Part 14
Saving grace
Sharing her past had been unknowingly refreshing for Chakor... the next morning when she woke up Suraj was still there sleeping on his back and letting the sound of his rhythming breath and snore to Chakor's ears... he first came across to her like a monster but looking at him now she only felt like he was an innocent child except for the beard ... she thought smilingly lifting herself on her elbow she watched the prominent frown on his forehead... he was always soo stressed out for some reason she didn't like that... not when he had been soo tolerant with her... it finally felt like someone understood her ... how he stood by her side and asked for the officer to leave... she felt tempted to run a finger on his face when he scared her by moving slightly... she almost felt he was waking up while she had been staring at him creepily but he only curled deeper besides her continuing with his sleep
She hated him??? She liked him?? Chakor had no idea ... not wanting to pounder harder over this she shifted herself to leave the bed only to have him crush part of her stretchy t-shirt under his weight causing her to bounce back and fall over a sleeping Suraj... his eyes widdened up at the sudden assault... still clouded with sleep he watched the girl who lifted her head from his chest ... her hairs covering her face as she mumbled "dammit" under her breath... somehow it was confusing and troubling to him since he had been dreaming about her... he had been seeing what she did for the previous nights eversince her accident... taking her by surprise he rolled over her pinning her to the bed
His hands by the two sides of her hips... she felt like a doll beneath him except for the comfort of his weight which seemed alienated to her ... he was mere a stranger pinning her to his bed while being on the top of her... how did that make her heart race happily while her cheeks flushed up warmly ..."What were you doing???" He asked quizzically ... his eyes fixed on her lowered gaze and red face ... this girl was a shade of every color he had had ever came across with... she was innocent... childish... fiesty and now she looked like a shy little kitten
"i was... tr...trying to ... get up" She stammered still keeping her eyes away from him unknowingly irritating him... she had no clue why was she avoiding his gaze ... how was she even talking to him without worrying about her morning breath while he still had this morning fragnance which flushed her up... he was a gangster .. he killed people yet he managed to look and smell good
"Look at me!!!" Suraj's eyebrows were close to meet his hairline... she was avoiding him as if she hiding something .. were she hurting? After yesterday he was suppose to think she was the strongest girl ever but somehow he thought she was the girl who needed to be protected... she had been through soo much alone so now she needed someone to treat her like a queen like she deserved
His voice was husky and slow "Look at me Chakor" He asked again as she bit her lips raising her face to meet his gaze... her lips were slightly parted and eyes droopy ... he had been this close to uncountable amount of girls but nobody ever managed to turn him on by just locking their gaze with him... no one except for Chakor who wasn't even his type to begin with neither was trying to seduce him... her face flushed into a deeper red as she attempted to twist her lips in a subtle smile at his sleepy dishelved look... "Goodmorning" She spoke slowly letting her breath blow against his lips as if kissing them ... if that was even possible.. letting part of his weight fall deeper on her he rose his knuckles gently rubbing it against her arms causing her to shiver then it went to her shoulder to her bare neck to her cheeks pushing away the untamed strands of hairs away from them ... a sudden long breath from her causing her bosoms to retract and release against his chest ... an act which stired his arousal harder making him wish to capture his lips against her parted ones... kiss it until it swells up
His gaze possessed something she had seen many men had... even once Vivaan had it while he attempted to kiss her... it was desire? ... but no one managed to make her feel it in return... he did... she felt herself desiring for the guy who was first rude to her but then he sobered down in such a way that he now knows her way more than her own family does while for she herself knew he was everything but the monster he shows himself to be
She was lost in him tracing her cheek bones slowly against his firm knuckles when she finally became conscious of her bare legs rubbing against his jean clad legs... her eyes were widdened causing him to realize what his inner wanted to enleash... it took him everything to retract his hands from her face clenching his eyes he rolled away from her ... laying on his back keeping his eyes closed and gulping down the sudden urges which made his veins crept up ... he felt Chakor leave the bed but that didn't help to calm his aching body which for the first time ached with needs for someone... how? and why? he wanted to make senseless love to someone???? This was bad
While for Chakor standing under the shower she wasn't embarassed but smiling and blushing... he had moved away from her at the first sign of her not being ready ... that only showed he respected her... as the droplets fell on her body instead of erasing Suraj's touch from her it made her feel like him touching her... was this an infatuation? She thought she was in love with Vivaan but it never made her feel like that? Like she wanted him .. she couldn't bring herself to kiss Vivaan while with Suraj it was natural like her body wanted to lose itself in him
In the afternoon she was still lost in the daze of whatever had happened... she had this certain glow on her face which kept her in a good mood and was thankful to everybody who instead of trying to make her feel comfortable behaved normal to her .. like they never knew such a harsh truth about her past... she was happily helping Gauri cook when Suraj came in the kitchen ... he was thinking she'd shout at him for having touched her but she greeted him back with a beautiful smile
"Lets go i am taking you somewhere" His cold expression and emotionless tone didn't both Chakor anymore since she felt like she could see beyond that
"Where????" She chirpily asked excited about going somewhere with him?? Maybe a date? She wouldn't mind
"just go get ready Chakor" he pretended to leave a tired sigh as she left poutingly ... Jagan and Adi were staring at him ... he had to eat back the smile which threatened to show out
