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~ 1st person (Runjhun)
As I saw Guddu, my enemy, who eventually turned into my non-enemy husband, leaving the gate of my house. I felt an urge inside of me. I couldn't just let him leave without going through w/it so I ran to him and wrapped my arms around his back. He turned around and placed his hand on my cheek saying that he has done what he has to and that that there is no need for him to stay in my house anymore. Tears started rolling down my face. I asked him why is that he's leaving when I feel like holding onto him so much? He didn't answer my question, instead, he pust his arms around me and held me in a tight embrace. I knew I'd miss being buried in his strong arms. I looked up into his expressive eyes, and said that there is something that I want & that I don't want him to leave without going through w/it. He sighed, asking me what it is that I'm only mentioning now when he is about to leave. I told him that I'm ready for what we didn't end up doing for the time he spent as the son-in-law of the house. He looked deeply in my eyes & they looked like they were searching for something. I then told him w/more tears rolling down my face that I want to give myself to him.
~ 1st person (Guddu)
I didn't know how to react to what she wanted. Part of me wished we didn't end up falling in love w/eachother because if we didn't, it would be so much easier for me to leave her but we did. I guess I wasn't expecting her to react like this. I had made the decision to not make love to her because I didn't see too much of a point in getting so physically close to her like this- where she loses her virginity, when I'm gonna leave her real soon. I thought to myself while looking into her eyes, that I cannot give her any more pain. I cannot leave w/knowing I caused her pain. I had already caused her pain since the day she arrived at the carom club that day to get back the money that I stole so I agreed to her request. We sneaked into a vacant room in her house. I put my bag down and we embraced.
~ back to Runjhun
I felt his nose glide against my cheek, where he had just layed a kiss. His lips felt warm against my skin. I felt myself falling onto the bed and then feeling pinned down. He moved the pallu of my sari to the other side, so all of my blouse was exposed and kissed me again. While he kissed me, I felt a little hesitation. How could I forget that I have no experience w/love making. I turned sideways, thinking that I don't want to make my nervousness obvious at all. I felt a chill run down my back as his long fingers traced my back. I closed my eyes. I felt another chill when I felt his fingers untying the back of my blouse. He moved the hair that was party covering my nervous expression away from my face and turned me around so that I would face him. I sat up & crawled onto his lap. He untied my hair. I rubbed my nose against his nose & cheek & while I did this, I felt the buttons at the top of his shirt and unbuttoned them. He unbuttoned the rest of his shirt and took it off. I told my self to be more confident. I put my arms around him & as I clung to him, I felt a weight gently slipping off of me. We wrapped ourselves up in the big cream silk sheet and ended up becoming one. I felt so free and I wished this momemt woud never end. He rested his head on my chest, I could feeling my heart beating like it was going to burst out of my it. I ran my fingers though his soft , shiny hair. He looked into my eyes and said the 3 words that I had spent quite a bit of my life yearning to hear, especially from people other than nani- "I love you". I then replied back- I love you too, with tears of joy welling up in my eyes & stroked his cheek. I rested my head against the side of his chest, feeling like I was covered w/warmth due to the sheet and the warmth of his body. I told him, "I hope you don't regret us getting this close." Our eyes met, and I knew I couldn't bear hearing him say that he does regret it. I couldn't really recall a time when he had lied to me so I felt like what I was about to hear could or could not break me. "Yes and no" he replied.
R: Why yes?
G: The only reason why I said yes is because I'm going to leave you real soon. Runjhun, like I've said before, I really don't want u to get attached to me and I'm afraid u already have.
I didn't really know what I could say back. I didn't want to spoil the mood so I didn't say that what he feared had already happened. As I lay in his arms, I fell asleep thinking about our story. Everything from our first encounter to this intimate moment. A lot of the scenes were filled w/anger and pain but if it wasn't for all those scenes then we wouldn't have gotten married, we would have never fallen in love w/eachother and we wouldn't have ever gotten so close to eachother both emotionally and phyically. God had played a cruel game w/me. He had made the same man who caused me so much pain & anger my husband and now when he was finally the cause for my happiness, he wants to take him away from me😭.
