Sai has initiated this for the first time - Page 3

Originally posted by: laksh

When Virat was leaving GC after she asked him to leave, when he wrote his Nagpur address and was about to leave, Sai needed him even then. He entered her life at an age and stage of her life, when one can easily get attached. He was her Dad’s student whom her Dad has a high opinion of. He was that guy who saved her from Jagtap. He probably was her first crush too and so she used to get possessive and jealous whenever he used to be on phone with Pakhi. She wanted him to look at her as a young woman probably since she was entering her adulthood. She probably was expecting his attention as a man to a woman especially when she heard some other girl’s name from his mouth. She has always suppressed such feelings ever since he brought up deal marriage, ever since she saw how important Pakhi actually was after their marriage, ever since she saw how attached Pakhi and Virat were.

She loved him or not, but she started to become his wife, wanted to and liked to be his wife. She tolerated his family and their atrocities to stay close to this guy to whom her Dad chose to give her responsibility. She trusted her Dad’s choice too and it made him an even more eligible groom for her.

She ascertained her rights as a wife many a times and fought for it when he got shot. Her hopes crashed with what she heard at the pool. Pakhi was saying how they planned to spend their life together, about their dreams and the promise he made to her. Not that it wasn’t known to her but she heard it from her mouth directly and it hurt her a lot. She took back all the steps that she took forward.

She secretly has been wishing that he says that he likes her and wants to spend his life with her. It has come out as disappointment whenever he says that she is only his responsibility.

At the end. she gave up when he started to give her signals that someone else was more important for him and that she was just a guest/responsibility in his life.

But when she was in her most vulnerable state, she needed him. She didn’t think about anything else and if there is really someone else in his life but she wanted him, his support, his saath. The wishes, the feelings that she had suppressed all the while had come out when she felt very weak, emotionally and physically. He was there in the hospital next to her even after everything and she just didn’t want to leave him this time.

She left him even when she didn’t want to, and in this state, she didn’t hesitate to express what she actually wanted. All she wanted was him to be with her, for him to give her some strength when she felt too weak. She considers him as her apna (which he always wanted to hear from her) and that’s why his presence in the room was needed by her when she was afraid. Generally, a person gets overwhelmed after surgery and want to have their dear ones with them. They feel too weak, scared, emotional and wants reassurance from their dear ones and for Sai, she wanted it all from Virat. She always wanted to be able to call him as her husband, the only legal relation she has after her aaba and she didn’t want to let him go since she needs him.

yes we are on the same page .. this is exactly what I wanted to convey … sometimes we are unable to do the right thing … and just let our heart drive us because we are laid low by circumstances