Zinda Dargor Hoon (Diyar-E-Dil Fanfic)- NEW CHAPTER POSTED ON PG. 6!! - Page 4

Originally posted by: farahwalikhan

Thank you so much Anjali! I am actually Pakistani but live abroad. Luckily, I have Youtube to watch Paki dramas and something called Chromecast to help me watch Paki dramas. I love OsMaya and Osman Khalid Butt in general and think he performs roles like Wali Suhaib Khan and Omer Hashmi much better than Aunn and Prince Mayyer. Just a personal opinion.

I do want to say one thing about Ruhi though, just to avoid misconceptions. I don't hate her as a character as I think she is very brilliantly written. However, I do hate her as a person. Not because of the way she is rude to Aghajaan and Behroze, because Aghajaan hurt her and Behroze never shared his feelings with her about his and Suhaib's relationship so her reaction to them was understandable. However, I think it's unforgivable the way she treated Farah in some episodes and the way she emotionally blackmailed her. I think just being locked in a room and having a kidnapping jhatka given was simply too little of a thing to go for redemption. I think Ruhi needed more to redeem herself than what was given, her actions will have consequences more intense than in the series. So despite my dislike of her treatment of Farah, she will grow both as a mother and a woman when she realises her mistakes.

Originally posted by: farahwalikhan

Thank you for the review!! I will update Nazrein Jab Milein next (unless that was the one you meant) and then Alvida, I was just excited because hilly was a new reader and I wanted to write more because she gave me loads of inspiration. Rape is indeed a very sensitive topic and not treated as seriously as it should be both in dramas and fanfics. You cannot call someone who raped you 'Bhai' just because he said sorry or even bear to hear that person's name in front of you. I feel in some cases rape is worse than murder because murder you end a person's life and make their loved ones suffer. But in rape, you're destroying the other person's soul, especially a person who was once your friend.

Don't worry about Arju and Ruhi too much, they'll come around. Arju is just overly possessive over her qul kayinat, her beloved son.

Originally posted by: NiRajCraZey

You deserve it all! <3 Youtube is really comfy in terms of dramas...:)

OsMaya are my baes too! But I always prefer Osman! His acting always made me prefer him much more. His acting could shadow Maya's crankiness sometimes (no offence)...Aunn was a more childish role, while Prince Mayyer a bit negative and royal..He does exceptionally well in both but as you said, that charming, respectful, honest Wali was far far much true and lovable..About Omer, I don't know TBH...I didn't watch Goya till now and I seriously want to know if it is worth a try..I can accept Osman in anyway though 😆

Ruhi to be a honest, is a complex character to me..There are different shades to her..As much as I can love Sanam's acting which makes me hate Ruhi more, the way she acts in some situations makes me feel she is inhuman sometimes (we might differ). I agree with the point how you cant hate Ruhi on the basis of her rude comments, but she might've gone a little harsh. All 3 are to be blamed yet.. I hated it so badly when she kept nudging Farah for money, telling Aghajaan to handle their financial expenses, in short terms , using Farah and Aghajaan for her own advantage without an ounce of guilt..That is what I felt was inhuman..For a moment, it was unbelievable how she suddenly was ready for her return to the haveli and everything becoming norma..I liked how Arjumand stayed steady though..(I always kinda liked her)

Hoping that in your series, we get something more intense, and Ruhi's character shaping up slowly...

P.S: YOUR NAME?? And, should i watch Goya?

Originally posted by: farahwalikhan

Please just call me Farah as I like that. I do also prefer Osman but OsMaya together just create magic. Also, Farah is meant to be a cranky, ziddi, badtameez character in the book as well I think because Behroz treated her very special and made her feel as she was the queen of the world so she became a bit muphat and badtameez.

Okay Farah :D... OsMaya is the key couple to drool/faint/fall in love! <3 You've read the book? Lucky bug! Maya is perfection at all of her scenes but then you can't really love it more than the character of Wali's...:P Behroz was a character who loved Farah the most...Ab zaahir hai, yeh toh hona hi tha..😆

Please do watch Goya. Omer Hashmi is amazing, almost as much as Wali except Omer is not really a hero per say. He's a protagonist but not a hero. He has flaws and he's very emotional and thinks with his heart rather than with his mind and is the complete opposite of his overly controlling dad. It's really a good play.

