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~Mujhmein Tera AKS~
Part 8
This LOOONNNGGG Update is Dedicated to My jaanebahar Arshia (Princess200) and Shivangi (lionsroar)
Iqtiaar: Razia!
Chanda and Razia turned around to see Iqtiaar standing with a glass of whiskey in one hand and the other in the pocket of his trousers. He stood straight with head up and chest out. There was no doubt that he looked confident but there was a sense of pride and ego which reflected in his body language and tone which gave Razia a feeling of uneasiness. Though she couldn't point it out and Chanda definitely had no idea what was Iqtiaar's mood like, Razia could feel some kind of a negative aura around her fianc at this point of time. Iqtiaar moved towards the ladies and stood in front of them giving his attention to Chanda. He hadn't even once till now looked at Razia. All this was making Razia feel really uncomfortable.
Iqtiaar: Chanda if you don't mind may I get my fianc to myself for some time? He asked with a huge smile on his face; something which caught Razia's attention immediately. It wasn't that Iqtiaar never smiled. He was usually a very warm and friendly person. But today the smile that he gave looked over done, like he was pretending to be happy. It looked artificial and almost forced to Razia.
Chanda looked sideways towards Razia raising her eyebrows to which Razia smiled back uncomfortably trying to not make her worry about Iqtiaar's behavior too obvious.
Chanda: Well she's all yours! She said to Iqtiaar and left for the Hall.
Even before Razia could process anything to say to Iqtiaar, he questioned her in a tone she feared badly.
Iqtiaar: How could you talk about us to her? He said looking straight in her eyes. His breadth smelled of alcohol, something Razia just couldn't take and his eyes were cold, something she never wanted to see.
Razia: What do you mean? She asked innocently trying to sound as normal as she could.
Iqtiaar: what do I mean? Well Razia I hope you realize you are my fianc now. And that puts some responsibility on you towards me.
Razia looked in his eyes.
Iqtiaar: And my Family! He said after a pause. He said meaning each word.
Razia felt a shiver run through her body. She always knew how much his family meant to him but what had she done which was against it?
Razia: I... I do understand that.
Iqtiaar: Oh really? His voice contained extreme sarcasm which would always leave her standing like a mute.
Iqtiaar: then why were you telling her about ...
He couldn't continue as his sight fell on her swollen lips.
Iqtiaar: It was something WE shared. It doesn't deserve to be a part of anybody else's memories.
He was really close to her and the smell of alcohol was making things really difficult for her. She felt almost suffocated and harassed. The smell was bringing back all the cruel memories of those dark nights that she had spent locked in her room. Her eyes had started to brim with tears.
Razia: I didn't tell her that. She managed to get the words out. She was just asking me if I have told you that... That...
Iqtiaar: What Dammit? He almost shouted. Razia shivered hearing him shout like that. She was shocked to see him talk to her like that. After a long pause the only thing that she could utter was to ask the one question she had always wanted to ask him.
Razia: Don't you love me? She whispered in a voice barely audible. Her voice reflected her fear of the answer. It was almost as if she didn't want to hear it. The part of her heart which had always known that he didn't love her had suddenly become dominant and powerful, overpowering her mind and soul.
Iqtiaar: No I don't!!!! I DON'T LOVE YOU. He blasted looking straight into her eyes with his eyes full of rage.
Iqtiaar: And don't even expect me to... to... To love you.
He pushed her away walked out of the pool side.
He had stabbed right into the heart which had known nothing but to love him. She felt like nothing was left for her in this world. Her biggest fear in life had come out to be true. The man whom she was going to marry in a week's time didn't love her. Maybe if that was it, she could have still blamed her destiny but this was the man she had spent her whole life loving. He was her everything in true sense. Someone she couldn't live without. And after tonight, someone she will not be able to live with!
***
Iqtiaar drove amidst the dark night unable to compose himself. He didn't know if he hated her more or himself right now. He stopped the car and got out of the car in middle of nowhere. It was raining heavenly which made Iqtiaar get drenched within seconds.
