head off to the theater to watch RNBDJ.
The previews start and RD, Trishna, Tanya, and Raj get settled sitting in that order on the very top right hand corner. With a large popcorn and large drink with two straws in between each couple. Trishna elbows Tanya softly "Oh my gosh! This is so fun. We're finally here, I been waiting for this movies for so long" laughing. Tanya smiles back "I know" Trishna turns her attention back to RD and the both chat about something. The light turn down, the movie is about to start. The producers title's come on and Tanya and Raj are left feeling at bit awkward. Both think of what to say, neither can come up with anything; both thankful that it was the movies that was chosen, at least both have an excuse not to talk and pay full attention to each other. It felt so different though, never like this before. Their was some strange electric current flowing through between Tanya and Raj at the moment, and the darkness made the moment even more intense. Both sat there and wondered why, they both have been in the darkness together, even alone, then why does it feel so striking in here now? Both look at each other, eyes meeting, both caught looking at each other, and quickly turn. Both of their hearts racing now, pounding. Both thinking what do I do? Just then they are saved, the titles start and the movie begins. For a while they try to concentrate deep into the movie, watching both it and the other person from the corner of their eyes. Soon they relax a bit, and start fully paying attention to the movie. Raj slouches down, getting himself comfortable. Raj reaches in the for the popcorn and starts munching; Tanya doing the same.
In the movie Taani is getting ready for her wedding preparations, too busy in thought she bumps into Suri, both hold an eye-lock and Suri falls for her--love at first sight. He feels awkward as she loves someone else. Soon Taani's father has a heart attack and worried for his daughter he asks Suri to marry her. Both agree tearfully.
The part sinks in both of their minds. Brining FBs of their marriage, a marriage on compromise, protection, sadness. Raj looks over at her sadly and turning his attention back to the movie, at the same time he looks away she looks at him, sad too but for a different reason. Both are awkward at the moment. They concentrate hard on the movie. Eating popcorn more excessively. They both try hard as another electric current flows through. Goosebumps rise on both of their arms, ignoring it both reach in the popcorn at the same time. Hands meet and both look at each other. They're hearts are pounding again, and both are frozen. Tanya tries to move her hand but can't seem to do it, meanwhile Raj is again lost in thought I may have been in love like Taani but I swear saving you was more important that the love I felt. And if I could I would do it over again, the only problem what that would be you suffering again, that I would not be able to take again.. He squeezes her hand tight in his. She gulps and finally is able to fins her hand. She moves her hand around his, breaking the grip. He looks down and back up, whispering "Sorry, thought it was the popcorn" he grabs some and turns around quick. Meanwhile Tanya is still staring at him No Raj, I'm the one who's sorry. I'm sorry that like Suri I was the reason that you can not be with the one you love. She goes back to watching the movie too. Time flys by with the movie still playing.
The movie comes to the part where Raj is introduced as Taani's partner. Both practice their dance moves. Couple of scenes fly by and comes to the part after Raksha Bhandan. Taani and Raj are dancing and afterwards Raj declares his love for her.
Both Raj and Tanya get goosebumps watching this. Tanya shivers and rubs her hand over her arm to make the goosebumps go away. Raj is looking at her, his hairs too stand up at the tip of arms. Tanya warming up a bit looks up to make sure Raj does not notice, only to find herself meeting his eye. Another chill runs down their spine and at the same time their heart races giving off a warm eerie in the inside. It was if a volcano was active in them, eruptifying heat in it's self in contrast to the cold hard cover of it's body. Both go to grab popcorn to keep themselves busy only to meet hands in the popcorn tub. Both look up at each other and remove thier hands out, continuing staring at each other with the heat/ice conjoing in them.
RD thinks of a joke watching the scene turning his attention to them, only to find them again in a eye-lock. He laughs quietly and the trio look at him all losing their concentration to whatever they were watching. He whispers as so not to disturb anybody watching the movie "Tum dono movie ko dekhne aaye ho aur sirf ek dono se?" laughing and continuing on "Mein toh yeh scene ke dekhte tum dono ki yaad aye aur kehna tha tumko, par tum tu ek beeja ke aakh mein lost thay" chuckling again once more "You know since we are on that topic anyways, let me just say it. Raj Tanya I mean no offense but this is too funny. You remember when Sanjana asked you to help her dance and later she set you too up and then you too..uhh kissed? Well don't you think that's almost just like the movie? I mean look at this, they are dancing, loving each other, and they even have your names! Taani and Raj -- Tanya and Raj. If I don't know any better, I could have swear they stole your love story. Well almost, and plus you too loved each other and married" All three are speechless not knowing what to say, do RD says "Am I right? Why is everyone looking at me like that?" Tanya looks down and at the same time her stomach twists feeling a bit nauseous; she looks back up coving her mouth and says "I have to go to the bathroom" Trish looks at her and says "Here I'll come with you too, you shouldn't go alone" RD then crosses his arms to his chest and giving them a "oh please" kind of look saying "Oh come on, Tanya you know I didn't mean it like that, I'm sorry" Tanya looks at him and says "It's not like that, I feel nauseous that's all, I have to go, and di it's okay I'll go alone, watch the movie I don't want you to miss it because of me" She is about to turn to leave but Raj grabs her hand, speaking up "Tanya, I don't want you to go alone, I'll come with you" getting up. RD burst out with another comment "Awe so cute, they just want a moment to themselves again, go ahead, but do come back before the movie finishes or the money went to waste" chuckling again. Raj was about speak up but Tanya squeezes his hand as if to tell him to keep quite. He looks at her nods and leads her down the stairs, sliding his hands down till he grabs hold of her hand.
