Originally posted by: sadiltl
True that pull was so bad!
I donât know why sai canât understand still! It is kind of getting annoying now just as annoying as virats delayed confession. It doesnât make sense that she canât comprehend when he said anmol. Atleast they should have showed her being flustered. The reactions just donât make sense to me! But when she came inside the house and just before Harini came to get it appeared that she was flustered. The direction department has to buckle up and show right progression. I donât want them to confess but understand a bit more!
I had written another post where I had explained Saiâs feelings and her thought process. Not sure if you read it or not, will tag you from that.
Sai can feel something for him, can feel or suspect if Virat is doing special things for her for a reason. She doesnât or has never liked to assume and thatâs why has always asked him to be clear and specific about what he wants. She has asked him if he wants her to be in the room or if he wants her to join the trip. Sai wanted those and so she has always wanted to get an affirmation from him doubting if she feels that he wants those because she wants them or does he also actually want it. She just wanted to be sure that she isnât assuming because of her own thoughts that she wants him to.
Do you get what I am saying? Many a times when we want something, we can get carried away in our emotions and can end up assuming that the other person also wants the same.
Letâs take Pakhi as an example. Since she wanted to continue to have feelings, since she kept continuing to have feelings for him, she assumed that Virat too would because he had not just confessed his love in the past but also had promised her. She kept assuming Virat had feelings for her, kept assuming he would keep loving her. That is not only because of Viratâs promise, that is also because of her own wish, her own expectations, she would have liked it to be that way,. But in all these, she didnât actually realise that he doesnât feel that way, her wanting things to be the way she liked drove her to think he also feels the same way. She kept living in that assumption until he cleared it out to her in clear words. She had made a fool out of herself thinking he has feelings for her. Look at these by keeping aside the fact that she was married and this is all wrong.
It is only to give an example of how human nature sometimes works. Sai has always been very careful, been cautious not to wish or expect anything and get disappointed later. She has tried to act carefully, tread carefully in their relationship that she doesnât make a fool out of herself by interpreting his care or his gesture as his feelings for her, as his love for her, as a husbandâs gesture. Initially, she had unknowingly started to show her displeasure of his and Pakhiâs relationship, she had started to act jealous too but when Virat asked why it should bother her, asked her if she was acting jealous, asked her when their marriage is deal why should she have a problem whether or not he has feelings for Pakhi, accused her that she would be happy that Pakhi had left the house, she started to face the reality of their marriage. She had got carried away when she became a wife but that was all put to a halt and she locked all her emotions or expectations towards him so much that she doesnât want to be questioned by him like that again. Not just the conditions set during their marriage, but all of these that happened after their marriage had also impacted so much, affected her so much that she locked her heart even more tightly.
What is Saiâs problem? She doesnât want Virat to come and question her later asking if he ever said he had feelings for her, if he ever said he loves her, if he ever said he stopped having feelings for Pakhi, if he ever said that he has been able to move on from his past. She just doesnât want herself to assume or get carried away by his words or gestures so much that she herself can get questioned later, where it would look like all that she thought was just her assumptions. She doesnât want to make a fool of herself by attributing his words, actions or gestures as love only because of her own thinking or wish or assumptions. As I have said above, her own wishes and expectations can make her assume that Virat loves her or is doing it all due to love. She is confused if it is her own wishful thinking which is making her think that he is doing it out of love of if he really can have feelings for her. She doesnât want to stay in any illusion. Thatâs why she keeps asking things to assure herself that he also wants certain things, it is him who wants it and he isnât doing it for any other sake.
One more thing, Saiâs inner feelings came out as her conversation with Aaba but after she met Pakhi, after she saw the anger and hatred in Pakhi for her, after she got to see a hurt lover in Pakhi, she went into a zone where she locked her heart so that she tries to live in the reality that they both shared a past and probably he still has some feelings for Pakhi. That in a way becomes convenient to think so that she can block herself from thinking that Virat probably loves her. She doesnât even want to fan such thoughts and get disappointed later. She then starts to reason that Virat is doing it because he is a generous person, who has a big heart, who has love for everyone, like he is a compassionate person who canât see anyone upset or lonely or sad. It is not like she doesn't think these to be true but she doesn't want to assume and attribute his actions as his love for her.
Not sure if I could answer your question.
Edited by laksh - 4 years ago