She climbed down the stairs after just a few minutes later clad in a salwar suit he had purchased for her... she sat in the car impatiently asking him more and more questions
"WHats your favorite color?" She asked randomly feeling bored as her companion prefered the silent keeping his gaze firmly on the road
Suraj gave her a side look from the front mirror.. she had worn yellow which reflected against her eyes... he never really had a choice of color in his life... the only two colors which was forced upon him was black and red
"Yellow" he said without thinking any harder about it not realizing the smile which graced her face as she twirled her dupatta in her hands
"what if you weren't in this domain what would you have wanted to be?" Chakor asked seriously as his reaction changed... she all of a sudden regreted having asked that but least she knew it was something he wanted to be asked about ... being in a gang wasn't his choice too .. it was his obligation
"A doctor!" The answer which came from him was shocking to her
"My sister... Bhagya... she always wanted to be one but she never really succeed since she..." he hadn't expected the soft palm squeeze his hands which laid on the steering wheel... he had never been comforted so now feeling it was surreal... she didn't have a gaze of sympathy but of understanding
"I think you would have looked handsome in a doctor coat" She amusing him and biting her tongue as she realized her words
"I thought you had said i wasn't your type" he teased further smirking at her embarassed face
She cleared her throat before turning her face to the window for the first time noticing they were heading towards the city
He stopped the car infront of a park which seemed secluded from the city crowd
"Suraj?" She asked looking at him leaving the car to reach by her side and open it... she remembered having taunted him not being chivalrous once ... glancing out was a pair of women and men looking angry as if they'd be anywhere except there... she had never saw them anywhere... they looked as if being of her own parents age but followed Suraj quietly
"Why were we brought here???" One of the man spatted angrily looking at Chakor in disgust... she wrapped her arms around herself looking at the bed of green grass... why were these people soo angry at her?? She didn't even know them!
"most importantly why is this wrench girl here?????" One of the lady angrily spoke moving dangerously towards her only to have Suraj stand infront of her
"Stop right there!!!!!!" Suraj's voice oozed with a dangerous tone causing all to silent their words and step... his glare was intimidating ... he didn't want to be there but he knew this were to be important
"Why did you bring us infront of our Children's murderer?????!" Hearing the lady now cleared Chakor's confusion... her heart was in her mouth out of fear along with tears in her eyes... Children's murderer??? They were the parents of the ones who died in that accident????
Her hands grabbed Suraj's leather jacket for support as comprehension filled her... she felt weak ... she wasn't ready for this??? No wonder the disgust in those people's eyes... She had murdered their children... Children who were suppose to be their future support... Children they had raised with care passion and love... Children who now were no more because of her... She wanted to turn and run ... so was her plan but Suraj turned grabbing her wrist placing her infront of him ... she feeling was soo weak that he felt like handling a rag doll
"Speak to them Chakor" He said causing her to look at him shaking her head in a reluctant no... she wasn't even ready to bring herself to look at them ... how was she to talk to them??
"She can't say anything... give her some alcohol she might gain some courage" the other lady taunted bitterly stabbing her right into the heart
"You have any idea??? watching our children return home lifeless all battered up... my daughter wasn't even recognizable!!!!!" The mother broke infront of Chakor her husband she assumed handling her while Chakor herself felt unable to watch the whole thing she turned her face into Suraj's chest sobbing harder
"Blaming Chakor is of no Use... atleast hear her out... that night you didn't only lose your children... Chakor had lost her everything too" Suraj wasn't used to all the cryings... he was mostly unaffected by such dramas but Chakor's tears wetting his shirt was affecting him greatly ... one hand laying comfortably on her back... he almost regreted having the idea to get Chakor to witness her past but having talked to a doctor about PTSD ... he had realized the only way to make her feel better would be to face her bottled up fears
"It's nothing though... my lost is nothing compared to what they lost" She finally broke up shouting the words as she turned from Suraj to the parents
"I know i can't be forgiven... i am not even deserving to ask for forgiveness... but i swear on everything i wasn't even drunk that night... i was drugged!!!!!" She spoke up feeling the hands that crept along her waist which kept her steady.. she was distraught but could see and feel the pain of the parents who had lost their child... they weren't expecting this... they weren't expecting that side of her story
"I am not lying.. i was almost raped that night by i dunno who... my only fault that night was trying to escape... i didn't know by getting in that car i will cause your children's end.. if only i had any idea ... i'd sacrifice my own life but not cause anyone else's death" she slid on her knee breaking free from Suraj's grasp... her cries were muffled by her hands but it was still very true and painful
"How can we believe she's not lying... she's just a celebrity maybe attempting to clear her image" That woman angered Suraj who had knelt besides Chakor now surely regreting his decision... can't this people see the truth in her eyes??? He was a monster and yet he could read it along with the underlined pain
"Like she f**king cares????" He cursed shocking them all as she squeezed his hand again shaking her head in a no as if asking him to be quiet
"She didn't kill your children if anything your children were bigger culprit than she is... they were the one drunk!!!!!!!" He yelled angrily ... the fathers paled at the revealation showing they were well aware of that truth
"They were drinking and driving... Chakor was mere a victim in the whole scenario" He was angry at those people and at him for not having thought for a better idea... her tear strickened face now had concern and worries locked at the set of parents????
