Abhi's Final moments...
Not sure how it'll culminate on screen but whatever happens... whenever it happens....however it happens...wherever it happens...middle of the road, BH, GV, hospital bed, wherever...I pray, wish, want, need to see Abhi surrounded by his ma, Ruh and Abhir when he finally leaves us all.... He deserves a happy, peaceful adieu! Period.
This is my rant, my unbridled emotion flowing through words, pl bear with me... We deserve to see him sent away well. Period.
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Abhi is surrounded by people he loved the most, his entire life flashes in front of his eyes... he feels proud of his journey... the choices he made, the way he put his best effort to mend, himself and the situations he was in... and...inspite of everything that happened...he felt proud of his love.... to his maa, his Akshu, his Ruh, his Junior...every relation he has ever had in life...he gave his full... that's the only way he ever knew how to love...
He is ready to leave, feeling relieved of the pain and anguish of the past few years and the numbness of the past few months... he had tried his best to hold on to any and every small thing that could become his reason to live, to mend, to hope... but now he is done...
He finally finds refuge in his maa's lap...maa...his mother, the only one who ever loved him like he knew love to be, unconditional, unwavering, and unapologetic... she always put him first, did everything only for him and he too had always protected and stood by her! Even when they weren't on the same terms, he never stopped loving and caring for her... and she never gave up on him... his mother, his strength, his biggest support... 'a mother and son bond, nothing could ever break that' he thinks...
He then looks at Ruh, his Neil's reflection, his own upbringing, his poora dil, his sahaara, his sukoon... he feels pride... for she is growing up to become an understanding, giving, and a beautiful soul, just like how Neil was... He feels sad that he will not see her grow up, that he will not be here to guide her in whatever she chooses to become in life, he cannot be at her wedding, to see her kids and to see her go through life... but he feels peace that he and Dr. Arohi have loved her and instilled enough strength in her, that whatever she does in life, she will do it with dignity and love. He feels pride looking at her and thinks that he can tell this to Neil when he meets him now.
He looks at Abhir, his Júnior, his own blood, who is the most similar to him... his betu... his good, his bad, passed on through genes to this little man.... He can already see so much of himself in him.. he is stubborn like him, his anger, his temperament... he worries that he will not be here to show him how to manage these traits so they don't take over his life... his one missed opportunity.... things he wont be able to share with his Junior...lessons he had to learn the hard way... but then again he has inherited all his positive traits too... his knows his junior too will never give up... he will learn to come out of everything that life throws at him, victoriously... he will live big and love bigger...give his everything to whatever he does in life, whoever he chooses to share it with... he will grow up to be a strong, straight forward, clear headed and intelligent young man... he will be quite a heart throb too...this thought brings a small feeble chuckle... he wishes he could've had more time with his Junior, wishes Akshara hadn't decided certain things which changed the course of so many things in his life... but nah! he feels good... 'he is totally like me', he feels assured, 'so will keep learning and growing'... 'and that is life afterall' he ponders...he feels confident that his Junior will succeed NO MATTER WHAT in life and feels happy that he will live on in this little young man...baaki tho Mahadev hain...he smiles...
He hears the sobs around him....all the people who are standing next to him... Taiji and Tauji, who have forever been his inspiration... Shefali Bhabhi, his only confidante in recent years...Dr.Rohan, his one good friend after Neil.... BP, BM, KV and Mimi... his akshu's family, who he tried best to love like his own... all through the ups and downs.. always tried to be their support... even when he barely had any strength to stand, he tried to stand tall for them to lean on...
He sees Dr.Aarohi and feels comfort looking at her... he saw her being an obnoxious, insecure, vile young woman to become this secure, silently strong woman, who can take care of herself and more without the need of anyone's shoulder or support. She's come a long way he thought! Birla Hospital is in safe hands... Neil's widow and his Ruh's mum will be fine, even after he leaves... he feels comfort knowing that.
His gaze wanders a little further, behind everybody...there she was standing....as if in shock...his eyes meet hers... the only woman who he had ever loved... his first and his last love... his Akshu....he stretches his hand out to her, to come closer... feebly she gathers courage and walks toward him...faltering and failing him in each step she takes toward him, as always... She finally reaches him and holds his hand...in a tight grip as if she does not want to let go... Her eyes and feelings are incomprehensible to him... Is he seeing anger, is he seeing love, is he seeing regret, is he seeing guilt... he is not sure anymore....His heart had always deceived him wrt to her... from the time he first heard her voice, he felt himself get pulled toward her... and when he met her, he felt an unknown strong connection... never had he felt so out of control before...He had not believed in a lot of things till he met her... He didn't believe in love, he never understood how his mom could love his dad even when she knew it'd never be reciprocated... he didn't believe how someone else could become more important than oneself... but after he met her, he felt all of these...and so much more.... given the person he was, all of this felt strange and out of character, he was surprising himself, but it felt exhilarating...he gave in to his feelings and felt a sort of euphoric excitement when he was around her.