They walk out of the theater holding hands. They walk together towards the women's bathroom in silence, once there Raj lets go of Tanya's hand. He turn around and faces her "Tanya, I'm sorry, If RD said something and it made you feel uncomfortable, I'm sorry" Tanya blinks and replies "It's okay Raj really, stop saying you're sorry, I know you don't mean for any of this, I understand RD doesn't know, mhmm?" "Raj "Okay" gesturing his hand to the bathroom door "Do you have to go or was it just'" Tanya sighs "I.." stuttering "have to go" She walks around him brushing against him a bit; he turns and watches her walk in the bathroom. Tanya walks up the mirror and hold on the edge of the counter for balance; looking in the mirror she thinks to herself Raj saw me with goosebumps, did he feel it too? Was I the only one to feel that electric current? Why am I always feeling different around him now? What's going on? Why am I-- her stomach twists in that same way as earlier. She takes in a sharp breath and holds her stomach the way a pregnant woman does. She looks down at an makes a face--not in a bad way but not in a smiling way either. She moans and pain look Is it kicking me? What's going on? Her nausea back again. Meanwhile Raj is on the outside looking at his hand; his hand was tingling and it was trembling a bit also. His shoulder where Tanya brushed by was tingling too; slowly and tremblingly he touches his shoulder and thinks to himself I am feeling something, and it close to love I know, but I can't put a name to it, I'm not in love, I can't be, can I? I need to talk to Tanya, tell her what's going, but would it bother her? Is she feeling it too? Tanya is still in the bathroom taking in sharp breaths and starting to feel better. She thinks she needs fresh air and decides to do that and walks out. Raj see Tanya walk out and lets his hand fall of his shoulder he take in a breath and waits impatiently for her. She walks up to him and barely whispers "Raj can we walk out, I need fresh air, please" Raj looks in her eyes intensely "Are you okay" Tanya nodded and walks towards the door, Raj following his pursuit.
Tanya walks out, taking in quick deep jagged breaths as if it hurts to breathe, like her lungs can't expand, like her ribs crushing. Bending over a bit placing her hands on her knees she tries to breathe deeper as if she's out of breath after a marathon. Raj concerned goes over to her and holds her, bends down to face "Are you okay Tanya? What's wrong? Should I call the doctor? Tanya..?" A few seconds tick by and Raj grown impatient, he is about to ask again, but Tanya's breaths slowly return to normal, she straightens up and so does Raj. She looks over to him, "I'm fine Raj, I'm just out of breath sometimes, but it's fine" Raj still not convinced replies "Are you sure? We can still call the doctor if you want. In fact I'll take you the hospital for a check-up, besides the baby needs to be checked-up soon anyways" She sighs and says "Raj really, I'm okay, maybe it's a normal thing when you're pregnant, we'll go on the day of the check-up, please let's just go inside, please" Raj is still hesitant but decides not to argue for Tanya's sake. He lets her walk in front of him in case he needs to catch her fall if she becomes dizzy or something.
The sit back down in their seats both Rd and Trish notice, only this time RD does not have comment. Tanya notices Trish's hand on RD's lap and thinks maybe that's the reason why he's not saying something. Raj is still too busy worrying about Tanya but decides to drop it. All of them go back to watching the movie without saying anything. It's at that moment that Taani grows to love Suri (rather than Raj) as she discovers his passionate love for her. And soon the movie ends. RD and Raj are getting up but Trish stops them "Let's wait for the theater to clear" RD nods and they sit back down. As the theater clears RD finally says something "Well you two didn't much while doing whatever, just the most important part where she declines her love for Raj and goes with Suri! But it's okay ,we'll just buy the DVD so you can watch that part. The room is almost empty shall we leave?" Everyone looks and nods getting up. Walking down the stairs RD gets a call. He excuse himself and Trish fills them in what they missed. RD comes back "Raj drive my car with Tanya, Trishna and I have to go to see a client" Raj confused asks "A client? This late? How will you get there?" RD answers back tiredly "Yes a client, he is refusing a proposal and this is the only time I can talk to him because he leaves for the US tonight. I need my good luck charm (referring to Trish) and Mom is waiting out with a car" Raj is still confused and just says Oh. RD waves them bye and they leave.
