Originally posted by: NoeticLife
Main aa gayi, wo waala perspective dene jisse shayad hi koi agree kare, aur jo abhi tak kisi ne nahi bola hai.
So, making things clear, I don't like Monami taunting Balli all that much either. I wanted this track to be one where they showcase a practical Monami. Maybe they show Monami shutting down her emotions in order to be professional and rather, than showing everyone, crying in solitude.
Kuchh matter nahi karta uske liye, except living for the country and avenging Karan's death. Baby-Bhabhi ka dhyaan rakhti because that was what Karan would have wanted. Auron ke saamne smile karti, par andar se khush nahi hoti. Balli ko, rather than taunt karne ke, kuchh nahi bolti and sirf aur sirf professional baat karti.
Imagine a scene where the two of them were working on something, where Monami uske saath maun vrat dhaaran kar leti hai:
Balli- Muh chalna band ho gaya hai kya tera? Inna chup? Maun vrat rakh liya haiga ki? Ki mannat mangi hai?
Monami- Zyaada shaanti lag rahi hai, toh meri gun bol legi. Chahiye?
Balli- Naa ji, tu apni mannat poori kar. Mainu baksh de.
(Thinking)- Iss toh baat naa hi kara tah hi theek. Pehla tah bak bak band nahi hundi seegi, taa pata toh hunda si ki soch kya rahi hai. Ab? Sahi keh raha seega oh Karan. Yeh kab pairon tale zameen khiska de pata hi nahi chalda. Chup chaap kaam kar, Balli. Yahan se bahar nikal. Warna gusse 'ch goli chala di, toh kinni vii daant tujhe waapas thodi naa le aayegi.
But agar mujhe justify karna hai (kyunki main almost har cheez ko justify kar sakti hoon 😆), here's what I think Monami is feeling-
She has always been a very emotional person. But ab jo frustration hai, jo pain hai, wo use bahar nahi nikaal paa rahi hai. She is lying to Sid, which she isn't happy about. Usne Karan ko kho diya, which she is in pain about. She has to see Balli everyday, reminding her of what she has lost and the fact that the person she considers responsible for Karan's death is still roaming around and getting all the love Karan deserves, and snatching his life.
Toh, ab usse yeh sab handle nahi ho raha. Wo apne emotions ko shut down nahi kar paa rahi hai, and now she's looking for a way to get them out. Toh, that's why she goes to Balli, taaki apne mann ki bhadas nikaal paaye, aur try to get those emotions out. She is desperate to have something that would ease the pain- like Charu's death, Balli's death, a successful mission that would be one step closer to achieving Karan's mission- and ab jab kuchh nahi kar paa raha toh wo helpless feel kar rahi hai, aur uss helplessness mein wo Balli ko bali ka bakra bana rahi hai.