here is the nxt chptr...
The rain continued whole night. I was thinking the whole night that what made sky so sad that it is shedding that much tears the whole night. I didn't even get a chance to cry out loudly for my losses. It might be the retribution for my deed of choosing my destiny.
I reached the asylum early so that I could go as I need to meet my mom. Today I need to spend my time on studying the case history of each patient. I was going through almost 8 to 10 file in 4 to 5 hours. I came know I need spent more time each case. Suddenly I saw a case file put me into a dilemma. I did not know what to do. So I decided to go and ask Dr.Gautam. Grabbing that particular file in my hand I rushed to his room
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I heard he was busy in talking to someone in the phone. So I stood at the doorstep
"Don't worry but I should know what the reason for his present condition is..?":-He said in his convo.
He saw me
"Get in Taani":-He said and showed gesture to get in.
He was still in his convo. I put the file on the table.
"Take your seat":-He said to me.
He looked at me. Drawing a chair I sat on it. I was waiting him while he was talking.
"What is your full name":-He asked.
I was hesitant to say.
"I asked your full name Taani":-He asked again.
"Taani…Taani Ganguly":-I answered because I have no other option. Tears roll down from my eyes but thinking that do Ganguly exist as my surname. I don't know and this is greatest misery a woman could have. I wiped it quickly with a thought that he was looking at me.
"Yes Taani Ganguly":-He told my name to the person at other end. That made bit scared. Why should he tell my name to that person?
He hung his phone. So he turned towards me.
"I want to talk to you":-He said
"Me too Doctor":-I said.
"So you speak first":-He said.
"Nahi aap boliye":-I requested.
"Taani ….":- In a tone of order as told me to continue.
"Doctor there is noting in this file; iss mein na toh koi naam aur nahi koi address sirf yahi likha hain diagnosis is memory loss due to depression":-I said pointing on to the file which I kept on his table when I came to his room.
"I want to talk you about the same thing":-He said.
I felt some importance in that.
"Yes Doctor":-I told I want him to continue further.
"Yeh mere dosth ke brother in law hain bauhath paisewale hain and this person was once a great business man and his condition is very pathetic now":-He told me in detail.
"Mein samaj gayi Doctor":-I said.
"Lag bug 11 maheena hogaya hoga voh yahan aaye hue":-He said further.
"Hmmm…."-I said.
"Mein tumhe yeh case de raha hoon Taani you should see him and do whatever required":-He gave me responsibility.
"Sure":-I agreed.
"Okk":-He said.
"But what is that person's name?":- I asked.
Before he tells the name I remembered of asking him permission to go out during noon time.
"Doctor mein noon mein bahar ja rahi hoon; Shall I?:- I asked him.
"Of course you can":-He permitted.
"So may I …":- I said as I want to leave.
"Ok":-He said.
I left the room thinking why he asked my surname. Who was at the other end..?The question haunted me.
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It became noon, time for me to go and meet my mom. I know she would waiting for since 1 years. No I should say that I kept her waiting. The cruelty that a daughter can do to mother. For taking such a decision I needed lots of courage.I went ont of my room to report to Dr.Gautam. I find him at my door step.
"Taani":-He called me.
I looked at him.
"Aap bahar jake jaldi aajana..?": He told me.
"Kya hua…?":- I enquired the reason.
"Koi aapko milna chahtha":-He said.
I was surprised to hear. Except my mom nobody knows that I'm here. Now I'm going to meet my mom. So who that person who wants to meet me..?
"Kaun..?!!!":-I asked him in a surprise tone.
"He'll meet you":-He replied.
"Ok mein jaldi aajavoongi":-I agreed.
I started walking to the entrance. I couldn't guess who would that who wants to meet me.
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I got into the bus and took a ticket to Durga Nagar. She would be waiting there in the park.
My eyes searched for her wile I was walking. It was big park so I need to walk more as I didn't get any information that where she would be waiting for me. The paths were slippery and the sluggish. Mt sari's bottom was got drenched in that. Droplet of water from the trees made my body and soul very cold and chill which was not so.. I looked around in each and every benches but I find none whom I want to see.
"Taani":-Someone female voice came I could recognize the person. Mom… I turned to my right side.
