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Inspired by the Ramlila scenes to some extent.
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The Ten-Headed Question.
"...And so it was that Ram had defeated and killed the wicked Ravana, installed his brother to the throne, claimed his beloved Sita and left the forests to rule Ayodhya. The end."
When Onu got no response, he looked up to see Gargi starting back at him as if to say...
"That's it?"
"Um...yeah?"
"That's it?"
"What do you expect? This isn't Bold and the Beautiful, Gigi!"
He didn't have the heart to tell her that Ram left Sita in the forest much later, because some random dhobi told him her proof for fidelity was cock-and-bull. Gigs would never let him out of that quandary alive.
Gargi replied huffily: "Whatever, it wasn't as long as that Ramayan serial Mummy keeps watching..."
"Well I'm not B. R. Chopra, and you asked for this story, and I gave it to you, and if I went on as long as B. R. Chopra did I wouldn't be leaving this house till sometime next year!"
Babysitting was so not his thing, especially if it was someone as high-maintenance as Gigi. But their parents had a meeting to attend, Mrinalini was out working on a summer project with her classmate Jeremy, Nupur was down with a fever, and suddenly he'd become everybody's guinea pig.
But these days Gigi was becoming more and more fun to talk to: old enough to talk almost like a teen, and young enough to wrap everyone she saw around her little finger, himself included.
Gigi looked at him thoughtfully. "I liked Ravan."
Onu stifled a small chuckle. "Really?"
She giggled. It was a cute, gurgling sound, like she was laughing underwater. She was a smart kid, their Gigi. Over the year somehow they'd managed to make her their very own personal little mascot. Somehow he'd always seen her as one of those kids you'd miss terribly the moment they grew up.
"He had ten heads, all of which would be talking all at the same time and giving him headache, and still it took the hero so long to kill him? If that's not coolness I dunno what is!"
Onu threw his head back and laughed. Weren't his first few days as Ravan devoted solely to getting used to so many heads? Sometimes they'd flap over his face while he was in the middle of an important dialogue, and Mishti ' who kept slipping up her dialogue delivery anyway ' would laugh till she had tears in her eyes...for a scene where she was supposed to cry her eyes out waiting for silly Subodh to come to Lanka. And then Meenu Miss would frown at both of them and he'd forget his carefully learned dialogue instantly.
"Still, Gigs, Ram's the good guy, remember? He killed Ravan because he had to, didn't he?"
"He could have just gone to his house and asked for her, right?"
"Um, no, he'd be squashed flat like a fly in two seconds if he did. He needed an army."
"But he was god. Gods don't need armies. Gods don't get squashed."
"Of course gods need armies, a good climax always needs a little blood and gore."
"If he hadn't chased that stupid deer he wouldn't have needed the blood and gore in the first place!"
"If he hadn't chased that stupid deer we wouldn't have a story!"
"So? Who asked him to leave Sita for some nonsense deer?"
"Who asked Ravan to take her away?"
"Who asked Ram to chop of his sister's nose? If someone chopped my Di's nose off I'd take Mom's meat cleaver and chop him into three hundred fifty '"
"Eww, gross! You didn't have to be that graphic...besides, who asked Ravan's sister to go flirting with a married guy?"
"Who asked the married guys to play ping-pong with her?"
"They weren't playing ping-pong!"
"Pfft, like hell they weren't!"
"Kids!" Mrinal's mother called from outside the sitting room, signalling her entry. "I'm back...sorry I've kept you waiting for so long!"
"No sweat," Onu replied grinning, and found that he meant it. All said and done, Gigi was a kid after his own heart, a someone he'd been before he'd stopped being a child...
Gigi was grinning. "Ragi Da was telling me the Ravan story."
Onu wished her mother wasn't there, just so that he could give Gigi a sharp rap over her head.
Gigi's mother smiled, shaking her head at her little daughter.
"Stay for a bit, I got you something..."
"No aunty, like seriously, you fed me enough to last three days before you left..."
"Please," she said, "I insist. Over here we don't get that kind of opportunity to feed people anymore. Not the way we did back home, going from house to house with a pack of sweets."
