15 sep '09: big things, little things

i've got a new ''thing''. it's called ''in my mind thing'', or imm-thing. 'cause seriously, these days my mind wanders while i watch the show -- a lot! as you will see... 🤣

* prem thing: ooooh. prem in blue-white light. and in clingy black clothes. oooh. 😍

ehm. 😆

actually the prem thing was how he was just so keen to find out what meher wanted to tell him. he had seen heer come in with her. i wonder what he thought it was all about. 'cause he has never hounded meher like that for anything, no? 😍

*but i must admit -- i thought hc would play that with a little more desperation and fire. he didn't. hmm. oh well. i guess he saves all that fire and reaction for when prem plays off heer...? 🤔*

* little thing: oooh, what a pretty pretty child our pretty pretty pair have made. seriously. even when her smile dropped when her mother reprimanded her for calling prem ''papa'' in front of gi-it.

and btw, the little actress did a good job! watching how her face was one big sunshine-beam. how it fell at mama's reprimand. and then went back to blossoming into beam was lovely.

* little thing: gi-it being magnimous 'bout hearing phukda calling prem ''papa'' was ... beyond weird. i mean! not even one questionning look?? i mean, we get it when prem/heer launches into their largesse-universal bhashans. but gi-it?? very very weird...

btw, yet another weird thing 'bout ms. gi-it (and indeed even her mother): she has never once made a single move to make friends with, talk with, anyother person in jzoo, no? well, she talked once with pbauji -- during the ganesh chathurti. but other than that? i mean, there are three other women in the house -- and she has not once made a single move to talk to them?

* little thing: *sigh* glob was back to being downright, outright mean to heer. and not one person -- either in jzoo, or between gi-it and her glob -- makes a murmur, a sound.

y'know? prem and heer have always stood up for problems anyone in jzoo has ever had. why are these people walking around like a bunch of cows happily leaving all responsibility of action on them in their time of need? holding their breath for someone else's plan to be successful? can they not do even the littlest bit to make prem/heer's life easy?? never??!

* little thing: prem declared ''i love my wife'' aloud in the company and - not one person blinked. not one. well, heer couldn't 'cause she was pheye-oohing. 😆 but everyone else? not a blink of an eye...

and honestly? i yawned too. yup. that's prem doing what he does best. talking. hmm. 🥱

and while yawning, i had two-two imm things! happen to me! 😃

* imm thing#1: when everyone else walked away, leaving heer and prem pheyeoooh-ing away to glory, was i the only one who had a imm-thing flash in my head?

imm, as heer started walking away, prem made that angry muh of his *y'know? this one? 😆*

(source: khushi on 19 aug '09:
http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=1245105)
and grabbed her hand and yanked her out of the door into the front temple-thingie of jzoo, trapped her against the outside wall and him


and asked her: kya sochi thi tum? bahut khush hoga mein gi-it ke saath? is rishta se khush hoga mein? kya sochch rahi thi? mujhe pyar hai usey? to phir aisa kyon hai, heer? main aaj tumse itna kareeb kyun hai? itni kareeb ki tumhari dhadkan meri dil tak sunaiye deh rahi hai? aisay kyun hai ki tum sochti kuchch ho, maanti kuchch ho, chahti kuchch ho, dekhti kuchch ho? kyun hai aisa? kyun hai aisa, heer? kyun... with his husky-harsh-grinding voice dwindling into silence as he ... *thud!*

*sigh* my mind bhi, na? s'times i wonder if i should hate my mind instead of prem-heer.. 😆

* imm thing#2: y'know? for a long time now, i have been stressed by prem being a whole lotta talk and rather too little matched action. and while post tls** my main irritation has been with ... well, the tls** itself 😆, one of the things that has been mildly bugging me *like that mosquito that buzzes in your ear but you never manage to hit* is the strangely passive approach that prem has been taking to heer.

'specially with heer, prem has rarely been this passive about getting what he wants. i mean, i know that he is still feeling guilty about the whole sexwithashlesha thing. but recently, he has at least acted as if he has learnt to accept the guilt and still grab his chance with heer. but he hasn't gone all the way. is as if there is some weird barrier in his head that keeps him back. and i wondered and wondered and wondered at it, till i remembered a moment from a long time ago. when i discovered s'thing about prem that surprised me. maybe the first thing about prem that had took me aback.

the moment in the heer-muckmeet mehendi ceremony, when prem had once dreamt of something heer would do: that she would step up in front of all the crowd -- shy, retiring, conservative heer! -- and tell him (and the whole world) that the only name that would ever be written in mehendi on her hand would be the name of the person whose love flows in every part of her body -- prem.

(source: kdmhmd pic archives at

http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=879394&TPN=16)

and now i think: heer had once dreamt of prem stepping up and declaring in front of family, society, the world that he would be with her forever. after one of their loveliest dances together...