But she was not like him... he couldn't understand her inhibitions, her hesitations, and her stances on a lot of things, but he gave in to her choices, to go along with whatever she chose for the both of them. He had made her his everything and felt disheartened and hurt that he was not her first priority like how she was for him... But he strongly felt in his core that she loved him, inspite of what she uttered, inspite of what she led him to believe, inspite of everything she did...he fought hard...with his feelings and with his heart... but couldn't win for long... So he took on himself to fight for the both of them, for their love, in whatever way he knew and finally he won... they won...It was a blissful time for them both... He had always wished time would've just paused there so he could savor those happy times a little longer....
Then again she was not like him... She thought differently, she made decisions which he could never understand, she acted on them and expected him to not question or look for logic in them... Their marriage and relationship swayed in the direction she chose for them both and he felt left behind clinging onto his love for support, roaming aimlessly like a rudderless boat rocking in rough waters... directionless and clueless... grabbing onto any small thing, that could give sanity and stability to the aftermath of her actions... And finally when the storm settled, he chose to not look back and delve in the past, but to look forward to the life they could still have together....he surrendered to her...he apologized and moved on, in hope of a peaceful life with her... then came the fateful day when he lost Neil and one of his babies...
His eyes flinch in pain thinking of that day... his grip tightens a little in her hand... tears rolls out of his eye thinking of the day Neil breathed his last, the day that broke him and his marriage... everything that followed felt like a bad dream... He saw his life collapse bit by bit... everyday... he was clearly sinking... he was unclear of a lot of things... he didn't know what to do anymore... and neither had confidence in his actions... he tried to make sense of the situations, he tried to make peace with them, he tried to give meaning and attempted to make amends, gathered strength and kept moving forward...he started accepting decisions of his loved ones... his ma, his ruh, his akshu, his Junior... he tried to do whatever made them happy... he had lost the will and strength to fight... he felt like a lone feather stuck in wind before a storm... trying hard to land peacefully but swayed forcefully to wherever the wind blew, with no control over it's destiny... he tried and tried.. in vain... but now....he felt tired... exhausted... things didn't make sense to him, his heart pounded inside, he didn't understand.... he felt suffocated and now doesn't want to remember anything... not anymore...
He feels lost and numb... he is still not able to comprehend what Akshara was feeling... her eyes and actions still confused him... He decided he wouldn't let his heart deceive him anymore... not after what happened when she came running to him during his accident and he foolishly thought she still loved him... he had shut his heart forever after that... Now he didn't expect anything and he chose to numb his heart, his mind to whatever she'd say or doesn't say...he just didn't want her to feel guilt, remorse and he definitely didn't want her to feel sorry for him... he knew she didn't love him anymore, and he was okay with that... he had known that in his heart for quite some time now... strangely it didn't affect him as much as he thought it would... he had never imagined she would fall out of love with him... he thought her moving on was a facade, an adjustment for Junior... he just didn't think she could...not because she shouldn't... just because... like he wasn't able to forget her, he thought she too wouldn't be able to... but she was never like him...it was easier for her to let go... it had always been easier for her, from the beginning.... and for him, letting go was never be an option, from the beginning...he could not ever NOT love her...he was just made that way... he was his maa's son afterall...
He softly tries to pull his hand away from hers but Akshara tightens her grip.. He struggles and lifts his right hand and places it on both her hands... she feels his familiar warmth, and looks straight into his eyes... his eyes pierce her soul and she feels a crushing pain in her heart... a strange realization dawns upon her and she shuddered at the thought... his love has been the one and only true constant in her entire life...the one love she never doubted if it was hers and would remain hers, the love she never had a fear of losing, the love she never had to compete for, the love she never had to work for to keep it closer, the only love she never had to do anything to feel worthy of it... he had only ever loved her... from the beginning, till his last...here was this man lying Infront of her, cupping her palms, comforting her... she could've been clueless and confused about a million things in life, but this one thing... she was damn sure of! She feels a strange assurance and strength... the thought brings a smile on her face which meets with his smile... their eyes sparkle together as if they unlocked a secret only they knew... She instantly knows she has to let him go, release him so he can finally be at peace... she cannot continue to look into his eyes, they are too honest and too truthful... they are true mirrors to his soul... totally reflecting his heart and his undying love...she cannot look into his eyes anymore, so she looks around, sees everyone tearing and understands what Abhimanyu Birla meant for everyone standing there and the thousands of people whose lives he touched... She feels lucky to have been a small part of his life... He looks at her for one last moment and slowly pulls back his hands and gaze from... his first and only love... his Akshu... He was finally done there...
He slowly lifts his hands and wipes off the tears rolling down the large innocent eyes of his Ruh and the tiny sparkly ones of his Junior... he pats their cheeks and touches their head... "Mahadev, pls take care of these 3 little ones..." he prays. He looks at his maa and adjusts his head in her lap, one last time....Finally his hands rest on his locket, his Mahadev... 'Please take me with you Mahadev, I am ready'... he feels weak and exhausted... his maa brushing his hair with her soft hands...Ruh and Junior holding onto his arms on both sides and Mahadev in his hands... he is proud, happy, content and peaceful now... He slowly closes his eyes...one last tear wells up in his eye...starts rolling down but stops midway... as if, after all these years, it is finally able to admire his peaceful and contented face...a blissful smile is on his lips...he finally drifts to sleep...
Abhi leaves 💔💔💔💔💔💔
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. Loved every bit 🥰
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