Originally posted by: without-fathom
And like you said Nur - the whole scene with Indu just MADE the drinking contention SO invalid!!! It was as if the drinking had suddenly become NOT his go to to GET OVER this truth thrown in his face - but to drill and drill and drill deeper still THE TRUTH as HE knew it!!! It was like the "un-drunk" reality was somehow causing him to weaken in the face of "paper and name facts" somehow "cracking" HIS TRUTH - and when he drunk, unlike EVERY OTHER case of "fictional drinking drama" we know - Mohan was getting drunk to HOLD ONTO HIS REALITY!It gave him the asserting strength to say what he hadn't been able to say EVEN to himself - even if he "knew it in his head" - that Megha's love was THERE for HIM to see ALL OVER HER EYES! The truth STARED back at him. That he needed NO ONE, not even MEGHA to confirm it to him ... It was to be able to hold onto THIS "unattested" truth from all quarters that he STILL knew to be true, that he needed the alcohol in his system - and NOT just because he'd had this nth rejection, even if got SO much more grave than any before! There was a card which spoke one truth. And there was HE himself, who was LIVING another truth.Agreeing with you Nur - his blend of drunken self preservation was... just crushing! The way he brings out humility and shame AND exerts rights and love in SUCH dauntless candor - π π π - you're just at SUCH a loss trying to decide WHAT IS the one word or emotion to describe his state - there isn't one apparently! He's SO resisting AND accepting in the same moment. Ready to confess rights AND mistakes. And that he's in such a sorry disheveled state evoking SO much disgust from people who do NOT deserve a toe nail of his person - even as he STATES and not implores for his love! There is no resignation, or begging, or seeking anymore. He's matter of fact in such a manner of finality - like this IS the end of any and every game now.