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omg i had completely forgot about this res😆
so here is my ekdam fresh wala OS litte bit sad.🥱
its easy to tell others to move on, but is there any gurantee we will find happiness in moving on?
(by Me)😆
Shimla, one of the most beautiful city of India, a quiet hillstation, away from all hussle bussle of city life. people say we go close to god when we are close to nature, in that case the residents of shimla must be god's own child.
this city had witnessed many things, its air is filled with people's wonder at its beauty, filled with nice friendly people and their small little moments in life, filled with love and happiness. but who had thought this city one day will see the most heart breaking scene, the going apart of two lovers.
this story is about two people, two soul mates. they loved each other, they really do...but one day the girl left the guy. reason, unknown. the guy didnt cheat on her, neither he did anything that will hurt her. still she left, leaving behind a good bye note, telling him to "move on" and not to find her.
but how many times we can move on? 1 time, 2 time, how many times? this guy had already moved on from his dreadful past, the brutal killing of his 1st wife. he cried, mourned over it for years, gave justice to her by killing that bas***d. then he found his soul mate, dreamt to spend his rest of life in peace and happiness with her.
but life is unpredictable, and its not necessary everything will happen according to our wish. his soul mate left, breaking him all over again. but this time he didnt cry, neither he tried to find the girl and make her stay. he had felt an uncontrollable rage inside him, and he started to hate her.
when our loved ones hurt us most, our love change into hatred. but do our love really end for that person?
(by Me)😆
and after years, he found her, in this very city, shimla...one night, when the girl met with an accident and come under his car!
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"dont worry, there is little injury. she will be alright."
the doctor left, and i sighed in relief, slumping on the couch far away in the room. my eyes were never leaving her face even for a second, searching for any sign if she is awake. i found her after all this year and how! under my car, covered in blood, unconscious on road, when i so wanted to shook her and demand answers for her behaviors 2 years ago.
2 years ago, she had left me, only leaving a note to forget her and move on. my foot move on! what does she think of herself? its true that i love her like insane, but its still my life and my decisions, what i do is none of her concern. she had lost her right on me the time when she took the decision to leave me.
i was thinking all this, when i felt her moving slightly. i moved in my couch, like a magnet, synchronised with her, still not leaving my eyes from her. at last, what it felt like eternity, she opened her eyes.
it was confused, slightly unfocused due to injury. then confusion become panicky...she was thinking how she ended up here in a unknown place! then she closed her eyes...she remembered the accident. then she again opened her eyes and her eyes found me.
her eyes were instantly shocked, then gradually acceptence. it was like she always knew one day we will meet. dont know what else reaction i was expecting, but her calm behavior certainly irked me. i felt my jaw clenched, eyes shooting daggers at her.
"how are you feeling, Miss Mukherjee?" i asked in controlled voice. she didnt even flinch at my tone. does she have no effect of me on her? she just blinked her eyes, and continued to look at me.
"surprised that we met after all these years?" i shifted slightly to look at her properly, "the world is really small, is not it?"
still no reaction. what the hell?
we continued to look at each other, silence continued to rule in the room. she must be enjoying this, but i was choking from inside. i didnt want our meeting after all these year go like this! i wanted her pin her in wall, shook her to put some sense, demand answers, show my anger and hurt, certainly not silence.
"godammit dont be quiet." i could not stop myself.
"what do you want me to say?" she replied calmly.
after all these years, i heard her voice. its the very same, soft, melodious, making me wonderful all over again. she still have the effect on me, but i think i dont have any on her.
before i can reply, there was a knock on door, and the door opened. i sighed and at the same time felt pain replacing the anger in my system.
my reality, my soon to be wife, Sakshi.
"your phone." she handed me over my cell phone and looked at Riya, who was looking at her quizzically.
"are you feeling ok?" she asked, to which she nodded. the devil inside me wanted to tell it aloud to her that she i had moved on, sakshi is my fiance, but i dont know why i could not. maybe because still i had not accepted it to myself, maybe thought how much i tell myself i hate her, the fact is i love her and will love till i am alive, and i can never hurt her like this.
"hi, i am sakshi." she replied, "his fiance"
she came near me and put her arm around mine, and i just stared at Riya speechless. we cant hide truth, i didnt want to tell, but it came out. i looked into her eyes, trying to find any bit of emotion, hurt anger pain, but it was empty. again no reaction.
"you are Riya, right? i had seen your pics with him, you both were in college together right?"
sakshi continued to throw questions, but neither she answered, nor i told her to stop. suddenly she got up from bed and stood on her own feet, ready to leave.
"thanks for helping me. i must take your leave." she answered calmly and started to walk past me towards door, handling herself. i was not yet ready to let her go. i jerked my hands from sakshi's hold and stopped Riya.
"let me drop you." i hold her hand and gave her support. actually it was more like i was taking HER support. i didnt ask her to drop her, it was not even a order. it was pure request, longing, begging for her aproval, and thank fully she didnt stop me. we walked out of the room, and sat in the car, driving in silence.
silence continued to rule in the car as well. i dont know why i was feeling guilty. my decision to move on was for teaching Riya a lesson, to hurt her, to show she dont matter to me anymore. but the anger was gone and i dont know why i was feeling ashamed of myself. why?
"congratulations on your engagement." she said tearing apart my self loathing. no emotion at all, just flat statement. it irked me again. i hoping for some reactions from me, dont she feel anything for me at all?
"you must be happy that i MOVED ON." i said sarcastic.
"yes i am. it was a good decision." again no emotion.
bas, all my self loathing flew in the air. to hell with her statements. she need to see how much she has hurted me and hurting me still by her words. i stopped the car with a jerk, came out of the car, opened her side of door and dragged her outside, ignoring her surprised look.
"what the hell do you think of yourself?" i hold her shoulders and shook her, "first you leave me, tell me to not to find you, tell me to move on, dont leave any trace of you, like you had never existed! then i move on in my life, try to live, and boom, u again entered my life! and you dont have the decency to apologise or explain your side of story! instead you are behaving all naturally, congratulating me? congratulations my foot!" i pulled her close to me, "i dont need your congratulations dammit! i need your explanation. i need your tears. i need to know you are hurt to see me with someone else. i need to see you begging me to forgive you. i need..." my voice choked, and i pushed her away, again to pull her close, this time not with anger and hurt, but with longing and love.
"i need you. dont you see i am not living my life but breathing? dont you see my eyes only finding you? dont you see how sad i am? dont you see anything dammit? dont you see my love for you?" i said softly, looking straight in her eyes.
"i dont want to know why you left, where were you all these years. i just need you. just stay, ok?" i begged. i literally freed her, went on my knees and slumped on street, my both hands like a prayer position. i begged her. i begged her for my life. and i felt after all these years the tears running on my cheeks.
i waited, i waited for her to say anything, say something...and at last she did.
"but i cant stay Arjun."
my head shot up a that, my eyes totally shocked. what the hell she is saying? i am begging her and she just say it? just said it like that? how could she?
"why?" was all i managed to whisper.
"because i am dying. i dont have much time left."
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