"Is this true???!" the ladies to their husband who shamefully nodded
"They were drunk yes... we never told you because we knew it will make us feel like we failed as a parents and it was also easier to blame the celebrity who already had been accused by the media" That statement should have made Chakor angry like it did to Suraj but it didn't... she could understand why they did so... looking at them feel remorseful now made her wish they'd still be disgusted towards her
She gave Suraj her hand wanting to be pulled up and understanding her unsaid words he did just that after standing on his feet... he pulled her up as she walked towards them
"No parent is a fail... it was not their fault too.. it was an unfortunate accident which was maybe meant to happen that way... if blaming me is the easiest way to sooth your wounds its okay!! I blamed myself too" She spoke gently thinking about all those times she cried hearing the voices which said she was a murderer ... there was nothing more painful than that
The ladies who were few minutes cursing her now hugged her and apologized while she hugged them back soothing them "don't please don't apologize... i know i can't replace your children but i promise to be there if you need me ... another pair of parents can hurt no children" her words struck at Suraj who placed a hand on his chest feeling the thumping which seemed soo unfamiliar to him... his heart was feeling pain? it wasn't even a bad kind of pain ... it was a pain which made him realize he was living ...
She had spoke some more with the parents before they left a thankful nod at Suraj... perhaps they felt relieved too... the fathers were probably feeling guilty for having always hid the truth while the women maybe would have always hated Chakor and that would have never made them move on
Suraj expected Chakor to curse him for having brought her at this juncture but she didn't... instead she wrapped her arms around him...hugging him letting her tears flow freely down her cheeks it wasn't a sorrowful sob but it was a closure tears... it wasn't suppose to make her feel better to know they were drunk too but it did... she felt selfish for that but she couldn't help it... she felt like having given an end to that voices that yelled her to be a murderer... she didn't need a public statement for that... the ladies having hugged her out were enough of a satisfaction and it was all because of Suraj... the guy she thought was the least capable of giving her anything had given a closure to an accusation which perhaps would have had haunted her for her entire life
He wasn't understanding her cries.. he was clueless to what to do to calm her down so he did the one thing he felt right.. wrapping his arms tighter around her and stroke her back ... he could feel her curl in him further placing her head on his chest
"thank you Suraj... I never thought ever being able to face this part of my life but thanks to you i did it" her words could have passed as whispers but still audible to him... he again didn't know how to accept gratitude so he didn't say anything in return
"Maybe you killed many people and to be honest when i first came here i thought you are just that.. a ruthless murderer... but now i know you aint... you are soo much more... you saved me once and today you gave me the most precious gift... to breath without feeling guilty about still being able to breath" She was speaking against his chest as if it wasn't to him but to his heart who was actually trying to respond back by leaving a song of beats... him bringing her here was suppose to be a cure to her but it was slowly turning into a cure for the venom which resided in his heart the only contrary was she was accepting towards the cure while he wasn't
A monster he was a raised to be and a monster he will continue to be... he broke the hug and walked to his driver seat ... not a single word was uttered to Chakor... she wiped her tears and walked to the car...no matter he didn't say anything but he having done this for her showed he cared!!!!!!! and for she knew now why was she soo reciprocal towards him ... why she felt like losing herself in him?? Why was her body heatened up next to him? Why was her heart always pounding happily around him? Because she was falling for the guy who were now glaring at her from the mirror
"Do you know how they say everything happens for a reason?" She said looking at him affectionately
"I never believed in it but now i do... everything truly happens for a reason for hadn't been Jagan and Adi confuse me for Imli i did never meet you" Her smile was brightening up the car causing his glare to turn into a little twist of smile forgetting he was to be uneffected by her words and acts remembering the first day she had arrived to them... the first kidnapped victim who asked to stay kidnapped
"You don't regret ever meeting me????" He asked pretending like he didn't care for the answer but deep inside he did
"Never Suraj.. i can never ever regret meeting you!!!" Her voice was sparkled with sincerity ... she bent over dropping her lips on his cheeks kissing it as he stopped the car in a sudden screeching brake
Precap:
"You're leaving Right now!!!!"
"I love Suraj"
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