Part 11
Silently but Meaningly
PTSD - Sleep paralysis attacks were words unknown to him... but looking at Chakor who always behaved cheerful and happy he wondered how much more were locked in her , were she as lonely as he was inspite of her happy facade
"I am sorry Chakor" He whispered slowly to her ... something he couldn't have done while she was awake and angry
Reaching at home... there was his gang waiting at the doorstep for him... he just shook his head telling them it wasn't the right moment for questions... he opened his passenger door.. Chakor was still curled up against the seat sleeping ... she was in an uncomfortable posture but her tiredness took over ... she didn't even wake up even when he pressed on that break in a jerk... for the first time his dead heart was learning to care for someone... soo much he didn't feel like waking her up specially after learning how sleep was precious to her ... he lifted her in her arms and watched her curled up against his chest like a small child ... the widdened eyes of his men mostly Adi and Jagan showed this was a never seen before scene
Chakor unknowingly nuzzled her nose in his chest feeling the sudden lift but her muscles were dead for the day... somehow she felt a trust in Suraj... she knew as long as she was with him she was going to be safe... so she stayed in her dreamland... in a corner of her mind she hallucinated having heard him say "It's okay go back to sleep we're home" least she knew it wasn't a hallucination at all... he'd whisper that to her while placing her on his bed...
He could see she was uncomfortable in that dress ... it was irritating her even in her sleep...he stood watching her for several minutes feeling like a creep but once she made another turn trying to look for a comfortable posture... he determindly walked to his closet pulled a t shirt of his and bent to her... he pulled the bed sheet over covering her... placing his hands on her zipper inside the bedsheet... he froze realizing what he was about to do... what was it about this girl which even her discomfortness made him feel uneasy.. he slowly pulled the zipping down... helping her arms out of the dress slowly without disturbing her sleep... if she woke up while he was doing that it was going to be a long night with inexplicable words... he was experienced in undressing girls so that night he tried the impossible by making her wear his shirt and slowly slipping off the dress down her legs ... walking to the window he opened it closing the curtains for no sunlight to enter... only a soft breeze which lowered the temperature... he felt satisfied only when her face was freed from every frown .. she stopped changing turns and soon her soft snores filled the room
Chakor had changed something in him.. a change he wasn't ready to accept for his life was filled with nights like they had spent.. she wasn't a bad girl he had realized that.. but she wasn't one who could be led to his world... she was fragile meant to be protected meant to be with someone who had a heart to love her like she deserved
That night Suraj felt desperate... it took him everything not to slip next to Chakor and have a peaceful sleep like she was for even he wished for that more than anything but he didn't... he instead walked out of the room taking his car keys again
He refused to let Chakor in... for one she wasn't going to be dragged in his dirty world and second whenever he let someone in ... he had experienced immense pain... he rang the bell of the girl he always turned to in dire time... when she saw him at his door step her smirk was prodigious ... she hadn't expected him ... Suraj Rajvanshi never knocked at anyone's door.. he just need to call and he'd get what he want... so feeling honored.. she pulled him inside capturing his lips... she pushed him on her bed... undoing his shirt buttons... when her hands caressed his bare chest.. he could only remember how Chakor had nuzzled her nose against it few moment ago
Another girl against him was suppose to make him forget about the one who slept on his bed right now but he was wrong... he couldn't even bring himself on no matter how much she was grinding against him... he tried to shake off every memories of Chakor and rolled over the girl kissing her lips frustratedly but even his lips refused to sync to his thought since he had to stop himself from moaning Chakor's name