Laboni Banerjee:-My mom. I'll say to her almost all things in my life. If I became something my after loosing everything it's only because of her. She cared and loved me as all mother in world does but my mom fulfilled all my dreams even after loosing her husband in an accident when I was only of 14 years of age.
All images in front of me were blurred as the unfallen tears dwell in my eyes. I wished for rain to happen so that my tears will be hidden by the shower. But that wish became unfulfilled. I couldn't speak anything. I could feel the heaviness in my throat. The hug that I went and gave spoke many things to her.
I made myself comfortable.
"Ma":-I called out
"Kaisi hain tu":-She asked.
"Sab teek hain":-I gave and answer just to predent as if I'm happy.
"Poore ek saal Taani;tu ne ithni badi faisla akele kiya" :- She asked me but myself don't know the answer. I just looked her let her spit out all her anger.
"Pyaar mein hum apne aapko kho de they hain lekin tu ne aapni pyaar keliye aapne aapko kho diya":- That voice was familiar to me. Its my brother
Taposh Banerjee:. My brother; who is a well known critique on social issue. He raises his voice against all illegal and anti social activities. A very caring and supportive husband. A child need a mother and father too but I never felt like because he was always there for me when I lost my father in childhood. I had no other option rather than make him sad.
"Dada":-I called out.
He hugged me. I knew he would yell at all my deeds. One way or the other my life was to take hatred of others. I was not ready to confiscate love which not for me from someone's heart. My birth might be on someone's curse otherwise I would be not suffering in my life.
"Aap kaise hain?":-I asked him.
"Teek hain":-He replied.
"Tu kithni pathli hogayi hain Taani.Khana teek se nahi khathi hogi":-Mom said.
I smile.
"Math haso maa hoon mein teri":-She said.
"Aisa kuch nahi hain maa":-I said it smilingly.
"Chaliye vahan baithe hain":-Dada pointed to while which was at few distance. We went and sat there. As soon as we got seated I put my head on maa's lap. The tears fall on my cheek from her eyes.
"Maa Onu kaisa hain":-Finally I got guts to think and talk about him.
"Tu abhi usi ke bare mein soch rahi hain Taani":-Dada asked.
"Voh toh uski bare maang se patha chaltha hain":-Maa said.
I understood that she notice my maang was filled sindoor.I got up from her lap and said nothing.
"Onu kaisa hain":- I repeated the question.
"Patha nahi jab sab kuch hogaya hum Siliguri chaley gaye":-She answered.
"Kya?":- I was shocked because I was unaware that.
"Haan Taani maa teek keh rahi hain":- Dada said.
"Lekin aap logon mujhse yeh chupaya kyun.?:-A questioned.
"Agar mein tumhe batha thi toh kya tum laut aajathe..?":- Maa asked.
Definitely my answer for this question would NO but I said nothing. I just looked at her and then DADA who stood with an angry face which still showered love.
"Maa mujhe jana hoga":-I said.
"Fikr math karo yahan koi uss mash hoor singer Taani ko nahi pehchanega":-Maa said.
I kept mum.
"Mein poochna bhool gayi Mouli kaisi hain":-I Asked about sister in law my friend.
"Teek hain":-Dada said.
"Mein javoon":-I asked permission to leave the place.
Mein chot detha hoon":-Dada said.
"Nahi aap log jayiye":-I said.
I started to walk without looking back because I might stop and run towards them when I turn back. On the way I was thinking I didn't say anything which I want to say them. It happens sometimes to every human now it happened to me.
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I reached at the asylum. I don't want anybody here to know my past. So I restricted DADA to drop me. Now I have of think of the person whom I'm going to meet. I prayed to god that it should be Anurag because I can't even think of meeting him so what would be my condition when it really happen. But my heart says that at least I should meet him once. I'm totally in dilemma. Thinking this I opened the door. A man was sitting facing my chair. His head was on the table so I could not guess who he was.
"Excuse me":-I said
He took his head from the table and looked at me. I was shocked to see him again. His thick hair, wide forehead, Thick eyebrows and small but little big eyes took me where I do not want to go; my past.
Precape:
I lost myself. For sometime I was not in my sense. I neither spoke nor showed any emotions. Someone was screaming out my name but I couldn't respond. He shook me my holding shoulders. I came into sense leaning on the wall I burst into cry in a loud noise. Those who were standing around me were shocked to hear that.
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