remember? #12: the first happy smiles, pg.19 - Page 15

@bee: it so totally is a good thing. so much time out of the show, and i'm still obsessing about it! *and i can't believe i'm doing that! can someone pan herself? 😆*

(hi jyoti! 😃 )

haha E no you are not the only one.. they still make my heart sing, they still make me smile.. there's one scene in particular that had me smiling and my mind trying to understand the story it told few days back or i guess it was a week 😆

it was that dori scene when Heer gave Prem-pretending-to-be-Gaurav, Prem's jinowe or i guess the dori to wear. .. there was such pure sensitivity, sheer intensity and mind numbing ache and sadness that just made me want to hug Heer and Prem. Heer for thinking that she had lost her prem forever and Prem for not being able to reach to her...

She came and helped in untangling the mess he had created with the dori and his wide shoulders😆 in the start he was simply into getting the darn thing off and there came a moment in which he glanced up and stilled and i saw him stare at her unashamedly, his gaze arrested on her face and my heart went haye mei mar jawan (E style😆) I am really bad at describing stuff so please excuse me.. What touched me the most and made my heart sigh was the quiet observance in those unwavering, unblinking eyes.. he was simply drinking her in as if entranced by the sadness in every plane of her face and her eyes that she had so quietly lowered so as not to meet his at all and wanting to know how did she do it? how did she put up with a look alike of prem everyday and live with the realization that the man in front of her is not her prem.. how was it for her to look at him everytime and see the happiness that she had always dreamt off but would never get it as he had died..

i saw how still he had gone in his study of her that he didnt make one single move to help her in any way even if it was to voluntarily move his hands and make her task easier as one can see from the scene that when heer took hold of his hand to make it go through the dori.. you'll see that his arm was completely still and Heer was doing all the work of lifting his arm and putting it through the dori thingie.. he was making on effort on his part

and i just loved the way how she looked up done with her task and go still herself as her eyes met his intense one's burning with passion and then look away immediately giving herself a mental shake that he was not her prem, that how did she see Prem in those intense pair of eyes and walk away tears springing in her eyes that she would never look in those eyes again as they were no more and He oh so naturally rolled his head and looked back asking what Prem used to ask

'Tou tumhari ankhon mei aanso kyu hai"

hayeee *dies*

i took alot of caps 😆 i am quite high atm coz its 4 am and i am hungry and em going to have soup of all the things in this hot weather 😆 that happens when you have a late lunch, go to bed without dinner as you werent so hungry and wake up at 3 feeling alot hungry 😆

i think the caps are self explanatory *sighhh*