Feeling he was rather uninterested she stripped down to almost nothing but it still didn't affect him whereas his mind kept on scolding him that Chakor even while dressed in his baggy shirt and sweatpants with hairs like a bird nest made him want to go crazy with desire.. it was wrong... real wrong specially when he heard the buckle of his belt click against the floor
"No!!!" He said stopping her... he couldn't do that... not when his mind was occupied with someone called Chakor.. he felt like he was about to cheat himself having sex with this girl while thinking about Chakor
She was shocked when Suraj buckled his pants and buttoned his shirt and left the house like he wasn't even there at the first place
The next morning Chakor woke up hearing the chirping and voices... it was too early for her mind to work... she sat straight when her eyes fell on the clock besides the bed... it said 3 O' clock... she had slept until so late... that was impossible... she ran a hand through her tangled hairs... the previous night memories coming back in her mind... her mind had refreshed itself but the injuries on her body were there ... paining and reminding her of that vile touch but then she remembered Suraj who had saved her... she remembered him confiding her one of his biggest pain... how can a man do that to his wife while having his son in the house... she felt a hatred towards all who hurt him along with a question about how his mother died... he'd say Malhotra didn't kill her
When she stood from the bed.. the bedsheet slipping off her she realized she was no more in her last night's dress.. she was appaled ...bright red with anger and feeling rather bashful Who the hell had changed her dress into this shirt??? As long as she remembered she was in the car? She doesn't even remember climbing the stairs to this room least shall be changing into a shirt... anger replacing the empathy she had felt for the certain handsome tall guy... she doesn't remember any girl in the haveli... running towards the shower she first rubbed off her skin under the scotching hot water... it was giving her a certain pleasure as if erasing Malhotra's touch surprising enough she was merely angry at Suraj for having changed her dress but not disgusted ... it only made her skittish .. why will he ever do that
Dressed in another of his shirt and sweatpants... she ran downstairs glaring at all the men who looked at her in sympathy... perhaps they learnt what happened the previous day "What's wrong with you people i am fine" She yelled placing her hands on her hips causing them to nod their head
"Are you really??" Adi asked her looking at Chakor cautiously... when she arrived in Suraj's car yesterday even the worst guys in their group wanted to know if she was fine... this girl was like a bright light in their dark house...eversince she arrived they got to laugh and everyday a new thing happened... she didn't only spite Suraj but she was gradually changing him ..in a better him. Before Chakor's arrival their schedule was determined... eat sleep kill or witness another death of their own ... Adi knew this girl didn't belong in their circle but he couldn't help but wish she'd stay
"Yes i am now tell me where your idiotic moronic boss is" She spoke glaring at him frightening Adi with her fiery eyes
"We don't know" He shrugged genuinely ...nobody ever gets to keep a tab on Suraj
"How can you not know you're his spoon wherever he goes you're after him" Chakor spoke mockingly glaring at Adi as if reading into his soul .. she could almost leave a chuckle when he gulped frightfully... what was about her which scared these guys
"We really don't know... we never know actually where he leaves.. last night he arrived didn't say anything and carried you to his room then he just left without saying anything" Adi was equally confused by Suraj and the redness which crept on Chakor's cheeks... Girls analogy was beyond his comprehension
'Carried her to his room' it was words which engraved itself in Chakor's brain... she mumbled a quick okay before turning her back and finally letting the little smile out which crept along her lips.. a smile she was clueless for its purpose...she facepalmed herself walking towards the kitchen... there she was shocked to find a girl who introduced herself as Gauri... she'd say she was instructed from today to cook and leave ... least to Say Chakor was happy for the girl presence... why had they hired a cook now?
