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Part 3
The water touched my feet..I looked at the silent sea just like me..
As if it too was lost in its thoughts..
This was a place that always gave me peace...but today it made me wonder that even though it was silent ... once or twice it did let its feelings out
So should I too???
No..!
The last three years had been perfect...I stayed out of trouble...I got decent marks...my parents have no complaints from me...yh perfect too perfect???
His face flashed in front of me ...oh not again.. I remember how stupidly I looked at him when he talked to me gosh how lame I was..
But yeah I was scared...too scared if he read my eyes...read what even I was scared to or admit to. scared that he might sense that when he looked at me...my heart beats were racing...
I didn't want to admit to it...
And then I remebered Dhruv.. Felt something like that even then...but I was stupid and immature...I remember he was my best friend and as usual like every 2nd girl who falls in love with their best guy friend.. I fell for him...
And when I finally told him... He felt bad...and rejected me..
Tears started flowing..
It wasn't like my heart was broken forever .. it is just I wasn't ready for love..
Obviously I was deeply hurt being let down by your so called love... Is a big thing..And it changed me...I became unstable
I got year back in 12th grade 'shame on myself'
If love was so beautiful why does it make us fail in life?? A question I still seek answer for...Love is suppose to lift you up not drag you down to your worst form..
And that year I decided to be away from all this ..
I thought its best to leave all this behind me ..and start a life which had lesser people ...lesser number of people to hurt me .
The worst part of your so called 1st love is even though the memories of that special person fades the memories of the pain remains and it kind of gets engraved ...
And that's what happened to me...
But was this forever??? should I be a loner forever?
Oh why the hell was I thinking so much.. if my life is perfect shouldn't I just not think and go and study???.. then why a weird feeling was creeping ? .why was I feeling this tingly feeling again...and why where my heartbeats saying..this was different..
Love at first sight???
Then why did I remember every memory of him every time he played that song...teri yaadein...I remember being lost in his words why did all suddenly matter so much.. and behave as precious memories to me .
Maybe I was looking and not really seeing and today suddenly it all came crashing to me...but to name it love??? No no..it was a very strong word... Love is an emotion which is least understood...even by people who fall in it .
Maybe I should let things flow like the sea .. I had controlled my life and yet today it was controlling me again and as if it was whispering to my ear " I let you do it "
...
"heard you went to the library ???all ok dude????"
I laughed when I heard Rahul saying this
" dude I wanna study too"
"oh finally in 4th year you have decided to take medical seriously...college stud what's wrong???"
"medical is the only field where the collg stud is not the topper...and I think I should change that"
Rahul looked at me as is he was going to puke..
I laughed.
And again started playing the guitar ...
But couldn't think of a song
Something was changing ...her scared eyes. her scared brown eyes . What were they trying to tell me? and I turned and she walked in the class as if my heart knew she was gonna come..
She lifted her head and scanned the class
Her gaze rested on me...for a little while...she lowered her head...and walked out...
Just ..Curiosity????? Or something more...and suddenly i started singing...
"Chupke se aaye teri yaad yahaan'. Sirf main janoon tu hai kahan kahan"********************************************************************************************************Hope you all like it...Posting the next part very soon
Cheers
Griffy
Edited by griffy.fz - 8 years ago
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