Hey guys! So this
is my new FF on Siddhima. I'll start from where Riddhima confesses her feelings
towards Sid when he went to meet a girl to marry, but my prime objective is to
show what could've happened to their relationship if Armaan wasn't there so I promise,
you guys it'll be an 'Armaan free' FF. I promise to show Riddhima's feelings
for Sid, the feelings she had before Armaan showed up. I want to show how their
broken relationship falls piece by piece back into its place. And obviously the
Riddhima in here will be completely in love with Sid in a different way from
what you guys have seen from my previous FF Tug of War. I'll try to put some
love scenes which you have already seen on screen. I hope you like it. Here it
goes.
<p align="center">Eternalsiddhima's(SR
FF)- Wings of Love</p>
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Riddhima comes
home and fell on the bed crashing. How can he do that? How can he say to his
mother that she is someone else's wife? How can he see another girl and talk
about marriage? She couldn't understand why she was feeling so insecure about
him. The image of Sid in that white shirt talking to another girl about
marriage where he is already married tore her heart into two pieces. Why did
she care? She never loved him. She always thought she could never love a man
rather than Armaan. Then why is she feeling so jealous? The image of her and
Sid on that honeymoon night, where Sid has shown his cares about her made her
feel warm inside. The intensity in his eyes, how he pulled her in his arms with
care, how he gently put ointment on her wounded feet, made her feel good and
weird, weird because all these days, she has seen nothing but pain and anger in
his eyes, and good because after a long time she has seen care in his eyes for
her, she felt that warm feeling after ages. And she felt good about it. But
after that, how can he just tell his mother that she is no one for him? How can
he just go and meet another girl for marriage? Doesn't it bother him? Didn't he
feel anything that night? Or he just felt sorry for her that night. Is he that
much angry on her? Now, more than ever, she didn't want to leave Sid, but why?
All these days, he has done nothing but hurt her, humiliate her, and all she
did was bear everything he did with her. But after everything he's done, why
doesn't she want to leave him? Why did her hands, unknowingly ruffled his hair
that night when he was sleeping peacefully on the floor on their honeymoon
night? Why is she feeling jealous to see another girl with him? Is it because
she can't imagine another girl taking her place as his wife? The day of their
wedding, it was Sid who put the mangalsutra on her neck, it was Sid who put
Sindoor on her forehead, it was Sid who took all the pheres with her. It was
Sid, who officially claimed that she is his wife. Then how dare is he to go to see
someone else for marriage! She dug her head into the pillow and cried her
hearts out, these are some questions, that only time can answer. She got up and
looked to the mirror, the sindoor, the mangalsutra, the bangles, all the
features of a married woman. She took a good look on these features, the words
Sid's mother, Parvati said about her, kept ringing in her head.
Parvati: maang
par sindoor hai, lekin patni banne farz hi nahi nibhata.
She slowly put
her hand on her sindoor and wiped it off from her forehead.
Parvati: gale me
mangalsutra hai, lekin pati ka sammaan hi nahi karta.
She slowly took
her mangalsutra off from her neck.
Parvati: hathon
par jora hai toh sirf dikhane ke liye.
She slowly pulled
those bangles off from her hands. Now she looked at herself through the mirror,
now she lookedempty. These features, completed her, made her feel like a
responsible wife. But now she's back to being a girl. When she took those
features off, she felt this unusual pain which is unexplainable. Didn't she want
this? Didn't she want to back away from this marriage? Isn't it because of this
marriage, she wanted to suicide? Now she has a chance to back off, then why is
she feeling so hurt? So dejected? She looked at herself and wiped the tears
from her eyes.
Riddhima(thinking):
agar Siddhant ko yeh pati patni ka bandhan manzoor nahi hai, toh main kyun iss
shaadi ko kass ke pakar raha hoon? Kyun main jee rahi hoon iss.samjhote ki
shaadi me? Lo Siddhant! Aaj tum iss jhooti bandhan se aazad ho.
She can see the
pain in her eyes, and she again started to cry.
Meanwhile, Sid
saw Riddhima coming to the hotel to see him, and now he kept frantically
searching for her. He left everything else in the hotel, but he just wanted to
see a glance of his wife. He was driving home, in hope to find Riddhima there.
He had no interest to see the girl, but when he found out that the girl was
Naina, a great burden lifted from his chest. He knows very well that she will
marry no one except Yuvi. But when he saw Riddhima with teary eyes, he saw the
dejection she felt inside her, and this made him feel this unusual pain inside
him. When she said that he should wear white as it looks good on him, he felt
pity for himself for hurting her like this. He felt like a beast. Who had a
cold heart. But whatever he did to Riddhima, he did for her own good. He wanted
her to get out of this forced marriage, he wants to see her smile, but whatever
he did, made her do nothing but cry. And whenever she cried, she felt pain
inside him. Why? All she did was love somebody else. She cared for no one. She
only cared about him. Then why did he
always feel the pain when he sees the pain in her eyes? Is it because he went
through that phase? Or is it because he feels
something for her? He sighed and ruffled his hair out of frustration and guilt.
Sid(thinking):
Why Riddhima? Why? Why are you still holding back? Why are you still with me?
Is it because of the society? Is it because of your family? Or is it because of
me? Why do you keep hurting yourself by staying with me? Why? Do you want to
make this relationship work?
He banged the
steering wheel out of frustration. He reached the penthouse. He quickly turned
off the car, stormed into his own house and kept searching for Riddhima here
and there. He went upstairs to find her, the more he kept calling her out, the
more he became tensed. Finally he found her sitting quietly on the bed. He
slowly entered the room.
Sid: Riddhima?
Riddhima: (no
answer)
Sid: Riddhima,
tum hotel aaye the? Mujhse mila kyun nahi?
Riddhima: (no
answer)
Sid: Riddhima
meri har sawalon ka jawab tumhari khamonshi me nahi hoti.
Riddhima looked
up at him. Sid, for the first time saw anger and irritation in her eyes. She
slowly stood up. Sid looked over her and saw her bag packed.
Riddhima(in a husky
voice): kya bataun main aapko? Kya sunna chahti ho aap? Yehi, ki main wahan
rahungi, mere bare me baate sunne ke liye? Yeh dekhne ke liye, ki aap kisi aur
ke saath apni shaadi ke bare me baat karne?
Sid:
Riddhima.agar main kisi aur ko dekhuntoh tumhe koi farak parta hai kya?
Riddhima(anger
brewing): Farak parta hai! Aapkokyun aisa lagta hai ki..mujhe koi farak nahi
parta?
Sid looked at her
from head to toe.
Sid: agar tumhe
shaadi par thoda bhi farak parta haitumne iss shaadi ki saari nishaniyan kyun
mita di?
Riddhima(crying):
Sid..aap mano ya na manolekin abyeh shaadi meri sachayi hai..ab aap hi
meri sachayi ho. Mujhe iss shaadi se.farak parta hai.
Sid couldn't
believe what he was listening. She wants this marriage to be successful. He looked
down to the floor, trying to believe what he just heard. She slowly came
forward to him, he slowly raised his head to face her, and in the next moment,
in his surprise, she came forward and hugged him real tight. Sid was in shock.
Usse farak parta hai? But how? He just kept looking at her in awe. She rested
her head on his shoulder and just tightened the hug more. Now he felt, that all
these time, she meant it. She wasn't acting. She really meant it. And he was
the one to hold back. He felt everything inside him, melt away. All the
hardness in him, flowed away. And now, all he could do was to hug her back
tightly.
Seher Hone Ko Hai
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