(Checking over the files for further deal detail there Shop had recently the wedding preparations week cost them allot it was her wish to make it grand in its own simple way the lightning the dress the food to invitation to serving people who come to bless the couple she regret that she was so into fussing over being a bride about all this not caring how much it will effect them later on in finance way. Nor she take a look at how arrangements are being costly she didn't even thought for moment how her daughter who is making everything perfect in way. Now ended up worrying for grandparents instead of working on her studies. Better late then never it was marriage month and many dealer went to other cause they weren't available at that time. Now when they are available they're not having much project to work on hence the finance crisis).
I shouldn't have let Mini handle it lone '! it wasn't right But what's the use of thinking about it all '?
(Now thinking about Mini she become thoughtful and close the file in annoyance what she didn't said at wedding time her own words ring in her mind she want to get rid of all past memories which remind me of Ashok she want to do nothing with those people whom she treated as there own parents for damn 17 years of life. Hell Her daughter was standing in the room when she said all this how lonely unwanted even she might felt why she didn't heard the low call Babes from her daughter that moment enough to stop. She made Mr Hanuman to fix his issue with Mini what about her own did she talk with her yet).
Babes see I ain't getting this question can you come to help me with it '!
Yeah coming
Bhabhi can you come over here to help me with my dress it's got dark spot on its need to be fix '!
Yeah coming later on I need to help Mini in her subject for now '!
Come on Bhabhi do it now I am getting late for my kitty party , Mini is at home only it's Sunday tomorrow you can do it later for her '!
Lovely is right Babita you do it for her I will clear Mini question '!
(Like this there were plenty of time when she even let her daughter need aside to help them. There was logic Mini never mind but was it fair for her. She even decline to take alumani she even made her daughter seek forgiveness when she wanted to have the jewellery return to Biji she ignore there own financial for for what she knew Biji was wrong when she come to scold her. She was ok when they didn't supported her in home when Ashok was brining Mita with him it was still ok when she saw Biji applying the sindoor on Mita it was still ok Biji never made attempts to come to her to know her well being cause like she is mother of Mini Ashok is Biji son. But was it ok for Biji to apply sindoor on Mita at morning and come to her at evening saying come and fight for your right cause they're not married. Was it ok for her to scold her to even think about it was it even ok for her to bear there scolding just cause she wasn't ready to help them when Ashok was arrested for drug case. There is difference when you just encourage by words and discourage by action. Yes she was coward that she was inwardly not ready to go with Ashok to london there was so many thing she wasn't ready to face at that young age. Foreign nation foreign people when she even get shy to voice out her opinion with the people of her own nation. How she might boldly did it in foreign nation with no assurance of much. Top of it she got support at her Law's home to study further which her own parents ignore in the pertex of getting her married. Yes Ashok never ask her to take her to London but getting support to study further and becoming mother so soon she indeed lost courage to even put forth her desire to go with him. Why cause from childhood she was made to live in certain way think about what people will say specially her law's. If her husband was away then there son there brother was away to. Wasn't it them who always talk about how much they miss how much they have to talk to him just like she have her own story to share and hear his even they did. Alas she thought about them but they didn't thought about her. And like always not being daring bold enough to speak she killed her own daughter desire to be with father as well).
Babes Why we aren't with dad'?
Why you don't ask him to take us with him ?
I don't like how aunt speak with you. I want you to complain to dad when you talk to him'!
(Her daughter's innocent yet valid question her dislike when lovely day something wrong to her mother. Then her like when lovely get sugar-coated with her mother or her own. She was just kid whose like dislike change in own within little time just by few action and words for person. Why cause she was innocent but Babita wasn't she knew all of it all along she wasn't dumb she was just weak that she never get to fight for her right. Yes a weak lady a weak mother a weak human. When you face difficult question and have no way to put your answer on you left them. That's what she did she faced it she faced her daughter questions having no answer in childhood she made up stories of her and Ashok love just like bed time story. Forgetting time is passing and later on her daughter brain will grow up with age getting surrounded by friends she may wonder about it. And then she have to face it alas with time passing Ashok coming back was near as well. But the way he come he end everything and stunned her with revalation enough to shake the ground beneath her to push her back to shock that she forget to breath and react in anyway. If it wasn't her little yet bold daring daughter then what would have happened. She don't know but one thing she knows in all this she again forget about her daughter. Oh more then anyone she need to mend her ways with her daughter. But how when she hid allot from her by her fake smile. Yes she know when she is worried when she isn't but she don't push her to tell cause she fear if her strong daughter is unable to tell then issue is really big and maybe after knowing she may not get to deal with it. Hence the back of weak Babita again. Why she isn't strong as Imarti Niam bi to know when and how to deal with issue why she isn't brave as Mini to speak everything out when it's someone bad mouth them at that very moment. She never answer back to lovely once she did and they got so upset that they even denied to come to her wedding. She never answer back to khatri once she did and kamoo who become her friend worked with her got upset. She never vent out her frustration out before her Law's once she did then not only she upset them but her daughter. She never really thought about herself before when she did she takes as selfish insensitive and bad who only think about herself doesn't see other emotions before her. Thinking all about this she didn't realize the time untill she heard the Scotty being parked and got it that Mini is back. She immediately got up and hurried to open the door to to welcome Mini in. But seeing her stepping towards Niam bi home she sigh. Her daughter isn't going away from her cause she was never close to her in start. Yes both love each other but there was never the mutuality of understanding between them. Her cell beeped without checking the ID she lick it up)
hello I call to let you know I may be late tonight have few more cases to work on'!
Ok it's alright but what about your dinner should I send it there for you to have on time'!
