Hello Everyone,
I am Varsha. I stay in Sydney. I have been a silent reader of India Forums for a long time. I came across this forum for love, friendship and I saw many people sharing their stories on this forum so I thought even I should share my love story with you all.
My story started 2 years back in Bangalore. I had just finished my MBA and had joined a company as a Marketing and Advertising Officer. On the joining day I went to my new office 1 hr early as I was under lot of tension and excitement. I was in the lift and the lift door was about close that time I saw a really handsome guy getting into the lift and he almost jumped into the lift and gave cute little smile to me. I was under so much tension that I ignored him and his smile.
There were 4 of us joining that company and at 10 am there was an induction program. Our HR manager introduced us to everyone in the company and we were waiting for our manager to come out of the meeting. When the meeting got over we were taken to our manager's cabin. I was really shocked to see that handsome lift guy as my manager. His name was Nikhil. He spoke to everyone and when my turn came he said "we have already met in the lift" and shook my hand. I felt so bad for ignoring him in the lift and I don't why I told him that "you are too young to be a manager". Everyone including him started laughing. I had imagined a middle aged, bald man as my manager. It was really awkward. I used to avoid him as much as possible. But it was really difficult because during meetings, exhibitions I had to coordinate with him. Other girls in the team had a big time crush on him and they wanted to work with him and my case was exactly opposite.
I think I was getting attracted to him and I didn't want to acknowledge it. I also had inferiority complex as Nikhil was an IIM graduate, good looking, extrovert person and I was a middle class, not very good looking, introvert person. It was becoming really impossible to avoid him. In meetings he used to sit opposite to me or next to me and give sweet little killing smile. He also used to accompany on my company tours. I knew I was falling in love but I didn't want that to happen. I had seen many of friend's love stories and they had gone through hell. I did not want that in my life. I didn't want to hurt my parents in any way as I am their only child.
It was October 6th, 2011 and we were coming back to Bangalore from our company trip to Melbourne. We were on the same flight but I was in economy class and he was in business class. I was sleeping in my seat and suddenly I felt someone's presence next to me. I opened my eyes and he was sitting next to me. I asked him if everything is fine. He said "no everything is not fine". I asked what the matter was and said "I LOVE YOU". I could not believe it. I didn't know how to react to it and I asked for some time to think over it. I had no reason to reject him because he was from same caste as mine, 2 years older to me, well settled, good looking but I was scared of love marriages. So after thinking for 2 days I told him that I can't accept his proposal and I almost cried while telling this. Nikhil said he knew that I would reject his proposal and said no problem.
Two days later we were supposed to go to our Mumbai office but Nikhil didn't come with me. I felt really bad and I knew it was because of me. I just had one day work there and I flew back to Bangalore same day. When I came home a big surprise was waiting for me. Nikhil had come with his parents to meet my parents with a marriage proposal. I was shocked to see him and immediately my mom took me inside and asked about it. I told her everything. My mom was really angry at me for rejecting such a nice proposal and she said they are more than happy for this proposal. I hugged my mom and started crying so badly. Then Nikhil proposed me in front of everyone. Life was so beautiful. It was so beautiful to fall in love. I couldn't stay without seeing him, speaking to him. My life was so perfect and I was so happy that I have no words to explain it. He used to take care of me like a child. Everything was so damn perfect.
Our wedding got fixed in May 2012. Just 2 weeks before marriage we were going out for wedding shopping. I asked Nikhil to take his car but he took his bike that day. He said bike ride will be very romantic and I said OK. We were on the way n suddenly from nowhere a cyclist came in front of him and Nikhil put sudden break. We both fell down. He fell on the left side n there was a van behind him which came and hit him. That was the last time I saw him. Sometimes I feel that everything is just a dream. Someday I will wake up n he will be sitting next to me trying to wake me up.
It is easy to go through a breakup but not easy to see your love die in front of you. You don't have time to make him understand how much you love him. You want to sit next to him and speak to him but your voice doesn't reach him. In just few hours my entire dreamworld had destroyed. Now cannot even go to that house which would have been mine. Now I am no one for his parents. My friends n relatives were telling that everything happened before marriage which is good otherwise my life would get ruined. If this is good then what is worst? Do you feel something would happen worse than this? If I cry for him they say," how long are you going to cry for him"? Stop crying he was not your husband...
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