The next morning, I woke up to the sun's rays. I turned my had and saw that he wasn't there lying next to me. I quickly changed and asked amma about Guddu.
A:"He left, dear. I hope his leaving doesn't destroy you. Besides, he didn't want to stay in our house for a longer time than he felt he should."
My eyes started to water.
A: Do yo u truly love him, Runjhun?
R: Yes. I never expected to fall in love with him but I did. I truly did.
A: Oh, Runjhun!
Amma wrapped her arms around me and I rested in her embrace for what seemed like a long time, weeping my heart out😭.
~ 3rd person
Vishnu says he still can't believe they gave him the money.
Rajju: Well, it was for the best for a few reasons. I just couldn't take him anymore. Anyways, we won't be seeing him for a while and let's hope that someone else becomes in charge of the CD shop and carom club or these places get taken down. He said he remembers Guddu saying he wanted to start his life over somewhere else so..."
Bantu is looking at Rajju, w/a puzzled expression on his face.
B: But she is still married to him. I hope Runjhun doesn't become depressed.
Rajju: That's what I'm afraid of.
~ Runjhun
I looked in the mirror and noticed that I hadn't applied sindoor. I hesitated to apply it. I decided that I didn't care about whether he was going to come back to me (what I mean is come back and live in my house) or not (well, we wouldn't really be a couple anymore) either way, I was going to still apply sindoor so I applied it
~ Amma
As I saw Runjhun & Mahadevi cooking in the kitchen, I felt sad but relieved at the same time. I felt that after all that has happened to my dear Runjhun, if she can survive through all of those things like the ill treatment that she has received from this family then maybe she can survive through Guddu's departure. I hope she doesn't go back to being like an unpaid servant again. At least she has a smile on her face. As I saw her and Mahadevi put the garam pakoras onto big plate, Diamond & Babli rush to eat them, & Runjhun feeding Mitho a pakora, I felt like this image, this image looked too good to be true. Ok, maybe I'm exaggerating at least a little bit because Mitho is in the image but at least she is being nice to Runjhun in the kitchen right now😆. Runjhun looked at me w/a smile & started walking towards me. "I'll feed u now,amma", she said cheerfully but I the perfect moment was shattered. Right when she was about to feed me, she placed her hand on her head and fainted. My mind was racing, seeing her unconscience on the ground. I wanted to think she was exhausted & she had fainted a few times in the past. Mitho, & the rest of my grandchildren crowded around her, looking shocked. "I placed my hand on Runjhun's shoulder, and shook her arm a little bit & I heard a faint moan come from her lips. I decided to not contemplate anything regarding her unconscience state.
Rajju carried Runjhun to her bedroom before the doctor arrived. I instinctively held onto Vishnu's arm. Around 10 minutes later, the doctor said that there is no need to worry about Runjhun. I breathed a deep sigh of relief.
Doc: "But..."
Vishnu: But what doctor?
D: She will need support and extra care from u?
Mitho: Why are u saying this doctor?
D: Because she is pregnant
Mitho stared at the doctor, w/a hand over her mouth, dumbstruck like everyone else in the room, including me😲. I let go of Vishnu's arm, and approached my dear Runjhun. She lay there on the bed, looking content, not knowing that she was carrying Guddu's child, my great grand child.
~ In this FF, Guddu is basically havin' inner turmoil & he doesn't really know what to do w/his life other than to get away from Runjhun's family for at least sometime w/the money Rajju & Vishnu finally gave to him. Runjhun's is sad because he has left & she doesn't know when he is comin' back & if he does come back, she doesn't know if they'll be a couple or a separated couple (of course she wouldn't have to worry about this if Guddu wasn't going through this turmoil right now).
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