So this Story/OS do not know how far I will take this is based on the NEW equation between Asfand & Zubi.
Takes up after the Dinner at Asfi's place when Sayim got hurt.
With Something MORE and Somethings the SAME as the Drama.
Asfand's POV:
After dropping Zobia at the hostel, on the way back home, asfi kept thinking what was that, why the hell did I say that?'. He did not know why he was so affected by her, siding with me at dinner earlier when she asked Gaiti Bhabhi to join the hospital, I was so happy seeing her at home sitting on the bed next to sayim when I had come home that eve, I was touched and moved by this gesture, I already knew she was an amazing human being but seeing her being there for MY family in the hour of need, made the gesture & HER all the more special.
The whole time at dinner I kept looking at her, I was VERY MUCH AWARE of her presence in our house, to that effect I LOVED that feeling. I was sure I could get used to it & HOW! She was becoming a part of my life in a major way and i did not mind it one bit.
WHY he said those words to Zobia, he obviously knew the answer but like always he had restrained himself with a lot of chains, he did not want to admit THIS truth to himself, just yet.
The drive back was speedy, or so he thought because the whole way he kept thinking about ZOBIYA, that's what his days & nights had become, he had atleast accepted that - THIS was his new reality. That night was filled with thoughts- thoughts about what he was feeling towards this doe-eyed lil beautiful creature called ZOBIA. She was beautiful, yes, her eyes which spoke volumes yet had so much depth and suffering hidden in them, her lips which most of the time just said a few words to him; when he wanted them to say so much more, her face which was angelic in every light & situation, moved with such delicacy around the hospital & his house like she belonged there, her body which was always graceful and covered, which is what he expected, when all he could do was imagine what it would feel like to touch her face, keep his hand on her waist, to feel her warmth next to his, to feel those lips on his, to be so close that he could look into those beautiful big eyes and feel her breath on him, he was a man who was falling & he was very well aware of his emotional & physical dependency/desires concerning Zobia, oh! He knew them very well.
There was too much chaos in his mind, the whole time he kept twisting & turning, at the end in the wee hours of morning he went back to his trained & exercised routine of shutting everything OFF. He did not sleep that night. But one thing was sure Zobia was affecting him but he was letting it all go, shoving it under the rug, like he usually does.
Got up in the morning, got ready, checked my mails, all at the same time thinking about my plan of action for this day and onwards about facing and handling this new addition to my life & thoughts called Dr. Zobia I will behave like NOTHING happened between them, I did not say anything, I did not just admit my feelings, I did not just let her see a side of me which was buried under a lot of pain & suffering, I do not want her to see the fun, cheerful & loving Asfandyar, no more. I did not want her to see how affected I was, by just her mere presence in my life. How she was drowning & shattering all my walls & sorrows with her beautiful self.
Reached the hospital that morning with excitement under check and emotions in control. After much self-control, I needed to see her by some excuse or another, so off I went looking for her, found her strutting down the hallway with Dr. Asfiya, all I could do in that moment to stop myself from running towards her and kissing that beautiful mouth of her's, I know too well. With self in control, I approached the ladies and asked for a consult with Dr. Asfiya, which was very valid but not urgent, I knew that. The whole time I did not make any eye contact with Dr. Zobia, I just felt her presence because that's all I needed, that's all it took.
Few days passed and just WHEN I thought everything was OK and I was in control Gaiti Bhabhi walks in one morning and announces she will be joining the Hospital from today, I was stumped, I was HAPPY & GLAD but all I could show was my SHOCK at her decision, we always felt Bhabhi should move on with her life, that's what Daniyal Bhai would have wanted also and seeing her occupied with life and not living it used to make all three of us very sad. So, this news of her joining the Hospital was a much-needed move for Bhabhi and I am glad I could be of some help, in any form.
When Bhabhi told me, Zobiya is the one who convinced her, I wanted to say so much more but all I could say was toh maama, baba aur mujse zada importance app iss gair lardki ko deti hain?'
Bhabhi could have laughed this line off and I could have pretended not to care but Bhabhi went on to describe what Zobiya said to her, all the while I kept thinking how can I thank Zobia for making another one of mine and our worries go away, how did she manage to bring so much happiness in our lives without asking for anything in return, I always knew Zobia was special but her being involved in our lives happiness & sad times makes her so much more than that.' I will forever be in her debt. I made a mental note of that.
Asfi Bhabhi yeh sab sunn kar mujhe bahut khushi hoyi'. Gaiti Bhabhi and I got ready, went & broke the news to Baba & Maama. This day started off well and Zobia became engraved in my heart & my life a bit more.
We reached the hospital, while Bhabhi went inside I parked the car, there was a gentle spring in my step today, I felt genuinely HAPPY which for me was a very rare thing, even I know that! I need to thank her or do something for her, I kept thinking. The first thing I see as I walked inside the Hospital; Bhabhi & Zobia being chatty & happy, which made me happy. I composed myself and asked Bhabhi to come along with me to fill out some forms and talk things over, gave a gentle nod to Dr. Zobia and left.
Later that day as I was in the middle of my routine of checking everything off with a fine-tooth comb, a gentle knock on my door snaps me back to mother earth and I see the answer to all my prayers standing in front of me, it took me a sec to adjust, I gave her a weak smile, the most I could do without embarrassing myself.
Zobia 'Sir yeh bed no.15 ke patient ke test results hain.' I take the reports from her hands, all the while making another mental note that RED suits her, I have grown to accept a fact since I have met Dr. Zobia that I would be making a lot mental notes.
Asfi 'please sit' I asked her in a calm & cool manner, trying my best to hide my inner excitement at seeing her.
Zobia 'Sir OPD mein duty hain, waha per kafi rush hain' she replied back with a straight poker face, which was disheartening at first but I admire her dedication to her work & her honesty.
Asfi 'OK' I replied back with a small nod. Her response did throw me off a lil as I wanted her to sit down, to thank her for making Gaiti Bhabhi understand and for helping sayim that day, just wanted her to stay a lil longer, all these thoughts were running astray in my mind. Absent mindedly i said 'Theek hain, thank you', I gave her the reports back. She took them from my hands and for a sec stood there, which I did not mind atall, I had a constant smile which I was very aware off, on my face this whole time, she turns around and...
Zobia 'Sir yeh aap hi ne toh mangwai thi', referring to the reports.
In that moment, I knew I made a boo-boo, how I took control of that situation I have no idea. In a very cool manner, as if yes that's ok people make these mistakes, NO Asfand YOU DO NOT MAKE SUCH MISTAKES', I took the reports back 'Haan, haan, right, thank you.' With that Zobia exited my room and I was left wondering. Wondering about how long will I be able to hide myself & my emotions behind this faade.
TO BE CONTINUED...
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