Sanjana sat on her bed thinking about the events of the day.After seeing Ajay today she felt like she was back where she started a week ago. Every single brick of the walls she had put around her heart was brought down by just seeing him. She had to do better the next time. She had to make them stronger and thicker. She couldn't keep falling apart like that. She was brought out of her thoughts by the sound of her phone ringing. Ajju had tried calling her earlier but she didn't answer. She was angry. Why after all this time, he was calling her now? This time she was the one not ready to talk to him. Thinking it was Ajju again she was going to disconnect the call when she saw Ajay's name on the display. Immediately her heart stated racing and she wondered why he was calling her. He was the one who told her to stay away from him. What does he want from her? When it was almost ready for the call to go to voicemail she answered.
"Hello"..
" I need to talk to you" came Ajay's voice on the other side of the line.
"About what?" Sanjana answered trying to keep her voice from showing any emotion.
"It is important, I am outside can you please come out?"
Sanjana looked at the time. It was almost midnight. What could be so urgent that he had to come at this hour, she thought. After a long pause Ajay heard the phone line go dead. She had hung up and he didn't know if she was going to talk to him. After waiting a few minutes he saw the gate of the Agarwal house open and Sanjana walked out.
Ajay got out of his car as she walked towards him.
"Ok I'm here, what do you want? "
She said still not looking directly at him. Ajay stared at her for a few moments. He hated the fact that she wouldn't look at him.
"Why aren't you answering Ajju's calls?"
Ajay saw her expression change from confusion to anger as she turned to face him.
"That's what you came at this hour to ask me? Why I wasn't picking up Ajju's calls? " she said in disbelief.
"He is coming back next week?" Ajay told her. "He said he couldn't wait to see you. He is expecting you to be here waiting for him."
Ajay said looking at her. Sanjana's expression remained the same and he wondered how what he said didn't seem to affect her.
"Sanjana did you hear me?" Ajay asked.
" What do you want me to say?" Came her answer her voice louder than before. "You know my feelings for Ajju's are not what they were?"
" But he doesn't know that! " Ajay said matching his voice to the intensity of hers.
"Well that's not my fault, he was the one not returning my calls. I tried to tell him..."
"You can't tell him anything!" He said suddenly cutting her off. "There is nothing to tell him. He is expecting to come back to his girlfriend especially after knowing about our divorce. "
"I'm sorry Ajay but I can't be that for him anymore." Sanjana said, once again looking away from him. Ajay grabbed her shoulders and turned her to face him.
" Why not?" Sanjana looked at him not believing what she was hearing. Wasn't he listening to her that night. She thought to herself.
" Listen Sanjana you loved him before so you can again. He is the same Ajju that left promising to come back for you... and YOU promised to wait for him. Do you you remember that? " Sanjana did remember but..
"But I am not the same Sanjana he left here, things have changed Ajay" she said. "Why are you refusing to see that?" Ajay let go and he turned away.
" Nahin Sanajana... Ajju loves you !" Grabbing his arm to turn him around so she can look him in the eye she shouted,
" I don't love him! I love you! " She said as fresh tears threatened to break free.
"But I DON'T love you!" Ajay said ripping himself out of her grip. "Sanjana you only loved me because of what I went through for you ..but I didn't do that for you I did it for Ajju. He trusted me and he is my best friend and now because of you... I will lose him. He will think I betrayed him and you would have been responsible for destroying our relationship. Sanjana ...if you really care about me you will not break Ajju's heart and destroy one of the most important relationships in my life. You and I have no future, you belong with Ajju." Sanjana felt her world shatter once again. If I cared about him?Was he not listening? I love him, why can't he see how much?She thought to herself. Saying those words Ajay turned to get in his car when he heard,
"Stop Ajay!"...Ajay turned to look at her.
"Ok so you want me to pretend my feelings for you have not changed and be Ajju's girlfriend. Is that it?"...Ajay didn't respond but just continued to stare at her.
"So be it. I will marry a man I don't love, it's not like I haven't done it before, right? We didn't love each other when we got married right? You did that much for Ajju because you loved him. Alright I will do this for you because... I love you. I will marry a man I don't love. After all ,that should be easy for a characterless girl like me." Sanjana said with her voice dripping with venom and her eyes with so much anger and pain it hurt Ajay to look into them,especially knowing he was the cause of it.
"Dont worry, when next I talk to your friend I will tell him HIS Sanjana, also can't wait to see him."
With tears flowing freely Sanjana turned and went back inside, leaving Ajay staring after her. Her words burning a whole in his heart. He had succeeded in his mission. Sanjana would not tell Ajju anything. He would have fulfilled his promise. He knew after Ajju gets married he will take her with him to America. Away from him. He was positive that she will learn to love Ajju again and he will make her happy. That's what he wants, to see them happy together. That is all he ever wanted for his friends. If they are happy, he will also find a way to be happy... without her.
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