Onu nodded, taking Gargi back to the sitting room to wait for Asha aunty's food.
"Was Ravan all that bad?" Gigi's eyes were like puchkas, round and wide.
"Well, it depends really. He was wrong to take Sita away and all, but he didn't really do anything to her, did he?"
"So what did he die for?"
"Because he was a jerk." Like Subodh, he thought with a pang, and Subodh didn't deserve to die.
"Do all jerks die then? Will Katie Parker get whamooshed for calling Jasjit a towelhead?"
Gigi's lip trembled a little as she said this. It was she who had spotted Jas at the playground two days ago, and while Jas somehow managed to appear calmer afterwards, it was Gigi who seemed more affected.
Do all the bad guys really die?
Onu smiled. How long had it been, since he had asked Meenu Miss the same question during one of their practice sessions? Why did Ravan have to die when he did things that a lot of other kings ended up doing? He decided he'd give Gigi the same answer Meenu Miss gave him.
"No, Gigi," he said, trying to swallow the lump in his throat, "because nobody deserves it, no matter what they've done."
"How do they get punished then?"
The way we all do, he wanted to say, either for our own mistakes or someone else's. Karma has its own way of biting you in the backside without you having to do anything about it.
"You just do, Gigs," he said, patting her on the head and purposefully ignoring how puzzled she looked, "you just do."
Hadn't karma brought him here? Hadn't he ended up braving lonely nights and endless days, hours of being among people and still feeling so incredibly alone? Hadn't he been punished enough for taking a bond his parents built too seriously, when no one else ever would?
New York was a wonderful place. One day he'd see it for what it was and give it the chance it deserved. Because it was home for so many people like him. He'd had a place to stay. Neighbours who cared, albeit from a distance like Aunt Letty. A guardian who did whatever he could whenever he was around. Friends like Nupur, Mrinal, Benoy, Gigi.
But no Ma. No Taani.
There would be people out there who would kill to be in his place.
"Ravan had everything, Gigs," this time, his voice was in a low whisper, "but he refused to be happy with what he had. He wanted Sita. And his kingdom. Together. But you can't have your cake and eat it too..."
Gigi's brows connected in a frown, confused by the metaphor. "What does that mean?"
Asha Aunty chose that moment to bring him a box of sweets. They must have been from a genuine Bengali restaurant because the sweets melted the moment they touched his tongue.
"Ravan had a life people would have killed for. But he craved something that was never his to start with..."
Never mine to start with...
He needed something to hold on to. Something to keep his hands from fluttering, his mind from going to the directions it would eventually end up going. Something. Anything.
The mithaai box!
He looked at the gilt-edged cover. Chappan Bhog, it said.
What had Meenu Miss said when she gave him the role?
Imagine, Onu...Ram ate only ghass-phoos, and what did Ravan have? Chappan bhog!
His relief knew no bounds, and for the first time since Gigi had asked those questions, Onu smiled.
"But Ragi da...if you don't get what you really want, how do end up happy again?"
He put an arm around her. It was a lesson he hoped she'd learn, but not the hard way like he did.
"You find a way, Gigs. We all find ways one day or other."
New York was the reason he felt this way, but perhaps the same New York would get him out of this rut too. Karma had its ways of bringing you down to your knees, but it also had ways of lifting you up again.
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July 16, 2001.
Mishti,
Maybe I should love this place.
Maybe the only thing wrong here is me, and maybe I need to change.
Motu.
P. S. New York has a Chappan Bhog!!
P. P. S. Gigs likes Ravan. So much, I almost refrained from telling her the side-story where Ravan starts serving pizza to get Sita a sari, and where Sita told Ravan off for getting her Ram's love letter...or where...where...
P. P. P. S. Forget I wrote that. Where nothing happens. Full stop.
P. P. P. P. S. Maybe the big ten-headed question really is: how on earth do we know what lands us where? I ended up in America because that was how wrong things were. But that wasn't the fault of anyone here, it was mine. What I did landed me here, and instead of whining about it I should give this place a shot. Maybe I should remember the past for what it really was: a very wonderful dream.
Edited by Elizabeth Darcy - 13 years ago
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