That diary is her best friend who listens to and remember everything Saachi says to it. Diary keeps her many experiences and memories sweet and bitter or whatever. Its the thing which Saachi enjoys to be with when alone. She rejoice with it and share whatever her anguish is. Diary give shoulder to cry for and give Saachi strength to whatever she faces in her life.
I kept wondering that how a person can bear so much without retorting and sharing pain with anybody, now I know the reason. Its this secret diary which Saachi regularly keeps writing which listens to Saachi like a best friend.
Take a peekaboo:
Date 13-Oct-2010
"Please return soon." you said when i was leaving OUR home.
And I came back. Back to mama mami house. Back to my crazy life.
Your Nidhi bhabhi told me you kept waiting for me and asking about me every day. I have this picture which since morning looking it. Every time I look at this picture I'd taken on the beach in mumbai that day. my heart breaks as I think about how I lied to you and made you wait for me.
When Shravanji you came in morning, I am SO sorry I lied to you. I had to. You were insisting on to me to come back like a little monkey and said,
"Saachi, don't do it, come back to home." I had no choice but to lie and harsh to tell you that nothing in this world can take back me to OUR home, hoping that would make you realize how it hurts me when same thing told by you. When I tore those honeymoon photos I also tear apart my heart. I was so rough to you that even i thrown those pieces on your faces. Shravanji believe me this was for your good only.
I was trying to prepare you for this, the rarest of all things, the true pure love that I feel for you. Unlike everything I've ever known. And I am grateful for so many beautiful days, every day to wake up in the morning and just watch you breathing, laying next to me. I am grateful for every loving gaze into my eyes, every time your arms are wrapped around me. And I am grateful, most of all, that I never completely gave up on love. Thanks to God, and to you, for the joy and wonder that is my life. I love you. Today, tomorrow, forever.
I just want to hear these three words from you to take me to OUR home. Come and take my like a true loving husband who cant live without his wife even if all world is in his feet. You are doing so many crazy things but not doing what I want. I know you love me cant you hear my hear beats which beats so fast when you are around. Cant you hear its asking you to say just once, from bottom of your heart I LOVE YOU. My ears are all waiting for you to listen to this.
Waiting and waiting for this only.
PS:
As Saachi never shown talking her emotions or problems with anybody on show, only her acting does that not dialogue. I thought to start this so that everybody can contribute to from their POV what Saachi feels. Please add your thoughts also as per everyday episode of what Saachi might be thinking. If idea sounds good then we will add entries in this diary regularly.