Sounds different, and something I'd want to see Osman in..Atleast until Sanam arrives..

Till then #WaliForLife #GoyaHereICome

I do agree Ruhi was very harsh with Aghajaan but that could be somewhat dismissed because Aghajaan basically said she was from a very ghatiya khandaan and all that stuff to her. He basically called her a lower status girl when she had full faith that Aghajaan would accept her and Behroze. That's why her reaction towards that made sense and Behroz forcefully got his daughter married without Ruhi's consent, so her reactions were understandable. But using Aghajaan's money when she had so much hate for him, emotionally blackmailing Farah to use it, brainwashing Farah whenever she inclines even a little bit towards Aghajaan, that was not good. Sometimes, I felt Ruhi lost some of her sanity when Behroz died and just became a puppet in her brother and nephew's hands. That's just my own take.

It would be shocking for any mother if their child got married to a family which she despises..Ruhi woud tend to feel worry and might think that she will be treated with the same behaviour as her..:)

I'll forgive Ruhi on that but her cruelty after that inclines me completely to the opposite side..We all saw Ruhi went a bit mad when she heard of his death and remained reluctant..Tajamul there to incline her towards him and his family taking advantage of the situation!

I love Suhaib too, that's why I wrote that one, hope you enjoy it as it will be updated soon, Imane.

Hi guys. You have all been amazing with the feedback so far, so yeah, keep up the good work in leaving me all that amazing feedback. I know this fanfic can become a bit hard-core sometimes due to the sensitive topic but yeah. This chapter is considerably lighter, sort of.

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4. A Piece of My Heart

Wali and Zarmine helped Farah walk as she still struggled a little bit due to the soreness around her legs and all. She didn't say it to them but they understood. Wali knocked on the door when they reached Aghajaan's room.

"Aghajaan, hum andar ajayein?" Wali said gently. "Farah aap se mil na chahti hai."

Aghajaan looked up with a smile. "Haan, aao aao beta, main abhi Farah ke bare mein hi sauch raha tha."

Wali and Zarmine helped Farah inside who timidly sat at the edge of Aghajaan's bed, looking very lost and uncertain.

"S-salam alekum," Farah said, voice shaking a little.

"Walekum asalam beta," Aghajaan said gently, beckoning her to come closer. Farah did so and as Aghajaan patted her head, an odd, familiar feeling pulsated inside her, a feeling that she hadn't felt in awhile. It felt like Baba was here, like he was patting her on the head, hugging her close and making her feel as if things would be okay. It felt as if Aghajaan's presence was like Baba's presence. Warm, protective, even as Moeez was reaching out to grab her, it would make him vanish. Moeez was always scared of Baba. When Baba was alive, he would have never even tried to look at her the wrong way or even attempted to murder her. Slowly, Farah leaned close to Aghajaan allowing him to wrap his arms around her in a hug.

Baba, mujhe kyun lag raha hai ke aap yahan hai? Jaise ke mein Aghajaan ke paas nahi balke aap ke paas hoon? Mujhe kyun Aghajaan se aapki khushboo aati hai? Kyun mujhe is waqt lag raha hai ke aap yahan hai? Kya aap mere paas hain Baba? Kya aap dekh rahein hai ke aapki beti ke saath sab kya kar rahein hain? Mama ko bhi meri baat pe koi yakeen nahi, woh toh yeh samaj ti hain ke maine jhoota ilzaam lagaya hai. Halankein unko toh pata hona chahiye ke unki Farah ko jhoot bol na bilkul nahi aata hai

Tears began cascading down her cheeks and sobs escaped her throat. Zarmine made to move forward but Wali stopped her.

"Chalo," Wali said to her quietly as Farah began sobbing into Aghajaan's chest. He had a feeling she needed to cry right now considering she had been keeping a lot inside since what had happened to her. It was good that she somehow get it out, even if it meant crying about it to her grandfather.

Zarmine frowned a bit but seeing Aghajaan console Farah whilst crying a bit himself, she allowed Lala to pull her out.

Aghajaan kissed Farah's forehead. "Meri jaan kabhi bhi khud ko akela mat samaj na, tum mere Behroz ki nishaani ho meri jaan, mein kabhi bhi tumhe akela nahi choroon ga."

