Abhi is already in the competition spree with the family.. Abhi knows that Akshara wants everybody to be happy..She wants her family and Abhi too to be happy. And Abhi is already scared shit to lose her to the family again.. So he will do anything and everything in his hands to get her, to achieve her.. So the circumstances will arise in future where Akshara will have to chose one day between Abhi and her family and he knows that day for sure it will hurt Ak when she is forced with his selfless love to chose Abhi and she will lose her family.. and hence that line.. That he is ready to become bad or bura but cant leave Akshara..cos he knows that it will affect akshara when she choses Abhi over her family.
And actually im happy with the episode cos the whole world was waiting for the separation and we three Meher, Hari and myself were the only ones who felt there wouldnt be any separation and explained in our posts.
Thandav was mindblowing with Harshads or Shivjis expressions, the background, the lyrics and each symbol and his actions connecting and linking us to a mythological drama with a normal one.
For Shivji everything was and is Parvati and he was always scared of losing her. And this thandav portrays all those emotions. Shivji is everything and nothing. Thats what portrayed by the vibhuti.. Its the ash which is nothing and also from that ash and dust arise everything in this world..Scattering vibhuthi shows the whole world..We go back to ash and life arise from ash. So in that vibhuti, abhi or shiv wrote his Aksharas name..that is his parvathi.. So parvati is everything for him and without her, he is nothing..
We can see him burning with jealousy when he saw Akshara happy with her family forgetting him..So he will burn himself to ash, he is ready to burn his whole being, every cell and fibre to get his Parvathi or akshara in his life permanently.. Burning camphor in his hands shows the extent to which he can sacrifice himself to attain his love Akshara..it portrays his determination to attain her with his will power and also the light of camphor will show him the light and guide him to the right path to his destination..
Next his trishool and drum..Drum is his music, sound, thats the vibrations of the wind or air.. So Akshara is that air or breath to him..which energises his whole being, his every cell of his body.. Without that he is almost lifeless. Abhi cannot be or survive without his Akshara.
Trishool is a weapon.. which is used to attack or defend. He is trying to defend what is his under any means. Its a threat to his life as Akshara is his life and anybody taking her from him even if its her family its an indirect threat to himself.. So he is ready to fight for her and defend his love as he cant afford to lose his parvati..Its similar to losing oneself, ones life.
Next hanging to the black curtains,, which shows that he is hanging in air in Aksharas world by just a mere fragile thread which can break at any moment leaving him in darkness and emptiness..Black denotes darkness and emptiness.. He cant let go that thread.
And the sound of the blowing conch in the background denotes his war with her family.. Its his one man army against the whole world. His one mans love versus the whole families love.. He is so ready for it.
Finally he surrenders himself completely in front of Mahadev with the sashtaang namaskar and prays that he simply cant sustain himself without his akshara, how shivji cant be with his parvati.. His biggest fear is of losing Akshara to her family and he cant let it happen.. So by hook or crook he will get his Akshara or parvati..He will from now onwards every moment, every sec strive only for achieving Akshara.. She is his goal as well has his destination.. Even at the expense of Aksharas feelings getting hurt by losing her family in this battle and wouldnt even mind if Akshara herself thinks of him as bura or bad.. Here he knows the extent Akshara loves her family., so one day forced by selfless love and actions of Abhi, to chose Abhi over her family. she will for sure be hurt indirectly.. But still he cant let go Akshara for anybody.. Akshara or Parvati has always been only his and in future too she will always remain only his..
Last the lyrics, which portrays that if shiv or his third eye is revoked then its complete destruction all around. you are the shivam and everything is shivam.. LIke Akshara is everything and without her there is nothing for Abhi.. His whole existence will vanish without Akshara and losing her will bring chaos and destruction all around. Its his conflict of his deep intense love against her family's love. His world, his mind, his space, his love is only for Akshara versus aksharas world which is filled with several people and hence her love too is shared for everybody around her.. He wants to pull her to his world whereas her family is pulling akshara to their world. So its a one man army and his deep intense love against her complete family and their love.. Thandav always gives clarity to ones perception, thoughts and motivates u..So its a motivation to Abhi attain his dream and goal of Akshara in his life forever with his love against the whole world..In the process it can end up in disrupting others lives and causing chaos and destruction to the people concerned..
Edited by Deep_deep - 4 years ago
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