He didn't know if what he said and did was right or not. Maybe he should have explained himself to her before blasting at her like an insane possessive husband. But the anger had not cooled down. Even the cool droplets could evaporate against his body heat. His eyed were red out of anger and pain. Why was something like this happening in his life? The only thing he had never wished for him self was happening to him; getting married to a girl far-far away from commitment and relationship. He banged the car door out of frustration.
Iqtiaar and Razia both were heartbroken and remembered their sweet moments together to understand what did destiny had in store for them. Iqtiaar stood still on the road calming himself down, trying to get himself out of the fear. He knew just one thing, he would not be able to live without her now.
He would do anything to make her his own. He could not have lost her. No way!
***
She closed the door to her room and slid down against it with her arms around her knees. She expected herself to cry; Cry out loud for him. But to her astonishment not even a single drop of tear fell down on her cheeks. There was only darkness which was visible to her empty eyes. And surprising herself even more, the darkness felt soothing to her bleeding heart. Maybe she should have gotten used to it by now. This closed room and its darkness was all that she deserved. She felt as if each and everything kept in the room was laughing at her and making fun of her. It was as if they were telling her what a big fool she was to have thought that she would ever receive love from him. It was impossible and she knew it. But the good thing was that now he had cleared that misconception too. There was no way and no excuse that she could make to her heart anymore. Razia stood up and walked towards her room terrace to stand in front of the early rays of sunlight like she did everyday as her face glowed in the first few rays of the sun. A tear escaped from her eye as she felt the warmth of the sun on to her face.
***
Razia heard the sudden knock on the door which made her shiver out of her sleep as she lay on the floor with her head on the bed. Her face had marks of the dried tears on her cheeks and she looked very tired. Razia got up from the bed and slowly walked up to the bolted door.
Razia: who is it? She asked in a scared voice.
Chanda: Razia, it's me Chanda open the door.
Razia tried to make herself look a bit presentable with her crumbled draped pink engagement dress that she was still wearing and opened the door.
Chanda: What's with you and keeping the door locked? It seems as if you are hiding something! She said casually but the remark didn't really go too well with Razia.
Razia: I am NOT hiding anything. She said looking straight into Chanda's eyes with pain in her eyes. Chanda had never heard Razia talk like this. She seemed disturbed but Chanda had absolutely no idea what could have disturbed Razia on her engagement day.
Chanda: What is it Razia? Are you okay? She asked concerned.
Razia looked away trying to compose herself and replied: I am fine; just a bit tired because of last night.
Chanda: Why did you come back alone without informing anyone from the Mallik Mansion and you didn't even change into your night dress last night? I hope you are not feeling ill? She said trying to check Razia's temperature.
Razia: I am alright Chanda, I was just way too tired last night and I did tell KHURRAM to tell you all that, I am going back home, as all of you were busy with the guests. She made an excuse and turned her back towards Chanda.
Razia: Now if you will please excuse me! I need to get ready for Dargah. She walked into the bathroom banging the door shut.
***
Uzma Mumani walked around as she got everything ready for Dargah. Just then her attention was diverted to Shazia who sat on the dining table lost in her thoughts while she observed all the traditional shringaar, beauty products used by married women kept on the table for the Prayer meet kept for well wishes for Razia and Iqtiaar. Uzma sat next to Shazia and held her hand warmly.
Mumani: what happened Shazia? Will you not help me with the preparations for going to the Dargah today like you always do? She said trying to cheer up her niece.
Shazia: I am not eligible to participate in any of these rituals Mumani. They are not for me. She said with tears forming in her eyes. Uzma felt awful to see Shazia like this but tried to look happy and smiling in front of her to make her feel better.
Uzma: No Shazia, Don't say that. Just like how night doesn't last forever even bad times don't. I am sure very soon Iqtiaar and your Mamu jaan will find a perfect husband for you. Trust me!
Shazia: Please don't keep any false hopes Mumani. Who would want to marry a girl who has such a disease and can't even walk properly?
Uzma: Shh! Not even a word more from your mouth. And now you will help me with the preparations and I am not hearing a no' from you.
Shazia: But Mumani?
Uzma: Shazia! Please for Iqtiaar? It's the first time someone out there is fasting for his wellbeing. For her happiness, don't you think we all should be happy in front of her today?
Shazia smiled realizing about the new addition to their family.