"A-Aghajaan..." Farah choked out, more tears falling. Being this close to Aghajaan made her feel something she hadn't felt in awhile. She felt alive, she felt like she wanted to live but something was playing as a barrier between her needs and her desires. There was a desire to want to fight her fears and stand up but she felt no need to live. No one in this world truly needed her. Aghajaan seemed to care but for how long? When Baba had left, when Moeez had left her, one day Aghajaan would leave her too. Wali deserved a girl who had not been touched by another man, a girl who was pure. Suhaib chachu and Baba had chosen her for Wali but when they had chosen her, things were different. At that time, Moeez hadn't stolen everything from her. That night was so clear in her head.

It must have been her fault somehow. She was the one who accepted the ring from Moeez after all. She was the one who had encouraged him. Otherwise, he had always been perfectly decent and nice to her all the time. He had helped her with everything, been there for her so much since Baba's death. Surely, if he had changed and done that to her, it must be his fault. She couldn't even accuse Moeez of rape. Her mother was right not to believe her, she had asked for it and completely deserved what Moeez had done to her. These thoughts were put to a halt however by Aghajaan's soothing words which calmed her down, distracting her a bit and she cried herself to sleep.

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Wali and Zarmine had gone to sit in Wali's room.

"Lala?" Zarmine said gently. "Aap Ammi se baat karne se pehle ek baar sauch lein. Aap Farah ke saath rahe sakte hain?"

Wali frowned at that, surprised to hear something like that from Zarmine. "Tum aisa kyun keh rahi ho Zarmine?"

"Kyun ke mein yeh nahi chahti ke aap pe ek baar phir doosroon ka faisla thopa jaye," Zarmine said firmly. "Aap bhi ek insaan hain Lala, aur kya aap sirf Baba Jaan ki khatir ek aisi larki ko kubool karein ge jisko kisi aur ne...please mujhe ghalat mat samaj na Lala."

Wali knew this question would come up, but that it would come up this soon he didn't expect it. "Zarmine, jo kuch Farah ke saath hua iss mein uska toh koi kusoor nahi tha. Jitna bhi yeh kaha jaye ke Moeez ko Farah ne shahe di hai, uss recording se hi saaf zahir hota hai ke Farah aisa kuch nahi chahti thi. Usne Bare Baba ko awaaz di, Tayee-Ammi ko awaz di aur jab kuch samaj mein nahi aya toh mujhe awaaz di, meri uss se jo bhi naraaz gi thi, she didn't deserve that, Zarmine. Jab ek mard apni biwi ko dhoka de ke dusri shaadi karta hai, dusri larki se talukat rakhta hai baghair kisi sharmindagi ke, toh hum usse kuch nahi kehte. Hazaroon gharoon mein aisa hi ho raha hai aur kissi ko koi aitraz nahi hai. Toh jab kissi larki pe yeh zulm koi mard karta hai toh uss mard ko ilzaam dene ke bejaye hum aurrat ko hi kyun uss cheez ka kusoor waar tehrate hain jisme uska koi kusoor nahi hai?"

"Lala..." Zarmine began but Wali didn't give her a chance to talk as he raised his hand for silence.

"Zarmine, mein kissi ke pressure ke under nahi hoon," Wali said firmly. "Mein Farah ka shauhar hoon aur mein ab Moeez ya Tayee-Ammi ko hargiz ye ijaazat nahi doon ga ke woh meri biwi ko mazeed koi bhi takleef paunchayein."

Zarmine reached over, hugging Wali. "Ok, Lala. Mein bas yahi sunna chahti thi."

Wali hugged his sister back, kissing her forehead. He knew she hadn't meant anything bad by what she had asked, she had only wanted to hear what his choice in the matter was. "Jaanta hoon, Zarmine. Fikar mat karo."

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Arjumand was twisting and turning in her sleep, unable to sleep with complete ease.

Arjumand was sitting in a small park on a small bench when Suhaib sat besides her.

"Suhaib," Arjumand said, eyes watering and tears began falling down her cheeks. "Tum mujhe aur apne bachoon ko kyun chor ke chale gaye? Abhi toh humhe tumhari baut zaroorat thi."

Suhaib reached out, pulling Arjumand in his arms. "Mera waqt pura ho gaya tha, Arjumand. Lekhin marne ke baad bhi ek bechayni khaye ja rahi hai mujhe. Behroz baut parechan hai, Arjumand. Aur mein uske liye kuch nahi kar sakta."

