SidNaaz Unlimited cc 81 ~~~ Beautiful journey - Page 54

I'm sitting alone in room and crying everyday this has never happened to me before im not a teenager I'm almost of sid age ... these two were my happiness for last two years when nobody was me these two lightened my mood ... God you are so unfair .

Originally posted by: zehreeli.kheer

Also someone is revisiting our old SidNaaz threads.. I got a notification of a like and it took me to the thread during their most terrible fight.. And then I started reading the thread eventually reaching to their patchup.. But couldn't continue beyond that because it was just so heart wrenching

I was doing that.. I was taking care not to click anywhere by mistake as I know it will be painful...uff... Sid endured so much in that house. They both actually.. what a roller coaster journey it was..

Un 4.5 mahino mein its life puri life jeena it was...as Sid used to say... Kya masti bhi ki hai dono ne

Mujhe BB ki woh baat yaad ati hai finale ki.. ki iss rishte ne aap dono ko bahut pyaar bhi diya isne takleef bhi... So poignant na...💔

I know we have seen more tragic stories in real life... But still reh rehke yehi khayal aata hai he didn't deserve this.. they didn't deserve this... he wanted to do so much.. achieve so much.

It's more than a month but constantly that thought goes on in mind that this has really happened...

Originally posted by: divaprincess

Posthumously... Never knew this word could be so painful..

Yeah... I still can't n never will write was, no more, rip...

Originally posted by: shalu79

Yeah... I still can't n never will write was, no more, rip...

Me too.. Not for him.. Never for him..

Originally posted by: shalu79

I was doing that.. I was taking care not to click anywhere by mistake as I know it will be painful...uff... Sid endured so much in that house. They both actually.. what a roller coaster journey it was..

Un 4.5 mahino mein its life puri life jeena it was...as Sid used to say... Kya masti bhi ki hai dono ne

Mujhe BB ki woh baat yaad ati hai finale ki.. ki iss rishte ne aap dono ko bahut pyaar bhi diya isne takleef bhi... So poignant na...💔

I know we have seen more tragic stories in real life... But still reh rehke yehi khayal aata hai he didn't deserve this.. they didn't deserve this... he wanted to do so much.. achieve so much.

It's more than a month but constantly that thought goes on in mind that this has really happened...

I clicked and it took me to the page when our hum saath saath hai type thread was war zone.. Sidnaaz fans k andar k Sid biased, Sana biased sides nikle hue the..unki argument and yaha bhi hum chalu and unka patch up and all of us use to go back to drooling over them... We literally have lived the journey along with them...

There were so many fun posts that I wrote.... I miss him and I miss that me who could do all those fun posts...

That time actually feels a different universe now... World has literally changed in these two years...where we could live freely...now we are just thankful to live another day...we have lost so many people around us..And his loss has shaken me completely or I can say destroyed everything that I believed in..there is a part in me that is scared , confused and resentful now..

Now I m not sure what is our purpose in the world.. Are we supposed to grow and achieve things, to be good human beings, be kind, be humble , make our family proud??

Because the one guy I know who did it all and it was of no use.. Atleast not in this world...

Originally posted by: divaprincess

Now I m not sure what is our purpose in the world.. Are we supposed to grow and achieve things, to be good human beings, be kind, be humble , make our family proud??

Because the one guy I know who did it all and it was of no use.. Atleast not in this world...

How do we decide for Sidharth whether his goodness was of use to him or not? Are we not mounting our version of pain and expectations onto him? He was a content man. How do we decide then that all the good he did and the lives he made happy was of no use? That is being absolutely indifferent (and insulting, though you do not intend to be so)to his life and its purpose.

It was the very opposite.

He accomplished it all in quick time. Very few human beings have the intelligence and will to accomplish their purpose in life and he seems to have done exactly that. He did not waste a single moment on non-essentials. Who stays on at a work project indefinitely? We need to complete and submit, and he did. Only those who procrastinate or are still unclear enough to figure it out extend life to infinity wasting time in the mess we create. He was bloody smart to get his responsibilities fulfilled and move on. Smart man.

He fulfilled his purpose. And we need to do as well.

Originally posted by: Uma2010

If you did have a purpose earlier, and gained happiness and clarity from that path, why would you not stay on it? Why over-think? Why wouldn’t you continue to be everything you mentioned?

How do we decide for Sidharth whether his goodness was of use to him or not? Are we not mounting our version of pain and expectations onto him? He was a content man. How do we decide then that all the good he did and the lives he made happy was of no use? That is being absolutely indifferent (and insulting, though you do not intend to be so)to his life and its purpose.

It was the very opposite.

He accomplished it all in quick time. Very few human beings have the intelligence and will to accomplish their purpose in life and he seems to have done exactly that. He did not waste a single moment on non-essentials. Who stays on at a work project indefinitely? We need to complete and submit, and he did. Only those who procrastinate or are still unclear enough to figure it out extend life to infinity wasting time in the mess we create. He was bloody smart to get his responsibilities fulfilled and move on. Smart man.

He fulfilled his purpose. And we need to do as well.

I understand what you are saying and I know it as well.. It's just that I m in a very confused state of mind.. One minute I m proud of everything that he is and another I feel deep sadness for everything he left behind and then again I m like but he is the best...One moment when I hear about others, I just pray that all of them be happy and fulfill their desires and in another moment there is a resentment that he deserved it as well, even more than other and then again I feel proud that the love he has, they can't come near to it..