(source: kdmhmd archives at

http://www.india-forums.com/forum_posts.asp?TID=879394&TPN=12

and prem actually did end up doing that.

and even though heer has declared her love for prem in all of her actions since then, so loudly that the world observed her actions and understood her love for prem, there has not been a time that she has declared it like prem did when he declared that ''heer prem ka prateek hai, aur prem sabsey zyaada heer mein samaa hai''.

and maybe... maybe that is what prem wants from heer just now?

or... i'm just obsessing prem-heer stuff too much as usual? 🤣

* little thing: more ho-hum. i mean, how many times has prem actually been in this very same spot, with pretty much similar expressions before? (different clothes, thank goodness for some variety! 🤣) i'd go and pick up screen caps of all the times he has done it if i didn't have an assignment to turn in tomorrow morning... 😆

truly ho-hum. even the pheyeooh phailed to move me much. i felt like prem looked -- rather sleepy. *poor hc, though. he must truly be doing this in his sleep, the number of times he has been in the same spot! 🤣*

* little thing: what was with the big tikka rasam thingie anyway?

'specially what harman said. i mean, c'mon! prem has reached from engagement to sitting at the wedding-ceremony-mandap before (as has heer) -- then what is the big deal 'bout ''once the engagement is over, heer is out of prem's life forever'' or ''gi-it is in prem's life forever'' that is being splashed all over the place. i mean, if there's one thing that we get from this show, it's that jzoo engagements are the most ephemeral things... 🤣

as srk said in some movie: if there is no happy endings, it just means that the story is not over yet. 😆

* little thing: i want to know s'thing. why is everyone waiting for heer to say s'thing? harman was right: she's been silent for six years. for all she knew, he might have been married a long time ago. why should she do anything now?

and why is kuldi et al so hopeful of pbauji being successful with prem-heer's life? i mean, what's the evidence -- when has he actually helped their case before?? seriously -- i want to know!

* little thing: heer after the tikka thingie: ''merey zindagi ka do rishtey, phukda and gi-it.''

how heer-ish, na? 😍 'cause naturally, prem is heer and heer is prem -- that's not, or ever been, a rishta. that is just is. 😊 is weird how much i understand heer and simultaneously want to bop her on the upside of her head... 😆

* little thing: 😆 i always crack up when heer gets to say s'thing about ''kis des mein hai meraa dil''. really. she may be saying the most beautiful thing. but the moment she has to say this, i crack up.

seriously. this title is the worst thing about this show... 🤣

* little thing: heh. phukda reprimanding gi-it on what to call prem.

y'know? if heer's little plan does work and gi-it gets stuck with phukda and prem, all her dreams of a romantic life with phukda are sooo dead in the water! phukda will be doing all the dictating and she will be meekly obeying!

gee. that means that if heer's little plan does work, then the power structure over prem juneja will become phukda vs. glob! interesting, eh? 'cause i have no doubt whatsoever who would win this battle! 😆

* little thing: btw! did heer seriously think that she was going to ''leave phukda'' with prem and gi-it??! when did that happen?? what about all that ''i can't live if i don't have phukda'' stuff??! i mean, i know she isn't gonna kill herself -- 'cause that would mean prem would have to die too. what, oh what, is heer planning to do now??

* little thing: heeheeheeheehee. what was with that driver??!

i was torn between wondering if i could laugh my head off or puke at that weird, slightly lecherous look he gave (goddess of smiles) meher.

meher, you nutcase. ever heard of picking up your cellphone and calling your husband to be saved from that creep??? 🤢

* call-to-mnstrz thing: y'know? the mnstrz used to say that pbauji had all these illicit relationships -- with dirtchachi, mad spinning lady, kooky-chachi, etc?

i am beginning to wonder: while he was getting busy with 'em, maybe glob was also doing her own thing! with samir-in-leather, glob-lawyer, driver? i mean, the way she talks to these people! is not quite the arms-length employer-employee relationship, donchya think?? 😈 🤣

* script thing: but wow. with what clarity he speaks out the entire reason and flashback with glob and everything! 🤣

seriously. these look soooo artificial. just like when glob stands there with that unholy smirk on her face and thinks paragraphs rationalising why she sent heer to get the dupatta-thingie. 🤣 what a poopy script bit! 🤣

* heer thing: noticed it before, noticed it again -- she's got a little mole on her right upper arm. is cute.

i had a imm-thing here too. imm, i imagined prem bending his head regally in front of heer, and kissing it! no kidding! *omg. i did just write that. is it just me, or it is really really warm on the southern coast of the us tonight??*

er... is it unnatural that i think that heer made for a seriously sexy figure today?? 🤔😕

* little thing: glob getting heer to get the dupatta thing -- more ho-hum.

if there was one teeny bit that redeemed that yawn-inducing scene, it was the way heer actually paused for a moment and almost turned away, as if this was not something she could any longer do.