Tanya and Raj look at each other not knowing what they should for a while. Then Raj remembers and says "Let's go" This time Raj leads them to the car. Raj opens her door and lets her get in and then walks over to his side and sits down. He starts the car and they leave. Tanya is shivering and it does feel rather cool in the car. Raj notices and goes to turn the heat on. After a minute or so Raj notices that the heat is not working and still is cold. He pulls over and takes off his jacket. Tanya is wondering what he doing and soon finds out when he goes to put it around her. She leans forward as he slides it on her and she looks at him. "Thanks" she whispers and Raj nods. It takes all that he can to turn his attention back to the car so he can drive them home. Tanya stops shivering and calms down, and Raj relaxes. They come to a close road sign "Shoot!" Raj bangs his hand on the steering wheel "We'll have to detour, we might be a little late Tanya" He does not look at her because he realizes that every time he does look at her he gets so mesmerized and can not stop the urge. Tanya on the other hand looks at him and thinks You know RD was right a little bit, that movie does define us some way. Like with Taani Raj is my Suri and in him Rab dikhta hai. He is like Rab and I'm thankful. He takes care of me and loves me the way Suri did with Taani--confused faced--wait no not love, Raj doesn't love me, he cares for me.. Wait he doesn't love me.. Will he ever? Will we be like Taani and Suri? And if it's not love what am I feeling? In the movie Taani was feeling something like this towards the end about Suri, she called it love.. So am I in love? Do I love Raj? Is this what I have been feeling for him? Love?
Her thoughts are broken, the car is shaking on the bumpy road. "Soooorry roooaadd bummmpppy haaii, hooold onnn tooo someethinggg" Tanya is shaky and hold one to the arm handle next to her and Raj holds on to his. The road gets even worse and the car shakes more, frustrated Raj hits the accelerator more and the car jerks; both of their hands fall off in between and the brush. The bumpy road soon comes to end but Tanya's nausea just begins. She feels sick again and moans like in the bathroom. Raj hears her and looks over at her "Sorry Tanya, the bumpy road is over now, are you okay?" But before Tanya can answer she is taking deep breaths and yells out in pain feeling the "kick off the baby"--without the baby kicking--again. Raj looks over at her yelling "Tanya! Tanya tum theek to ho na? Tanya! Tanya tumhe kya ho raha hai? Tanya'" The kicking pain stops and Tanya is only left breathing sharp now, as best as she can "Mein..theek..hoon..it's..just..the'baby..kicking" Raj "Tanya mein tumhe hospital le jaha raha ho, you really need to go, I'm worried out you" Tanya reaches her hand out with looking she finds his leg and place her hand there "Raj please, I'm fine I don't want to go, I just want to rest, please just take me home, please" Raj looks down at her hand and back up at her "Tanya I really think you should see the doctor, but I won't force you, we're almost home so just relax now" Thinking Pssssh relax! How the hell can I relax? You screaming in pain dammit! What am I suppose to do? Just sit here and watch? All evening you been screaming and having attacks or whatnot and I'm not suppose to take you to the doctors? You're so stubborn at time you know that? But this is the last time you'll ever be! Next time this happen I don't care what you say, I'm rushing you to the ER, drag you if I have to! For God's sake I love you too much to see in you in pain like this! making a face wait did I just say I love her too much? Did I say I love Tanya? Do I love her? Had I always known I loved her? I was thinking love, but it couldn't have been! I never felt this way with Trishna.. This is different, it feels so normal but so intense. It make me feel soo I don't know different. Me but not me, love but not love. Wow love! I love Tanya! I feels right to say it! Tanya I love you! I love you Tanya! Yeah it sounds right. He looks over at her smiling, but it soon disappears as he sees her head leaning on the window with tears rolling down on her precious little face Now I know why it kills me to see you suffer, I love you, and now that I know that I can't handle this anymore. You have been in so much pain for far too long and it's over. I'm about to change that. Kasamh se! At the moment he drives in through the gates to their house. He parks the car and gets out, slamming his door. He walks over to Tanya's side mad. He sees her through the window wiping her tears and softens up, he feels a punch in his stomach, but he ignores it as he opens here door, softly speaking "Tanya, are you okay? We're home, let's go in" Tanya nods without meeting his eyes and gets out the car. He closes the door and turn to walks with Tanya. Tanya feels a little lightheaded and walks ad if she were drunk, Raj watches her worriedly, she's about to tip over but Raj comes rushing behind "Sumbhal ke, Tanya" He keeps his hands there to support her; one on her shoulder and one around her waist. He walks her into the house and up to their bedroom.
He walks her over to her side of the bed and gently tucks her in. Trying all that he could to not get upset about her condition. Nothing really major happened Raj, don't get mad. If she yells in pain then react and take her, but not now, calm down, she's fine, just a bit dizzy I bet. He tries so hard to convince himself, with his hands in a tight fist he walks over to his side of the bed. He lays down and without looking over at her he says "I know you're going to say you're fine, but if I hear you scream in pain, I'm taking you to the hospital, not because I like upsetting you, but just to make sure the baby is fine, okay?" He turns off the light and tells her Good Night. But he couldn't sleep for over 2 hours, thought running through his mind. He kept seeing her teary eyed from the car ride, the painful screech she made at the theater and how she almost fell dizzy. And he tried his best to block it out but no success. After an hour and a half of torturing pain he forced himself to see the happy ,smiling, breathtaking, version of Tanya and promised himself that he will see her like that very soon. Doesn't matter what he has to do but he will do it, because he loves her.
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