I know sometimes my words probably feel disappointing and not something what he stood for but there is a reason I love him this crazily and it's because of his qualities and the way I relate to them..from childhood I have believed in being good is the only way to live life...It's not in me to deviate from that.. I start felling guilty and nowadays even more ..But I do get confused and start thinking is it really worth it..?? There have been instances that have made me question it ..

You know the point where you actually know what is right and what is not but still can't stop questioning it because sometimes things seems so unfair..

And Thank you for explaining, I know and understand it, it's just my mind is slightly vulnerable right now so probably it's going to take some time for it to get back on track...

Originally posted by: divaprincess

Now I m not sure what is our purpose in the world.. Are we supposed to grow and achieve things, to be good human beings, be kind, be humble , make our family proud??

Because the one guy I know who did it all and it was of no use.. Atleast not in this world...

I know You say it out of the unexplainable pain you are feeling for sid . Most of us not able to fathom the depth of the grief we are feeling for a celeb whom we just saw on our screens.

But i have to write this.

Most of us take death as a ultimate punishment !! That is the biggest misconception we humans have created because of our limited perception. Because we are left behind in misery we assume that death is miserable. I dont know what death is , but when my scriptures say that its liberation or a stopover , I would rather believe that .

Its a destination for all . And as uma said , its what you lived , not how many years you lived.

Originally posted by: Meenakshi-rg

I know You say it out of the unexplainable pain you are feeling for sid . Most of us not able to fathom the depth of the grief we are feeling for a celeb whom we just saw on our screens.

But i have to write this.

Most of us take death as a ultimate punishment !! That is the biggest misconception we humans have created because of our limited perception. Because we are left behind in misery we assume that death is miserable. I dont know what death is , but when my scriptures say that its liberation or a stopover , I would rather believe that .

Its a destination for all . And as uma said , its what you lived , not how many years you lived.

Honestly I never took death as punishment.. Not for the one who left at least... For the one left behind,its an endless pain but not a punishment for as well...Since even I m someone who also read scriptures and has always been fascinated by it so even I believe in it.. But now I m finding it difficult to accept.. All the things that I have read my whole life, it is difficult to accept it and implement currently..I had even hoped to find relief in our holy books but it didn't help this time..however hard I try its difficult for me to not find it unfair.. I know he lived a fulfilling life and anyone would want a life like that and would prefer to go like that..I have always said that universe was making every wrong of his life right even the minor ones since last two three years.. The signs have always been there.. But still it hurts to know that he didn't get to enjoy that.. I m divided into two parts where one side say that dont worry, it doesn't matter,he is free and another say that there were things he wished for, desired for...We are humans after all..

It's not the first time for us that we have faced it and neither it is for me but this time I m finding it difficult to cope up.. Facing death had what made me the person I am today..The reason that I maintain an emotional disconnect with everyone except my family..And the irony that out of all the people I go and invest emotion in a celebrity..universe definitely has its own ways...I know but sometimes however understanding you are,you get scared,you get vulnerable..Probably because earlier I didn't have to face it alone or maybe because in this situation we are totally unaware.. We actually know nothing this time except that we lost him.. Just like that...

Originally posted by: divaprincess

Honestly I never took death as punishment.. Not for the one who left at least... For the one left behind,its an endless pain but not a punishment for as well...Since even I m someone who also read scriptures and has always been fascinated by it so even I believe in it.. But now I m finding it difficult to accept.. All the things that I have read my whole life, it is difficult to accept it and implement currently..I had even hoped to find relief in our holy books but it didn't help this time..however hard I try its difficult for me to not find it unfair.. I know he lived a fulfilling life and anyone would want a life like that and would prefer to go like that..I have always said that universe was making every wrong of his life right even the minor ones since last two three years.. The signs have always been there.. But still it hurts to know that he didn't get to enjoy that.. I m divided into two parts where one side say that dont worry, it doesn't matter,he is free and another say that there were things he wished for, desired for...We are humans after all..

It's not the first time for us that we have faced it and neither it is for me but this time I m finding it difficult to cope up.. Facing death had what made me the person I am today..The reason that I maintain an emotional disconnect with everyone except my family..And the irony that out of all the people I go and invest emotion in a celebrity..universe definitely has its own ways...I know but sometimes however understanding you are,you get scared,you get vulnerable..Probably because earlier I didn't have to face it alone or maybe because in this situation we are totally unaware.. We actually know nothing this time except that we lost him.. Just like that...

Can well relate !!! Its an unexplainable connect with sidharth . People around us will probably be amused at how deeply we feel for a celeb .

Silly though it may sound and even a bit insensitive but in share market they say that you should leave when everything is just right . But then very very few are able to recognise that right point . We assume it will be better ahead and then vooooom , its all goes down. Somewhere in life also we will never be able to judge that this is good enough , we always feel "ye ho jaata toh theek tha " . But then in enjoying one more aspect you again go wrong and then you want to rectify that .

What I mean to say is its endless !!! These desires that we have created here .

You have read scriptures so you well know that vamprasth ashram was highly recommended ...... he reason was probably this , we never have it enough .

I know in time of grief every piece of spiritual advice sounds hollow , but we have to absorb it , just like a bitter medicine. Its the only way .......