Five days has passed and Chakor still hasn't seen Suraj her sleep paralysis attacks had taken a toll on her ... Adi had dropped salvars for her ... the guys had gone soft towards her but whenever she asked for Suraj they'd look for excuses to go away... she had gelled up with Gauri who taught her how to cook
"Oh My god finally its round!!!" She shrieked happily holding the round roti in her hands spinning around joyfully when she noticed Jagan staring at Gauri... he'd look at in admiration... she chuckled attracting his attention... now she knew why Jagan stayed in the kitchen whenever Gauri was here .. it wasn't to test taste her dishes but followed by his crush for Gauri
"Hmmm ... should i tell her or should i not tell her" She mummured mischieviously to Jagan who stood flastered at being caught
"Tell her what? tell who what?" he said pretending to be unaware but clearly didn't work because she raised her eyesbrows at her showing it wasn't working
"No please don't... it'll be embarassing" He pleaded infront the little devil who totally matched his boss ... it was truly a match made in hell like the others betted
"lemme think..." She pretended..."Fine but one condition... i need to know where your dimwit boss is" she asked crossing her hands on her chest... smiling brightly at her no option deal... she loved her new dresses... it was comfortable and totally her style.. she had no idea how Adi guessed it but the flowiness made her feel beautiful and confident
Jagan was a sharp shooter... one of the best but still he felt like a mere looser infront of this girl who smiled at her like she didn't just blackmail him... what to do?? Die when his boss finds out or tell her tell his crush about his feeling which was equal to dying in shame
"working out in the field" He said grudgingly when she excited hugged him like a little kid
"You're the best brother ever" unwantedly a smile occupied his face... he wasn't inhuman anymore "I'll help you when i come back" She said rushing to get food ..."Don't kill me the first day you made me your brother" She could hear him scream
Chakor had never walked in this side of the Village .. she mostly stayed within the wall of the mansion... she could see the rush of village life.. man working their business.. she sent a smile towards the kids who played unbothered about having the most expensive toys or phone to feel happiness ... she spotted the guy who avoided her for 5 days working the hoe
Suraj was trying to regain his normalcy this 5 days... but everything he did let him to remind him of her... when he'd go to the shop he'd remember she didn't have clothes.. so he purchased and sent in the hands of Adi... then he'd remember she did know how to cook and didn't go out of the house so he did what he never done... hire a cook that too a female one whithin his premises ... even right now hoeing the ground vigorously he could only recollect how frightened she looked in that room and how comfortably she curled against him sleeping
To say he was left speechless when he saw the culprit of his restlessness was an understatement... smiling like a little kitten dressed in a pink he had chose few days ago
"What are you doing here???" He asked keeping his attention on the hoe as he angrily dug it in the ground
"I brought you lunch" She said pointing at the box in her hands... his flexed arms catching her attention.. he was sculptered like a greek God ... if he had certain imperfections she was certainly blind to it.. everything appealed her about him... heck even his beard was hot
Strange girl.. he had been standing infront of her hands extended for the box but she kept on staring at him... who even gave her his whereabouts "Who told you i am here?" He asked suspiciously... she merely shrugged looking in her surroundings and found a little open hut
She walked towards it expecting him to follow her... he did because he was yet to be answered... he hated when someone did not give him answers when asked upon... she managed to trigger all his nerves yet he was attracted towards her... who wasn't at all his style
She sat on a rock placing the bowl in her lap.. she signed him the rock besides him causing him to sigh frustratedly "Chakor i am asking you something and you're joking around.. who told you i am here" He had a angry edge to his tone but he still abided sitting
"Jagan told me... i blackmailed him" he was bewildered...Blackmailed?? How can she blackmail Jagan when he didn't crack even at having a gun at his temple
"That as..." he was about to abuse Jagan when she forced a piece of paratha in his mouth causing him to look at her increduously ... she chuckled happily as he chewed on the morsel... he looked innocent inspite of the murdurous glares he was throwing at her... somehow she'd know by now he's all bark but no bark when it'll concern her... she realized that she understood him better now ... he was maybe a gangster but he was one with a good aim
"I can eat" he defended when she fed him up with another morsel
"Your hands are dirty" She said as a matter of fact... causing him to rub it against his pants making her cringe
"Still dirty so no... eat up quietly.. it's getting cold open up quickly ahhh" She scolded very motherly... a tone which had been used very long ago with Suraj... heck he hadn't been fed since over 15 years now ... whether he ate or he didn't nobody cares even he himself ... feeling her fingers at the edge of his lips everytime she fed him was supposed to be affectionate but someone even the most innocent gesture for him was enough to make him feel a tingle in his body
She rewarded him with a graceful smile on her lips as he ate quietly... opening his mouth automatically once done chewing... watching him eat was a new satisfaction which rose her heartbeats... her cheeks was soon going to ache for how warm it got and stretched it was... sometimes it didn't take a lot to fall for someone for her it might have took a few morsel and adamant guy who ate quietly inspite of looking at her angrily
Edited by Blushy_Auntacid - 6 years ago
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