Mumani: Shazia beta, I promise I would never differentiate between Zaroon's wife and Iqtiaar's wife. But for Iqtiaar you are like both your parents to him. This puts responsibility on you towards Razia too. I hope you understand that.
Shazia: I do Mumani and I promise she'll always be happy in this family. Uzma smiled and hugged Shazia.
***
Razia came out of her room wearing an orange lehenga and noticed Chanda standing near the dressing table, wearing her jewelry. Razia felt bad about talking to Chanda rudely and made an apologetic face. Chanda gave her a smile in the mirror and said.
Chanda: shall I help?
Razia grinned widely and went close to Chanda holding both her ears.
Razia: I am sorry!
Chanda: It's okay. But Razia are you sure you want to fast today? You look unwell.
Razia: I am ALRIGHT Chanda. How many times should I tell you that? She said in an extremely irritated tone. Chanda just silently made Razia turn around and helped her with the jewelry.
As both of them got ready, Chanda noticed Razia to be still lost somewhere. She didn't know what was it but Razia seemed different since this morning. It was as if something had changed about her. A part of her which suddenly went missing, but Chanda couldn't pin point it. She didn't know if it would be right to talk to Razia about it as she was reacting in an absurd manner since the morning. Therefore Chanda thought that just making Razia feel good and happy was her best option. She tilted her face up in an attitude while looking in the mirror and said: So who looks better?
She said in a challenging tone to Razia. Razia smiled warmly and said: Of course! The bride! She said winking at Chanda and ran out of the room leaving Chanda giggling to herself.
Chanda: Pagal! She murmured.
***
Iqtiaar walked restlessly from one end to another near the Dargah staircase as he awaited his newly engaged fianc while the other Malliks were busy inside the Dargah with Qazi sahab and the rituals. Only God knew how many times he had practiced saying SORRY standing in front of the mirror and even memorizing his apology to her like a 5th grader trying to learn mathematics tables. He was about to call Altamush again, maybe the tenth time, with some random excuse to know how long were they taking to reach the Dargah, when his eyes fell on his angel. She walked elegantly up the stairs holding a Lal dupatta and itra in her hand along with Chanda.
Razia suddenly started feeling exhausted and her head was spinning. Chanda noticed this.
Chanda: Razia are you okay?
Razia: Yeah I am fine, don't worry! They heard Qutub calling for both of them and Razia asked Chanda to go to Qutub.
Razia: Chanda go with Ammi, or else she too would get tense. I'll come in a minute or two.
Chanda: you sure?
Razia: positive. She said smiling.
As Chanda walked away Razia's eyes met his; the eyes in which she was blindly seeing love. Today she felt as if she had got her eyesight back. His eyes held no emotion such as love for her. She closed her eyes unable to bare the pain any more with her head spinning at an uncontrollable speed.
Iqtiaar saw Razia standing on the edge of the stair and her eyes looked heavy. He saw her slowly closing them and finding it difficult to keep conscious. Iqtiaar ran towards Razia as he felt her not able to balance herself. Just when she was about to lose her balance and fall, Iqtiaar caught her by the hand. He pulled her towards himself and picked her up in his arms. He took her and made her sit on a bench. Razia was unconscious to which Iqtiaar tried to make her drink water so that she could gain consciousness.
Razia drank few sips and could then breathe properly and opened her eyes. She couldn't believe what she had just done. Iqtiaar had just broken her fast. She felt awful about it. It was the first time she was fasting for him and couldn't even complete it properly.
Razia: What did you just do? Why did you make me drink water and break the fast?
Iqtiaar: you were UNCONSIOUS!!! Your health is more important than some stupid fast. It's not a big deal.
Razia: Yes the fast IS A BIG DEAL. And why did YOU BREAK it?
Iqtiaar: you are saying as if it was for someone else? He said in his famous sarcastic tone. But surprisingly his sarcasm didn't hurt her anymore.
Razia: It's for me. My belief in God and for my lo.., my SELF. She said in a calm yet firm voice.
Iqtiaar knew he had hurt her yet again. There he had come to say sorry to her and messed up things again.
Iqtiaar: Razia, I am S...
Razia looked into his eyes for a moment. Iqtiaar: I wanted to say that.. Razia I..