No no I may have to go out as well so I don't think I may get it here to have dinner so don't need trouble yourself'!
What's there to trouble about its no big deal'!
I know but it's not needed I had to leave now bye'!
Bye'!
(Hanuman the men different from him how she wish she net him before him. How she wish she was as suitable and perfect for him like he is for her. The wedding night day he wanted to talk about himself and them and what she do run away making excuse of Mini even though he ask her to be honest with them. She had made her relationship with her daughter so toxic and Hanuman to in simple word the relations she cared and work to much for never been favourable to her and the relations she least work for always been favourable to her hence she ended up taking them granted that's truth of her life. Here this men who is her husband she love him desire him but don't know how to express it cause she never given a chance to wonder on her desires it was always Ashok who took lead and she followed. Sometimes he may read the no and yes in her little small gesture or expression. And respect them somtime don't but eventually he being her husband given legal right by everyone did made her fell in love with him. But Hanuman is different she know him before marriage yet she don't know him enough. Once she doesn't speak but when she do she don't care how he may take it. Why cause the way Hanuman and Mini are open with each other she isn't. Hell she isn't even as open with Mini if she would been then Mini won't share the Manmeet case with Hanuman first she won't been shy to confess about her feeling with her when Ashok was arrested in drug case. It was him Hanuman the father the guide the mentor she wanted in her life from all over life. WHICH SHE WAS NEVER BEEN for her daughter they say she is everything her mother and father but is that's really true ',? Maybe yes Maybe no but if it's no then Who is at fault ? Of course she "! but what's the point just to think about them then let them go and back to weak self what's the point. She shouldn't wait for Mr Hanuman cause he will be late so she don't need to make dinner for him. IF ONLY ASHOK made a call and said the same don't wait for me cause I fell in love with other. If only If she wasn't made to marry this early. If her parents were been as supportive like Imarti parents were IF she was as strong and wise as her friend Poonam. IF only there are lots of IF's and But's but they doesn't change her set of life and mindset).
She is meeting with them and I want to stop her but why what I fear '?
(They may insigate her against you, but they aren't as such she knows. You may end up taking them in your life again. YOU still care about them that you don't want to know about them cause you fear you may end up working for them cause maybe they never treated you as there daughter but you did. They're not Mini is grandparent but even your parents to in one or other way. We end up becoming loving to pets in day or week you spended years with them it's ought to turn in deep love respect immune to how they support how they didn't).
I can't have them in this house when I even have issue with Mini meeting them"!
(But Mr Hanuman words were valid Niam bi did so much for them even for you it's fair to give her time to enjoy with her family untill they're here. For once I should let my own feeling aside. But that's what I always had done I didn't ask Niam bi to have them in her house. But I was happy to have them at her home safe secure but then there was no issue with them either. IF Ranno Kammo Khatri being outsider and there words hurt her who are no one to her. Then What about lovely Biji and her own daughter. Won't her words hurt her like acid being thrown on her. The way her daughter said she can't blame them entirely for her failed marriage when did she accuse them entirely she did admit she had blame them in one or other way cause they were elder when they could see there own loneliness and desire to be with son then why they didn't get to see her the girl who enter in there home marrying his son her loneliness her desire to be with husband. Even a simple movie out with him was over shadowed by elder women why just cause she wasn't to expressive about her desire to be going out with husband. Yes she shown her so called greatness saying I can go other day with him you go mother in law. But what the so called mother in law yes she agree not to go but wasn't her solemn expression enough for her son her family to watch apart from father in law none watch but what more he did. Ended up playing Carom with his friend he and get lost in his world what about her. It was her daughter who come back and saw how upset she is and took her out to have her fun time with her favourite dish. Lovely had her husband by side. Biji had her own husband by side Mini had her friend by side and her grandparents. What about her who she had by her side. Her daughter but today even she blamed her for her failed marriage. Yes she admit she is right on her view but was it really the time she wanted to hear that yes she said can't you see what I went through. But this wasn't what she intended to say in start she wanted to know when you promised me then why you break it on first place even if you did why you didn't told me before hand why so much hiding things from me as mother don't I have right to know whom you meet what you do).
Babes I am back '! I am going to freshen up to much tired will like to rest now '!
(Yes you're back not entirely you left a part with your grandparents you're tired cause you share all your day thoughts with them. And whatever you did entire day. But who am I to question now you're going to turn 18 in few days mean independent on your decision wishes view. When was the last time we both had heart to heart talk just about ourselves not I or you US. The inner her questions herself looking at the retreating back of Mini who was heading upstairs to her room).
FAILED AS mother"!
FAILED AS wife"!
FAILED AS women '!
FAILED AS working lady "!
(How to turn this failure into succefull mother wife women and Working lady how. What she should do to fix all this. She is being immune to Hanuman for Mini and being immune to Mini feeling cause of Her EX Law's, and cause of others being immune to her own wishes dignity as Women. And having no peace of her own being immune to her work in simple words negeliating all of them and sulking here by thinking about everything. Getting to no conclusion whom she should talk about it and get idea from. And that's when her cell ring again. This time she checked the ID and smile come on her face seeing Her friend calling her).
Hello Poonam'!
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😆i don't know why I write all this after seeing so much discussion on thread and listening frustration of my friend over this series I wrote this not sure how it's come up as sorry if its hurt anyone sentiment or its come out as boring.
Thanks for reading I left it incomplete not sure how CV's may work on the show to be frank tired of wondering how they may show the progress of Babita in this tired of seeing her getting lectured by her 17 year old daughter. And tired of seeing how everyone pov is well shown but not Her's
So with something I made up on my own 🤔
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