"K-kya matlab?" Arjumand said chokingly. Being in Suhaib's arms again was the most beautiful feeling she could ever imagine. It made her feel happy and secure. If this was a dream, it was a dream she never wanted to wake up from. She had truly gotten the best person to spend her entire life with.

"Uski beti ke saath itna bara haatza ho gaya, uski biwi ne uski beti ka saath uss waqt chor diya jab Farah ko uski sab se zaada zaroorat thi," Suhaib said, eyes watering. "Behroz ka toh khandan lutt gaya, Arjumand. Please, tum hi Behroz ko sukoon pauncha sakti ho."

"Mein?" Arjumand said, pulling away to look at him. "Woh kaise?"

"Farah ko apna lo, Arjumand," Suhaib said, reaching out to touch her cheek. "Usko mat tukhrao warna meri bhatiji bilkul bhikar jayegi."

Arjumand looked away, looking at her feet. She didn't want to refuse Suhaib anything but things were different now. "Wali meri kul kayinat hai, Suhaib. Uske liye larkiyon ki koi kami nahi hai."

"Lekhin koi aur larki Farah nahi hai," Suhaib said quietly. "Arjumand, Farah ki apni Ma ne usko jhoota keh diya. Uska saath chor ke apna bhatije ka saath diya. Chachi ho tum Farah ki Arjumand. Barbaad ho jayegi hi Farah. Kya tum chahti ho mujhe aur Behroz ko kabr mein bhi sukoon na mile? Arjumand, please." He took her hands in his own, looking into her eyes.

Arjumand's eyes met with Suhaib's and her heart softened. She thought of the way Ruhi had dismissed Farah's pain, the blankness in Farah's eyes and most of all, the love she always saw in Wali's eyes for Farah. Most of all though, she thought about Suhaib's last request. Even now she couldn't forget the way Suhaib had gathered her broken pieces and brought her back to life. "Theek hai, lekhin usko kubool karne se pehle mein humhare betay ki raye zaroor loon gi."

"Thank you, Arjumand," Suhaib leaned close kissing her forehead.

Arjumand sat up in bed, face sweaty and pale. Suhaib...the thought of him brought tears to her eyes and she brought her knees closer to her chest, beginning to silently cry.

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The next morning, Wali went to wake Aghajaan up and relief filled up inside of him when he saw Farah curled close to Aghajaan sound asleep. Since he had brought her here, he had never seen her looking so relieved as she was looking right now and that made him feel relieved. After what had happened to her, he had no idea what he could do for her, both as a cousin and a husband, especially since she had been so unresponsive to everything.

But seeing her like this, more at ease and not as fearful as she had been before was amazing. Not having the heart to wake them up, he silently left them sleeping. He was about to tell Gulkhan to set up breakfast when he heard a crash and shout from his mother's room.

"Suhaib!"

Wali put a hand to his mouth, hurrying to his mother's room, seeing her sobbing, head buried in her knees. His own eyes watered seeing his mother like this, but quickly blinked them back before moving over and pulling her into a hug. "Ammi..." His mother fell crying against his chest and he pulled her against him even more.

"W-Wali, S-Suhaib...Behroze..." Arjumand choked out through her tears. "S-Suhaib mere khwaab mein aya tha, Wali."

"Bas Ammi..." Wali soothed, rubbing her back gently, trying to calm her down a little although thinking of Baba Jaan made his own eyes water that he had to really force the tears back.

"Meri aankh kyun khuli Wali?" Arjumand said, more tears falling from her eyes. "Aghar mein sauti rehti toh Suhaib mujhse kyun dooor nahi jaata."

"Nahi, Ammi, Baba Jaan humse dooor thori hain," Wali assured his mother, own voice cracking from emotion. "Balke woh toh humare bilkul paas hain, humhare dil mein. Baba Jaan humse baut pyaar karte the, unko kaisa lage ga aghar woh humhe istara raute ve dekhein ge?"

Arjumand just continued to cry as Zarmine came through.

"Ammi, Lala, kya hua?" Zarmine said watching them as Wali felt a few tears slip down his cheeks, beckoning to his little sister. Zarmine joined them and Wali pulled her into the hug, holding both his mother and sister in his arms. He would never let them feel as if they were alone, no matter what.