The Pain Of Separation!
Silence is just like a hymn... spreading the serenity in those surroundings. She is free in her wildness... Radha is a wanderess, a drop of free water. She knows nothing of borders and cares, nothing of rules or customs. Time' for her isn't something to fight against. Her life flows clean, with passion, like a scented breeze.
A song of prayer is transforming into the poetry of desire there! Radha asking her Krishna.." must you still evade me, my dear, must you? You may be beyond the grasp of the Universe; the sun and the nectar cool moon are maybe just your two eyes, but still, must you evade me? You are everything, and everything is you. I know it, still, I searched everywhere for you, but in vain, then I searched within my heart, I found you there! You suffused my thoughts, I have abandoned everything for you; Come, Krishna, rescue me from my loneliness --Must you still evade me, my dear, must you?" -she was sitting there in her favourite niche on the riverbank like a queen of the world and laughing gleefully with her Krishna! With a handful of flowers, she was praying for a divine union with Krishna with words unspoken, she led a quiet exchange of vows with those little blooms in her hand, taking seven steps silently around the aroused desire as a fire there with her Krishna. Her joy in receiving his acceptance had no bounds! She was listening to the Yaman Kalyan rag from his Bansuri in her dreamy world!
Many village maids surrounded her and were watching her, who was lost in her dreams with her eyes closed!
'Vishnu Vandana ... wake her up, tell her the truth !' - Vakula's tensed voice.
'No, I have no courage to inform her about this distressing news... Radha can't live without her Krishna, don't know how she will receive this shocking news !'
Madhavi put her hand around Radha to wake her up from her ruminationS!
With a confused face, Radha looked around with questioning eyes? Where is my Krishna ?'
"Radha listen! Akrura came from Mathura, brought the message that King Kamsa invited Krishna and Balram to participate in a wrestling match there. He revealed many truths which we never heard till now, that Krishna was a divine being born to kill Kamsa. He also knew that Nanda and Yashoda were not really Krishna's parents. Our Krishna is a prince, son of Devaki and Vasudeva!"
'On arriving at Gokul, Akrura told Krishna and his parents everything about his birth and Kamsa's evil intentions. Nanda and Yashoda were horrified, they wondered how an innocent kid like Krishna could take on a warrior like Kamsa in a wrestling match.
But Krishna insisted to go with Akrura. He and Balram are going to leave to Mathura now. Everyone is weeping for Krishna, all the villagers are there sobbing and pleading Krishna not to go! Yashoda asked us to bring you there to convince Krishna for not leaving the Vrindavan. Rush Radha, there the chariot is about to start, taking our Krishna far away from us. Hurry Radha... please run to stop him from deserting us !'
She was stunned for a minute, stood there like a lifeless log and suddenly fell on the ground like a delicate creeper, and tears were flowing from her lotus petal eyes, collapsed there like a puddle of sprawling sorrow.
A cowherd boy came running to inform them that the chariot is about to move to take Krishna to Mathura!
All in a hurry ran towards Nand's house. As Krishna leaves for Mathura, an indescribable sorrow grips the people of Vrindavan. The Gopis were anguished at the separation from Krishna, as they are left only with lingering thoughts of Him with a whimper
When they reached the riverbank, Krishna asked Akrura to stop the chariot for a while, descended from it and started walking towards Radha who was sitting there in her penance!
"Radha, my quest [ purpose of Avtar] is calling me, now I have to do my duty, bless me and send me with a smile to win the world in any situation! "
"How do a heap of sorrow bless you my Krishna ?" -- Radha's voice shivered with sorrow.
"I am seeking courage from the mountain of confidence Radha!"
"I am surrounded by the fear of your leaving me behind and in the horror of bearing this loneliness! How do you expect your Radha live without you, Krishna ?"
"She is the soul of her Krishna, a passionate life force for his Bansuri's symphony !" Krishna revealed.
"How do a lifeless lover will be able to give guidance to her lovelorn beloved Krishna?''
Love is the pathway for both of us from now onwards Radha! With your love, you guide me to establish a universal bonding in this illusory world. Bless your Krishna to become a universal preacher of love!"
"How can I bless my god Krishna? I am your devotee!"
"That is for the outside world, in actuality, you were my mother when I was a kid, you are the nature whenever I wanted to seek rest, you are my youthful zest, whenever I want love from the universe, you are my teacher when I want to know anything from love to life, you are my God who has been showering many boons on her devotee in the form of her admirable beauty, you are my peace Radha! when I am about to enter into this wrongdoing world, don't you say a few words to your disciple Krishna ?!"
She sat there looking at him for a while and started pouring her heart out ---
Even in the joy of every expected union, there will be the pain of inevitable separation. Indeed, the highest form of devotion comes not in the union, but after the union, in the form of pain... the longing. Every union manifests in the fear of a new separation. This apparently has been the universal law of life for ages!
To be continued ...
Edited by Viswasruti - 3 years ago
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