Razia: I have told you before that you don't need to say things to me that you don't want to or can't. I do understand you. She said looking straight in his eyes.
Iqtiaar stood there speechless seeing her trust him with this depth. Razia turned on her heels and walked at a fast pace trying to get away from him. But to her bad luck, her head started spinning again. But before Razia could fall again, Iqtiaar caught her by the waist.
She tried to walk away from him and went in the Dargah to greet everyone. But couldn't stop herself to look for him or in his direction every now and then. She felt his hand touching hers as she passed by him. Her hands were shivering below his touch full of warmth. How bad she had wanted to feel that touch all her life. But now even that warmth was lost somewhere.
She could feel him standing right behind her. His breath falling in the nape of her neck, making her feel dizzy. She wanted to just turn around and hug him. Cry her heart out to him; and tell him how much she loved him. But she knew she couldn't. If she did, she will for sure loose him forever and she could even risk her life to just have him to herself. She walked away from him feeling his eyes on her making her conscious of herself. As she walked away she recalled all their past moments together.
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Originally posted by: princess200
Shopau yeh itna pyaara update ...lekin chota sa tha...i want more😭
also...precap ??😕 ab yeh kahan se aagaye
detailed comment res
i love uuu
but i want more😭
Yeh kya?? Yeh kaisa comment hai???😭oh I didn't read detailed comment res... but anyhow detailed comment jaldi doLOONNNGGG aur Arshia ka acchha wala comment do... phir next update bhi aaj hi mil jayega😛
Originally posted by: princess200
CHAPTER 8 UNRES ///
OMG i was heart broken for a while...alcohol annoys me too...so i could kinda feel how disgusted Razia might be feeling. Also under the influence of alcohol, Ikhtiars anger and frustration was a bit off the edge. Im glad he didnt do more than scolding her. That was a relief...bigger relief and extremely cute was
"He would not be able to live without her now. He would do anything to make her his own"
O...M...G !! 🥳 this was ADORABLE to the core !!
Yaar one thing is clear to me now...He loves her ! A lot ! But he has neither realized it nor does he want to accept it...kaisa ajeeb banda hai yeh bhi...😵
And ek baat wapas clear karde na pls...i knw i asked u this doubt before...bt i wna ask again
Razia blives only in love. Not commitment...but shaadi is commitment only na then why did she agree for marriage ? Or is it like she blives only in LOVE MARRIAGES and not arranged ? yes ? she thinks its compulsory for a couple to fall in love first then get married ? hai na ?? pls lemme knw if what im thinking is right...
OOO THE DARGAH PART MY MOST FAV OF ALL...You also just had to put it here...i feel no alzia story is complete without a dargah scene...Main bhi jaungi Haji Ali Dargah ab when i go to Bombay in Nov 😆
And she got the laal dupatta and ithr also ?? waah bhai...now dont tellme hes gna take it away from her...ill be most happy if he does actually... romantic as hell it would be
I loved their encounter there...he cares for her A LOT ! Catching her from falling, touching her hand...holding her by the waist...standing so close behind her...making her drink water...LIFTING HER UP YET AGAIN...☺️ PERFECT ...DAMN PERFECT !!
Bas tu aise hii updates deti reh...jaldi jaldi...super romantic wale...ahem ahem...jab abhi se ikhtiar ka aisa haal hai...najaane shaadi wali raat kya karega...OMG GET THEM MARRIED ALREADY NOW I CANT WAIT !!! ☺️
also one place u wrote 'temple' by mistake instead of Dargah...thought ill let u know😳
Arrey yaar ...precap yaar
iss gadhey ko aana hii tha...😵
now im eager to see his purpose here...Ikhtiar ko jealous karne mein kamiyaab ho jaaye toh nothing like it !! 😆
UPDATE SOON SOON !! I AM WAITING...This is another SS tht im becoming obsessed with...really getting close to my heart...
Love ya girl !! You rock ! 🤗
THANK U FOR THE DEDICATION...I HAVE A SPECIAL DEDICATION RESERVED LONG BAK JUST FOR U FOR ONE OF THE CHAPTERS OF MY SS...ULL SEE WHICH ONE...
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