for the rest, what she thought was so strongly linked to the final heer-pbauji scene that, afterwards, it felt .. fake. 😵

oh, and of course! that nice photo-shoot of prem's lean elegant jawline thrown up in stark relief in the foreground of a shot, which had heer's lean elegant profile as she turned to look at him on the stairs. it was a nice juxtaposition of prem-heer. all lean elegance everywhere. really... 😍

* little thing: glob saying that she couldn't give the dupatta thing to her first bahu. oh, ho hum! i sooo felt for the boredom on prem's face... 🥱

* little thing: pbauji leaves. heer leaves. prem's eyes follow her, prem's spirit leave with her. ai hai... 😍

* heer-pbauji thing: seriously, they really do get the best moments. i am not kidding! what a terrific relationship. sometimes i think that heer and pbauji has more of open love and raw honesty in their relationship than in any other in jzoo.

how true are his words: ''you say ''bauji'' with so much love. and yet you stay away from me. you know that prem-and-heer-are-one, and yet you stay away from prem. you are mad, heer, blind-deaf-and-dumb mad!'' woot, woot, woot!

but what was brilliant was his turning the ''kasam'' tables on heer!!! oooh! i was soooo cheering him on at that! ''tumhari bachchi ki kasam'' oooh! serves you right, heer! how can you ever not admit your love to pbauji now?? woot, woot, woot! go pbauji.

but sadly, i thought he missed the point once again: that it's not about whether she loves prem. or whehter she is made for prem. or that their happiness depends upon each other. it's about what she wants as best for prem. just as what she wanted as best for jzoo when prem wasn't around and ratpal was putting the pressure on to destroy jzoo.

that's what pbauji should attack heer on, force her to think on. he's got to get her to tell him why she's doing this despite all the obvious love that drenches her eyes with tears. and once she has told him why, he should force her to understand that all the fancy dreams she is dreaming for prem's happy/peaceful life without her in it are being floated on... masses and masses of gobbar gas. that it all just stinks! 😆

oh well. i'm afraid that i'm still w&w. but i'm afraid i have learnt the importance of this bloomin' ''kasam'' poop. i had promised my pcp that i'd watch and tell her about all the strifes and strides in prem-heer-are-one's life when she is back. and if for nothing else but her, here i wait. and watch. *which is of course totally different from the senseless kasams that the maans and the juneja's keep tossing amongst themselves. *

gosh, what noble sacrifices i make s'times... me. my mind. my hair. 😆

highlight of the episode: phukda, upset, at her mama and gi-it maasi, promising to laugh at them ''hee hee hee!'' when their lipstick got messed up. 😆
that nice foreground shot of prem's lean elegant jaw against the lean elegant curve that was heer at the stairs in the background.
*sigh* seriously, these two are strangely regal, no?

pbauji telling heer to her face that she is stark, raving mad! er... pbauji. she has been living off with prem-heer phlashbacks and no prem for the last six years. surely that explains it... 🤣

'kay. that has been the most exhausting posting i've ever done on this phorum!

i need to finish my project -- will see you all later if i can.

have phun, as always. 😆

Originally posted by: mi7chimes

kkk reserved.....
one qs shud i read this or yest first (i was just starting to answer tat...) u ill know why i was l8 whn u read tat...

hey, resmi. i hope all is well? it's not a bad reason which made you late, i hope? 🤔 and if it was a bad reason, here's a 🤗 -- please feel better soon?

and you read 'em in whichever order you wish. it's all filled with stuff that has not much to do with the episodes in any case! 🤣 so actually maybe you shouldn't read 'em if you want to figure out what's going on in the show. 🤣

bye. have phun, 'kay?

Originally posted by: angel82

me will be back ltr

and me will wait... 😃 *hey angie! kisses and kisses and kisses to junior.*

estee i don't agree that Heer was heer in that scene when she was thiking about Git and Chahat in Prem's life ... i mean perfect Heer is the one who hold Prem above anyone else ... his happiness is her top priority and I am sorry but right now she seems to care more about GIT than anyone else ... because Heer knows perfectly well that prem can be happy only with her and no one else!

Oh and as for prem not doing anything ... i think he is just being caucious ... he knows heer has forgiven him and is willing to trust him again ... he just is scared of loosing that trust again so i guess he is waiting for her to take the first step

Loved Ur Bt lt Estee dear..Agreed when Prem came to meher may be he thought of something good..But this Heer's kasam..errrrr..Oh geet did not get a single doubt that why is chahu calling Prem "papa"🤔. I am now seriously expecting a 18th June wala Prem .Prem is so calm in the sagai..He is wishing that Heer must take the first step and tell that she forgave him and wants to enter in his life again..I think Prem understood that Heer forgave him..So lets see atleast Heer na sahi Chahat toh apni mu kuleghi aur break this damn sagai

E you finally managed to post it!!!!