FF - THE LIFE; A BLANK PAPER/ A ROAD

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Teaser - PAGE 1

Chapter 1 - The Confusion - PAGE 1

TEASER

And with a sudden jerk, he wakes up. For the last 3 hours, he was trying to sleep. Waking up at 4 am and then starting the day, was what he had planned. He checked the time, it was 11:30 pm. How can he wake up at 4 am if he is not able to sleep early? He hates this. He hates it whenever he feels this way. The emptiness inside him keeps him miserable. But he has no answer or cure for that. Why does he feel that way? Is it because of her? Or perhaps this is the way of life; the evidence of the truth that everything in this world is just an illusion and nothing can fill the void we have inside us. He found himself writing about his restlessness and miserable condition. While trying to figure out the reason behind this void that he was feeling, he kept his pen moving. How could he stop writing when he has read it in so many books that the writing about your feelings helps you to endure it. All of a sudden, his gaze shifted to the wall of his room. He laughed looking at all those papers he had printed out and attached to the wall to keep himself motivated. Wondering about his own innocence and cruelty of reality, he again starts writing. He realized that his head was heavy now. “Does writing really helps?” he thought. He looked toward his left side and now he was staring toward the books. Arranged on white painted wire bookshelf, there were around 25 books. “Are these books really gonna help me?" he wondered. “Maybe he can write a life story.” A thought crossed his mind. The next moment, he found himself writing “TEASER” in bold capitals letters on the top middle of the page. He smiled. “Do I really want people to read my story?” He mumbled. There is only sadness and emptiness in his life, in his story. Perhaps some sacrifices, or maybe he thinks of them as sacrifices but not everyone thinks the same way. “Does he want attention?" he laughed again. Maybe this can be a reason for putting his life on the display board. “This journey is gonna be an interesting one” he chuckled and picked up his laptop. He was no longer feeling the emptiness now….

Did he have a girl in his life? Where is she now?

I think so. there should be a girl in his life. Lets see where she might be. Stay tuned

I think so. there should be a girl in his life. Lets see where she might be. Stay tuned

CHAPTER 1 - The Confusion

He hates it. The same thing again. He checked the time. "11:25 pm" he signed. He was suppose to sleep by 8pm tonight. He wondered what made him stay awake till that late. Yeah, you hear right. That late. Was it the Korean drama he was watching or the psychotherapy season he had 4 hours ago? He was not sure. Suddenly he remembered something. He opened the website and starts checking if there is any comment on his story and a smile crept on his lips. There was one comment on the Teaser of his story "Did he have a girl in his life? Where is she now?" He wondered while thinking the answers of that question. A girl, he repeated those word in his mind. Two faces flashed in his mind. Did he love both girls? Is it possible to love two people at the same time? "Is not it the same question i asked 4 hours ago from my psychiatrist", he whispered. He again thought for some moments and then replied "I think so. there should be a girl in his life. Lets see where she might be. Stay tuned". He closed the website and start searching for something in his notes. "Found Finally" he smiled and start reading his own writing which he had wrote 6 months ago while thinking about one of those two girls.

People find love, get hurt, and then learn to unlove that love. Have you ever seen someone who has unloved their love for someone? Sometimes it feels strange when you fall in love with the person who had already been hurt by someone else and has learned to unlove that love. This is more unfortunate that the person who had unlove his/her past love, is not able to give another chance to love. Why doesn't love always happen between two right persons at the right time? Why is this chain so difficult to break?

Love for me has always been a mystery since my childhood. I don't know if I have loved someone or not because I have no idea how it feels to love someone or be loved by someone else. I don't think I ever fall in love. If I had, then it might always had been with the girls who were already broken before meeting me. It sounds funny but I have a dream to fall in love. The end of that love is not a concern for me. I know I will accept everything in return; be it pain, sadness, restlessness, waiting, or something else. I am a very patient guy. I can love someone till the end of time if she is ready to give me a chance. I think loving a broken girl or a broken boy is easier as compared to a girl or boy who has never been in love. A broken girl or boy understands love, pain, and their importance and when they get it a second time, they don't let it go. But the difficult thing is convincing them that they will not get hurt this time. They will be respected, listened to, heard, and loved.

Loving an already broken girl/boy is not unfortunate, but unfortunate is that when they are not able to give another chance to the new love, to the new person or new faith and believe me it is not their fault either. The scars of first love are so deep that it scratches your soul and damages something inside you.

I am no expert in love but I know that when I will love, I will be drawn in that love. I will not keep any limit to love someone. If I fall for a girl who has never been in love, I will teach her what love is and will learn from her what life is. If I fall for a girl who is broken by love, I will listen to her, I will speak to her, I will learn why and how she got those scars. I will listen to her story. I will drink her fear, insecurities, her doubts, her tears, her sadness, and her regrets and live with her to die in her arms or let her die in mine.

KumarVisu...

He exit the notes and chuckled. He did fall in love and did everything he was supposed to do. But her story was a lie, her insecurities were very deep, her doubts were very strong, her tears were dried, her sadness was very personal and there were no regrets. And lastly, we both are alive.

It was 12:06 AM now. He starts to feel dizzy. Before closing his phone, he wrote the last three words:

To be continued...

My comment made it into the story. Wow.

Not one, but two girls. So he thinks he might love them both.

He loved someone who had lost at love. Who is the other girl?

Yeah.. even i am surprised.🤔😊

I am not sure. only time tells the tale. But i hope it is not the case🫣