Friday musings from these angsty track. How each of the 3 central characters feel when the love of their lives is leaving...I am not good at poetry but I want to write something succint and capture a lot. So chose this format.
Note: If you observe Pakhi in this whole situation, she is just gloating that Sai left, she is not bothered that Virat found another woman. It could be because only she knows how much Virat loves Sai. He had told her directly multiple times. And he rejected her advances downright when he had chance to take her EMA offer. So, if she really has courage to stand up for Virat, she could stop all the humiliation he is facing now by bringing out his love for Sai. And she can easily bring Sai back to him. Sai, unfortunately believes her :) for the history they share. Hence, I wrote this from Pakhi's perspective.
Pakhi (when Virat will be leaving)
I Wish I could stop you (my love) for
I could see the truth in those eyes from the time I met you
I could feel the passion to do the right thing since you first let 'that' girl in
I could weigh the hurt when your "love" left you, because
I could hear your countless professes of your love for her, still ringing in my head
I trust you with my life that you could not falter,
not after I saw you protecting her from every attack, that I planned for her
not after I saw you fall for her deeper and deeper every day
not after I saw you bawling on the floor when you pushed her to death
not after I saw you half dead when she met her death closely again
I wish I could say all this and stop every tirade that is attacking you
I wish I could stand in front you and show your love for 'Her,
I wish I could go and bring back your 'Love' in a jiffy
I wish I could protect your heart for "that" woman, who I made my enemy...
but Alas...my love as you say cant go beyond me!
Virat (when Sai was leaving the house)
Oh my love, how I can I go to any other woman
When I saw in you, the beauty that runs inside out, that attracts me
When I smell from you, the sweetness of your smile, that brings me immense joy
When I hear from you, the truth as bitter as Neem, that heals me still
When I feel your love, the passion that springs in me, that shows me my patience
Not to taste you, till you feel the same for me.
My dearest, you complete me because, only
You can show me the reality without any judgement
You can give me the love without expecting anything
You can accept me with all my faults
You can forgive me of all my mistakes, but
Can you for once trust me that I can love no one but you?
Don't go away please, for
I cannot be the same man without you,
I cannot live in the same space without you,
I cannot call you back with my rights, because
I did not give you the right to chose me at first, now
I can only wait for you to chose me, my love for you is beyond me!
Sai (before giving back the ring and leaving)
In you I see the love my father had for me, the love
Which gave me wings to fly
Which gave me voice to question
Which gave me courage to dream
Which gave me strength to fight, but
that makes me weak in my knees too...
Ofcourse, the love I have for you is so different, I want you
to be my best friend for life, who I can share all my secrets
to be my guide, who can correct me when I falter
to be my father, who pampers me with no bounds
to be my lover, who sees me as a woman
to be my husband, who gives me his name and family
And I cannot share your love with anyone because
I am selfish when it comes to you
I am jealous when someone calls for your attention
I am arrogant when you cant see me beyond my words,
I am taunting to dig out the love that seems covered with new burden,
Ahhh, Why cant you understand me now, when you heard my silences before!
I became all this 'vile' because
The walls I built around my heart to protect from your love, have crumbled
Crumbled inside and trapped me, under your "new" found love...or is it
Just my insecurity, wielding its ugly head?, come stop me
For as much as I want to fly and soar ahead
I want to come back into your arms and rest...
Edited by sadiltl - 3 years ago